News spread like wildfire, it was impressive everyone had seen the message, it had been "leaked". Which now means it is the perfect time to shine a light on the Host Club. Cackling I Realise how repulsive it sounds. Dialing it down a few notches I walk into the Host Club. Yes, I had boosted the income because just had to see what I was talking about. Ootori stopped me as I went to take a seat. Not this again.
"Ootori-senpai" I smile as he doesn't return it.
"You are not welcome here" he says as I feign disappointment, my voice raising.
"Is there something you're hiding?" I ask loudly as he twigs, he knows.
"Isn't there something you're hiding?" he asks back as I cock my head.
"That would be?" he has nothing on me as I remain neutral.
"I'm not sure we should discuss this here" he says as I scoff.
"I have nothing to hide" I say as he pushes his glasses up as he smirks.
Oh god. He's done a Duper Delight or Sack Dance, prematurely showing your cards. He's showing me he's trapped me. I don't like. I don't like. Red alert. But he knows if I leave it'll dismiss what I said in the letter to the Board, if I stay it could be much worse, but manageable. Right. I think he knows I'm doubting.
"This is about you and Tamaki, I know that your Parents are divorcing, so you're trying to get back with Tamaki. That's why you're doing all of this, using the Hitachiin twins right? That's right, Kaoru-san told me that you were eying him" he starts none of this was damaging, if anything I didn't mind "But of course the real reason you're here is because-"
Water was dumped on me by the twins as my make up runs slightly as I stand stunned.
"We don't tolerate bullying" he says,it makes no sense, people began to clap as I look around, my mind trying to figure it out, it was a trap, he played me like a violin.
Tears began to well in my eyes and I don't know why! I will not cry. I don't even know why. It's Hormones! He notices as I swallow, wiping my eyes as I pick up my ego and heavy dress, this things way like a tonne. My chest hurts. As I walk out as people laugh and clap. I'm finding it hard to breath. I was all alone in the corridor as I let out a breath as warm tears leave my eyes as I take as much air as I can.
No. I'm a Yamada. I am strong. I do not… Cry. Yet here I am. Falling to my knee's, I let out a scream as I wipe my eyes sitting in a wet dress. I'm a mess. Cuddling into myself, my wet hair sticks to my face, my throat going raw and tear ducts drying as a hand lands on my shoulder. Shrugging it off. I feel a jacket land on my head as I look up to see Tamaki. He seemed disappointed as I throw it at him.
Getting up, keeping my head down. I walk past him hiccuping as he takes my arm.
"LET ME GO!" I scream as it echoes in the hallway.
"No" his voice was gentle as he pulls me into a hug as I push him away.
"There's just eye liner in my eye okay, I'm fine" I rasp disgusted in myself.
"It was wrong what they did" he says "I'm so-"
"Don't be" I hiss as I kick his shin and pushing him off me as he winces.
"I know you're hurt"
"It's Hormones Tamaki" I say firmly as he gives me a look, like a doubtful look.
"You can tell me anything"
"Fine" I say as I step at him "I'm taking that fucking retched club and I'm going to crush it like how you crushed me! I'LL RUIN FUJIOKA AND MAKE SURE SHE NEVER EVER BECOMES A LAWYER! BY THE SKIES AND THE HEAVENS, I'LL DESTROY EVERYTHING YOU'VE BUILT"
He takes a step back as I finish yelling. Huffing as I calm down, my chest heaving.
"You really did love me huh" he says as I blink.
"What?" I ask confused as he pats my head as I scowl.
I'm ready. I look in the mirror as I brush my hair, stark naked. My hair is dry now. I stare at myself, my eyes are brown, my hair a faux blonde and a body of a immature brat who demanded work done. Am I repulsive? Pulling my hair up in a ponytail I slip on a bra and underwear as I walk towards myself. I'm pretty. I'm smart… It's just me isn't it?
Why am I doubting myself? Ugh. I can't keep blaming Hormones. Walking to Fathers Office now dressed. He seemed tired as I sit in the seat before him. Legs up as he looks up.
"What?" he asks as I sigh, I've never felt this nervous "What do you want?"
"Do you think I'm a horrible person?" I ask as he stops writing.
"At times yes" he says.
"How you wound me" I say.
"You hide behind words" he says "You're impulsive, careless and a unable to love, you trample over everyone, even myself. So yes. You are"
It goes quiet as I sit, stewing over this information.
"So what do I do?" I ask.
"There's nothing you can. You've been in a state of Check Mate, only you moved your King around aimlessly. So give up while you're ahead" he says as he clicks his pen.
"Why?" I ask.
"If you cannot stop, you'll fall off the edge"
"What if there's water below?" I ask as I pull the permission slip out as he signs it.
"That better not have been some contract" he says.
"Trust in me"