Disclaimer: This is a fan made story. Evangelion belongs to Studio Khara.
"Normal speech"
'Thought'
Shinji stood in the living room confused. He was trying to process what had just happened. He kissed Asuka, or rather, she kissed him. His first kiss.
"If you tell anyone about this I will kill you! Just forget about it!"
After the kiss, Asuka ran off to the bathroom. Shinji didn't have time to react. He could hear the water and how Asuka brushed her teeth. She did that loudly, commenting on how stupid this idea was to kill time.
A distinctive sound spread through the apartment. The sound of the apartment door opening. Shinji took a few steps toward the hallway to get a view of the door. He expected to see Misato as she was the only one with a card to the apartment. He wasn't wrong. However, she wasn't alone.
"Help me please and open the bedroom door."
It was Kaji. He was supporting a clearly drunk Misato. Shinji just nodded and immediately moved to help.
Asuka came out of the bathroom and saw Kaji standing at Misato's bedroom door. She immediately ran up to the man.
"Kaji!"
The expression on the Asuka's face was now completely different. She was clearly happy to see Kaji. Just a moment ago, she was upset and complaining. This did not escape Shinji's attention. As far back as he could remember, she had always reacted this way at the sight of Kaji.
"Hey kiddo."
"Will you be staying the night?"
Kaji laughed hearing the question. "I can't show up for work like this in the morning." He waved his hand goodbye and moved toward the exit of the apartment.
"Don't worry about that. Stay here." Asuka grabbed Kaji arm. It was of no use, she let go of his arm and he left the apartment.
"Take care of Misato for me. Have a good night."
"We will, thank you." Shinji closed the door and Kaji disappeared from view.
Asuka's facial expression changed again. Before she let go of Kaji's arm, she smelled a scent. She knew it very well. It was Misato's lavender perfume. There was only one thought in her head.
'So they're together again.'
She thought for a moment, but noticed that Shinji was looking at her.
"Are you all right?"
"Of course not!" She raised her voice. "I kissed an idiot like you!" She ran to her room.
Ceiling. A familiar ceiling. A view that Shinji once hated. Now it calms him down. He enjoys looking at the lights reflected on it.
Good work Shinji.
Words he heard from his father some time ago. Words that made him very happy. It was the first time his father had praised him. It gave some degree of meaning to his piloting. He even acknowledged it at dinner after the fight with the angel. But afterwards, his father didn't praise him. He wanted to change that.
Asuka's reaction today to see Kaji gave some food for thought. In a way, Shinji envied these energetic reactions.
His father praised him after successfully fighting the angel. Asuka said that Kaji's a man and he's just a boy. Is this a way to get attention? To show that one is a man? Is this what his father expects?
There remains the question of Asuka. He didn't understand her. Why did she kiss him?
Many people at school would envy him if they found out. Although, he knew that this fame wouldn't last long as she would kill him right after he revealed their secret.
Shinji let out a light chuckle before turning to sleep.
Asuka was lying on her stomach with her head in a pillow. Today was not a very good day for her.
It started with a date with Kodoma's friend. Asuka didn't expect anything special from this date. She agreed only for Hikari's sake. Her expectations were low. She went mostly out of curiosity. Her low expectations turned out to be too high. She quickly returned to the apartment.
She was met with a pleasant surprise at the apartment. Shinji's playing on the cello pleased her very much. When she applauded him, it was sincere. She didn't know that he had an instrument and that he could play it.
Then came something she didn't understand herself. She was bored, but that was no reason to kiss Shinji. The kiss was weak, but there was something strange about it. She shook her head.
'It was the first time. That's probably why it was strange.'
At the end of the day, she smelled lavender from Kaji. Asuka guessed that they still felt something for each other. She saw Kaji's efforts which made her nauseous. She tried to flirt with Kaji, but to no avail. He rejected her advances every single time. He always treated her as if he were her uncle.
It was another training day at NERV. It proceeded normally. After the training, it was time for the sync test for the pilots.
Shinji tried to focus more than usual. Previous sync tests had taught him that it's best when he's not distracted by anything. Therefore, he tried not to think about anything and concentrate.
The focus had a positive effect which didn't escape Maya attention.
"Major, please take a look."
Misato walked over to the monitor and looked at the data. It looked encouraging. Shinji got the highest score. It happened for the first time. Asuka's score dropped gently, but such fluctuation between tests was not unusual. The results fluctuated during the same test.
"Good work Shinji, you're currently number one." Misato turned off the microphone. "Maybe this will boost his morale a little."
Through the monitor, they could see the satisfaction on Shinji's face. His focus worked. What he didn't know was that he was helped by Asuka's distraction.
"Thank you Misato!"
"All it took was for the best pilot to arrive and you're already improving. A little more and you will be able to fight yourself."
Asuka's mocking voice hid her true emotions. She was furious, but she didn't want to show it. After all, she was the best pilot, not him. Clenching the joystick with her hand, she wanted to continue mocking Shinji.
"Stop it and focus." Misato interrupted, cutting off the conversation. She didn't want another childish discussion.
"My sister told me that the date went poorly. Sorry." Hikari felt bad for asking her friend for a favor. She did it because her sister Kodoma had been asking her for a long time.
"The guy was super boring. I left him while we waited in line. I was sick of his talking. Even Shinji is more interesting." Asuka looked at her friend. "No more blind dates."
"I promise."
They opened their lunch boxes and began to eat. Quite often they ate lunch together away from the other students. They liked to talk to each other on this occasion.
Asuka saw in the distance Shinji sitting and eating with his friends. She saw Toji glancing in their direction from time to time. He did that several times. A thought occurred to her. Not a very pleasant one. She got up from her seat.
"Asuka?"
"Hold my lunch for a moment. I need to speak to the idiot."
Asuka approached Shinji and grabbed his hand before he could speak. "We need to talk."
They moved away a piece, to a place where no one would hear them.
"Did you tell anyone about our kiss?"
"No, I didn't tell anyone."
Shinji didn't know why she was asking him. She had let him know beforehand what she would do to him when she told someone.
"Then why is your stupid friend Suzuhara looking in my direction every now and then as if he knows something?"
The question puzzled Shinji, but also frightened him. He turned toward Toji and then looked at Asuka again.
"I really didn't say anything to him. I swear. You can ask him."
"You really are an idiot. You want me to ask him if he knows that we kissed?"
Shinji didn't think of that. She was right. He wondered how else he could convince Asuka that he had not revealed their secret.
The expression on Shinji's face suggested that he wasn't lying. Asuka figured that if he said it now it was too late anyway. She came up with a quick idea of what she would do. When someone asks her, she'll simply deny everything and say that Shinji's a pervert and has sick fantasies.
Asuka returned to her seat and spoke up before Hikari had the chance ask. "NERV stuff."
The door opened and Misato rushed into the room. The first thing she saw was a giant spherical creature with stripes displayed on the monitor.
"An angel?"
"Orange pattern, no A.T. field detected." Answered Hyuga.
"How is it possible that this thing appeared in the middle of the city unnoticed? Fuji station reported nothing?" Misato was concerned that something so large could slip under their noses unnoticed.
"There were no reports. This thing suddenly appeared out of nowhere. It moves very slowly, almost not at all." This time it was Aoba who answered.
Misato did not like what happened. She turned toward Ritsuko, who was analyzing the data from the computer together with Maya. Ritsuko just shook her head.
"The data is inconclusive. No conclusion from the MAGI."
"Where are the pilots?"
"Rei is waiting in her unit. Shinji and Asuka are leaving the locker room."
So far, the only good news. Another peek at the monitor. The angel is not moving. Not yet knowing what they were up against, Misato decided to take a defensive approach to the battle. She thought it best if they approached the angel from a distance.
"Redirect EVAs to elevator E-17. Have Shinji and Asuka approach the target slowly and have Rei support them from a distance with a sniper fire."
"Yes ma'am!"
Misato needed more information on what they were up against. There was some time before the pilots reached the units. More scraps of information were coming from the team. Not enough to deduce anything. They sent the information to the pilots. Not much, but always something.
"A new type of angel?"
Ritsuko shrugged her shoulders. "We can't say much at this point."
The pilots reached the surface. Rei took a sniper rifle, but she did not have a clear line of fire so she went to a more suitable position. There was not much choice of weapons in the place where they landed so they chose what was available. Shinji grabbed a pistol and Asuka grabbed an ax.
"Shinji should take the lead." Asuka's voice sounded a bit mocking. "After all, he is number one."
"Focus on the mission."
Misato did not like the kids' banter. Not at the moment. Right now they had a mission to carry out. Unfortunately, things were not going her way.
"Asuka's right. You said it yourself that I am number one." Shinji's confidence took over.
"That's not wha-"
It was too late. Shinji ignored what Misato was saying. He moved forward. Fast enough to cause a problem for Asuka. Her power cord snagged on the building and stopped her. She had to disconnect it and get a new one. It took long enough for Shinji to get away from her.
'Shit.' Asukacursed in her head when she looked at how far apart they were.
Shinji was close enough. He leaned out from behind the building and looked at the angel. A spherical body with no visible core. Just like in the data they gave him. Without thinking long, he pointed his gun.
"Attacking."
Shinji fired two shots. Just as the first shot was about to reach the target the target disappeared. This caused great surprise among everyone. Both bullets missed.
"It disappeared? How's that possible?"
Almost at the same moment when Misato asked the question, an alarm sounded. An alarm that everyone knew well.
"A.T. Field detected right under EVA-01!"
"Pattern blue, it's an angel!"
Shinji looked down and saw the ground getting darker and darker. After a while, everything above the dark surface began to sink. The lampposts, the buildings, and most of all, his EVA. Frightened, he began to shoot at the ground. Bullets fell into the ground and disappeared without effect.
"Help! Misato!"
Shinji started screaming in terror. His unit was sinking to the ground. His feet were like glued on. It was dragging him like quicksand. He was unable to free himself.
"Asuka. Rei. Help Shinji!"
Asuka took off running towards Shinji.
Rei aimed her sniper rifle at the spherical body that appeared and disappeared from time to time. Her firing was ineffective. The target disappeared before the bullet could hit it.
"Help!"
Another cry of despair. Shinji tried to block with his hand, but it didn't work. His unit was mostly absorbed.
Asuka was almost there. In the distance, she could see a piece of head sticking up above the ground. She had very little time left. She looked around to see if she could see something with which she could try to free Shinji.
At the command center, Misato looked on helplessly at what was happening. Seeing that Asuka was unable to do anything to help Shinji, she decided to announce a retreat. For now, there was nothing more they could do.
"Retreat."
Retreat? Asuka was surprised. She was close. Close enough to help Shinji. She just didn't know how yet. She couldn't back out now and leave him.
"Wha-" Asuka was interrupted.
"Ikari is still trapped." Rei's voice was calm as usual, but Asuka could swear she sensed concern in that voice.
"Fall back now! That's an order!"
Asuka did not immediately obey the order. She wanted to save Shinji. Unfortunately, all she could do at the moment was watch his unit disappear into the blackness. After a moment, she noticed the ground beneath her was becoming darker.
"A shadow?"
She looked up, but saw nothing that could cast a shadow. She looked to the side and noticed how the ground where Shinji had disappeared had become brighter. She jumped up and climbed onto the building next to her. After a second, buildings began to sink in the blackness. Exactly as it had happened to Shinji.
She leaped further to the ground and began to run ahead.
"Is the angel chasing me?"
"No. Run to shaft E-13! Now!"
Misato stood on the platform and stared ahead. Her gaze was not focused on anything. She was overwhelmed by recent events. A moment alone was supposed to help her concentrate.
"What's the plan?"
Asuka's voice sounded behind her back. Misato didn't turn to face her. She continued to stand on the edge of the platform with her hands resting on the railing.
"For now, we are watching. The angel's not moving. It appears to be dormant. Ritsuko suggests that this may continue until Shinji runs out of life support."
"But you'll get him out right?"
Misato hesitated before answering. "That's the plan."
Misato didn't want to show that they had a problem. There was more they didn't know than they knew. They had time before the life support ran out, but was it enough?
She turned around and saw that Asuka wasn't standing alone. Rei was standing next to her. Misato was slightly surprised because she didn't hear Rei's footsteps.
Misato thought it was good that they were both here. They didn't know when the angel would wake up so pilots had to be nearby.
"You can't leave the base. There are rooms prepared for you next to the locker room. You're to be on alert."
"But of course. Stupid Shinji messes up and I have to clean up after him."
Another spiteful comment from Asuka. Such comments didn't impress Misato. She was used to them. Misato wanted to let go and head for the bridge, but she heard a question that surprised her.
"Why did you provoke him?"
Rei's question shocked Asuka. She stood still for a moment, but quickly recovered.
"Are you saying it's my fault that this idiot let himself be absorbed?"
The question outraged Asuka. How dare this doll suggest such a thing? On top of that, she does it in front of Misato. Clearly irritated, she took a step forward.
It looked like she wanted to hit Rei. That was something Misato could not allow.
"No one is blaming anyone. The most important thing right now is to get Shinji out. I'll have a conversation with him later."
Without waiting, Asuka turned to leave. As she walked, she cursed something in German.
'I didn't know sleep could be so exhausting.'
Shinji looked once again at the displays. Nothing. The sensors detected absolutely nothing. His eyesight also saw only an empty abyss. He looked at the display on his wrist to see how much time he had left before the life support ran out.
'So this is how it ends?'
Trapped, he waited. Waited to be rescued. But would that rescue come?
Sitting still, Shinji seemed to feel something. A familiar taste. Blood. He was frightened. He nervously grabbed the hatch lever. Tugging, he tried to turn it, but it didn't move.
"Let me out! Help me!"
His scream was not heard by anyone, he was completely alone. He curled up, shaking.
Shinji looked around him. He found himself in a carriage, but how? The carriage was empty and orange light was coming through the windows. It looked like a sunset, but other than the light, he saw nothing. He must have been dreaming is the only explanation.
"Why are you here?"
He heard a familiar voice and turned around.
"Ayanami?"
Opposite him sat Rei. Or at least, a figure that looked like her. The question in his mind was where he was and what was going on.
"Why are you here?"
"I fought an angel and lost."
"But why are you here?"
What did she mean? He didn't understand the question. He repeated what he had said earlier. He fought and lost.
"Why did you fight alone?"
Alone? What did she mean? Asuka and Rei were also there. He thought for a moment. He remembered the beginning of the battle. He wasn't alone then, but after that? Yes. He was actually alone later. But why?
Then he remembered. He rushed forward first. They probably didn't manage to follow him.
"Why did you fight alone?"
"I wanted to show my father that I was strong." Shinji replied without thinking. All he wanted that day was to impress his father.
"Why?"
Anger was gathering within Shinji. After all, he said why he did it. What more does she want?
"I want him to praise me! I want him to accept me!"
He shouted and then felt as if the carriage had stopped. A blurry platform appeared outside the window. The door opened and two figures entered. An older man holding a child by the hand.
'Teacher?'
Shinji recognized the older man. It was his teacher who had taken care of him for years. The little boy he was holding his hand also looked familiar. Was it him? Once again, he looked around the carriage. He knew this carriage.
He looked out the window. Shinji could see a man's back on the platform. He then felt a sting in his head. As if someone had stuck a needle in his head. He remembered.
"Father!"
Shinji moved from his seat toward the exit. In vain. The carriage door closed as soon as he approached it.
"Father! Don't leave me!"
The figure did not turn around but continued walking. Shinji shouted again, but it did nothing. The carriage began to move. He moved to the door separating the carriages. Shinji jumped into the next carriage and called out again. Still nothing. He ran to the next door. When he opened it he saw a figure blocking his way.
"Asuka?"
Over her shoulder, he saw his father disappear. He sat down on the seat next to the entrance and covered his face with his hands.
"Pathetic. You're looking for acceptance, but can you accept yourself?"
Shinji looked down through his fingers at the figure before him.
"Who are you? Leave me alone!"
"And who are you?"
"Leave me alone!" Shinji shouted, shaking. "Just leave me alone."
A warm shower has always been pleasant for Asuka. Standing in the shower, she leaned her hand against the wall. Warm water ran down her body.
'It's not my fault that the idiot attacked alone.'
Rei's earlier words upset her. Asuka only wanted to mock Shinji. How could she know what he would do? He always did what he's told and she didn't tell him to attack on his own.
He never did anything on his own. Why did he do something this time? Why didn't he do something before like when they kissed?
'That idiot didn't even move. He didn't touch me, nothing.'
Frustration built up in her. Not sure why. She didn't know what she wanted. She didn't know if she expected anything from Shinji.
Then she remembered. She was wrong. After all, he had once done something of his own. He rescued her from the volcano. A slight smile appeared on her face when she remembered. At first she thought he was merely following an order, but later Misato told her he did it on his own.
She hit the wall with her fist. She was angry that all she could do was wait.
'Come back. Don't leave me.'
Shinji opened his eyes and saw the familiar ceiling. Usually he wasn't happy to see a hospital ceiling, but now it was different.
"You're finally awake."
He turned in the direction of the voice and saw Asuka leaning against the wall. He was happy to see her even though he didn't remember what happened. The last thing he remembered was a dream he had.
"It's good to see you Asuka! How did I get here?"
"I saved you. After all, I'm the best pilot."
Typical Asuka boasting. He didn't even know how much he missed it.
"Why did you attack alone?"
"You won't understand it."
Asuka walked over to his bed and sat on the edge.
"That you would like to be a real man like Kaji?"
Her words surprised him. How did she know? Were his intentions that obvious? Embarrassed, he scowled slightly.
"Umm, you know I-"
"You want to impress me?"
Now he was completely surprised. How did she know this and why was she acting so strangely?
Asuka leaned over him and then he smelled blood. He felt something like that trapped inside the entry plug. He pushed her away.
"You are you?"
"I can be whoever you want me to be."
It's another dream, he was sure of it.
"Release me! I don't want to be here!"
"Why? You can be happy here with us."
Hearing a new voice, he raised his eyes. Rei appeared in the room. She looked so real. They both did. If it weren't for their strange behavior and questions, he wouldn't have been able to tell if it was a dream or reality.
"You're not real!"
"You're not real either." A figure resembling Rei said.
"How is this happiness more fake than the one you want to create?" Asuka's illusion added.
He covered his ears with his hands while shouting continuously. "Release me!"
The corridor was empty. Apparently everyone was focused on finding a way to free Shinji. In a way, one could envy the attention he was receiving at the moment. And nothing more.
After a short walk, Asuka found the food vending machine she was looking for. She walked over to the vending machine and selected a sandwich.
"Hi."
Asuka sharply turned around.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you."
There was Maya sitting on a bench in the corner. She was drinking a can of coffee. Asuka immediately noticed the fatigue on Maya's face.
"I didn't expect to find anyone here. Everyone's busy trying to save Shinji."
"We hope so. Dr. Akagi says that the angel not moving is a sign that Shinji is still alive." Maya stood up and stretched her arms. "I have to go back."
Asuka nodded. When Maya moved away Asuka sat down on a bench. A cold shiver ran through Asuka.
'He's alive. He's fine. He must. Right?'
Shinji opened his eyes and once again saw the hospital ceiling. He didn't even try to get up.
"You're awake, that's good. The doctor said you should rest."
He turned his head and saw Rei leave the room. His eyes began to turn glassy. After a while, he began to sob lightly.
"Release me please."
He wiped his eyes with his hand.
"Asuka. Misato. Help me."
The door to the room opened and Asuka peeked into the room. After a moment, she entered the room without looking at Shinji.
"I was just passing through and thought I'd take a look. I'm looking for Kaji."
"Help me Asuka."
She heard Shinji's cracking voice and became slightly concerned. When you looked at him you noticed his eyes red from tears. She walked over to his bed.
"Help me Asuka. I need you."
"Should I call the doctor?"
She didn't know what was wrong with him or what to do. When she was close enough he extended his hands to her. As she sat on the edge of the bed he embraced her and began to cry.
"Help me Asuka. I need you."
He repeated the same words quieter and quieter.
"Shh, I'm here. Everything will be fine."
She wasn't sure if she was more convinced by him or herself. She wondered whether to call the doctor. It didn't look like Shinji had any injuries. He was acting strangely. She began stroking his head in an effort to calm him down. This seemed to help.
'I need you.'
She didn't know what was wrong with him, but it was nice to hear those words for some reason.
Her touch calmed him down. Then he realized he couldn't smell blood. Neither the smell nor the taste. He broke the embrace and raised his head. He wiped his eyes with his sleeve.
"Asuka? Is that you?"
"What? Are you feeling okay?"
Shinji leaned back. She didn't act strangely like in the dream he had. He thought that this time it was probably the real Asuka. At least that's what he hoped.
"How did I get here?"
"You don't remember?"
He shook his head.
"Your EVA went berserk and tore the angel apart from the inside."
Shinji smiled gently. He didn't smell any blood. He was free. Free at last.
"You're creeping me out."
"I'm just glad it's over."
She was relieved that Shinji had calmed down. Maybe she could do without calling a doctor after all.
"Why did you attack alone and didn't wait for us?"
Again, the same question. Shinji didn't smell blood, but wondered if it was another dream after all. He pinched himself for reassurance. The pain seemed real.
He wasn't completely sure, but he didn't really know how he could find out if the dream was over. Perhaps Asuka's behavior would tell him.
"I thought that if I was number one, I would impress others. That my father will praise me." He paused for a moment and added in an almost inaudible voice. "And that y- never mind."
"You really are stupid."
"I know it was stupid. You won't understand. You didn't lose your mom and you didn't live alone."
His words struck her. She rose quickly from the bed.
"What?!"
Shinji didn't understand why Asuka had her voice raised. Had he said something wrong?
"Um, I heard Misato mention that your mother called. I didn't mean to eavesdrop."
"You don't know anything about me!"
Angry, she ran out of the room.
"No, wait!"
Shinji lay down on the bed. It probably wasn't a dream after all.
"We're back."
No response. Misato entered the apartment along with Shinji. They could hear the TV on.
In the living room Asuka lied down looking at the TV. She turned around when she saw Shinji out of the corner of her eye.
"Our number one pilot is back." Asuka said in a mocking voice. "Did you reprimanded him?"
"He almost died. I think that's good enough, don't you think Asuka?"
Shinji kept looking at Asuka the whole time. He didn't know if she was angry or not. She was acting as usual.
Misato took out some money and put it on the table. "Here you have some money to order dinner."
"And what's the occasion?"
Asuka was well aware of what an opportunity this was. Or even two. The first was that Shinji had been rescued. The second is almost a tradition. After defeating the angel, Misato took them to ramen or hot springs. Asuka enjoyed those rare moments.
"I didn't have time to do any shopping. Why, would you rather I cook something?"
"Shinji would regret getting out of the angel."
Asuka laughed. Actually, she had never tasted Misato's food. She had only heard from stories how bad Misato's cooking was. For as long as she can remember, it was Shinji who cooked the food.
"Very funny. I'm going out for a drink. See you guys later." Misato waved and walked out of the apartment.
Asuka got up from the floor and stood in front of Shinji. Her facial expression changed. Shinji noticed it. Was she still angry, but didn't want to show it in front of Misato?
"I'm sor-" Shinji wanted to apologize, but was interrupted.
"She's not my mother."
At first Shinji did not understand what she was talking about. He wondered what she meant.
Seeing his confusion, Asuka continued. "She's my stepmother. My dad remarried after my mom died when I was little."
This fact of her life he did not know. It made him feel stupid. It comes out that she, like him, doesn't have a mother. He noticed the sadness on her face when she told him about it.
"I didn't know, I'm sorry."
"Now you know." She sighed. "Maybe I shouldn't have reacted that way."
There was an awkward silence. Shinji didn't know if she was still angry with him or not.
"I enjoy your company and I don't want you to be angry with me."
Then she did something Shinji didn't expect. Asuka came up to him and hugged him. He didn't know what was going on, but it felt good. He returned the hug.
"I also like having you around so don't do something so stupid again."
"I promise."
They stood like that for a long moment. Neither of them wanted to break the embrace.
'He doesn't smell of lavender.' She smiled to herself.
"I guess we have something in common Asuka. If you would like to talk, I would be willing."
"Maybe someday."
Her stomach gurgled. She broke the embrace and blushed slightly. When she noticed how Shinji laughed, she laughed with him.
"I'll order food." Asuka grabbed the phone. "Oh, and if you tell someone about this."
"You'll kill me. I know Asuka."
Before dialing the number, she decided to apologize to him.
"Forgive me for using the anniversary of your mother's death to kiss you."
"That's okay. Sorry that the kiss was weak."
"And you're right to be sorry! I expect you'll do better next time."
Asuka dialed a number and turned around.
'Next time?' Shinji stood puzzled. He wondered what she meant by next time.
She turned to him while covering the phone with her hand.
"That brown noodles, they're called soba right?"
When he nodded she went back to ordering. As he watched her, he smiled. Just like during their sync training together.
At that moment, he was happy. Truly happy.
Notes:
I wrote this story for the COMICUP30 AsuShin Fanfic Contest on AsuShin discord server.