I „suffer" from some type of condition. I had a psychosis. Please beware that these are just STORIES I've made up. I know that the following is just a story:
I think I am the reincarnation of L and Kira, born in the same body. No joke. The last few weeks were insane, let me tell you. I heard them talk to me in my own voice. „We" can do what we want ? And they lost their minds. Please feel free to point out any grammatical mistakes you might find. And also: Aliens are real. Just wait for Light's POV. Can you believe that I wanted to cut my right leg off to get rid of Light at the beginning?! Just wait for "our" autobiography. I can tell you more later. But now my story. Have fun:
L
The Big Bang
L didn't think he would die. He knew for a fact that he would die, no matter what. So he might as well do whatever he wants. Try whatever he wants. He doesn't want to go to the rooftop. He lay down on his bed and started to think freely for the first time in his whole life.
I think I want to have sex. Wait, I thought I was asexual. What the fuck?
He sat back up. Excited and confused, he continued.
But with who?
The answer settled in his head immediately. He knew before he asked himself. It was so easy, too. All he had to do was to be honest with himself. L started to shiver. He never felt like that. But it felt good, so he continued. He slowly but surely started to lose himself, but he also found himself at the same time.
Great, I finally lost it, he thought.
Might as well go out with an explosion.
He called Matsuda and Misa, the biggest tools he could think of, on his personal phone. Ordering them to his rooms.
I'm sure they can help me if I tell them the truth: I think I am in love with Kira.
Matsuda entered L's big, fancy bedroom first. He looked very confused.
This was so unlike L. Matsuda thought. I could even keep my phone. What is going on, and where was Watari?
„Watari sleeps. And I'm fine. I actually feel at peace." L said.
But what he just said scared Matsuda. Could he read Matsuda's mind? No. L was just telling the truth. The total truth. There was a curious knock on the door. Misa. L opened the door and let her in as well, without checking for any dangerous devices. Now it was Misa's turn to get confused. Confused but very curious.
„Please take a seat. You can take that literally and take the sofa home with you, once we are done." L felt a dangerous smile creep up his face.
Is this how Kira feels? I kind of like it, I have to admit.
L could barely keep himself from laughing like a maniac. What was going on?
I can't lose. He suddenly thought, confusing himself as well. As soon as Matsuda and Misa sat down, after exchanging worrying looks, L sat down as well. And as he sat down, he sat like everyone else. With his feet on the ground.
„Ryuzaki… What kind of game is this? I don't like it. Why are we here? Did something happen?", Misa asked. She never felt this unease in her life. Something was very off. Unconsciously, she moved a little further away from L.
"I'm not going to hurt anybody. Not now and not later. But I'm done with all the lies. We are here because I will tell you the truth. Oh, and you can tell everyone about this little meeting. I don't mind."
As soon as he said this, Matsuda stood up and started looking around like a headless chicken.
"Okay Ryuzaki. But, huh? What am I even doing now?", he sat back down again, that fool. "Please call Watari; he should know before us." Matsuda begged.
"This room is plastered with cameras and other devices. He will know.", L said.
Matsuda and Misa looked at each other, but they did not dare to speak to each other.
"I'm in love with Kira.", L said.
Silence.
"I'm serious."
L looked at Misa, who went a bit pale.
"I understand him, now that I have lost my mind. That's why I want to find him..., L stood up and started to pace around the room. He looked at everything, then at the front door. He could hear something at the door. Watari stormed in, and L started to run away. "Ryuzaki, stop!", he yelled, and he even tried to catch him, but L was too fast.
"Matsuda! Help me catch him!"
L ran around the sofa like a misbehaving little child. During all of this chaos, L was in an awesome mood! He felt so free! He felt like he could fly if he tried! But not now.
"I love every single person on this planet!", L yelled.
"Even the criminals! Especially the criminals!"
Matsuda sprinted forward and almost caught L, but he was too fast. „Ryuzaki, be quiet! You are not okay right now! Listen to Watari, please!"
Ryuzaki slowed down for a second. That gave Matsuda enough time to catch him. Watari hurried to them and checked L's temperature.
He was so scared just a few hours ago, he must have lost his mind out of fear, Watari thought.
"Can I... can I go now? I want to leave!", yelled Misa as she headed for the front door.
"No wait!, yells L. "Now I know! I am not in love with Kira! But I do love Kira! I need to talk to Light! Now! Bring him to me or else!"
Ryuzaki tried to wriggle out of Matudas grip.
"There is no way, Ryuzaki! You need help!"
"You are right, Watari!", L yelled and escaped his grip as he ran out of the door. He heard yelling and cursing behind him, but he did not stop. There was so much to do! He needed to find Light! He could save them both! He can save them both! He didn't need to hurt himself any longer! He ran to the rooftop and let the rain soak his clothes, but he did not care. He was happy! But where was Light?
"Hello?", L yelled. No one answered back. So he yelled again. Nothing.
He ran back inside. He needed to find him! He needed to talk to him!
I heard an alarm go off in the big hotel complex. Watari! They were looking for him! He needed to pretend like he had lost his mind! He threw himself on the floor and pretended like he could not breathe.
L started gasping for air. He lay down on the floor, in the middle of the hotel and continued this charade.
"Ryuzaki?", he heard someone asking him from afar. It was Light. He ran to L's side. L had his eyes closed for show, but he knew Light was by his side now. „Ryuzaki, what happened? Breathe! Try to breathe!", Light said as he kneeled down beside him and tried to calm him down.
Ryuzaki listened to Light and slowly started to calm down.
"Can you hear me, Ryuzaki? Where is Watari?"
"He is here with us.", L said. Light looked up and saw a camera pointed at them in the corner of this hallway. He looked back at L. "Do you know where you are, Ryuzaki?"
"I know exactly where I am.", Ryuzaki said with a slow smile.
"Well… Can you open your eyes?
"I can't right now."
"Why not?"
"I'm blinded by the light.", L smiled again.
"You are not funny, Ryuzaki. You need help!"
"But I am not lying right now! It really is bright for some reason!"
"Ryuzaki… There are two paramedics with us."
"Really?"
"Yes. Just stay still, we want to help you."
Ryuzaki started to hear other voices. But those were just his own.
"Stay with me, Light. I need to talk to you. I figured something out."
L couldn't see it, but Light froze. The two paramedics put L on a stretcher, but Light didn't move away. He was glued to L's side.
He's bluffing! There is no way he figured anything out!
Watari was still nowhere to be seen. Everyone seemed to have vanished. They were probably still looking for L.
"I don't need help, actually.", said L, as the paramedics brought them to a secluded infirmary in the hotel complex.
"Excuse us.", said one of the paramedics as they laid him down on a single bed. "We have to leave you for a moment. We have an emergency here at the hotel. You seem to have calmed down. Can you watch him for us, sir?"
"Sure, no problem."
I listened to them as they left them alone.
"Can you open your eyes, Ryuzaki?"
Slowly but surely, L opened his eyes. He had to smile, again. Light looked so confused. But he was also very curious. He had Light's undivided attention. L had to smile some more.
"Okay. I figured two things out, actually. Do you know who Micky Recomic is?"
"No."
"Well, forget him then. I have other big news. I figured it out. The Big Bang. What it was and why it happened."
Light's eyes grew bigger with every passing second.
"You are not joking, are you?"
"Nope. That's why I needed to talk to you. You will believe me. You will understand."
The world around them seemed to vanish. Light was now fully immersed and listening.
"Our world, as it has existed for us since the Big Bang, began with just a tiny point. God. He created a second reality for him. He wanted to learn because he was bored. And he did actually create us in his own image. We never figured this out because we like to think with just our brains, but there is so much more. Because of the Big Bang, God split himself an infinite number of times. For himself. He wanted to experience everything. Time runs differently for him. He experienced pain differently. And after death, we are all one again. Everyone is valuable in their own way. But a little more order in this chaos would be nice. Light, we are all gods. We were once the same creature. We are all one."
Light didn't move, didn't blink, and couldn't move. Time seemed to stand still.
Then they talked. Then a bit more.
And after a while, Light started to cry.
