Lonely Star, why are you far?
Why?
Why am I here? W-Why was I placed with this responsibility?
Why did it have to be m-me? Why… why couldn't it be somebody else?
I'm… I'm a nobody.
Why?
Why did it have to end this way? Why does everyone… and everything hate me? Why was I put into this journey in the first place when I can't even…
AUGH!
It hurts.
It hurts so much… I can't even move my legs anymore. I can't even run away anymore as I grab the grass, the leaves, the twigs, and even with what little strength I had left I tried to push on…
WHY?
Why did I do this to myself? W-why did I still have the urge to carry on? Despite all of the burdens? All of the hardships? All of the sufferings? Why did I continue to push on and hope? W-Why did I continue to wade through all of the madness and pain despite knowing I could never reach that far?
That I could never be what many people call me as.
That I could never be what they wanted and hoped for.
AGH!
I look at my hands. Blood was now spilling from my mouth. I-I could taste the iron in it. The bitter, metallic taste continues to surge forward out of my gut. My eyes continued to dim as my tears persisted to stream down from them. I could no longer handle the pain for so long. It's just been excruciating.
Aaaaauuuuuuuughhhhhh…
I sob. N-No longer caring if anyone found me. No longer caring if they were to smite me on the spot, b-because… b-because… I just couldn't take it anymore. All my strength has left me as my blood continues to pool around my clothes. The wound in my stomach continued to radiate the pain b-but even that was starting to lessen…
A-And it was cold. So cold. I was shivering as the world seen through my eyes was becoming darker.
I don't even remember where my staff was. I couldn't even hear much of anything anymore…
My eyes moved towards the sky as I continued to cry in anguish.
I… I couldn't hear them anymore.
Grandpa…
Merlin…
Anyone… I-I can't hear them anymore.
I then look at the far star. The one that illuminated my path. T-The one that I always looked up to whenever I felt lonely or sad. T-The one that I always shouldered to make me go on.
B-But… but I couldn't anymore.
AECHCKKK!
My breathing was becoming shallow as I stared at the star with only one thought on my mind…
Why did you lie to me?
All of you?
Where were you in my time of need?
Why did I need to be the savior of this barren, terrible land?
Why… why did I have to stare at the far, lonely star kindling myself with hope when…
…there was none to be found?
P-Perhaps I was just a mistake. Perhaps Mother and the rest of the town were correct about me.
I-I was never the Child of Prophecy.
I was just a lie and a liar will always die for their own misdeeds.
Despite the pain becoming dull I continued to tear up as I stared at the star. A small, sarcastic smile graced my lips. Perhaps dying was a good thing.
At the very least I no longer need to feel pain anymore…
My eyes close as the sound of rain against the peaceful forest where my body lay started to occur around me. I welcome peace.
I welcome the darkness even as a shadow loomed over me…
Perhaps it was Merlin frowning at my failure.
Or perhaps it was someone else just staring at a nobody.
A nobody like me.
Thank you Lonely Star… I… I hate you.
And then there was nothing.
There was a beeping sound.
It was like a rhythm. It continued to manifest every few seconds as I felt my senses come back.
Wait. Wasn't I… wasn't I dying? Wasn't I dead?
What happened?
My body still felt stiff. Weak, but I could move inch by inch as consciousness slowly returned to me. I feel my fingers move as the soft murmurs of a voice start to occur near me.
Eventually my eyes opened. Blurry at first as I saw white.
The entire room was white. The bed I was on was white and the walls were white.
Was this where people go when they die? I don't think so.
Nevertheless, I groaned as the feeling of pain returned to my senses but before I could even say anything, I eventually noticed that a crying form of a woman beside me started to stand up and come close to me.
"O-Oh Dear God… I thought you would never wake up." She said softly with relief as her fingers quickly interlaced themselves with mine. I looked at her in a confused manner as she continued to tear up and laugh in relief and happiness at my well-being.
"D-Do you feel okay? D-Does anything hurt?" she asked as she took out an object from her pocket and started… touching it? Typing on it? I… I didn't know.
It was there as I continued to stare at her that I realized…
I could not see her. I could not see who she was.
Yet as I stared into her eyes, there was a genuine spark in them. A truth of emotion that eclipsed everything and everyone I had met so far in life. It was bizarre. Untold.
I could not help but tear up due to how truthful the concern and joy there was on her face.
"Is there something wrong?" the woman asked as I felt a tear go down my cheek.
"Oh, honey… It's okay. It's not your fault. It was an accident."
I opened my lips trying to say something before the door to the room opened quite loudly and suddenly both of us were startled. But it certainly did not prepare me for who it was that barged in.
"AAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS!"
She flew towards me at such speeds that she placed me into a surprisingly soft embrace.
"YOU'RE AWAKE! I… I was so worried." The blonde girl happily said with tears in her eyes as she faced me with such relief that I was shocked.
"Vicky! She just woke up. We don't want to get her into a coma again right?" the woman beside me said as I looked at her and the younger girl.
"Sorry Aunt Sarah… I'm just happy! It's just… It's been days. We were all starting to get scared."
"I know." The older woman said as she kissed the head of the girl as I looked at them.
"She's awake! Thank goodness!" another voice came out as I looked at the doorway and saw the man who similarly looked happy come in as two younger children walked towards my bed. Another pair of a man and a woman came behind them as they all smiled.
"Mom! Dad! Look! Amy's awake." The girl, Vicky I heard them call her said as a slew of cheers came into the room.
"Glad you're awake Amy." Another girl I heard them call Sarah said as she nodded at me as her brother, Eric whom Sarah mentioned laughed in relief.
They started talking excitedly and happily around me as I continued to stare.
Confused but at the same time happy(?) that they were genuinely happy for me.
Why though?
Why-
"I'm glad you're finally up… Amy." A voice, much more prim and proper, a lot stiffer emotion said out of the haze of joy and happiness. I singled the voice out with my eyes as I looked at a blonde woman whose face while smiling looked to be neutral at best with my condition.
It was bizarre and out of place.
"Carol, come on. Weren't you worried about her too?" a calmer much more caring voice said on the man beside her as he smiled at me.
"Don't be a killjoy mom. Look! Amy's awake!"
There was a slew of laughter as the blonde woman rolled her eyes while smiling as they continued to cheer for my expense.
Yet I continued to watch them both in interest and confusion.
One that the woman named Sarah seemed to notice.
"Amy? Are you alright?"
I looked at her as the room slowly went silent.
"Amy?"
I looked at each of them one by one again as I returned my eyes to Sarah.
"W-Who are you people?" I asked politely and truthfully as they all looked at me in shock.
AN: This is the original snip, for updated AN, please go to next chapter