Two weeks later
Santana sighs sadly as she watches her wife walk up the stairs of their house to change into comfortable clothing after the funeral and glances at their kids and family, she clears her throat as they all smile sadly and shakes her head. ''Let's change into clothes we can relax in.'' She tells them softly.
She follows her twin boys up the stairs after everyone nodded their heads knowing they will take the guest rooms downstairs and ruffles their hairs. ''I know the both of you or well no one knows mommy like she is now.'' She murmurs as she crouches down. ''But just be the clowns you normally are, making her laugh is the best thing we can do now.''
''We will mami.'' Quinton breaths out as he hugs her. ''Te amo.''
''Si, te amo mami.''
''I love you too my boys.'' She whispers kissing their foreheads. ''Let's change and enjoy some family time.'' She stands up as they nod their heads and walks into her bedroom as they walk into their respective rooms, she closes the door behind her as she watches her wife sitting on her bed with her hands covering her face and quickly walks over to her. ''Mi amor.'' She murmurs softly as she crouches down in front of her, her heart breaks as tear filled blue orbs lock on her own and cups the back of her neck to pull her in an embrace.
She turns her head whispering sweet nothings into her ear as she feels tears hit the naked skin of her shoulder after she shrugged off her blazer and lovingly rubs her back, she pulls back as she hears her soft sniffle and cups her cheeks. She gently wipes away the tear tracks running down pale cheeks and pecks her lips. ''Want to stay up here for a bit?''
''No I think we all need a bit of distraction.'' Brittany croaks out, she kisses her forehead as Santana just hums softly and cracks a small smile. ''Let's get out of these clothes.'' She watches on as Santana sucks in her lips and smirks. ''Get your mind out of the gutter babe.''
Santana laughs softly and pecks her lips. ''You would think the same thing if I had said that.'' She slowly stands up and holds out her hand. ''Let's change, Britt-Britt.'' She takes off the black pants she wore as Brittany just hums and grabs her favorite yoga pants, she glances at her wife grinning as she notices her wearing the long shirt she stole the beginning of the relationship and the one she wore the night before knowing Brittany needs that bit of comfort.
She grabs the shirt Brittany wore the night before, eyeing her old faded high school cheerleader shirt and slips it over her head. She tugs her hair out of the ponytail she wore and walks into the bathroom to wash her face and take off her make-up, she glances in the mirror as she hears her wife walking in right after and holds up the package after grabbing two wipes knowing she will immediately clean her face too.
She leans back into her hold as she slides behind her the both content with the closeness without a word spoken and looks into the mirror as she wipes her face, she leans down after getting rid of her mascara and splashes her face with cold water after Brittany washed her hands.
She glances up with an eyebrow raised as she hears her stomach grumble and locks eyes with her knowing she didn't eat something throughout the whole day and only drank two coffees, she nods her head as she just smiles sheepishly and turns on her heels. ''Can you eat something?'' She asks softly after wrapping her arms around her waist, she kisses her softly as she hums and taps her back. ''I will make you something, I am sure the kids are hungry too.''
She walks out of the bathroom as she just nods her head and intertwines their hands as they walk out of their room and down the stairs, she smiles as everyone looks up and walks over to Quinn as Beth jumps up from her lap to skip over to Brittany after kissing her mom's cheek.
She wraps her arms around her shoulders from behind and kisses her temple. ''What do you all want for lunch?'' She asks as Quinn buries herself in her arms.
''Love I can…''
''You and mami will do nothing, mommy.'' Nicolas interrupts as he stands up with Ash. ''Ash called aunt Marls and ordered lunch for all of us, we will go and pick it up.''
''I will join the both of you, we will be right back.''
Santana and Brittany turn to each other as the teens walk off after kissing their cheeks and simultaneously turn to Ab's and Liv as they hear the door close behind Sophia, Liv shrugs her shoulders and chuckles.
''Don't look at us, we are just as surprised.''
''The four of you didn't notice them observing you the whole day?'' Maribel asks in surprise. ''Sure they are sad too but they are more focused on you.'' She turns to Brittany and locks eyes with her. ''We all kept our eyes on you the most though.''
''I am fine though.'' Brittany forces out through a small fake smile.
''Fine my ass auntie B.'' Beth breaths out as she snuggles into her arms, she croaks out a soft laugh as she just looks down at her with an eyebrow raised and shrugs. ''None of us know you like you are now.''
''She is right B.'' Quinn agrees as she walks over with Santana, she drops in her lap after Beth moved onto one leg and kisses her cheek. ''You try so fucking hard to be strong for all of us, but you forget that we all hold together to support each other.'' She continues as she wraps her arms around her shoulders, she smiles as Santana just slides down the couch to sit behind her wife and locks eyes on glistening blue orbs with a sad smile. ''Don't bottle your emotions up and push us away, allow us to catch you too.''
''I do.''
''Behind closed doors in the arms of your wife doesn't count babe.'' Liv tells her with a sad smile. ''You bottle your feelings up the whole day, let them loose immediately.''
Brittany blows out a breath and sighs. ''It's hard.'' She confesses softly. ''It's also insanely hard to really let go and relay on San because I know she soaks my emotions up like a sponge and I pull her down too, I try hard to avoid that to make sure the both of us won't suffer too much.''
''In times like these it's normal and your kids suck them up too.'' Lio tells her softly. ''We are a family B, we know you mourned Em's loss entirely on your own but now we are here and we will catch you immediately.'' He stands up as he notices the telltale signs of tears and locks eyes with the girls surrounding her. ''Shoo.'' He just breaths out.
He grabs Brittany's hand the second Beth and Q jumped off of Britt's lap and pulls her up in his strong embrace right after Santana released her hold around Britt's waist, he kisses her temple as her head immediately drops on her shoulder feeling tears soak his shirt and rubs her back. ''We are here mija.'' He whispers softly.
Santana smiles sadly as she watches her wife release all pent up emotions and hugs Beth as she walks into her embrace with tears in her eyes, she holds out her left arm as their twins turn to her with tears in their eyes and kisses their heads as they crash against her. ''Mommy will be fine.'' She whispers reasuringly as Quinton sniffles, she rubs their backs as Oli just nods his head and sighs sadly.
She walks over to her her papi and wife as she notices her mami, sister and Liv also walk over with Q and join their hug. She watches Quinton wrap his arms tightly around Brittany's waist, smiling sadly as Brittany picks him up the second she feels his tears and locks eyes with her sister.
Abi smiles sadly knowing QT is in sync with Brittany's emotions and rubs her sisters back as she notices the tears in her eyes, she kisses her temple as she sniffles softly and hugs her close. ''She will be fine Hermana.'' She murmurs softly. ''It's just fucked that she lost the last person she grew up with and called her sibling.'' She adds so softly that only Santana understands her.
Santana hums in agreement and sighs. ''I know we both called off of work for the week, can you extend mine for the month and clear it with Dionne?'' She thanks her softly as she just nods her head and kisses her forehead, she hugs her wife from behind as everyone slowly let's go noticing Quinton relaxing on her hip and kisses his head. ''Let's sit down.'' She whispers softly.
She leads Oli to the love seat as Brittany hums softly and sits down, she smiles as Brittany just drops in her lap knowing she needs her close at the moment and wraps her arms around her wife and their kids as they both settle in Brittany's lap. She kisses Brittany's shoulder after kissing their boys heads and nuzzles her nose against her shoulder. ''Te amo.'' She whispers softly.
''I love you too Santana.'' Brittany whispers as the boys whisper it back, she hugs Quinton close as she hears his soft sniffle and kisses their heads. ''I will be fine Angels.'' She whispers as they all relax in Santana's arms, she closes her eyes as she nuzzles her face against Santana's neck and sighs softly just enjoying the warmth and comfort only her wife and kids can give her.
Later that night.
Santana sighs tiredly as she walks into their bedroom after they spend the afternoon enjoying the time with their family and smiles lovingly as she notices their twins sleeping soundly beside their mommy, she crawls into the bed handing Brittany the water bottle she grabbed for them and pecks her lips.
''Thanks love.'' Brittany whispers as she places her phone down, she rubs Quinton's back as he snuggles even closer his hand finding her heart and turns to Santana with a sad smile. ''Babe..''
''He will be fine Britt-Britt.'' Santana murmurs reasuringly as she notices the worry on her face. ''He just needs to feel you close like you need to feel all of us close.'' She continues as she frowns. ''We all don't know you in this state but we know you need us, so we are here.''
''We all are.'' She turns her head as she hears Nic's whisper and chuckles as he stands in the door opening with Ash, she scoots closer to her wife as they walk over to the bed and smiles as they crawl in after kissing their cheeks.
She locks eyes with her wife as the teens settle down behind her and pecks her lips. ''Let's go to sleep baby.'' She wraps her arms around her as she scoots down to cuddle into her and smiles as she feels Ashlynn, Nic, Oli and QT grab their intertwined hands. ''Good night mi familia, te amo.''
''We love you too mami.'' Nicolas whispers as he kisses her shoulder, Santana smiles as her wife relaxes in her hold and nuzzles her face in her blonde locks as she sighs contently knowing she gave into sleep knowing their loved ones are with them and sleeping downstairs.
She slowly grabs her phone making sure not to move too much so she won't wake her sleeping kids and wife after a few minutes and taps the Instagram app as she notices that her wife posted something, she smiles sadly as she notices a series of pictures of their family together with Noah after the first picture of her wife together with Noah and Em's during their teenage years and scrolls down to read the text she added.
Twenty years ago a little Mohawked guy walked up to me with the lamest one liner a kid could have come up with, after cursing you out in the colorful language only a nine year old could come up with we quickly became friends.
A few years later being friends turned into being a family while we both took care of our little sister and made her short life the best as possible, after finding each other again after a few years we quickly packed our bond back up and returned back to the dynamic duo we once were.
Along the years we had our ups and downs, we had fights, discussions and even broke contact but you were still my brother and I still loved you no matter what.
Sadly one of the demons you battled during our teenage years returned back and won, we lost our brother, father, loving friend and the clown we adore just a few weeks ago and we still can't fathom it.
We will miss you dearly Noah Puckerman, you were often a big idiot but we still loved you no matter what. I hope you found your piece up there and you can joke around with Em's, heaven gained another angel but we loved someone we loved dearly.
To everyone reading this, I hope you all respect our privacy and leave us be so we can mourn in peace.
She sniffles softly double tapping the post to like it and shares it into her story noticing Nicolas, Ash, Q, Liv and Ab's having the same post in their stories. She places her phone down after posting a picture of Puck in her story and pulls her wife close as she hears her soft whine the second she moves. ''Sorry mi amor.'' She whispers kissing her forehead. ''I am here.'' She murmurs softly as she feels the hand she doesn't hold cover her heart.
She listens to the soft snores around them knowing their kids are so in tune with their mommy at the moment and only sleep if she does and relaxes hoping her wife will get a good night rest, she pulls the cover up over them and nuzzles her nose in soft blonde locks following her wife and kids into the land of peaceful dreams.
