And here is the last chapter. I hope you all like it. I know this story could have gone on but I lost inspiration for it and decided to just end it.
Chapter 9
Meredith
Jumping awake, almost hitting my head on the top bunk, I look around the on-call room. "oh sorry I didn't realize anyone was in here"
"it's ok" I mumble sitting up, running my hands over my face, "what time is it?"
"four" she says, I let out a groan and lay back down, "come cuddle with me for a bit" I pat the bed, when she doesn't answer I look at her and she's giving me a weird look "what?" I ask confused
"Meredith we, don't" she starts to say, shaking her head, but stops. That was when I realized what was happening, and everything that was so fresh in my mind was all a dream, a really happy dream, but a dream none the less. "well come on anyway, I want to cuddle with someone" closing my eyes, I'm a little surprised when I feel the bed dip, opening my eyes I see she's taking off her prosthetic. And the next thing I know she's laying next to me. I wrap my arm around her and pull her close, my head is next to hers on the pillow, but with some movement my chin is now in the crook of her neck. The dream still fresh in my mind, taking a deep breath I can smell her shampoo and perfume. Closing my eyes, I kiss her neck. "Meredith" she whispers
"hmm" I hum, I could tell the vibrations from that caused chills to run through her body. "what's" she starts to say as I nuzzle her she swallows hard "what's going on?"
"I had a dream" I mumble
"about what?" she tries to move so she can look at me but I hold her tight against me. "about you and I, and this" I say kissing her neck again, this time I hear her let out a soft moan when I hit that spot, that totally turned dream Arizona on "that feels amazing" I take a chance and start running my hand down her body. I really wasn't sure what I was doing, but I knew I wanted her. And from the sounds she's making she wants me too. Moving in the bed, Arizona rolls over so she's on her back, looking up at me. "are you going to kiss me or not?" she asks. The dream is still fresh in my head I lean down, and the moment our lips touched I knew I was going to be hooked. She and I have been spending a lot of time together the last few months. Helping me with the kids, and what not. A few nights ago, we were watching a movie and I ended up laying my head on her lap, she started running her fingers through my hair and I fell asleep. I knew then that I had a crush on her, but that was it, or so I thought. Right now, with my lips on hers, I knew it was more than a crush. She lets out a moan and opens her mouth, when our tongues touched, I can't help but moan myself. I'm not sure what's going on, but I'm liking it.
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Arizona
I haven't had much time to think about what happened in the on-call room, everything stopped when my pager went off, and I got stuck in the OR for hours. But now I'm done, and headed to get some much needed coffee. "Arizona" I hear and turn to see April.
"oh hey" I smile, and stop so she can walk with me.
"how was your night? I heard you were here"
"it was" I start to say, the vision of kissing Meredith pops into my head, I can still feel her lips on mine "crazy"
"I've been here since 3 myself" April goes on "I'm in desperate need of some caffeine"
"yeah" I mutter, more to myself than anything
"hey what are you doing tonight?" she asks
"I" I start to say mentally going through my schedule in my head "nothing" I laugh. Sofia was in New York with Callie, and I was on my own.
"want to get a drink or 10 with me after work?" she looks up at me hopefully "Jackson has to stay tonight" she goes on but I tune her out. A drink with April after work, I run through my mind, maybe I could talk to her about what happened earlier with Meredith. "sure" I smile "what time?"
"I'm off at 6?" she smiles
"me too"
"I'll meet you in the attendings lounge then" she smiles as we reach the coffee cart, both placing our orders, and stepping back. "did you hear about Meredith?" April asks once we have our coffee's and are walking away. At the mention of her name I can feel the butterflies flutter in my stomach, when I don't answer April goes on "apparently she was in an on call room this morning with someone" this place is worse than high school "oh, who" I ask, already knowing the answer, but wanting to see if anyone knew. "I'm not sure" April laughs "but whoever it was, is one lucky man" I was in the middle of taking a sip of my coffee when I heard those words and started choking on it "Arizona are you ok?" April asks as she starts hitting my back. "I'm" cough, cough "I'm fine" I cough again and clear my throat. Coming to the elevator, I hit the button and the doors open, April and I both step in, I hit the button for the floor I needed and April does the same. When it stops and she goes to get out she looks at me "I'll see you tonight?"
"not unless I see you before" I smile and we both laugh, I'm not sure if it's at my corny joke, or the fact that it's a possibility. The doors close and I'm lifted up, opening again I step out and make my way to my office. Stopping to talk to the head nurse, Jules, on the way. Letting her know I would be in my office if I was needed, she gives me a soft smile and nods. Finally, alone in my office, I sit down in my chair and take a deep breath. There's so much going through my mind I don't even know how to process it. Meredith and I have become friends over the past few years, more so in the last month, but I never in my wildest dreams thought this would happen. Well there was this one time, after a party Derek had thrown, but I was with Callie, and she was with Derek. Letting my mind wander, I'm lost in a daydream of what could be. I'm broken out of my daydream when there is a knock at my office door, I look up and am met with a pair of blue eyes, I smile and say "hi"
"hi" she says looking away "I, ah" she starts to say, I can see her face turn red with embarrassment. "why don't you come in" she nods and steps into my office, shutting the door behind her. "so there is a rumor going around that I was in an on call room with someone this morning"
"I heard" I laugh hearing her let out a deep sigh "sit" I say pointing to the chair. She moves over to the couch instead; I stand from my chair and make my way to the couch. Sitting down we are both quiet "we, um, we should probably talk about what happened"
"nothing happened" I say softly watching her for her reaction. She lets out a sigh "Arizona" she lifts her head meeting my eyes "something did happen, we kissed, and, and if" she stops, I know what she is going to say, if my pager wouldn't have gone off it would have been more. I nod and let out a hum. As we are quiet for a few minutes I sit back and say "why don't you tell me about your dream"
"what dream?" she asks confused
"you said you had a dream about us"
"oh right" I see a small smile appear on her face, and her face turn red. She lets out a deep contented sigh and sits back. "well, you and I." she pauses clearing her throat "we were married" she paused again, I'm quiet waiting for her to continue but when she doesn't, I let my mind recreate its own images. "Arizona" she says, I look up meeting her eyes "I want to do it again"
"do what again" I know what she's talking about but I want to play dumb. After all this is Meredith Grey. "kiss you" she says shyly
"you want to kiss me again?" I ask trying not to laugh, she rolls her eyes and lets out a sigh, shaking her head she starts to stand "you know what, just forget it"
"Meredith" I reach out for her arm "I'm just playing with you" she turns to look at me, and I smile showing off my dimples "if you want to kiss me again, then do it, I'm not stopping you" she hesitates for a moment then reaches out pulling me into her, I could feel the pain in my teeth when they smashed with hers. This kiss wasn't anything like the ones we shared earlier, this kiss is filled with lust and desire, but I still felt the butterflies in my stomach. Pulling back when I felt the need for oxygen over power me. "wow" I say breathing hard, I can hear her panting also. I smile and sit back on the couch.
"yeah" she says in a sigh as she lays her head back on the couch. We are quiet a few minutes when I hear her say "would it be weird if I asked you on a date?"
"why don't you ask me and we can find out?"
"would you even agree"
"again, ask me and find out" I smile it was so like Meredith to dance around a subject like this. There were so many different parts to her, even more after Derek had died. I see her shake her head "Meredith" I say softly, she looks up again meeting my eyes "will you go on a date with me?" I see her smile and nod, then she leans over, placing her lips on mine.
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Meredith
I just spent the better part of the afternoon in Arizona's office making out like a couple of teenagers. My lips are sore and chapped, but so worth it. I didn't remember kissing a girl to be, god I don't even have the right word, but it's amazing, you don't get the friction burns from stubble, and she tasted so much better. I only left so we could go home and get ready for our date, I'm headed to my office to grab my stuff and head home. Praying I made it out of the hospital before anyone caught me or paged. Luck would have it, I smile as I start my car, letting it warm a bit, I look up and see Arizona coming out and getting into her car. My stomach started doing it's fluttering thing it has been doing when I see her, hear her voice, or even hear her name. She must have felt like someone was watching her as she looks in my direction smiles and waves before getting into her car. The plan was for her to go home and get cleaned up, I would do the same, then she could come and pick me up. Sounded like a good plan at the time, but now I'm thinking maybe I just want to go to her house and. I shake my head, I can't go there yet, it's too soon, every other relationship I've been in we've jumped into bed with each other. Hell Derek and I had a one night stand, or it was supposed to be a one night stand but well you all know how that ended. I watched as Arizona left the parking lot, I put my car in gear and drove, my mind wandering the whole way, of all the possible outcomes of tonight. Not coming out of my trance until I put the car in park. Sitting there staring out the windshield until I hear a knock on the window. Rolling it down "you stalking me now?" Arizona laughs.
"I" I start to say and look around letting out a chuckle "I didn't realize I followed you" she smiles again, this time showing off those amazing dimples "well come on in" it was starting to drizzle, I nod reaching for the key I shut the car off and get out following Arizona into the house. I no more than got the door closed behind me when I felt myself being pushed back against it, soft lips on mine. Letting out a moan when our tongues touched, I feel her hand glide down my body. And hear her moan as she cups my breasts. "Meredith" she breathed out.
"God Arizona I" I can't even get out what I want to say. I was consumed by her, all I wanted was her lips on mine, her hands on me, touching me.
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Arizona
I was surprised to see Meredith still in the parking lot, and on my drive home I thought I saw a car following me, but I wasn't sure, until I got out of my car at home. I don't know rather to be flattered she's here, or scared. I could tell our relationship changed after the on-call room. I managed to pull her off the door and to the couch and am now straddling her. I don't know if we are ready for this next step, and if I don't stop soon, I'm not going to be able to. My decision made for me when I feel her pull my shirt over my head, then reach behind me and unclasp my bra. Not a moment later her mouth is on my breast her tongue teasing my nipple. Oh god, yup we're doing this, I close my eyes and enjoy the feeling of being touched like this again. The last person who touched me like this was Callie, and we all know how that ended. I felt her hands move to my ass, squeezing it, then she flipped us over. Both giggling when I almost fell off the couch. Now she's hovering over me, I reach up putting her hair behind her ears, and get a good look into those blue eyes. "Arizona"
"Meredith"
"I, I" she sighs "I really want this to happen, but" I knew what she was going to say, so I reach out and pull her down "it's ok" I feel her let out a sigh of relief "do you still want to go out?" I ask. I feel her head nod on my naked chest. "alright you'll have to get off me so I can put a shirt on"
"I have to go change" she says kissing my chest
"why?" I ask as she sits up and looks at me "you look good in what you got on"
"because it's our first date and I want to make a good impression"
"Meredith" I laugh "we've known each other for forever, fuck we were even trapped on a mountain side for 4 days. We've seen each other at our worst"
"exactly why you need to see me in my best"
"I've seen that too" I smile and see her blush "let me get a bra and shirt on and we can go get dinner"
"ok" she nods and stands, sitting back down on the couch, I stand and place a kiss on her lips "I'll be quick" she smiles and I leave the room. Letting out a sigh as I stand half naked in my room. "that really just happened" I say to myself in the mirror "she really wants me, Meredith Grey wants me" as I said the last part my stomach starts to flutter "and I want her" shaking my head to clear the thoughts, I came up here to get dressed, reaching into the top drawer of my dresser I pull out a bra, and then head to the closet for a shirt. Putting both items on, I looked in the mirror one more time "good enough" I nod and leave the room. I can hear Meredith on the phone as I make my way back down the stairs "I just wanted to make sure you've got the kids" she says "ok thanks Maggie" she's quiet "no I don't know when I'll be home" feeling like I was intruding I clear my throat to make my presence known and see her smile "I have a date" I can hear Maggie squealing into the phone but can't hear what she was saying "I'll tell you about it tomorrow I gotta go, thanks again love you" and she hangs up. I smile "you ready?"
"more than" she stands and smiles. As we make our way to my car I feel my phone vibrate. It was now raining, I open the door for Meredith and make my way around my car, pulling my phone out once I am inside "shit" I say when I see April's name.
"what?"
"I forgot I was supposed to be meeting April for drinks"
"oh" Meredith says as she puts her seat belt on. Opening the text I let out a sigh of relief when it says 'sorry got pulled into the OR rain check on the drinks?'~ A. I send a quick reply and toss my phone in the center counsel. "all good" I say turning to Meredith who smiles.
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Meredith
I don't know what came over me, but I knew I needed to stop. As much as I wanted Arizona to touch me, and I her, now wasn't the right time. I called Maggie to make sure the kids were alright, while she was changing. She wasn't gone long, and now we are in her car headed to a restaurant, I told her to decide, I honestly didn't care, I just wanted to be with her. lost in my thoughts like I have been most the day, I didn't realize the car had stopped and we were there. Arizona gets out and walks around the car opening the door for me. Getting out I place a kiss on her lips and reach for her hand. When we enter the restaurant I realize she had taken me to Denny's, when I laugh I hear her say "I know not what you expected, but I figured its all the same right?"
"I love it Arizona" she smiles and we follow the waitress to the table. It doesn't take long before we are ordering and receiving our food. Never once was there an uncomfortable moment. More often than not we were laughing, she's now signing the check as she looks up and I'm met with a pair of the bluest eyes I have ever seen. I have always loved looking into those eyes. She winks, as she slides the check to the end of the table "what do you say we head to Joe's for a drink or two?"
"sounds good to me, lead the way" she nods and stands, waiting for me she reaches for my hand, as we leave the restaurant.
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Arizona
I wasn't sure if Joe's was the right place for a first date, but it was Joe's, so many memories have happened here. Meredith has my hand as we enter and make our way to the bar. Surprisingly it was quiet tonight. "hey ladies" Joe smiles at us from behind the bar, he see's we are holding hands and his smile got bigger and he winks at me. I smile, feeling a blush come over me "I'll have my usual" I say and he turns his focus to Meredith "usual" she smiles. He nods, and turns to make our drinks, once they are set in front of us, Meredith leads us to the back booth. Soft music coming out of the jukebox, we take a seat, and sit in silence for a few moments. "do you want to dance?" she asks
"Mer, you know I don't dance" I want to add anymore but I don't
"come on" she pleads "just this once" rolling my eyes I give in, she smiles and stands reaching out her hand, I take it and she leads me to the empty space we use for dancing. A slow song comes on and she pulls me close. I can't help but get lost in the words of the song…
"We've been friends for a long, long time. You tell me your secrets and I tell you mine.
She's left you all alone and you feel like no one cares. But I have never failed you I've always been there
You tell your story it sounds a bit like mine. It's the same old situation it happens every time. Can't we see oh maybe you and me. Is what's meant to be. Or do we disagree" I listen to the words, and feel my heart start to race, "What if I told you (what if I said) That I loved you. How would you feel? What would you think? What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend? Or find a love that would never end? What if I said"
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Meredith
Oh my god, this song, it's perfect for the way I feel, Arizona is in my arms and we are moving slowly around the floor, as the words from the song float around us "She doesn't love you. Oh it's plain to see. I can read between the lines of what you're telling me. And he doesn't hold you the way a woman should be held. How long can I go on keeping these feelings to myself" she pulls back, and I can look into those eyes I have become addicted too. "What if I told you -(what if I said) That I loved you. How would you feel? What would you think? What would we do? Do we dare to cross that line, between your heart and mine? Or would I lose a friend? Or find a love that would never end? What if I said" I lean forward capturing her lips with mine as the song plays on "Oh we've both had our share of loneliness, So who's to say we can't have a little happiness? And if I found that in you. It would make my dreams come true?
Or would you walk away? Hear what I have to say? What if I told you -(what if I said) That I loved you
How would you feel? What would you think? What would we do? Oh do we dare to cross that line, between your heart and mine? I've always wondered… From the day that we met, What if I said?"
As the song came to an end, she pulls back from the kiss, our eyes meeting and whispers "Meredith"
"Arizona" I whisper back, she hesitates for a moment but then in a tone I barely heard "I love you"
"I love you too" I say pulling her into me and kissing her softly.
The song and title is What if I said by Steve Wariner and Anita Cochran. Hope you enjoyed it and thank you to all the reviews.
