So much time that passed, it feels like forever, seeing you in person I finally feel like I'm home. Because you are my home, but I am not yours. I've always tried to catch up and I truly believed you'd see me one day. But then you left, and my catch up turned into chase. You'd think your hand through my chest would be clear enough, but no, the fool I am can't let go. As you land in front of me, clear indifference on your porcelain face I can't help but be struck by your beauty. The fact I can feel your heat makes my legs weak, because for a while now I truly didn't think I'd ever be this close again. And then the pain hits, the moment your hand has my shoulder I remember the sleepless nights, the despair of you being brainwashed. But you look the same, you feel the same and it hurts. You've been fine, growing, getting stronger. I can see it, I can feel it. I hope you found what you were looking for, I hope you achieve your goals. I want to help you with it but the look in your eyes, the way you're slowly pulling out your sword, I know. I know you don't need my help, and you certainly don't want it. So I will stop here, you once said killing me is the best help I could give you. I want to give you that. I know you don't want the love of others, your sick of the attention, always were. And unlike our friends... you went through something that made you grow up a lot fast than them, like me. God how I wish we could have helped each other! If you had just opened up to me I could have helped. I would have. I look into those onyx eyes, darker than the night sky, but the stars are gone. There's no light there anymore, yeah, your stars lied to me. I hope you see it, can you feel what I am trying to get across? Though you're about to kill me so I don't think you care to. The way your eye widens when our eyes meet causes my heart to accelerate. I don't doubt I'm the only one who sees it. The slight hesitation, the doubt you're feeling. I tense, to keep my hands at my sides, you don't want me to touch you, you don't want me to talk. You want me to die. If I died now, with your strength and whatever my death gives you, would you leave Orochimaru? I hope so. I have so many questions, so much I want to say but there is no time. The sword is unsheathed now, trapping me between you and it. But it is okay, I am ready, and if you can be free of your darkness, the fear and anger after I will gladly go. I look ahead and close my eyes, the intake of your breath has me wanting to open them again. To fight but we have done that before, and I should probably have died then, why didn't you finish me off? You had every chance.
A wave of your chakra hits me and I almost fall to my knees, how I had craved to feel that these past three years! Then silence.
"Naruto?" It's the first time you have spoken and it hits me harder than you Chakra. My chin shakes with the overwhelming emotion because damn you it's like you've put another Chidori in my chest, yet it's somehow worse! "Naruto?" You say again and I realise you're talking to me.
I open my eyes and were alone, at the valley. Ah, Gen Jutsu, I realise. My body feels like it's vibrating with the emotions, the need to move, to fight but it's useless.
"It's okay" I choke out over the lump in my throat "I can help you now. I- I understand this is all you want from me" I nod which was a lie. I didn't understand why. Why was my death going to make you stronger? Why would my death help you defeat Itachi? But I had realised, a few minutes ago, that didn't matter.
"You can't be serious?" You ask incredously "you want to-"
"No" I shook his head "No I don't. But-" I bit my lip. I had never told you, and it won't change anything but maybe if you understood, it would help?
"But what?"
"But I love you. And you won't ever be free until you get that revenge you need. Your darkness isn't the same as mine, it can't be filled with people, with hope. You went through much worse than I did. You said, that day, killing me would help you. If you won't accept my help in life then..." I trailed off, and you scowl at me "let my love for you mean something"
"I didn't kill you though" you point out and I nod
"You're older now, hardened, much more than me. We can do it now. I can't live like this anymore. Without you it's just... suffocating. If it helps you-"
"You're an idiot" you snap "You're just gonna let me kill you because you love your 'best friend' so much?"
I winced as my eyes stung from the oncoming tears, of course you don't get it. Why would you believe I of all people would be in love with you. Especially given the way you treated me, I'm not stupid, I know you treated me bad. But you were lost, still are and if I had cut my losses at the valley maybe you'd be home now. My promise to Sakura would have been fulfilled. The scowl fell from your face as it went lax. You impossibly turned paler as you shook your head, you figured it out I realise and a bitter laugh left me.
"Yeah" I look away from you
We stood in silence as you took in the new information, as I felt a new hole punched through my chest, it burnt felt like fire up and down my throat as I tried to breathe. You took a step forward and I stepped back quickly putting my hand up slightly
"It's fine" I half yelled "Okay just... don't. But for once just let me help you. I can do it now" I assure you. I cursed myself, I'm pathetic, even now all I can be is happy to see you, smell you, feel you and you aren't ever going to care for me. I put my hands together focusing the chakra
"Wait!" He called
"Release!"
The peaceful atmosphere instantly left and I almost choked on the darkness of your chakra, the tension of the fight, well the execution if I was being accurate. There was pressure on my back as I opened my eyes, your looking behind me, a gloved hand on your arm. Sai? What the hell? Right, I came with others, I had forgotten. Though still surprised Sai would jump in to rescue me, he honestly didn't seem to care either way. I can't help but feel both happy and butter at the act, but now I have to fight. I don't want fight you but this opening has been given I now know I have to. Maybe I will come back later, and I can die for you then. Though... I do wonder what you were going to say.
This came out of nowhere. Originally it came from a song I was listening to and then spiralled into this after the first few sentances. I'm not really a SasuNaru fan but it felt like it fit them the most.