Please know that this is just something that popped into my mind last night. I just wanted to drabble it and see how it is taken. I can write a longer story along this idea IF people would want to see it.

Remus watched as Sirius entered their dorm and flopped down next to him on the bed. This was getting more and more normal with every passing day. The feel of the weight of his boyfriend next to him comforted him more than anything. A hand slid up his back as Remus dropped his book and looked over at Sirius.

"How are you?" He asked, looking down at the dark eyes that all Black family members sported.

"Bored," he admitted. "And I could not stop thinking about you."

"How so?" Remus laughed softly.

"I was thinking about how much I wanted to touch you, kiss you, and be close to you," Sirius said leaning up and getting closer to Remus.

"Oh…" Remus said getting slightly uncomfortable with this and pulling back.

Sirius watched not knowing entirely why Remus always seemed to get uncomfortable with close contact. This was not anything new and he had always been too afraid to ask why. Sirius did not move any closer as he watched Remus carefully.

"That is if you want me to," he added not wanting to push Remus.

"It's okay," Remus said leaning forward and gently placing a kiss on Sirius' lips.

Sirius took this opportunity to lean in slightly and run a hand into Remus' hair, receiving a small moan in response. The kiss started to deepen as Sirius leaned even closer, their breathing getting faster before the kiss broke. Sirius did not wait long before leaning in and kissing Remus again, pulling him closer than he had the last time. Remus tensed up yet again and Sirius could tell this which caused him to break the kiss.

"Remus, what is wrong?"

"I…" he simply said getting nervous as he looked at Sirius. "I think I need to come clean with you."

"Let me guess…." Sirius said pulling back and looking him in the eyes. "You are not interested in me and have been using me."

"Sirius, it is nothing like that."

"Then why do you seem to always pull back and tense up every time I kiss you?"

"You have to promise me you will not say a word to anyone. Not even James."

"Sure," Sirius said, irritated by now.

"I'm trans," Remus said softly causing Sirius to look at him confused.

"What?"

"You heard me."

"But you do not look… female…"

"Yeah. There is a spell on me so I look male."

"How long have you known?"

"For years now. Before I got my letter," Remus admitted. "My father was very accepting and helped with the spell. Dumbledore knew about this as well and promised to keep my secret. He agreed that once I could keep up the spell, that I would. I have been doing it this year myself and that is what made me uncomfortable. I am afraid that…. I would not have it right and when we kissed or you would press up against me, you would figure it out."

"Are you going to shy away if I touch you?" Sirius asked watching Remus shake his head no.

Kissing him gently, Sirius let one hand slide between Remus' legs and caress him. As Sirius did this, Remus' eyes went wide with shock. Sirius broke the kiss with a smirk.

"You feel the same as me," he grinned causing Remus to smile. "Now can I please continue?"

"Yes, but if I ever don't get the spell right…. Will you tell me?"

"Absolutely, unless we both agree otherwise," Sirius agreed.

"Deal," Remus said pulling Sirius against him and kissing him deeply, just as he had done so many times last year.

For those reading, I am non-binary and insecurity is a huge thing that I deal with. There are times that I have an extremely hard time even wearing what is comfortable to me to school. Let me know how you feel about this.