Subaru opens his eyes. He was back as usual but-

―Emilia...?

Emilia's body was in his arms, he quickly understands the situation but refuses to admit it.

― This is a fucking joke...?

Tears flow from these two eyes, he is enraged because of two monsters, Satela and Regulus Corneas.

― Please...Satela bring me back first so I can save her!

But no one answered him, he heard the wind blowing and a few footsteps which he ignored

―Subaru...? Emilia is..?

― NO I CAN SAVE HER! I WILL FIND A WAY EVEN IF I HAVE TO-

Time freezes, a sensation that this Subaru had never experienced occurs. A dark hand filled with Envy approaches Subaru and squeezes his heart. He had never tried to tell his power before, he had no one to tell except Meili and Elsa but that would probably have been a bad idea.

― AHH! Damn it hurts... I didn't know I couldn't say it.

― Subaru, are you okay?

The little girl was very worried about her contractor, he was acting a little strange but given the situation she understood. But she notices that Subaru was starting to move towards Regulus' body and that he retrieves the knife

― I'm fine, don't worry Beatrice. Sorry if I'm going to hurt you again.

- Eh ?

But she hadn't had time to cast a spell to stop her contractor from doing something terrible, he had committed suicide again.

―SUBARU!

Natsuki Subaru lost his life 28 times and gave up on the idea of being able to save Emilia. Satela no longer brought Subaru into her shadow garden at the moment.

― Satela, you are a dirty bitch.

He begins to cry, he gradually loses his pride when he notices that he cannot save the person he loves most in the world.

―What am I supposed to do?

Once again, as in the other loops, the girl returns.

―Subaru...? Emilia is..?

― Yes, she is dead. Beatrice, what am I supposed to do?

― I don't know, maybe we can help others?

― I DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHERS! IT'S EMILIA I WANT! SHE IS EVERYTHING TO ME I WOULD GIVE HER MY LIFE TO SAVE HER!

―Subaru...I'm sorry I can't help.

― I want to see Meili.

- What ?

― If there is no way to bring Emilia back I at least wish she could be happy.

― Meili? The girl locked in the mansion?

― Yes, it's probably the second daughter who means the most to me

― I think we can go back to the mansion but I think we should help the others, I guess.

― Let's go kill the other bastards who stole my Emilia. I will avenge her and I will find a way to bring her back, I promise.

Subaru and Beatrice headed towards where Wrath is located, it was the closest to their position.

After a few minutes, they just arrived and saw the Archbishop of Wrath on the ground tied up and trying to struggle.

― The plan went well from what I see! I didn't expect it to end so quickly.

Al heads straight to Subaru to explain the situation

― She gave us a hard time, fortunately Wilhem was there without him it would have been very complicated!

"That's good, we should make her faint then kill her. We'll do it when Reinhard is available, I'm pretty sure he has some sort of fainting power or something.

The duo starts running straight away to see Gluttony, Beatrice was surprised to see that her contractor was faster than usual.

They arrived and saw Gluttony dead, half of his body reduced to ashes. His left arm was cut and some teeth were missing.

A young red-haired knight approaches him, memories of his old curls resurface but he tries to avoid them.

"I'm sorry, my dear friend. Lust ran away and I couldn't bring myself to chase her

- Are you kidding me ?! YOU LET LUST ESCAPE! THE WORST ARCHBISHOP OF THE WITCH CULT!

Reinhard had a sad look on his face, he seemed a little surprised. Not from Subaru's reaction, but from his feelings. He saw great sadness despite his words.

- I'm sorry. I have a question Subaru, why do you seem so sad?

Subaru looks away, he was too sad to talk about Emilia's death but his mind does it for him.

― Emilia is dead.

- Oh I am sorry..

Subaru tries to forget this moment and moves on to hurry to get this over with and so he can finally see Meili again.

― The result is that all the archbishops died except for Lust who fled. Reinhard you will make the Wrath faint so that we can kill it.

Then he signals Reinhard to follow him, they eliminate Wrath without difficulty and then a rally takes place at the Town Hall

― So in summary we have eliminated three archbishops?

― Yes...but we lost candidate Emilia.

Subaru refused that Emilia was definitely dead, he had hope that he could save her.

― I WILL SAVE HER! I SWEAR IT WHATEVER IT COSTS!

Her mind, Beatrice hugs Subaru to try to calm him down. Subaru was angry at Satela for bringing him back after she died. Why did you take it too far? It was the first time he couldn't fix something for himself.

― Can we end it here? My contractor wants to have some rest and see the inhabitants of the mansion again.

– Yes, let's finish there. I'll let you continue, but I can't bear to stay here for even one more minute.

Subaru carries Emilia in his arms accompanied by Béatrice. Otto and Garfiel went to follow them back. Otto apologizes to the others for Subaru's behavior and asks them to understand that it is a tragic loss for him.

Several hours had now passed, news had spread quickly that three archbishops had been killed with much help from Subaru and the news that Emilia had died had not yet been released to the public.

Subaru and the rest of the camp had almost arrived at their destination.

― Captain, what are we going to do now without her...?

During the trip, Subaru had managed to gather a lot of information about this reality. He had learned almost everything he needed to know.

― I absolutely don't know.

Subaru was a little broken, without Beatrice he would probably have gone crazy and abused Return By Death. He liked Beatrice, he now knew that he could count on her and had learned that she was a spirit and who was his contract due to the fact that she called him "contractor"

― So for the royal selection how will it go?

― I'm just going to convince them that Emilia is still part of the royal selection. We just have to find a way to bring her back.

― Captain, I don't want to upset you but I really don't think we can bring her back...as incredible as you are it's impossible to bring her back.

― There must be a way, I can save her I'm sure.

Garfiel doesn't want to contradict his Captain so he doesn't say more, even if he is quite sad to see him like that.

― I wonder how Roswaal will react when we tell him the news.

Otto spoke with a slight sadness in his voice, he was with Emilia a lot since he was her minister to help her with the papers.

― We have arrived at our destination.

Subaru and the rest of the camp left to go to the mansion. They all had a look full of sadness, especially Subaru even if he tried to hide it because of the remains of his pride that he was losing little by little.

― Subaruuu! You're finally home!

A cute young maid he had never seen before quickly approached him

- Hi ?

― You're making a terrible face, has something happened?

Before Subaru responds, his mind responds to prevent Subaru from falling into a seizure again.

― Emilia is no longer in this world.

- NO ! IT'S WRONG I'M GONNA BRING HER BACK I TOLD YOU!

Subaru still didn't want to admit it. And before yelling at Beatrice again, he passes out from exhaustion after everything that happened.

Petra quickly rushes to catch up with Subaru with Beatrice and begins to escort him to his room. The rest of the camp also went to sleep since it was dark and they hadn't slept in a while.

― Is Emilia really dead?

― Unfortunately yes, since then my contractor is a little broken. You will have to give him a lot of time to recover. I doubt he'll ever recover from it.

― I see, it's very sad.

Petra was very sad that Emilia was gone but her love for Subaru made her a little happy but she was angry to think of him at such a moment.

"I have a request for you, Petra.

― Yes, what do you want, Miss Béatrice?

― I would like you to spend time with Subaru to make him forget about Emilia a little. He was already having a lot of nightmares and other things that I won't talk about and now that she's no longer here I'm afraid to leave him alone.

Petra absolutely didn't mind spending time with the one she loves, especially if it was to cheer him up.

― I would spend as much time with him as possible if that's what you ask me!

― We have arrived, good night Petra.

― Thank you, have a nice dream, Miss Béatrice!

The two left each other and slept. Roswaal was not yet informed of the situation but was delighted to see everyone back.

Subaru wakes up, he had a little difficulty moving his right arm and when he looked he saw that Beatrice was with him

― She cares a lot about me, I'm starting to really like her

He then tries to stroke her hair and was surprised to see how fluffy her hair was. Then he starts to get up without waking her and leaves the room.

―Wait a minute, this mansion is different from what I remember..?

Subaru had already visited Roswaal's mansion in the past to discuss with the clown what merits would come to Emilia when he killed an archbishop.

― They may have changed the style or I may have confused it with something else. What do I do now ?

After a minute, he remembers that he absolutely wanted to see Meili again so he starts looking everywhere in the mansion

― Subaru did you need anything?

A young maid who had already spoken to him yesterday was in front of him again, she seemed kind and trustworthy

― Yes, where can I find Meili?

― Meili..? I didn't expect you to look for it. Can I take you to her if that's what you want?

- Yes please ! That would be really nice...what do you want me to call you?

Petra was surprised by the question, usually he likes to call her only by her first name.

― You can just call me Petra, no need to call me anything else Subaru.

She told him this with her cutest smile and Subaru was embarrassed to see how nice she was.

― You are really so kind Petra! Let's become friends!

― You didn't consider me a friend before...?

Petra was a little disappointed, she thought Subaru had always considered him a friend. Noticing her disappointed face, Subaru quickly tries to find a distraction

― Yes, but what I mean is to become... uh... best friends!

Petra now had a very happy look on her face, she was surprised that Subaru was giving her more attention than usual

- My pleasure ! I want to become your best friend! Even more...

Petra had whispered at the end of her sentence and Subaru normally wouldn't have noticed but with his experience he had completely heard what she had said.

- More ?

Petra was surprised that Subaru had heard the end of her sentence, she was embarrassed and was now blushing.

― That's not what I meant..I just want to be there for you when you need help and even help you if you start crying for Emilia..!

Subaru now had a panic attack after hearing Emilia's name

― EMILIA IS NOT DEAD...! I WILL...SAVE HER!

Subaru had tears flowing, he was scared and scared. Fear of never seeing Emilia again. Then Petra hugged Subaru to try to calm him down.

― Don't worry, I'm here Subaru.

After a few seconds, Subaru regained his senses.

― Sorry for before, I'm fine don't worry Petra.

― It's me who's sorry Subaru.

― Can we go see Meili-?

But another voice interrupts them. She's a dark one like Petra but she seemed less nice and a little taller

― No Barusu, Roswaal absolutely wants to see you.

― Let's go see Roswaal but I hope he won't keep me busy for too long

― Treat Roswaal better, he will take as much of your time as he wants.

Subaru notices that his new friend wasn't following them and he wasn't very enthusiastic about going without her

― Petra, do you want to come?

― With pleasure Subaru!

The three of them arrived in front of Roswaal's door, Subaru entered with Ram and Petra. Ram didn't want Petra to come but Subaru refused Ram's orders. When they opened the door, Roswaal was sitting on his desk with an indescribable look.

― Hello Subaruuu~!

- What do you want from me ? I have something important to do so please be quick.

― You are quite suspicious of me, let's move on but I wanted to know why everyone is pulling this depressed face?

Subaru didn't want to answer, every time he thinks of Emilia he suffers. Petra notices that Subaru was feeling bad.

― Subaru, do you want me to talk to him about it for you...?

― Yes please, I don't feel well enough to talk to him about it.

Roswaal was quite worried to see how much this was causing Subaru pain. He was a little scared to hear what happened but didn't show it on his face.

― Emilia is no longer in this world.

This single sentence instantly changed Roswaal's mind, he didn't understand. Had he heard wrong? He wondered why this loop still exists if Emilia is gone.

― I would like to have a one-on-one discussion with Subaru, please come out.

Petra and Ram leave the room, Ram left to work and Petra was waiting for Subaru behind the door.

― Subaru, why haven't you started this loop again?

- Restart ? Wait you know!?

Roswaal doesn't understand anything at all, he tried to make sense of it all but had no idea what was going on.

― Why didn't you bring Emilia back!

― Because I just can't, I tried but I can't save her

Roswaal's face changed, he was a little frustrated and understood Subaru's ability a little more

― Do you have any idea how to bring her back?

- I've no idea.

Then Subaru couldn't take it anymore and starts to burst into tears, hearing Subaru's cries, Petra opens the door then sees Subaru collapsed on the ground. She quickly understood that Roswaal had gone too far and hated him even more.

― I'll let you continue for the moment, I have to think about some things so please don't bother me for the next few days.

Then Petra and Subaru left the room, but before going to see Meili, Petra decides to ask if he wanted to see Rem but thinks it's a bad idea to remind him of Rem. She quickly notices something.

When I think about it, Subaru lost Emilia and Rem. He must really be suffering a lot, I absolutely have to cheer him up and put a smile back on his face.

Petra begins to hug Subaru. Subaru didn't resist and he couldn't even cry anymore.

― Let's go see Meili. I promise no one will bother us now Subaru.

Petra forces herself to smile to make Subaru smile a little, even if it doesn't work she sees that Subaru is happy to be with her.

They arrive in front of the door where Meili is locked then open it, when Subaru sees Meili his face becomes a little more joyful than before.

― Meili...?

―Onii-san! Did you come to play with me?

Subaru was happy to see Meili so happy, she didn't seem sad to be cooped up here and had a lot of toys with her.

― Yes, whatever you want Meili.

― Super Onii-san is super nice today!

They had a good time together, Meili didn't really understand why Subaru wanted to play with her but was happy. Usually no one plays with her except Petra who has already come three, four times.

― I have a proposition for you Meili.

― Yes Onii-san~?

― Would you like to get out of here? I hate seeing you locked up and alone. You mean the world to me...

- Really..?

― Yes Meili, you are undoubtedly the second person who means the most to me.

―Thank you Onii-san~! I love you

― Let's start again on a good basis, shall we? No matter what I have done to you in the past, I promise to make you happy.

"You look so much better than before! But your eyes seem much scarier~

The three of them left the room, Meili was the most energetic of the three. She knew Emilia was dead but Meili had no affection for her so she didn't care about the news.

― Captain? What is the killer doing outside her cell?

― I trust him completely, don't worry!

― If you say so Captain! I'm going back to training, bye!

― Bye.

Subaru didn't have much affection towards Garfiel, he seemed strong but not interesting enough. He would try to learn more about him later.

― Subaru, when are we going to eat? It's already 1:30 p.m.

― Whenever you want, it's true that I'm a little hungry

Subaru, Petra and Meili head to the dining room. Petra strangely notices that Subaru is only following her, as if he doesn't know the way, but she tells herself that it's just her who must be imagining that.

After eating a delicious meal, they walked together through the mansion until a cute spirit interrupted them.

― Subaru, what is Meili doing here?

― She is now a resident. I refuse to let her stay locked in a cell.

― As you wish, I suppose

― Did you want to tell me something...?

― No, I just want to stay with my contractor. But I have a question, why don't you call me beako anymore?

―Beako? If you want me to call you that I don't mind

― No, it's okay, I think.

Subaru quickly caught on to her way of speaking, she usually said "I suppose" or "I think" at the end of these sentences.

The day normally goes until 3:30 p.m. A merchant named Otto had come to tell them he had visitors.

― Anastasia Hoshin wishes to speak with you, Subaru.

- What it is about ?

― I don't know, but she told me it was interesting and that it could bring Emilia and Rem back.

He was suddenly very interested. For this "Rem" he didn't care at all but if it brings Emilia back he will do it at all costs.

― Let's go see what she wants from me.

Subaru, Beatrice, Meili, Petra and Otto went to see Anastasia Hoshin, he was a little happy to know that there was a chance for Emilia to come back but wanted to know how.

Big chapter to conclude the end of arc 5!

I took a lot of time and tried to be very detailed. I hope you like this!

For the moment, things are going rather badly for Emilia and Subaru. He's a little broken when he hears about Emilia and I tried to convey that in the writing. Don't ask me what Beatrice is doing when Subaru is with Petra and Meili because even I don't know, I just wanted to give them a little quiet time.

Subaru cares a lot about Meili and refuses to kill her again, even to save Emilia he couldn't hurt her again. For now Petra and Subaru are just good friends. Subaru feels that Petra can be trusted.

Three archbishops died, I'm sorry for not detailing their fight and I don't like writing fight scenes. Gluttony couldn't do anything against so many people, he had to suffer. For Wrath, it was Wilhem who did most of the work. And for Capella she fled in barely two minutes of fighting noticing that the Swort Saint was far too powerful.

Don't hesitate to suggest your ideas to me, for the moment Subaru doesn't care at all about Rem since he never knew her.