KAGEYAMA
"Yeah," I reply. "I was enjoying quiet, the alone time." For us being in nature I expected it to be louder outside but it's nice. The moon is out shining bright.
"I..I can leave," says Hinata. I don't bother to look his way.
"I want you to stay," I reply. Hinata comes over sitting beside me placing his legs from the knee down into the water. The air is quiet and somehow intense between us. I hate that things feels off. For many years Hinata was my comfort.
"How you Tobio?" asks Hinata. He wants me to tell the truth about how I am doing.
"I'm okay," I reply with a shoulder shrug. "I have been too focused on work and training for try outs. Speaking of work you remember my boss right."
"How could I forget," says Hinata. "He was a huge cause of your stress."
"He got caught for sexual harassment with at least 3 women in our office," I reply. Hinata jaw drops.
"Are you fucking kidding me!" he exclaims.
"Sadly not," I reply. "A new receptionist started with us less than 2 months ago. He touched her inappropriately and then told her if she said anything he would ensure she was fired."
"Oh my god," gasps Hinata. "What did she do?"
"She told HR immediately and threatened to take them to court if proper action is not taken," I explain. "The other two women are willing to join her."
"This is damn serious," says Hinata. "He shouldn't be allowed to work there!"
"Before I left for our trip they put him on unpaid leave while he is being investigated," I reply. "I'm pretty sure this is the end of him."
"Good," says Hinata. "Those poor women."
"Tell me about it," I reply. I look at him. "So what about you? How is the dentist office working out?"
"Pretty uneventful for the most part," he replies with a smile. "I like being able to talk to people from time to time or just relax."
"Relax huh," I reply.
"Yeah," he replies sitting up straight poking out his chest. "I have gotten use to the operations, what to order, things like that."
"I knew you would," I reply with a small grin bumping his arm. Hinata nods before looking up at the sky.
"It's so beautiful out here," he says.
"It is," I reply.
"I dream of having home were I can see nature like this," sighs Hinata. "I know most people dream of a big house or being in the city. Most of the people in the league live in penthouse condos but I don't that." I nod not surprised to hear this. It reminds him of his family, home.
"You're going to going to get your cozy country side house Shoyo" I say strongly. sliding my hand into his. "We are both going to be successful in the league and the olympics. The sky is the limit. Hopefully you will get to see what this little town has to offer." Hinata looks down at our hands tangled together. He doesn't remove his hand making my heart tingle.
"You almost sound like you want to take me," he says softly.
"I would in a heart beat," I reply. "I know it is best if I don't."
"It's okay," replies Hinata. "It's the thought that counts." We both stare up at the stars in silence for a while. "I'm thankful for one last college trip before graduating."
"I can't believe we are about to finish for good," I reply.
"And trying out for the league," he says before giggling. "I never thought in my wildest dreams we would actually be doing this!"
"Why not?" I inquire. "We talked about this since the 1st year of high school!"
"I know but still it's really happening," he replies. "Us, the two most dedicated yet the two judged the most for how we did things." I smirk.
"That makes it even better," I reply. "Wait until we make the olympic team. Those who doubted us will see." Hinata grins before laying his head on my shoulder. I wish he hadn't because it has me more comfortable than I would want to be. I lay my head on his lightly. In this moment I'm so happy. This is how I pictured our spring break going. The only difference is we would have been making love every single night. I nuzzle my cheek into hair. "I miss you…." Hinata hand squeezes mine.
"Please don't ruin this," he whispers. I lift my head.
"Ruin what?" I ask. "I'm only telling you how I feel."
"I'm in a relationship and so are you," says Hinata letting go of my hand. In a relation
ship?
"No, I'm not," I reply looking at him confused. "What are you talking about?" Hinata appears taken back.
"Y-you're not in a relationship with Akaashi?" he asks. I stand up in the hot tub water on the steps. I don't mean to tower over Hinata but I want him to see me and the truth of my words.
"No, I'm not," I reply. "I could never date someone knowing I love you." Hinata blinks as if he expecting me to go away. I cup the side of his face moving closer. He needs to hear me again. "I love you Shoyo….."
"Tobio….." he whines. What was that whimper? It didn't sound like one of protest. I lean a little closer. "Tobio…." I close gap kissing him. I am not sure what is more beautiful. Feeling those lips once more or how we both breathe a sigh of relief into the kiss. Hinata is clearly returning the kiss. I recognize that head tilt he does when he is becoming lost. My left hand grabs his waist wanting to bask in this moment. I don't want to let his cheek go yet. He may pull away if I do so. We proceed to make out for several minutes before Hinata groans as his body trembles. Oh yes, his lust is rising…. Hinata's legs slowly open and I seize the moment to step closer.
"Shoyo….." I moan feeling how erect he is. Hinata can barely talk as I slide my hand under the back of his shirt. It's been so long since I felt him, since I felt his skin along my fingertips. Hinata whimpers in a way I feel like he is going to pull away. "Don't….." I whisper. I want to be closer. This isn't enough. I lower myself into the water despite not wanting to. Hinata doesn't pull away making it worth it as I move closer. Hinata slides off the side of the jacuzzi into the water. I don't waste any time pressing my body against his. I'm standing as Hinata is sitting perfectly on the step of the Jacuzzi. That familiar light I see in his eyes are there as he wraps his arms around my waist. "Yeessss…"
Hinata's wet hands grab the sides of my face as he kisses emotionally. I'm caught off guard as I usually don't feel this from him. I moan thrusting my hips against him. He returns the kiss hungrily as we thrust against each other. Hinata head falls back as he gasps for air. My lips attach to the side of his neck feeling him thrust against me. Our arousals begin to rub against the other. I begin to roll my hips remembering what it feels like to be inside of him. Hinata pants as if his mind is in the same space as me. He drops his head back down but it doesn't stop me. His cheek on the top side of my hair resting gently.
"T-tobio….haa….." he stammers before moaning. Is he going to climax? Hinata hand slides into my hair as his voice quivers. His hips are rolling with familiar movement. My mind knows exactly what he looks like like right now. I moan into his neck wanting to reach to his peak. I attack his neck with no mercy. My hips rolling desperately against him. Hinata and I both pant with our desires close to spilling over. A cough causes me to look up with Hinata quickly releasing me. We are both frantically look around. I don't want anyone seeing us like that. That better not be Tsukishima. The cough continues and I see Noya coming out from the shadows behind the tree.
"Fuck…." he mutters before coughing more. I caught the snitch in the air coming from him as Hinata does.
"Are you smoking?" he inquiring. "Is that weed?" Noya continues to cough nodding his head.
"I didn't know it was going to hit like this," he says in a whisper. "You want?" He is holding out the weed towards us.
"No," Hinata and I both say at the same time.
"Oh right," Noya says rolling his eyes. "Precious volleyball."
"Yes, precious volleyball," says Hinata. Noya take another hit managing not to cough.
"Um hm," says Noya. "Dangerous game you're playing Hinata. I'm not referring to volleyball." I glare at Noya while Hinata cheeks turn red.
"I'm going to bed," says Hinata climbing out of the jacuzzi. "I'll see you guys later." He quickly grabs his towel jogging off inside. I place my hands on the side of the jacuzzi dropping my head sighing.
"Did you have to say that?" I ask. I know for a fact it bothered Hinata. He was going to cheat on Miya with me. Is it wrong I don't care. I climb out of the jacuzzi.
"Yes," replies Noya. "Was you seriously going to fuck him? His boyfriend is in the house just a few feet away." I get tired of people assuming that everyone is fucking. I have sex with Hinata. I would even make love to him if he let me. Fucking is not something we do. "I'll take that as a yes."
"Mind your business Noya," I state flatly snatching my towel off a picnic bench.
"Kind of hard not to with all this obvious shit you guys are doing," he retorts. "Why is Hinata dating Miya? He is clearly not into him."
"Why don't you ask him?" I reply.
"Don't have to," says Noya walking over towards me. "When did you guys start hooking up?" I fold my arms looking away from him. He sighs. "I'm sorry for what I said okay. I can tell you love him. I know he loves you too." I look at him. My heart flutters at the thought of Hinata even returning my love.
"Are you serious?" I inquire. Noya nods his head yes.
"It's why I asked why he is dating Miya," he explains. "It's so obvious. Miya knows it too deep down. I think it's why he is always giving you the evil eye."
"I have nothing against Miya," I reply after a moment. "Miya isn't right for him. It feels….wrong. I am not saying that just because I love him. I want to be with Hinata. So badly." Noya chuckles.
"You sound as bad as Asahi," he replies. I work hard to keep my face blank. "I know he loves me."
"Do you love him?" I ask before I can stop myself. Noya sighs.
"Yes and no…." he mutters. I am surprised to see color decorate his cheeks. He runs his hand through his hair. "I…." He begins to laugh. "It shouldn't be this serious. It doesn't matter. I noticed Yamaguchi seems to be attached to Asahi." I don't say anything as he takes another drag. "Again, something else that is obvious."
"Asahi is your best friend after all," I reply. Noya snorts.
"It was actually Yamaguchi that gave it away," he replies. "Not Asahi." I believe that. Yamaguchi hasn't seen Asahi in months. "You live that house so I am sure you know what's up." I just simply nod. At least Noya is admitting he somewhat loves Asahi. I wonder what is holding him back from moving forward. "Don't worry about Asahi, everything is going to be fine."
"Is it?" I ask. "Do you plan to leave again?"
"Not sure," he replies. "If I stay I would have to get a job, find a place to live. I'm not sure if I am done touring the world."
"The world is big Noya," I reply. "It will always be there. You can still work and travel. Maybe travel with Asahi." Noya blushes.
"Yeah I don't know about that," he replies.
"You won't know until you try," I reply. I can see the wheels in his head turning.
"You're right," he says. Noya looks spaced out. I don't know if it is because he is thinking about what I just said or the drugs.
"I'm going to head in," I reply. "Try not to stay up too late." Noya continues to smoke not saying another word. I head into the cabin house dryer than I was previously. I quietly head up the stairs. As I approach my room for this week I can hear Hinata and Miya clearly having sex. I ball up my fist before releasing it. That could have been us right now if Noya hadn't interrupted us. I sigh heading into my room. I remove my swim trunks seeing Akaashi laying peacefully. I glance at the wall hearing Hinata's moans. It's only natural for me to become aroused. My mind knows what his face looks like. Those rosy cheeks, tosseled hair, his body trembling. I growl lowly rolling my eyes deciding I should try and rest. I slide on some shorts to sleep in before pulling back the cover cuddling up to Akaashi. He is sleeping good.
I close my eyes taking a deep breath as I continue to listen to Hinata. It's strange how I can hear them both but my ears are focused on Hinata only. I bury my face into Akaashi hair hoping my erection will go away. I refuse to touch myself laying next to Akaashi. Akaashi words come back to me from early. He told me to let him know when I was ready. Hinata voice hit a high pitch for a second but is quickly muffled. Yes, I need to connect to Akaashi now.
"Keiji…" I whisper as my hand rubs the side of his hip. He begins to stir a little. I shift my head kissing his shoulder. Akaashi moans tilting his head back.
"You need me?" he asks sleepy.
"Yes," I mutter feeling embarrassed. It is mostly because I know this is from being with Hinata moments ago. I want to feel like that again. This is as close as I will be able to get. I shift allowing Akaashi to roll on his back. I reach over grabbing the lube and condoms from on top of the dresser. Glad he left these easily within in reach. He was definitely ready for me. I slide my shorts off before sitting back on my knees. I apply my condom before adding some lube. As if he knows what is coming next Akaashi spreads his legs.
"Wet me….." he grumbles. He is requesting for me to add lube to his entrance. Akaashi easily brings his knees towards his chest giving me perfect access. He is more flexible than Hinata. I have taken advantage of that many times. That spilt….kills me everytime. I apply the lube to my fingers coating Akaashi rim. He moans softly as I ensure he wet. "Tobio…..haaa….." I glance up seeing how hard he is. Akaashi is always ready for me. It doesn't matter when. I make my way between his legs. Akaashi head is to the side with his eyes still closed. This is not a surprised as he will do this when we have early morning sex as well. Most of the time it is before I get ready for work.
I roll my hips sliding inside of Akaashi. He bends his back moaning as I drop my head. I am certainly worked up. That almost took my breath away. I lean closer to Akaashi my hips continuing to travel inside him. I glance at the wall hearing Hinata's voice. I drop my head closing my eyes. Hearing Hinata's voice is increasing my pleasure. I moan as my left hand travels Akaashi's thigh. Akaashi cries out in pleasure grabbing my shoulders. I slow my hips down groaning. Akaashi is awakening grabbing the sides of my hips.
"Oh Tobio….." he moans shifting his eyes. His head is still turned away from me. I lean down kissing his neck causing Akaashi to tilt his head before his chin nudges me. I know what this means. I begin kissing him slowly wanting to enjoy this. Despite his cries of pleasure I can hear Hinata clearly. I notice we seem to be in sync. Hinata would be riding me, rolling those hips perfectly. Allowing not just my hands but my arousal to travel inside his body. His walls would pulse at the right moments responding only to me. I moan his name inside my brain feeling like we are connecting. It feels wrong since we are clearly both with other people.
"Aaahhh….." I groan loudly unintentionally. My ears perk up as I hear Hinata. It's like he is responding to me. Can he hear me? Once more Hinata's face enters my mind. I kiss Akaashi as he begins to breathe heavily. I can tell he is going to cum quick. I graze over his spot causing his hands to grab my flesh. He squeezes my waist before taking his hands lower on my ass. That is his favorite area to hold on to.
"Shit…..uugghh…." cries Akaashi. "You're going to make me cum….." He begins to moan with his body shaking. I whine into our kiss as he begins to buck his hips. He is chasing that climax. Hinata's voice squeak making my dick twitch. Hinata is going to cum. I can feel it The question is can he feel me? My right hand starts to massage Akaashi's side hip and ass. I begin moving unable to hold back. It feels like Hinata and I souls are twisting together. I start moaning unconrtollably. "Tobio…..hahhh….." I begin to slam into his spot causing him to scream. Usually I am happy to hear from him but not today. I can barely hear Hinata. Akaashi quivers pulling me closer as he thrust his cock against my abs as he cums. His cum is warm and wet between us as he releases. Akaashi voice lowers to a whine allowing me to hear my true love once more. Hinata's voice is quivering as pant from the work I am putting in.
"I'm going to cum…." I whimper. Akaashi tilts his head up kissing me. I sway my hips listening to Hinata's voice. I breathe heavily into the kiss with my spine tingling. Hinata….. "Haaa…..hahh…..aaagghhhh….." Akaashi whines knowing I am reaching my peak. I can hear Hinata howling making my balls tighten even more as I release. "Fuck…..hhahhh….." I keep rolling my hips until my body can't anymore. It is now silent with nothing being heard but heavy panting. Did we finish together? It feels like we did. "Thank you," I say after a moment. "I know you were sleeping good and here I come." Akaashi hums as I pull out of him. It takes everything in me to get out of the bed to toss the used condom. The exhaustion of the day is kicking in. I put my sleep shorts back on before climbing into bed. Akaashi is back into his sleeping position. I cuddle up behind him drifting off too sleep.
I awake in the morning and I can tell it is late. I groan rolling on my back. I slide my hand into my hair feeling like my body needs more rest. Akaashi must have awaken earlier today. I can smell left over breakfast that was cooked this morning. I wonder if Hinata or Akaashi cooked. The other guys know how to cook but Hinata and Akaashi are better at it. God I need a shower. I groan sitting up. I grab my items dying for a shower. Hungry as I may be eating will have to wait. I head into the bathroom taking myself a quick shower before tossing on some comfortable clothes. Not sure what we will do today. Once I know I can dress for the occasion. I would like to head into town. Need to get with Akaashi to see what he wants to do. I head downstairs to see Noya and Asahi talking.
"So I was thinking we could check this out," Noya suggests. "Ten scary stories."
"Do you think everyone would be on board?" asks Asahi. He glances over at me. "Well look who is awake."
"Am I the last one up?" I inquire. Noya laughs.
"Yeah," Noya replies. "Even Yamaguchi was up before you."
"Okay then," I replied.
"Hinata left you a plate," says Noya before turning back to the TV.
"He cooked breakfast?" I ask.
"Yes," says Asahi as I walk into the kitchen. "Your plate is in the microwave." I open the microwave to see Hinata cooked me steak, eggs and hash browns. I grin more than ready to tear into this.
"I wasn't expecting him to cook me anything," I reply.
"For sure," says Noya. "He only cooked for himself, Miya and you." I don't say anything as I reheat the food. I don't know rather to be happy or upset at this information. Asahi clears his throat.
"Akaashi is out back," he says slowly.
"Thanks," I reply grabbing my plate as it is ready. I noticed how he dragged out Akaashi name. That is odd. I head out back to see Akaashi sitting on the picnic table facing the yard. I see 4 cigarette buds letting me know he has been chain smoking. "Hey," Akaashi exhales his smoke.
"Sleep well?" he inquires.
"I did," I reply. "I didn't want to get up this morning." I get situated in a spot at the table. "How did you sleep?" Akaashi doesn't respond right away. Was his sleep that bad? "Keiji…."
"You made love to me last night," he states flatly. "Except it wasn't me you were thinking about." Oh shit….
"I don't know what to say," I admit. He isn't wrong. Last night all I could think is how much I loved Hinata and how I know he loves me. Could Akaashi hear Hinata last night? God I hope not.
"I don't expect you to say anything," he says coldly. "I expect you to keep fucking me while you think of Hinata." I stand up walking to Akaashi standing in front of him.
"I have never thought about Hinata when having sex with you," I reply. "I did last night….it's the only time I ever have." Akaashi nods his head looking sad. I watch his eyes water. Oh no, I am making him cry. I sit down beside Akaashi grabbing his cigarette free hand. He looks away from me. "Keiji, I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry for thinking of someone else while we had sex." Akaashi sniffles.
"Everything was different," he whispers. "Your touch, your kiss, even your moans sounded different. It made me realize you will never care for me the way you do for him." To be fair no one will get what I provide Hinata. I sigh because saying that out loud would hurt too much. People say there is no difference between sex and there is. Akaashi is wittness to that.
"I….I'm sorry," I apologize. "I know there is nothing I can say to make this better." Akaashi nods with tears running down his cheeks.
"I don't fucking getting it!" he hisses in anger. His grip on my hand tightens. "Hinata doesn't fucking want you! He has made his choice. You need to move the fuck on!" Hearing that hurts but…
"You're right," I reply. Akaashi is surprised that I agreed. "Why don't I start right now. Would you like to join me for dinner tonight?" Akaashi nods unable to speak. "I can also take you for the massage you have been wanting." Akaashi leaning in kissing me.
"You sure?" he asks. "You're not doing this because you feel guilty." I stand up continuing to hold his hand. Akaashi stands up joining me.
"I feel guilty for hurting you," I admit. "I'm doing this because I do want to move forward. I want to move on from Hinata. I know it won't be easy. I don't want to be in a committed relationship until I know for a fact I am not thinking of Hinata." Akaashi nods.
"You have the right mind set" he states. "Um did you want to finish your breakfast?" I glance at the nice breakfast Hinata prepared.
"Naw, we can get something in town" I reply. Akaashi grins hard putting out the cigarette. I dislike wasting a good meal but it appears this is the right choice to make.
A MONTH LATER
"Come on!" exclaims Bokuto. "Open it!" I am holding the letter from the national league that tells me if I made it and what team I will be on. Part of me is glad it is old fashion and sent by mail. I wouldn't want to find out by email or national TV.
"Katuro stop rushing him," says Akaashi. Akaashi and I talked further after that incident during spring break. We are still not in a committed relationship but he seems happy with me moving on from Hinata. We haven't spoken or seen each other since that night. Akaashi and I ended up leaving early as I thought it was best. I needed my distance from Hinata once more. I stare at the letter in my hand. "Don't be nervous. We know someone grabbed you up." I nod my head opening the letter. I immediately jump up.
"Yes!" I shout. Akaashi jumps up behind.
"What team!" he exclaims.
"Guess," I reply with a chuckle. Akaashi raises an eyebrow as I show the letter revealing I am drafted to the Schweiden Adlers.
"Oh my fucking god!" Akaashi replies before laughing.
"What?" asks Bokuto appearing confused. He grabs my letter reading it over. "Awe, I was hoping you would be one of us. No worries at least you are in the league with me!"
"Sure," I reply. Akaashi and Bokuto catch me off guard piling on me into a hug. "You guys…..I can't breathe." Bokuto lets me go.
"This is a celebration," he replies. "Let's have some sake."
"I would but I have to drive home," I reply.
"Come on," says Akaashi. "One won't hurt. You worked so hard for this." I nod my head because I did. I increased my training with Bokuto once I returned from spring break. Unlike some people he had no problem with the amount of training I wanted to do. It was nothing but work, train, eat and sleep.
"I guess one glass of sake won't hurt," I reply.
"There you go!" says Bokuto grabbing the bottle in the kitchen. Akaashi grabs my hand leaning in kissing me.
"See," he replies. "I told you. Nothing to worry about."
"I didn't want to assume," I explain squeezing his hand.
"Sure," he replies. "Do you really have to go back tonight?" I don't but I kind of want to. Just a little alone for one evening. While it is my happinest moment it isn't at the same time. I don't want to explain this to Akaashi knowing he is going immediately say that it has something to do with Hinata. Deep down it does. He was my best friend. We are deeply connected by our love for volleyball.
"Yes," I reply. "I have some things I need to take care of tomorrow on that side of town." Akaashi nods as Bokuto comes over with the drinks.
"Man wait until they go over your payment with you!" he exclaims. "The money is niccceeee." Akaashi covers his mouth to hide his giggling. Money is nice but that isn't my main goal. I don't bother explaining that to Bokuto.
"Nice," I reply. We all grab a glass.
"Cheers to Tobio making the league and soon the Olympics," says Akaashi with a grin.
"Here, here!" exclaims Bokuto as we click our glasses together tossing the drink back. I hang out with Bokuto and Akaashi for another hour or so before heading back to the house. Noya is still in town. He is currently living in Hinata's old room. I sigh because it is still weird to know he is not living there. He wasn't before but with Noya in his room it made it more real. I arrive parking in the driveway. I unlock the door allowing myself inside. Tsukishima is in the kitchen. He turns seeing me.
"I hear congrats are in order," he replies. I smile sliding my shoes off.
"Thanks," I reply. "Where is everyone?" Tsukishima pushes up his glasses.
"Asahi is in Noya's room," he explains. I already know what that means. Noya has begun to shown more affection towards Asahi. Asahi bends to everything Noya says or do. I can see how in love he is with Noya. Noya has never once tried to take advantage of him. I think he is going to break down and commit to him.
"I see," I reply. Tsukishima nods. Things are still unresolved between him and Yamaguchi. It's sad but I don't think they will ever get back to being friends. As far as Yamaguchi is concerned Tsukishima got in the way of his true love.
"Have you heard from Hinata?" Tsukishima asks.
"No," I reply. "We are still not really talking." He stirs his tea turning to face me.
"Even now?" he asks. I nod my head yes. "Well check out his Facebook page." I immediately pull out my phone going to Facebook. I select Hinata page seeing he posted a video that has well over 80 likes. From the background I know they are at Miya's apartment. I press the video. I don't know who is recording as Miya is standing in front of Hinata.
"I am nervous," he chuckles which his hands shaking.
"It's fine, it's fine," says Miya. "Open it. I'm dying over here." Hinata gives a wobbly grin to Miya and the camera causing a few people near by to chuckle. Hinata opens his letter reading it over. He buries his hands in his face crying. Miya is confused taking the paper before grinning. "He's in!" The room erupts into cheers as Miya hugs Hinata into his chest kissing the top of his hair. The video ends as I drop my hand with my phone feeling so empty.
"You okay?" asks Tsukishima. "You look kind of pale." I was suppose to be there. Hinata and I was suppose to open our letters together.
"I'm fine," I mutter. "I'll see you later." I hurry away from Tsukishima heading into my room. I slam the door furious. The one person I love more than anything in this world couldn't celebrate with me. I flop down on my bed fighting not to cry. God why does Asahi have to been right. I'm going to love him forever.