A/N: I know, super short chapters, they are hot bites so I will upload more than three.

Tori's Misery

The rest of eighth grade was awful after Shelby left. Even though I had Daniel in my corner. I just missed my twin.

Daniel was a good boyfriend though. He really came through for me and people finally forgot the gay rumors. That weren't even rumors. I hated living in this closet though. I just felt so stifled and just … ugh.

Plus this wasn't even fair to Danny. The summer between Ninth and tenth grade, he had a growth spurt and got really handsome and the girls were really starting to notice. I walked up to him at his locker after two months of tenth grade, and having to become the jealous girlfriend for a little over a year. I had made my decision. "Daniel," I said and took a deep breath because I didn't know if I wanted to shave off my beard. But I did it. "I wanna break up with you."

"Um, are you sure?" Daniel asked.

"Don't you want someone to kiss you, Fuck you maybe?" I asked, as My obsession walked by. Liz. She was a senior this year.

"I can't My sister is in a Play at Hollywood Arts," Liz said to a boy that was asking her out. "She's the lead."

"I guess you are right, If you are just gonna drool over Liz every time she walks by," Daniel said a little annoyed.

"Sorry. It's just Liz with that long chestnut hair." I sighed. "I can't wait til college."

"Babe, that's three years away. Just come out, no one cares anymore." He said.

"No, I'll be fine. I'll make up someone soon that goes to my sister's school and just pretend he is it." I said and shrugged.

He hugged me and I hugged him back. Then I updated my status as single and posted that I had broken up with him so that it looked like he would be heartbroken. Just to see how quickly the girls decided to jump on it.

Weeks later, Trina brought a boy home from school. Working with her for the showcase. I was roped into helping. And I found that I loved doing it. Then I regretted not trying out for Hollywood arts when I had the chance.

But it was about being at a different school from my sisters. So I stayed at Sherwood.

When Andre got me exposure and I ended up going to Hollywood Arts. I really didn't know how to be. Should I be out, should I stay in my closet of shame? I mean, the very first day I ran into Liz's little sister who I found out her name was Jade. and Jade hated me. Jade was also hotter than Liz and she was age appropriate. And I only wanted to be her friend.

Well more than friends, but yeah at least her friend.

Jade became the one person I wanted to impress after having rubbed on her boyfriend and totally kissing him the next day because it became a thing to challenge her. It was the only interaction she responded to, and so I fought back.

A few weeks later, I was contemplating what to put on my locker door. I felt so uncreative. I stared at it for a long time. "I'm never going to figure it out." I walked away

Sikowitz gave me the bird scene assignment and that was another thing I had to work on just so I could fully participate in this school.

I attempted the bird scene with no reactions, and no feedback. I can't be in Andre's play. I was super worried. I asked the gang. "I thought you guys were my friends," I said when we were standing in front of my locker.

"I'm not your friend," Jade said and pulled her boyfriend away to the vending machines.

Then she criticized my locker decoration by writing something lewd on the dry-erase board. (at least it wasn't Dyke)

The next day I tried the bird scene again. Jade looked positive that I would fail again. And she was right. No matter how I may have bribed the teacher with coconuts.

I tried to bribe Cat to extort her into telling me the secret of the scene. Then Beck came and criticized my locker stripe.

I flirted with Robbie to get him to tell me the secret.

No dice.

Then I went all out for the Bird Scene for the third time and I failed again. Jade smirked at me and I lost my shit. That was what he wanted me to do. He wanted me to learn that I shouldn't worry about what other people think.

I took the lesson to heart and finally figured out what to do with my locker and made it Shine. I sent a pic to Shelby and she texted me back right away.

Shelby: That is exactly what I wanted for you. If I were there you would not be shining.

Me: If you were here I would be so much better off. How is Grandma treating you?

Shelby: You know, it's Grandma… I do miss you though.

Me: You know my crush? Liz's sister?

Shelby: yeh Jade right?

Me: She and I are paired up for a stage fighting exercise and they won't let me switch partners.

Shelby: isn't that a good thing?

Me: She hates me, I just know she is gonna hit me on purpose.

Shelby: Just watch yourself sis. I'll see you next week for Trina's birth week.

I loved Shelby. But anyway, she would be so aggressive. Unfortunately, when we did the scene the bitch faked an injury and I took a hit in my grades. Then Andre told me she was faking it.

I was called into Lane's office and for the first time in my life, I was called violent. Shelby would have a chuckle because of this.

But instead of telling on her I thought of extending an olive branch and not say anything about her faking. She came to my punishment and confronted me. "You can't be nice to me after I have been mean to you, that's not how it works"

"Then you try being nice to me. Maybe that will work." I answered her and then I dismissed her.

But she stayed. She began helping me clean the black box. Then she helped me escape. I felt better about where our relationship was heading. Like... maybe she would want to be my friend.

...Maybe