Author's Note: I know I said I wouldn't be doing any more Valhalla content but after having a think and re reading "Kingdom's End" I decided I can't just leave it like that. Also this story is a bit of a release for me (we all have our demons) and it also makes the story more realistic as well even though it may be a bit dark.

Trigger warning: Suicide, Mental Health and Domestic Abuse. If it's too much, leave now. This is also a sequel to Kingdom's End, but you can read this on it's own as it's not too hard to understand. It will help if you read Kingdom's End as there will be spoilers for that fic on here.

Oswald sat at the dinner table, fiddling with his food. He stared at the bowl of soup in front of him, while Valdis sat on the opposite end of the table feeding their newborn son.

Valdis glanced worriedly at her husband. She gently placed their child down on a wooden high chair, she spoke interrupting his thoughts.

"Oswald. You must eat, you haven't had a single drop of food in days. I'm worried about you"

Oswald looked up to see his wife staring at him with concerned eyes.

"I'm fine, Valdis. Honestly I am" he murmured quietly.

Valdis however wasn't taking no for an answer. She got up from her chair and walked towards where Oswald was.

"No. You are becoming thin and pale. I insist" She came up to him bringing the bowl and spoon to his lips.

"Valdis I said I'm fine" Oswald said this time more sternly

"Fine my arse" She scoffed. "If your so resistant I guess I'll have to feed you the same way I feed our baby"

She reached up to him and placed the spoon on his lips before he could react.

"There you go, much better now" she stopped, satisfied and was about to continue when Oswald stopped her.

"What the hell was that? I told you I'm fine. I'm not hungry. What part of that don't you understand?" he yelled losing it

Valdis gasped, taken aback, before gaining her composure. "Fine? Look at the state of you. You haven't eaten in weeks! Have you even noticed? Or are you too busy moping over Eivor?"

"Don't say that name." Oswald sneered

"Oh. Why not? Is it because that you love her and because you can't forgive yourself for what you've done? I know everything!"

"I said enough. You don't know anything!" Oswald shouted slamming a fist on the table causing it to shake

Valdis jumped before once more regaining her composure "I do. I know that you killed her and cheated on me behind my back!"

"I said enough, Goddamn it!"

This was the final straw for Oswald and with a roar he flipped the table causing everything to fall over and smash into a thousand pieces. Valdis jumped back, however not before a shard of glass flew by and cut her on the cheek.

Startled by the noise and the shouting, their son started crying.

"All I did was Care for you and look after you and love you and this is what you do to me, you stab me on the back and then when I try and care for you you lose it at me. I'm taking our son away. I'm not having this anymore. We're done, Oswald"

Oswald stared in horror at the scene around him, at the smashed furniture and mess on the floor. Valdis picked up and cradled her son, soothing him.

"Shhhh it's ok. Daddy's not well, but your safe with Mummy"

"Valdis Please. I'm sorry. Come back we can fix this. I promise I won't lash out or cheat on you again" Oswald begged

Valdis looked at him, shaking her head, while pressing a tissue to her cheek.

"You had your chances. We're finished" and with that she left him all alone in the longhouse.

Oswald broke down on his knees sobbing as he looked at the scene around him, relasation hitting him on what had just happened.

I hurt Valdis and scared my son because of what happened with Eivor. I've lost everything. God What a Monster I am. What have I become? I'm better off away from everyone and from this World. I can't do this anymore.

Getting up and taking care to avoid the broken glass, Oswald walked over to his study once more and began to write.

My Son.

I hope one day when you are old enough, you will understand. I am not a Bad Father, in fact I cared for your mother very much. It's just in life sometimes things happen, things that we don't have control over. One day when you are old enough you will understand life isn't easy neither is it Fair. You are better off away from me and with your Mother who will look after you. I am very sorry that I hurt her, not that she believes me anyway. Please do take care and look after her for me, I will never get to see you grow up, not that I deserve to anyway. Just know that I love you very much. You will probably hate me, and I understand - I really hate me too. But I will always love you very much.

Goodbye and Until we meet again,

Your Father, Oswald.

Oswald sealed the letter with a shaking hand, and walked out of the longhouse knowing what he was going to do next.

He left only to be greeted by the Doorman.

"Sir is everything alright? I saw the queen leave earlier. Are you guys alright?" he asked concerned

"Yes Everything is fine. I'm going for a quick ride to clear my mind. If I don't come back, pass this to Valdis and tell her to give it to my son when he is old enough to read and understand it"

"As you wish" the doorman bowed, taking Oswald's letter.

Oswald walked out of the longhouse, towards the dark starry night and along the familiar dirt path.

It was on this path, that I first met and spoke to Eivor. Various flashbacks to happier times came back, the lighthearted banter and jokes they had shared in the golden hour of the sun. The sun shining on Eivor's face illuminating her features, making her hair shine like gold.

Oswald almost got lost in the memories as he stepped up to the horse, pulling it on the reins before stepping on. With one last look at Elmenham and it's surroundings, he rode off into the night.

An hour and a half later, the familiar view of Oswald's destination loomed over in the distance. Even though it had been years, it looked the same. The same stone castle with a dimly lit brazier was standing there in the distance along with the same broken bridge.

He ushered the horse forward, before stopping when he found the perfect spot. A little cliff side area. Down below was the cold dark sea, the same sea he had fell in years ago while fighting Rued.

He disembarked and walked towards the edge, placing one foot forward as he looked down on the dark water. In seconds, it could be over if he chose to. He remembered the first time he fell, how from a few seconds he hit the water.

If only I just drowned the first time. Maybe Eivor would be still alive, and even if she died it wouldn't have been through my hand.

He placed his foot back away from the edge, continuing to stare at the watery depths as he debated mentally on whether to end it or not.

He decided to sit down and admire the view of the rocky cliffs opposite and the small beach opposite to Dunwich next to him.

I still can't believe I managed to swim to that beach before Rued captured me. Even with my injuries I defied everything and survived. But what use is it? I've lost my child and now my wife and now Eivor. Even Finnr is dead. Everyone that came to this cliff with me is dead.

Why not join them? So you can be free? - another voice told Oswald

I'm here. It's alright. Come with me. I'm waiting for you. Eivor's voice said

Oswald stood up, looking around him, feeling delirious and weak. Was he imagining things? Was the lack of sleep and food really getting to him?

"Eivor?" Oswald called out, his voice echoing in the wind

I'm here in the water. Jump and We'll be free. Together. Isn't that what you want? To be free?

Oswald hesitated. He so badly wanted to jump, to end it all and to be free from this pain. To find the easy way out, but something was stopping him.

What if I don't die? What if I fail? Drowning isn't easy. What if it's a long and painful process? I want something quick and easy...

As if hearing his worries, Eivor's voice spoke up more reassuring.

Think of it as a swim and I'll be right there with you. All you need to do is jump and then we can be together again. You didn't come all this way to give up did you?

"No I didn't" Oswald murmured, feeling more courage and determination

Good. I'll be waiting, don't take too long - the voice laughed.

The voice. It sounds so much like her. God how I miss her and want to be with her so bad, and if death is the only way so be it.

Taking a deep breath, he stepped over the edge. If I don't look like the first time it will be a lot easier. He positioned himself backwards ready to take the plunge and jump once more.

Closing his eyes, as he felt tears welling down his cheeks he murmured one last prayer. "Forgive me Lord for I have sinned. And Forgive me Valdis for doing this. I love you all"

Then he jumped, falling backwards once more for the last time. With a soft splash, he fell in the dark water. For a second he was floating, sinking to the bottom staring at the dark mass and nothingness around him.

Water started to fill his lungs, as he coughed painfully, images of his life started to flicker by. From the early memories of playing in the farm at Beteleah, to losing his parents in a raid, to being an orphaned farmboy, meeting Finnr, meeting Eivor, Marrying Valdis, the birth of his son, the battle, Eivor's death and finally the events at the dinner table earlier on during the day.

White light flashed as Oswald found himself no longer in the dark ocean anymore, he seemed to be in some sort of church?

Eivor and Finnr smiled at him along with the Lord.

"Welcome Oswald. I've missed you" Finnr smiled a big grin, ready to embrace him as Eivor smiled behind him

Oswald took one last look as the door to the church slammed shut behind him. He had made it. He was now in the afterlife, along with Finnr and Eivor. He had made it to heaven.

Author's Note: I decided to make him go to heaven to lighten things up a bit after what was a bit of a dark story, even though Suicide is a sin and with what he did he should of went to hell but hey the story is dark enough already so at least the ending sweetens it up a bit. I also originally was going to make Oswald hit Valdis as well, but cut that part out as it was too cruel of him to do that. I know it's not him but PTSD taking control but still. It wouldn't have been possible either because if he did, Valdis would have had him on the floor headlocked within seconds (She's so badass like that) so just cut it out.

In case any of you are wondering as to how Valdis found out that Oswald cheated on her by Kissing Eivor, he wrote it in his diary and she found out through there (he was using it as a way of healing writing it down to make him feel better) in the alternate DV scene I was going to have Valdis find the diary, open the pages and that's when he was going to smack her over it. But I cut that out and had him take it out on the furniture. I know both versions are toxic behaviours, but for the context of this fic, Which one would you have preferred this one or the scrapped version? Let me know on the comments below. Thanks for reading!