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Thomas looked at Juliet asking for help.
- All three if you will.
He nodded. Juliet held to help him get up, she directed him to the bed where he settled down.
- Do you know what triggered your crisis?
Thomas avoided their eyes, he concentrated on his hands.
- What happened yesterday.
- I don't know what happened yesterday Thomas.
Magnum called Juliet for help, and Juliet summed up what had happened.
- Did it remind you of Afghanistan?
- Can we talk about something else?
- No. In any case it makes me happy to see you again Juliette and especially to see that I was able to help you, smiled the doctor. Has he ever told you about all this?
- Not really, Higgins admitted. I have the broad outline, but he has never managed to open up on this subject.
- Don't want to tell him?
- Why I would want to! We've been through hell, I just want to forget everything!
- You know it doesn't work that way.
- Give me peace, with your shrink stuff! I was forced to see one after all this and it didn't really work!
- Thomas!
- What? What do you want her to do? She can't help me forget and I would always have nightmares!
- It can help you do less, and not have a seizure anymore!
- I don't need her for that!
- A yes you are sure of that? Because I wouldn't have known how to help you if we had both been home," Juliette confessed as she held back tears.
Magnum stared at her, he didn't know what to answer.
- Thomas, you injured two people, and I'm sure the nurse who was taking care of you died of scare!
- And I could have hurt you.
- So open up, we're here to help you.
- It's too hard Higgy.
Juliet took his hand and he smiled.
- Can you tell me what your last experience with a shrink was like?
- Bad! She, finally I know nothing I told her some trick and I frankly had the impression that it was she who was going to need a session!
- What you've experienced can be hard to hear.
- It's his job!
- Hey, tried to appease Juliet.
- Perhaps you can tell us the original reason for your crisis.
- The hole?
He took a deep breath, and watch Juliet to give himself courage.
- I was the one who dug it. At one point they pushed me in and they installed a find of fence held by a stone so that I could not escape. It rained a lot and the hole filled with water.
Thomas struggled with his memories.
- That's good, Dr. Ogawa encouraged, continue.
- To say what? huh? Thomas began to get carried away
- Thomas, tried to appease Juliet.
- We all know what happens in an Afghan prison camp! We were tortured for eighteen months! And of course they were imaginative! So sorry I don't want to go through that again!
- This is to help you get better.
- Oh, yes? And how will reliving all this help me exactly?
- Thomas, please.
- No! I'm tired of shrinks, they are useless!
- You react like this for the moment but it will get better!
- yes after paying you I don't know how much!
- Magnum!
- Please try, Dr. Ogawa asked calmly. Perhaps you can tell us something else?
- Oh yes, like what? The number of times we almost died? Or how much they broke me!
And silence fell. Thomas was still analyzing what he had just said.
- Is this the first time you've said it out loud?
He said nothing.
- Or is this the first time you've admitted it?
Again, she had no answer.
- If you do not answer, I would say that it is the second option.
- Go, he asked in a sulfur.
- All right, I'll leave you.
- What?" said Juliette surprise.
- Don't worry, he will need you and he will come back to me.
So the psychiatrist came out of the room. Juliet looked at Thomas, trying not to show his sadness.
- You should leave too.
- What? What for?
- You heard it, didn't you? You've heard them all! I am dangerous! And probably completely screwed!
- Hey, stop. You didn't do anything against me and I'm sure I can do something.
- A yes and what?
- I wasn't broken like you, but you fixed me. And even if you just lowered your last barricades even with me, I'm not going to leave you. Especially now that I finally know all the facets of Thomas Magnum.
- This one sucks!
- I love him!
He frowned, not completely sure what he had just heard.
- Higgy? he smiled
- We're going to face that together.
- But what if I drown, because it's likely to happen?
- I'm here, I always will be.
- And if I take you with me.
- It's not going to happen.
- Are you sure?
- Yes, but you will have to go see Dr. Ogawa. You need to help and I will also need his advice.
- To manage me?
- Thomas!
- But it kind of comes down to that, doesn't it?
Juliette sighed:
- If you want we can say that. Are you ready for help?
He looked at her silently.
- I won't do it alone, it's too important.
- Are you going to leave?
- What? No, of course not! All I want is for you to get better and with the best possible care.
Thomas smiled shyly at her.
- OK.
The road was going to be long and complicated but with Juliette he was going to get there.
