There Will Come A Day

"There's a better place
Where our Father waits
And every tear He'll wipe away
The darkness will be gone
The weak shall be strong
Hold on to your faith

There will come a day" -Faith Hill

Sitting on the dock on the lake just listening to the sounds of nature the cabin was 20 yards away 50 miles from the city of Chicago build it from the ground up I own it basically. It's my spot where I just need to escape my thoughts losing a good friend just needed to escape before I do something stupid like kill my best friend whom also works at the same firehouse. Behind my back is my best friend she just stepped on a stick she knows me inside and out my flings my Ex's however she is either and knows it. Smell my cigar I know she is smoking it she is my everything I lose her I die it is that easy have told her this. My heart is hers when she wants in the door closes, being the youngest Lieutenant in history to even carry out his own team or rescue is extraordinary. "Rough day?" Kelly brought her to his lap as they share the cigar knowing the look, she is receiving it's how the cigar campfires started. It was all her from the ground up they been together since high school senior year to be exact. "You could say that, but you always make it better." Kelly said as he smirked at this point "good to know, just wanted to tell you lunch/dinner should be up deer meat is on the grill. Brought beer the kind you like." Kissing his cheek that turned to the lips "you're my guy my one and only. Always thanked you never asked for anything in return however you need me to kill Matt just say the word." Kelly spanked her ass as she walked away as he heard her giggle sometimes, he wishes they could come out of their hiding place just be happy, but something told him they do it would ruin a good thing, plus Kelly feels something is coming he knows she would walk and come back into his life they have in the past. That burning need to fuck her and pin her where she stands like in high school, he loved her. Getting up Kelly smells the meat cooking as he reaches closer seeing another female with her that hurt more, she wasn't gay by any means no he wanted to be alone, seeing the very look that all give him he knows it was her doing for once he wanted her to watch, wanted to scream it at her but kept it all within, "Lexi beautiful as ever." Kelly said he watched her out of the corner of his eye "heading back to Missouri." Kelly gripped her wrist gently it was the look of love you drive safe her look of I will see you when you need me as she tapped her heart she walked away. Everything in that moment hurt her driving off hurt watching her kick dust hurt just her leaving hurt to know that she was leaving him seeing Lexi he fucked her the meat be damned Kelly never fucked her he couldn't when he thought of her he did only when he did.

Driving off Sylvie knew it hurt him each and every time she played hookie had to go back being a paramedic in charge was not something that was ever taken lightly they could be together in a different firehouse in the same state but that was something either wanted it was the same firehouse or no go. Kelly kept her safe she was abused alone they married in private setting once Sylvie turned 18, Kelly was 21 they never divorced they couldn't for one they had a child, but Sophia died from heart failure at just 5 years old. It still hasn't been easy working in a different state and only seeing him when they both wanted to play hookie nobody was supposed to know then word was out with the brass its why the separation. Knowing he was fucking around because she told him too leaving the signed papers as well it was the only way to start over the memories in the letter, she would keep forever their daughter that she made copies of as well he has one so does, she on in their lockers in their apartments. Time stood still when they were together now it was hard to let the more, she came to Chicago the more she had to turn around tapping her fingers to Faith Hill Breathe CD that Kelly bought her that was signed by her she treasured everything that Kelly ever given her. Rolling down the windows she blasted the song on the highway, being with Kelly had it's fair of challenges for one all the teenage girls wanted him, now the woman want him. Giving him the space now to explore his needs once they touched each other it was an inferno for one that fire that is inside us never died out, no that look at he gives her sends chills down her spine. Just that kiss alone today sent her touching herself as she went back to the cabin, she orgasms to everything Kelly made her feel inside and outside. Now that Kelly's new flame showed up it was awkward to say the least the cheating didn't hurt but knowing he won't love them that stung it was like he couldn't love another that she was his only his. Getting off the exit for Missouri she didn't live far from Kansas City or from Chicago it was a four-hour drive. Once arriving at the apartment, she worked tonight knowing he was not home she called him on his cellphone knowing he won't answer she said "hey its me I made home safely, Kelly for my sake please sign them it hurts me too our love carry's far and wide honey." Sylvie said as she hung up knowing he will be a drunk later on tonight he will call her drunk he always does nothing hurtful just the truth they both speak truth to him as well.

Kelly rolled over bringing the sheet with him Kelly grabs another beer he would be a dick but somehow they all love the dick in him the asshole side, but this time he would be a different asshole he looked over the paperwork that she left seeing the letter he kept it nothing he would burn but the divorce papers he signed them then burned them in the fireplace he kept the memories their daughter Sophia he has a photo of her its in his locker in the back in a black velvet box that held his medal. They were happy so happy then the woman came around it was all because of the promotion it was all because the brass found out sent her packing they could stay in the same city but the worry would be their him watching her leave hurt it still does. Knowing the orgasm that she had Kelly closed his eyes as he went to the lake to bathe himself the memories are what kept him alive, the laughter of their daughter, teaching her to swim in the summer, then the pneumonia complications arouse inside her lungs it made her heartbeat faster that she died from the complications she was never in any pain. Kelly went to the local bar to get drunk to tell her that he loved her it was only time he was drunk when he needed to tell the truth it was five beers in he wasn't a wine drinker but saved their wine bottle it was a memory that he couldn't let go of, the wine that was the wedding drink it was the only one they both could drink together, but the beer was her favorite one she would drink it with him or alone. They never had drunken sex there was no need only when the truth came out, he reached his phone called her letting it go to voicemail knowing that she was at work it was the night shift. "It's me I signed them burned them, you're my heart, you're my soul love you but I hate you for letting me go, carry our memories, nobody else gets our love making but you don't like then fuck you I know your single I know you do not date or fuck around either." Kelly said as he hung up, he knows he spoke truth because the tears fell, he loved her and couldn't have her out loud he said, "FUCK YOU ALL!" Kelly drank he hurt all over, when Shay walked through the door, she sees bottles she doesn't know the truth. Trying to get Kelly to talk when he was drunk wasn't easy, he never said anything but leave one time it was when she found Kelly on the roof drunk. Kelly never cried never spoke even now he didn't cry or speak, never mumbled he is not dead just dead to the world. Shay sighed as she shut the door and cleaned the apartment there was knock Shay opened sees Lexi "you tell that asshole I am done he left me after he fucked me in the cabin." Shay rolled her eyes at that and walked back inside as she locked it "new rule doesn't talk about our sex life to me I don't want to know, second new rule we are siblings do not come in contact with me about Kelly's personal life ever." Shay said out loud as she was writing on paper, she put on the refrigerator knowing they will have some ground rules but telling the bear was not something on her radar at the moment.

Shay was just about to head upstairs to bed when another knock was sounded, she peaked in it was the brass "Severide here?" Shay rolled her eyes as she opened the door to his room woke his ass up "brass is here to see you." Kelly just sighed as he is showering taking some headache medicine, he folds his arms as Shay leaves "going over to Dawson's." Shay said as she left giving the men the apartment as the door opens, she splits trying to overhear the conversation that would never happen getting into her car she calls up Dawson "spending the night with you the brass showed up why I don't know but I did try to listen but wasn't allowed to overhear. Then Benny showed up gave me this look, so I split." Shay said as she kept on driving to Dawson's as she hung up, she kept thinking what the hell is going on in Kelly's life sighing she just does and does not need to know but how to help him is another story all together.

Kelly sits down "you wanted us to divorce we divorced, so can you three kindly leave." Kelly said as they did not all budge "look, there has been accident she is fine but you are still the next of kin, keep it general you are not allowed to work together yet until its all finalized we are granted this against our better judgment marry someone else soon because as of now PIC and a Lieutenant cannot be together on any circumstances do I make myself clear? Also, Sylvie will be starting at the bottom we both know she will rank keep that mind in the future." They left Kelly punched another pillow he wouldn't marry he wanted her only her; they could be together before the brass found out but how did they know in the first place it was then he realized Benny, Benny knew about it all that's how the brass found was from Benny that motherfucker turned on his own son. Grabbing his jacket Kelly left to find the fucker that was his father.

Benny was at the local bar when Kelly came inside oh he looked pissed before Benny could say a word Kelly decked him I mean decked him broke his nose the whole bit in his ear "Sophia is dead your granddaughter is never coming back, you killed me the moment you forced my hand on my wife, you killed me when you told the brass yeah I know it was you who else could have it been? Next time you want to fuck with my family remember, I will can, I will put a transfer in so fast you think you tied my hands you fuck remember I am a bastard child seeing how you never married my own mom, but you think you won think again." Kelly said as he got up, he left the way he came he had the windows down he needed her the need to touch her was overwhelming once he arrived at her place in Kansas City, Missouri he locked up his car he unlocked her door closed it went to her room stripped bare naked and went to sleep he would come home and wait for her. It was 7:30 am when the door opened Sylvie walked inside, she signed as she locked it up seeing a male in her bed, she knew it was Kelly how simple the bruised knuckles he knew the truth getting into bed naked as well. Kelly kissed her heart after Sophia it was foreplay with work their long hours, they never talked about wanting another kid, Kelly left a mark they never spoke just touched skin on skin the only name that was tattooed on Kelly was Sophia's name on his heart. Sylvie touched it as Kelly started touching more of Sylvie's skin "we can't." Sylvie said as Kelly sat up "it was fucking Benny don't you get that he fucked us over he was the only one that knew the truth of it all." Kelly said as Sylvie knew that she was told that by the name himself "honey please just go begging you please our careers are what we have to help this community and mine too please go back to Chicago." Sylvie said as Kelly wasn't budging from the bed knowing she works an other night shift knowing in fours Kelly has his shift he decided not hide his body from Sylvie as he gets up he showers as Sylvie is in bed resting also close to sleeping if she wasn't already once the shower was finished Kelly tucked in her bed leaving a red rose it was only for her "you will always be mine I am tired of explaining this to you want me to fuck around fine, but you are the only woman I will ever make love too, the only one that has my heart rather die an old man single and alone then die a married man in a loveless marriage. Could not love Rene, I could love Rachel, married you had a lovely daughter with that right there is my happiness my home my wish come true having that knowing that with you is the best experience that want with you, only you get to share that nobody else will have sweet dreams sleep tight I will see you mine also eat that deer meat I brought over you never did finish it." Kelly whispered as he kissed her lips sliding his minty tongue inside her mouth as she gasped out loud, pulling back Kelly was gone out the front door locking it behind him.

At firehouse 51 it was a family in its unique way Matt, Shay, Gabby Dawson all worried about Kelly Severide nobody else had a worry just that he was a man to back off "he is drinking more Casey, wouldn't be here if I wasn't worried about my best friend and roommate just saying he is spiraling around of control the brass showed up at the apartment then Benny Severide showed up "Shay, you seen my son?" Shay shook her head as she verbally said, "If I do see him before you do I will tell him you are looking for him." Shay said as she walked away with the role of her eyes, she knows Benny is the higher upper in certain things but damn it all she knows that man is up to something but what that is the underlying question. On the roof a certain Chief that is watching is firehouse he doesn't trust Benny within a 10-foot pole where Severide is concerned the truth, however, is where I come in yes even Boden knows all about that is why Benny is here to take control over the situation always have been about the secret love affair that happened it is why the rules changed for many reasons. Such as the paramedic dating a fire rescue squad leader Benny had an affair that led to Kelly Benjamin's birth the death of his birth mother then when he was day old Benny found a woman who just lost a son well that was how Jennifer Sheridan became Kelly's mom even placed her name down on the birth certificate even now that is all Kelly knows. The roof door opened "you know toying with your son like that will make him more upset what happens when he knows the truth Benny you ever thought about that?" Wallace Boden said as he folded his arms "not a word Benny because I am finished talking yet you want to run me out of the firehouse go ahead but I will tell that boy the whole truth and nothing but he was happily married with little Sophia yeah I know about the little Kelly brought her a few times against Sylvie's wishes before Shay, even before Casey and Andy started here when that little girl died you really think I wasn't itching to tell him who is birth mother really was but what good would that do knowing his father was screwing around with a paramedic its why you changed the rules for your son and his now ex-wife. You do not want your own son happy well you did a mighty find job Benny mighty find job. There will come a day Benny when the light of the truth happens you better hope by the grace of God that you are there to tell him but until then you hope to God that they find happiness within each other I have word that Sylvie wants to work here I will sign off on it when the time is right." Wallace said as he walked away as Benny sighed as he sees his son pull up to the firehouse knowing he was with Sylvie, he knows him all too well because he was just like me touching the forbidden fruit, now with his son following in his footsteps he would need to have a conversation with Jennifer to find a way to tell Kelly together however plans have changed no he won't say a word.

Opening the locker Kelly puts his belongings inside the locker changing into his work clothing when Matt Ryan Casey showed up "you know let's go out tonight just the two of us." Matt said as Kelly rolled his eyes "why so I can be your wing man so speak, besides are you not dating Dawson?" Kelly said as Matt sighed when the alarms went up as Kelly hurt his shoulder, he tore the ligament in his arm doing a rescue that would be painkillers fault for why he couldn't see Sylvie that hurt she was his rock to tell him he fell apart over his career not over their daughter was sitting well. That was two pills thinking of their happy daughter, playing catching her first fish, swimming on her own. That was three pills when she died their little Sophia in heaven at at the age of 5 years old. Kelly was now addicted to painkillers the only thing to forget about this marriage was the high of the whole thing punching Benny was the best thing that happened now that he had a massive problem, he didn't want the help he didn't wanted what everybody wanted him stoned out of his mind without Sylvie Elizabeth Severide by his side he found out she went back to her maiden name Brett that was two more pills. Kelly never called Sylvie it was just how it was a year of no drunken calls no conversations Kelly fucked around some more he never made love, just didn't care he had a fling here and there nothing ever serious. Shay caught Kelly in the bathroom doped on morphine she covered for Kelly for three weeks even was on oxy at some point in the game thanks to Anna who fucked him over some more he slept with her so he can a proscription for the fucking oxy, they had a piss inspection due to a bag of heroine that exploded so they all had to be tested. Shay spots Kelly "are you fucking kidding me your high right now, you had to get high are you insane?" Shay takes the cup from Kelly's hands and pisses in it to get the guy out of here as Kelly didn't know what to say he tried to get clean he knows he messed up. Then the ambulance crashed Kelly sees Dawson "Gabriella, I know you don't like use of your first name but please help me, help me get clean." Gabby was shocked that she would be the one to ask that hell nobody ever came to her to get clean ever. "Yeah, yeah I will help you come on let's get you some help." Kelly never told anybody in rehab why he started using the truth was his marriage, losing his daughter, but he never said anything of those lines instead he said "felt I could lose my job, my career everything I worked towards I thought everything would be gone, I am Lieutenant run my own squad rescue missions its crazy to say that out loud knowing that I was high pretty much of all it could have should have lost it all. Now here I am hitting rock bottom because of just one tear ligament in my arm ruins my whole career." Kelly said as he knew the whole reasons not being with Sylvie was killing him it's been a year in total there will come a day when you wanna reach out and touch it, there were a come day when you have to let go, this was one day Kelly let go.

Kelly walked through the hospital walls with a flowers and big bear for apology massive one "I am clean will stay clean promise you Shay I don't want to lose our friendship you are my sister, my best friend." Kelly said as he was now dating Erin Lindsey from Intelligence, he heard about what she has been struggling through since her own friend died from a tragic death by the hands of a monster. Maybe Erin is the one, but he thinks of Sylvie every single day he covered up Sophia's name he let the tears fall from his eyes as he kissed Shay's head he leaves without a word, knowing he is going to Sylvie's place in Missouri however she isn't there she moved out two months ago and is now leaving what he found out was Chicago.

The marriage and death was a slalom part of the three weeks prior to Shay's death, Kelly was chopping up wood he didn't need the pills Sylvie was now at the firehouse he needed Sylvie now more then she even knew, when a gray pickup truck was on the gravel road Kelly just didn't want to be bothered Sylvie almost died on the job it is why it struck him to the core being the next of kin in general was tough enough being at two places at once was harder him and Erin went separate ways it was better he didn't need to scream out Sylvie's name the fucking was intense close to love making that's where he drew the line. Now the time to start over was fresh from his mind however the need to start over, was killing him seeing Sylvie at the firehouse was going to be rough he loved her still the rekindling was better than nothing he was highly scared of her rejection more so of her saying yes. What's that saying There Will Come A Day yes it will.

It was the night shift Sylvie was playing with a pen watching it roll knowing the famous routines and the famous role calls when someone snatched her pen making her stop it was her now partner Gabby Dawson "three things to remember: One of them is do not piss me off, two is stay the hell from Lieutenant Severide he is a womanizer, lastly number three do not play hero." Gabby said as Sylvie got up and rolled her eyes she went to the gym and punched the bag nobody ever tells me about Kelly's sex life do not need to know but said out loud "good to know that will not be his latest whore." Sylvie said Gabby gasped as she walked away leaving Sylvie alone in the gym not even bothering to turn around, she crumbled to the floor and walked away.