Diary of Ominis Gaunt
22nd of December 1892
I have tried my hardest to deny the facts that I know to be true. Alas, my heart will not let her go, despite the way it is tearing apart at the seams. From the very moment I met Caecilia, she has both destroyed me and set fire to my veins. I loved her from the first moment we met, the soft spoken girl who came to be at Hogwarts for a reason unbeknownst to Sebastian and myself. Her beautiful voice enchanting me, her laugh bewitching my body and soul. I loved her when we found out the truth of what she had done, the way she had hurt someone in ways I could never imagine possible of her. I loved her when we found out there was another side to her. Beautiful like a rose with many thorns to protect her from anybody who wronged her. Her fierce sense of justice. Her draconian need for vengeance. I loved every dark corner, and every bright spark. How I have tried to convince myself that my heart does not beat for her, that my soul is not bound to hers. It is insufferable. Worse yet, the fact that I can no longer deny that Sebastian has feelings for her. I tried to disregard the way he seemed to yearn for her attention, the way his energy felt almost tangible whenever she was around. I had paid no mind to the way he had attached himself to her, weaving her into the most important parts of his life and becoming dependent on her to fix his unresolved problems, and the trauma deep in his mind. It remains unclear to me if the feelings are requited, as Caecilia's mind is impenetrable. Yet despite the walls she has built around her mind, I am certain that there are times her heart is open to me, in a way that it is not for Sebastian. Of all the things I have come to realise, this is perhaps the most excruciating, as it is undeniable that should I choose to pursue Caecilia, it would shatter Sebastian's soul and the damage would be irreparable.