I sat between two, incredibly gorgeous naked women, finally being able to discuss what happened to me without being judged for it.
Illustrious and Implacable didn't say anything, simply giving me sympathetic looks while nodding along with me. I wanted to start bawling partway through my talk, but I couldn't, despite feeling the tears build up behind my eyes I just felt... blocked up emotionally. A mix of sadness and anger, just clogging up my system.
Implacable told me to just let go, and that she'd help me to release my emotions. She held my hands and with her thumbs she started massaging my palms. I don't know what witchcraft she was performing, but I could feel the build up getting more intense, whatever wall was keeping me from letting it out was starting to crumble.
"Its OK agent, no one is going to judge you for crying. You don't need to fear what we'll think of you, we'll still respect you." Illustrious told me. She was gently rubbing my shoulders from behind, loosening me up. Implacable was watching me with a kind smile.
"You can do this, you're safe, no one else can see or hear you, just relax and you'll release all that pent up emotion." Implacable was saying soothingly. Her voice felt like it had wormed into my head, and behind my eyes, pushing my tears out. Once the first sob came out, there was no going back, everything else just came pouring out of me.
I felt so much lighter as I wailed, like whatever weight I had on me just...vanished. This was different from crying in front of Musashi, it wasn't frustration or fear I was feeling...just...happiness. I felt confused at first, but I stopped caring after a couple of seconds, I had never felt such...relief. I wanted to keep speaking, but I couldn't with the sobs and sniffles. Implacable just watched me, still smiling at me as she kept rubbing my palms, working all of this emotional crap out of me.
"I...I'm...not used to crying...in front of others." I stated honestly, sniffling a little as Implacable hugged me. Illustrious also embraced me from behind, nuzzling her head into the back of my neck. Their sizeable breasts squishing up against my body.
"I'm proud of you Silver, this is a big step for you, you don't need to feel ashamed of this, nobody here will judge you for what happened with the woman who assaulted you, you were a victim." Illustrious said to me. Through my tears I managed a smile, putting one arm around Implacable while putting a hand on Illustrious's arm.
"Thank you...thank you so much..." I choked out. I have never felt so happy, loved and safe before. I had no idea how much I needed to get that emotional gunk out of me. I wanted this heavenly feeling to last forever, pretty suitable considering Implacable is a nun...I think? "I feel so much better...I..." Before I could finish, Implacable put a finger on my lips.
"Come on, lets get some sleep you two, you'll need it for tomorrow's activities~" Implacable teased. Illustrious and I both blushed hearing her say that. But I smiled, now actually looking forward to the rest of my stay here at Azur lane. All three of us lay back down on the bed, both women cuddling me, sleep came to me much easier than the last few nights I was here.
The next day
I woke up with Illustrious still asleep on me, I looked to my other side but Implacable was gone, as I was looking around I saw her leave the bathroom with a towel in hand, her more than busty chest jiggling the whole time she moved her towel around her body. I blushed as she caught me ogling her, but that just seemed to make her move more sensually, deliberately taking her time to run her hands over her raised hip and thigh.
"My my Agent, you seem much happier this morning~" She told me flirtatiously. I held my hand over my nose, waiting for a nosebleed from her naughty movements.
"Y-yes, I feel much better after last night." I replied with a nervous chuckle. She smirked and walked over, putting emphasis on swinging her motherly hips as she got closer, damn this is a naughty woman! Yep I got another boner just from that. Even through the bed sheets Implacable could see the bulge near my crotch.
"It seems your cock is full of sin agent, need me to purify it with my body~?" She licked her lips and lowered her eyelids as she asked. My face could not be any redder, she's so fucking sexy. I wasn't sure how to go along with the act, so as cringe as what I said next was, at least it was something.
"Forgive me mother for I have sinned, what must I do to repent?" I replied, trying to act as 'ashamed' as I could with the act. Implacable giggled a little at my acting, but wasn't discouraged from getting on the bed with me and keeping it up.
"Offer your body to me, only by sating my desire and giving up your sinful carnal fluids, can you find forgiveness~" She crawled up my body as she spoke, with only the bed sheets between me and her heavenly body, I was really turned on. The naughty, risqué nature of this religious role-play was so fucking sexy, wow I was so going to hell if God is real. I breathed in deeply, taking in her womanly scent as she got closer. She was going so slowly, making me wait until I agree to her...'terms'.
"Take me..." I panted out, her face less than an inch apart from my own. She flashed me a smirk before disappearing under the sheets. I yelped a little too loud for my own liking as I felt a hand on my balls, then a second on my cock. Wow I'm so sensitive!
"For your sin to be forgiven, release it to me through your penis, and I will purify you." I gasped shakily as she spoke, her voice vibrating my cock, then I yelped again feeling her tongue on me. I hear her moaning softly under the sheets, not being able to see what she was doing just sent my imagination wild. Not to mention my nerves.
"Ah~ t-take my sins...mmff!" I put my hand over my mouth to keep from being too loud. Didn't want to wake Illustrious just yet. I could feel Implacable's lips softly glide over my shaft, as well as her talented tongue dancing across the tip. Even though I couldn't see what she was doing, I could definitely feel it. God she only did this a few minutes and I already wanted to blow. I already did this last night, yet I'm still THIS horny?
I started involuntarily twitching my hips from this masterful blowjob, pressure building up behind my cock. Implacable realised what was about to happen and I could feel her lips curl into a smirk. My eyes rolled into my head as she cradled my balls, swirling her tongue around my shaft delicately. I had no chance once she started that.
I bucked my hips and exploded inside her mouth, muffled moaning into my hand as I tried not to yelp again, holy fuck I felt good. I was too drained to even move my head to look down, I twitched some more as Implacable massaged my dick, sucking up my cum while coaxing as much as she could out of me. I shuddered with pleasure as I felt her moans vibrate my dick, just...wow...
She finally released my dick from her mouth, just leaving me to keep panting from how much fun this had been.
"Oh wow..." I stated breathlessly. "I guess...thats one way...to purify someone." Implacable giggled and helped me sit up.
"I was only partly joking agent, this really does clear your body and mind of impurities, why do you think it feels so good~?" Implacable teased, winking at me. I chuckled nervously and swung my legs off the bed. Still feeling a little dazed from the afterglow.
"T-thanks for that Implacable, and for last night...I..." I couldn't finish and sniffled a little thinking back to the night before. The nun carrier gently put a hand on my cheek and made me face her.
"Remember: Never hold it back and allow it to fester. Just allow your feelings to flow, whether its your tears or your cum, don't bottle it up, let it out." She reminded me, she then flashed me a sultry smile and added: "You know you shoot ALOT out of your dick agent, I think you'll need more help from many other women here before you leave~" She teased with an eyebrow waggle.
I blushed as images of sex positions with other potential kansen I'd seen flashed through my head, whoa I'm gonna need a lot of brain bleach to clean up the new gutter in my mind. With a shake of my head at my own thoughts, I thanked Implacable for her time and asked her to tell Illustrious I needed to leave. Then got changed and left her room.
Later on...
The Commander had finally opened a time slot for me in his calender, guess he was fairly confident his people would take care of me until he was ready. He was right. Well I guess its finally time to properly meet the big man himself.
I rounded a corner and saw Akagi outside his office at a small desk, guess she's the secretory? She saw me coming and smiled, waving me over to her. I smiled back at her and stepped up to her desk, prompting her to stand up and hug me.
"Hey Silver~ You're looking much better today~!" She greeted in a playful voice. I smiled and hugged her back. I could already tell she was correct: I had none of the anxiety I felt when she first tried to hug me. I felt lighter overall and just plain happier.
"Yeah, thanks for suggesting I talk to Musashi, she was a big help." I replied as we separated. Akagi smiled at me with a small giggle.
"I thought so, me and Kaga are heading to the bathhouse later if you need a soaking~" She suggested, winking at me. I blushed and laughed with her.
"I'll...keep that in mind." I told her. Akagi then knocked on the door and peeked inside to say something to the Commander, after a moment she leaned back and told me to head inside. I stepped in to this lavish office, seeing the Commander on a computer. He saw me enter and waved me over with a smile.
"Take a seat agent, I'll be with you in a moment." He told me before looking back at his computer. I obeyed and walked over to his desk, much larger than the one Akagi was sat at.
"Nice place you have here sir." I told him politely as I sat down, he chuckled and shook his head while waving his hand.
"Don't call me 'sir' or salute me; I prefer informal contact as much as possible." The Commander replied. Wow, he's really chill guy for his rank, no wonder the ship girls all love him. "'Commander' is just fine, so anyway how are you settling in here at Azur lane?"
"Its...alot more informal here than I thought it would be, all the ship girls are very friendly and its just...a pleasant vibe here." I replied honestly. He smiled at me and nodded in agreement.
"That's how I felt when I first arrived too, these women are something else aren't they?" The Commander laughed again. He then sat down in his chair across from me. "So uh..." He stopped for a moment before losing his smile, causing me some concern. "OK, there's no way to soften the blow on this; Max told me what happened to you."
My eyes almost popped out my head at that statement, he knows?! "Wait...you mean about..." I was about to ask, not able to finish the sentence I trailed off.
"Yes...I understand you're here for...*ahem* 'exposure therapy' right?" The Commander asked, he sounded a little apprehensive about bringing up the subject, I don't blame him. But since I felt better now than when I arrived, I didn't let it spoil my mood.
"Well... yes...Max's idea, I was really surprised I met so many kansen willing to...well...help." I replied shyly, feeling my face heat up in embarrassment. That seemed to pique the Commander's curiosity, as I saw his eyebrow raise.
"That's rather interesting, sounds like you have a high Wisdom Cube Affinity, or WCA." The Commander then pulled a document from the desk, and placed it in front of me. It had 'Wisdom Cube Affinity Roster' at the top in black letters. "Not many people have that Agent, I'm one of a very few number of people in the navy to also have a high WCA, its why I'm the Commanding officer of this base." He continued to explain.
I picked up the document and fiddled with it between my fingers; it wasn't a thick piece of paperwork, so I could already tell the Commander was correct. "What does it mean to have a high WCA anyway?" I asked him.
The Commander leaned back and put a finger to his chin in thought. "Its not fully understood, and still under research. But for some reason, a very small group of people have a stronger than average connection to Wisdom cubes, giving them a more powerful resonance. The kansen perceive that as feeling stronger, more powerful and more confident around those with a high WCA. So they'll naturally want to be around you more." He explained.
"No wonder I keep attracting them to me." I muttered. "I uh...I'm glad you're not mad about my uh...'therapy'." I added, rubbing my head nervously. The Commander just chuckled and stood up.
"Hey as along as you're both consenting and not disrupting anybody else, who cares what you do." He remarked with another chuckle. I also laughed a little with him, this guy is actually fun! "The kansen have needs just like any human do, so 'helping' them with those 'needs' is pretty much considered an unofficial part of the job as Commander." He joked, laughed some more, blushing lightly at that confession. I then remembered something and clicked my fingers as I recalled it.
"That's it! I just remembered something, I was wondering if MI9 could perhaps keep a permanent presence here? The kansen were worried about using too much force against human aggressors, what if having more agents here could help them out?" I suggested to the Commander.
"I like that idea." He agreed. "As amazing as the kansen are, they do struggle against non-Siren threats, you and your colleagues at MI9 could be a real help there."
I smiled, feeling good about this arrangement as I wanted to help repay Azur lane as a whole; they've done so much for me, it seemed only fair to give something back. So me and the Commander spent the rest of that meeting planning and discussing where the MI9 section of the base could go.
Later
With that meeting over with, I left to explore the base some more; there was still plenty of it to see that I hadn't explored yet. I found a footpath that lead up to a hilltop overlooking the rest of the base, nothing here except a small tree, but its a nice view up here. So I sat down to relax for a while.
The wind gently blew over my rough skin, soothing the exposed scars from battles and missions gone by. I had caught my various sex partners glancing at some of the more obvious ones, probably worried I needed medical help from their sympathetic faces, maybe their right, I have been known to refuse medical attention from time to time, usually because I felt the mission objective was too time sensitive for me to fully recover.
"Peaceful up here isn't it?" I heard a voice from behind me, I turned to look and found Enterprise behind me. A bald eagle on her left forearm as she walked to my side. "I often come here myself, the wind is cooler up here compared to near the ocean...its so calming..." She seemed to get quieter as she talked, the last three words barely above a whisper in volume.
"I know the feeling." I replied, looking up at her from the grass. "You got time to sit with me?" I added, holding my hand out to her. Enterprise looked down at me, looking surprised for a moment. But she smiled a little and took my hand, sitting next to me on the grass. Her eagle flew off and landed on one of the tree's branches, watching over the two of us with its golden eyes.
"Word of your...um...'therapy'... is getting around Agent, you're something of a minor celebrity among the older ship girls." Enterprise told me with a blush. Oh god, Enterprise's words made my heart skip a beat, I wasn't sure if I could even keep up with the number of women who wanted me now, god damn it Max!
"That...wasn't my intention, honestly I don't even know why I'm really here, I thought my life was fine." I told her. The silver haired carrier looked over at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Do you really believe that Silver?" She asked me curiously. I sighed and looked back at her, trying to drop any masks I might be trying to subconsciously put up.
"I did at first, now... I'm not so sure...ever since I first arrived I...I feel conflicted." I admitted to her. "Its like I..."
"Like you're starting to be human again?" Enterprise finished for me. I looked at her with slight shock, noticing she was looking over the base with a solemn expression. "I know exactly what you're going through, I myself have needed my own...'therapy' a long time ago." She told me.
"What do you mean?" I asked her. She gave me a sideways glance, narrowing her eyes a little, almost like she was pondering if she should tell me or not.
"Its a long story, but to cut it short here's my point." Enterprise then turned to face me properly. Scooting up to me a little. "I didn't think of myself as any more than a weapon, I didn't care about anything relating to civilian life or if I died in battle; I just wanted to of use as a warship." She looked down a little, ashamed of her past self. "Then I met Belfast and...she saved me from myself...I would probably be at the bottom of the ocean by now if it wasn't for her, or still be an empty shell of a person...not sure which is worse."
I noticed as she talked, she shed a tear. She sniffled a little before wiping it away, then she locked eyes with me, a determined look on her face. Wow this girl was intense. She then spoke to me in a stern, yet concerned voice.
"Silver, take some advice from someone who's been where you are..." She then gestured to the visible scars on my arm. "Assuming you don't get yourself killed, you will break yourself as a person if you keep up your old habits, your fear is no excuse to stop being human, this therapy you're doing is a good start, but you need to look at yourself as a person before you can truly change." Enterprise explained.
She had a good point, it wasn't just the sex, pretty much everyone here has helped me in other aspects of my life, Dido with my initial fears, Akagi with my social skills, Nelson with my confidence, Musashi, Illustrious and Implacable with my mental state. I can't believe I didn't notice it before. I looked at Enterprise with a resolute expression and nodded my head.
"I get it, its not just my fear, I need...I need to find my human side again...I've been numb to it for so long..." I felt a little melancholic as I said that, realising I still had a long way to go, I guess I was gonna be stuck on this island for a while longer, but I don't mind as much I did when I first arrived. I smiled a little, feeling thankful for all the good that these women have done for me.
Enterprise nodded and smiled with me. "I'm glad you understand agent, now-" She was about to stand up, but as she moved her foot it slid on a loose stone, with a short yelp she fell on top of me. I cried out a little too as we both fell to the ground, I landed on my back, a little winded from the fall, Enterprise managed to catch herself before she tumbled on top of me, putting her hands on my shoulders. Her naval cap fell off and landed beside us, allowing the wind to really capture her silky silver hair, I wasn't really paying attention to her looks before, but she is really beautiful.
Enterprise's face went beet red at our position, her confident and somewhat imposing aura from before vanished completely, her voice went from calm and strong, to stuttering like a timid school girl.
"A-agent! I-I uh...I-I didn't mean t-to...! I'm...I'm so sorry!" She stammered, for some reason it didn't occur to her to just get up again, since she had her arms on my shoulders I couldn't move much. But I did manage to get my finger on her lips, that seemed to make her blush even more, but it shut her up for a moment.
"Its fine...you were saying before I needed to find my human side again right?" I started blushing myself as I tried to word what I said next carefully, I wanted to take my shot and hopefully get a girl on my own terms for once. But at the same time I didn't want to seem like I was just adding Enterprise to a long list of women I've bedded, I wanted this to mean something more than just another notch on the bed post, assuming I even get that far with Enterprise.
"Would you be willing to...show me what you learned from your own therapy?" I asked her as honestly as I could. Enterprise blinked a little, processing what I just said for a moment.
"You...you want MY help? I-I mean...theres plenty of more experienced girls who could-" I cut her off again, holding her cheek gently to keep her facing me.
"You misunderstand Enterprise, I don't want sex, I want to know your experience, how you changed yourself for the better, you said I need to look at myself as a person right, who would be a better guide than someone who had to go through it herself?" I explained. She seemed to get a little calmer, even smiling a little at me.
"I...I would like that, someone who understands who I was before and who I want to be...that's...well..." She trailed off, looking offside for a moment, before looking back at me again, with another small smile. Before I could say anything else, she kissed me; and not a small peck either.
I gave a muffled yelp as Enterprise brushed her lips up against my own, she was so soft and gentle for someone so strong, I had no complaints about this. She moaned quietly as she pulled back a little. I could feel her heart pounding in her chest, despite how busty it was and us both being fully clothed. No doubt she could feel mine thumping away too. Enterprise looked down at me, blushing even deeper than before, but smiling at me happily.
"I look forward to our time together Silver, I hope you're ready for this~" She teased, slowly running her hand down my chest. I smiled up at her, pleased with myself and happy for her. I put my arms around her waist as she leaned in again.
"I look forward to it too Enterprise"
"Please, call me 'Enty'" She corrected, pecking my lips, she then sat up on my lap, looking down at me with a sideways smirk. "Now I know you said you didn't want sex, but is that really true?" She asked me slyly. My eyes widened in surprise as she spoke.
"Uh, eh hehehe..." I chuckled nervously, rubbing the back of my head. "I'm not opposed to it if you're willing." I replied honestly. Enterprise chuckled and stood up, I was confused for a moment before she offered her hand. I picked up her cap before I grabbed her hand, letting her help me up. Once I was up on my feet I gave it back to her. She looked down at the cap for a moment before smiling and putting it on my head.
"Looks good on you...'Captain'" She commented with a salute. I laughed with her and straightened the cap up as I walked back down, my new girlfriend in tow.