Notes:
I hope you like this new fic, forgive the mistakes, English is not my original language.
01.🌸Seed🌸
🌷Spring🌷
May
"Spring is in its splendor and the seeds are beginning to germinate..."
Never had a feeling of total restlessness stirred up Maki so suddenly as at that moment.
So alert did that feeling become, that she even had to pause her purchases in the junk food aisle of the supermarket to quickly move to the pharmacy area.
And all that restlessness appeared thanks to that "baby" that he helped carry and who had cried desperately once he was placed in his arms while the mother of this baby took something out of the freezer in that corridor.
The green-haired woman's eyes widened and she only swallowed saliva once that woman uttered the phrase:
"If a baby rejects a woman, it's because they sense another baby on the way."
At first that seemed silly to her, a stupid phrase that a normal woman like her might say to avoid being "rude" in saying that perhaps her baby cried seeing those scars on Maki's arms and face.
Or maybe she said it so as not to say that her little one was spoiled who just wants to be stuck in her mother's lap.
But that "stupid phrase" would turn into uncertainty when she saw that she had almost filled the cart with certain cravings and junk food with "unusual flavors" even for her.
She had even been through the feminine hygiene aisle and barely realized she was a little over two weeks late.
All of this set off an alarm that vibrated with pain throughout her body, especially in her belly.
"Could it be possible that...?" Maki censored herself too desperately, the pit of her stomach began to burn and her salivation became excessive at that visceral question.
Doubt had eaten into her while she was heading to that place She could finally call "home". A small but comfortable apartment for two, which she shared with the one she had chosen as her companion for life.
Maki never considered herself homey, let alone "sweet" or "romantic" when it came to love.
She still didn't feel entirely familiar with the word "family".
Even when she married Yuta once she reached the age of majority, Maki continued to behave like the usual girl... Rebellious, brave and even somewhat proud who followed her own criteria even now at just 19 years old.
But that courage became cowardly and a host of emotions difficult to digest made her pale as she closed the bathroom door with that proof in hand.
"When you need someone the most... is when you're alone" She sighed reciting that mantra that she had made her own for some time "you can handle this, you could handle other worse things, it's obvious that I can handle this" Maki said to herself herself trying to get up the courage to urinate in that little vial.
And while reading the instructions for that test, she felt that she had become small and fragile... it had been many years since she had felt that fear and uncertainty for something unknown.
The first time she felt that sensation of fragility to the unknown, was when she was locked up for the first time together with Mai in that pit full of curses when they were around seven years old... although at that time she could not see or feel the curses, that feeling of suffocation tormented her due to fear and the uncertainty of knowing if she would get out alive from there.
But now, as an adult and especially as a woman, the uncertainty and fear were penetrating and even somewhat desperate to know if there was a small being germinating inside her.
"Tsk! Let's put an end to all this at once, surely it's pure suggestion by that stupid baby!" She commented with a bit of anger.
Once she finished using that test as the instructions said and washing her hands.
She decided to wait sitting on the toilet while that test rested on the sink.
Those five minutes of revealing the results seemed endless and the May heat did not help at all in that environment.
Maki waited with her elbows on her knees and her hand on her cheek, but the intense movement of her foot did not leave her alone, much less when her eyes went sideways towards that test that took forever to reveal itself.
As best she could, she remained calm, although the spring heat and the slight noise made by the exhaust fan made her mind fill with bad memories of her mother and her clan in general.
🌸"Family"🌸
It was a word of which Maki still did not understand its meaning.
She preferred to refer to it as "as a couple or as married" when talking about her marriage, but "Family" seemed like it could never come out of her mouth, especially now that the word "maternity" resonated strongly in her head.
"Do I really want a baby? I don't think I've ever seriously thought about it... 'mother'... 'sons'... 'blood'... 'clan'... 'birth'..." She gave a small growl as the mind of she was filled with bad memories.
💐"Mother" 💐
Deep inside, she hated that word and all thanks to the woman who gave her life.
That woman who wished her never to have given birth to she or her twin sister.
That woman who did nothing to defend her when they beat her, that woman with a lost look who wandered in that infernal residence... Does that mean being a mother?... Maki definitely didn't want to end up like her...
"Will I be a good mother figure? Do I really want to be a mother? Do I really have the 'instinct'?" — She questioned herself while she once again looked askance at that pregnancy test.
Maki rarely talked about this topic with Yuta, she simply avoided it because she felt that "it was too soon" for something like that.
They even tried to protect themselves as much as possible in every sexual relationship they had, although in extreme circumstances, such as when condoms ran out, he ejaculated out of her.
Maki didn't hate children, but sometimes she couldn't stand them, especially the ones who cried too much... she knew she had a strong character that easily exploded with even the most childish antics of her peers.
Although Yuta once, in a moment of sincerity, confessed to him that whatever she decided on whether or not to have children would be fine and he would respect it, although if one day a baby came into their lives, it would be loved and well received because he would be having it with that woman he loved most in the world.
But deep down, Maki had rejection on the subject of children, because she knew that the blood that ran through her veins was the worst and more so at the moment of conceiving, giving birth and raising.
"What idiocies I am saying and thinking! Me? How mother? Ha! Yes, of course... As if I had a 'good example to follow' to think about being a mother... perhaps my retardation is due to the stress of the missions I've had or excessive exercise..." She grumbled as she took a breath. She take a closer look at that test that was almost ready.
In that instant of desperation to know the result of whether or not she was pregnant, she remembered a phrase that made her blood boil when she was a child.
It was a phrase that all the women of her clan once said, especially when they had their first menstruation and their breasts, as well as their hips, were beginning to develop.
"Zenin women who are born without power, are not good for anything other than giving birth to children... If you have a firm bust and, incidentally, good and wide hips, they will only be good for one thing and that will be to engender" commented that female voice while pointing to Maki's underwear, which were stained with blood.
That phrase had deeply penetrated Maki to the bone and that memory made her relive one of the main reasons why she had hated being born a woman and incidentally, why she rejected the word motherhood.
"beget", "give birth", "suckle"
Those words revived more deplorable situations that women within the clan had to live with... especially with their menstruations, with the complaints of painful lactation and with unwanted pregnancies just to please and preserve the Zenin blood.
Maki felt like a traitor at that moment... that blood that she swore to eliminate completely, now perhaps it would continue in a next generation, if there was a possibility that she was already germinating it in her womb.
"Damn!" she uttered, squeezing her eyes shut and hitting her elbow by mistake on the edge of the sink. "Ouch!"
That blow would make her get up and yell furiously, she even leaned hard against that sink that could be heard creaking before her grip.
But, all those dark feelings that she thought had already been buried in the depths of her heart, now they had resurfaced together with the heat and depression of May...
But the next thing would only make her feel even worse and fill her with more frustration.
Two positive lines...
Pregnant.
"No... can't be..." Maki's jaw dropped and her hands loosened at her sides.
A knot formed in the pit of her stomach and it was the first time she felt the need to vomit.
"I'm…pregnant…" her breath caught before she started to vomit in the bathroom.
In each retching she felt her soul wanting to get out of her body... she didn't know how to assimilate everything she had just discovered.
Maki shuffled out of the bathroom to approach the bed where she fell onto her side.
The poor felt awful, she took a fetal position and hugged her belly... where it was now confirmed that she was carrying a seed from the Zenin clan.
"I... don't... know how I should feel about all of this..." her eyes watered, she tried to understand her own feelings.
A new life was not something to be taken lightly...especially when she had killed so much of her own blood.
"Yuta..." She ran her hands over her eyes to wipe away some tears and then she looked at the space on the bed that belonged to her husband, who would be out of town that night on a mission.
She really needed his company at that moment, but she didn't know how she should break that news to him either... she knew he would be super happy about that discovery...
Maki lightly bit her lower lip while some tears ran down her cheeks... the only sentence that came to her mind was that she had betrayed herself and what she swore to destroy.
She looked at her husband's pillow again, and one more memory crossed her mind.
She remembered that day, when a few minutes before Getou invaded the school, in that classroom, she had confessed to Yuta that she would destroy the Zenin clan from the inside... which months later she did, mercilessly eliminating to each detestable family member with her own hands... but I never imagined that in her womb she would harbor one more Zenin...
"I destroyed all those detestable beings... I thought I could end the line of succession with me... but now I'm creating one of them... Doesn't that make me a hypocrite on my own word?" she questioned herself.
Her right hand made a few circles on her belly.
"But, I can't eliminate it just like that either... this is also the fruit of my love with Yuta... What should I do?" she burst into tears, hugging her husband's pillow tightly in a fetal position.
🌻"Let the fruit of their love live or exterminate the seed of the next Zenin generation "🌻
This was a very difficult dilemma for Maki, who was falling fast asleep while still crying.
Between dreams, she remembered some situations that marked her as a child in that infernal residence, those things she saw and to a certain extent, had made her wish never to have children.
She remembered the hateful face his mother put on when she, in a fit of rage against the twins, revealed that she would have preferred to lose them and not the baby that came before the two of them... a miscarriage before twelve weeks .
She also remembered the frustration that always revealed his father's face when he knew that his wife could no longer produce more children and that because of them, he would never be the leader of the clan.
A chill ran through her body when she remembered her first menstruation in her dreams...
That blood coming out of her body for the first time, that pain and swelling, that fear and confusion for not knowing what was happening... was what that ten-year-old girl felt, who was labeled dirty for something so natural... .
The clan used to isolate the women when they were "in those days of the month", locking them in a tiny room to "avoid" bad luck or other stupid superstitions in which they believed.
But what made Maki shake in her dreams was remembering those cries of pain from the women giving birth at the Zenin residence... without anesthesia, without doctors... only with old-fashioned midwives.
Maki and Mai watched as women ran out and ran into that room to the corner with more clean sheets and hot water.
They also saw how they took out sheets full of blood and ran in with the odd utensil such as scissors or scalpels, to mercilessly practice an episiotomy to get the next Zenin out or in the worst cases, perform an emergency caesarean section even if it meant the death of Mother.
Both twins grew up listening to the annoying whispers and criticism that women received about their terrible labor and their lack of empathy from their family members.
"How that girl screams, they should put a towel in her mouth" blurted out an older woman who tried to see what was happening in there from a distance "I gave birth to four and am didn't even yell like this".
"Don't even say it, surely that's how she screamed with pleasure when she got pregnant" said another woman who also wanted to see that show.
"Hopefully it's a boy, because if it turns out to be another girl, what a horror... we already have enough useless women in the clan." the older woman commented.
"Let's ask the Kamis to send a Zenin this time with the clan's main technique... lately many useless ones are being born" the other woman spoke again while they saw another girl rush out with more blood-stained sheets.
Those two were the phrases that Maki hated hearing the most in those improvised delivery rooms... where not even her own gender could be trusted.
"I'm scared... I don't want that to happen to me..." A pre-adolescent Mai blurted out, covering her ears as she heard the piercing screams of pain that came from that room and that perhaps could be heard throughout the residence. "Too many screams, pains and incidentally, ruining your body for a baby... seriously, what a horror to be a mother"
"Tsk!" Maki clicked her tongue.
"That is why I will never have children, I will never bring more detestable Zenin's into this world" Maki said dismissively.
"What did you say?" A male voice sounded behind them, causing both twins to turn to see the one who had come down that corridor.
Naoya had appeared in that direction of the house, since a birth was a bloody spectacle, which even men wanted to see with morbidity, this to congratulate the future father in case of being a boy or to offer condolences in case of being a girl. .
"I know that one of the two said something. Don't you want to share what you were talking about with your favorite cousin? What were you 'girls' talking about?" asked the black-haired Naoya, while looking from head to toe at his cousins.
Mai swallowed and remained silent as she crossed her arms over her barely grown chest, which made her feel shame for the men in that house staring at her.
Instead, her older sister did not remain silent, as she brought her hands to her hips as she answered.
"I said that for this reason I WILL NEVER HAVE CHILDREN" Maki said very sure of herself "I will never bring more detestable Zenin's into this world, much less ones like you" She spat those words with too much hate.
Naoya only snorted at that response from his cousin.
He took a few steps towards her "You know Maki, for a failure like you" he was centimeters from his cousin's face "The only potential I see in you is to be a 'mother' who would 'engender' more of us..." his Lewd gaze traveled the entire body of that pre-adolescent from head to toe, observing how those breasts had already grown a bit.
Naoya continued speaking "So sooner or later those pubertal hips will finish forming and I know that in them you will engender a Zenin and those breasts will feed him... like it or not" he said while his right hand went over the hem of the blue hakama from Maki.
But she did not allow herself to be touched, holding Naoya's wrist tightly to stop him, digging her nails into him to rip him out of her clothes. "NEVER!" She defended herself "I won't even have a son to carry this detestable blood!"
But Naoya, being already an adult, hit her hard on the cheek, knocking her to the ground.
"Maki!" Mai scram, bending down to help her sister, but the poor thing also received a blow from Naoya.
"Both of you must learn your place within this residence!" Naoya shouted, looking at them with superiority, as he crouched down slightly to look at them more closely.
"Perhaps you won't be material to be sorcerer... but perhaps you are to be good wives and good "mothers"... so get to know your place in this house... bitches" Naoya sneered. standing up quickly.
"Son of a bitch!" Maki wanted to defend herself, but was kicked roughly in the stomach by her cousin.
Maki woke up from such a terrible dream, she even sat up suddenly on the bed while placing a hand on her belly... that memory felt so real.
The infernal heat of spring was already accompanied by the darkness of evening, that room was already in darkness, making Maki realize that she had fallen asleep all afternoon, she had only come home to go straight to the bathroom to take that pregnancy test.
She hadn't even accommodated everything she had bought in the supermarket and surely both the ice cream had already melted, and the other things that went inside the fridge had surely already gone bad.
Maki's breathing began to regulate, as she reached out her hand to turn on the night lamp that she had on the shelf next to the bed.
A sigh of relief heaved from his chest as he remembered how he had finally eliminated that idiot Naoya after so much work in that Sakurajima colony.
"He can't hurt us anymore..." she said to herself while her hand continued on her belly. "But now... what am I going to do with you..." she tilted her head back slightly before letting herself fall off her feet. backs on the pillows.
A small being was growing inside her, but also an internal struggle with everything that led her to eliminate her clan.
"What should I do?..." Maki let out another sigh as she looked at the ceiling "I need some advice..."she regretted not having Mai by her side.
"But who can I tell about this?" Another sigh tore from her chest as she looked up at the ceiling.
"I think I could ask the "saneest" person among all the "crazy" that I know ... maybe only that person could help me with all this" Maki commented reaching for her cell phone and sending a message to the only person that perhaps I could trust at that moment...
🌸To be continue...
Notes:
Hello everyone, this is Vera
I hope you liked it or in your case interested, this story really was born like that suddenly.
I don't know if you had heard that phrase before that:"If a baby rejects a woman, it's because they sense another baby on the way."
But I do hear it often and from time to time it turned out to be true with some acquaintances, especially when they say that if you are pregnant and a baby rejects you, it is because of their sex, that is, if the girls reject you it is because you are expecting a girl or vice versa in the case of boys, this is said because little ones become very "sensitive"... I don't know if I made myself understand at this point.
Regarding its title, perhaps little by little you will understand why I put it that way and how it will be related to the seasons of the year.
In addition, for this first part I have used some terms such as "seed and germinate" to give meaning to spring and you will discover it in the following chapters.
Perhaps in this story you will find some dilemmas that I think the characters in question would have regarding the issue of young marriage, motherhood / fatherhood and the world of Jujutsu.
I also always wondered how this issue could be within the clans and I think that the Zenin clan was the worst on the issue of children, also, I feel that they were the cruelest with women and I wanted to capture that thought in this first chapter.
I will only say that I am already planning that other characters will come out and as well as the ships... although mostly it will be located in YutaMaki
Anyway, here are some notes: 1- In this fic, Maki and Yuta have been married for 1 year and months.
2-Episiotomy... for those who don't know this procedure, I come to unlock a new fear. (If you're sensitive, don't google images about this)
It is an incision in the perineum (where the female external genitalia, labia majora, are located) to increase the vaginal opening during the last part of the second stage of labor or during delivery itself.
This procedure is performed with scissors or a scalpel and must be repaired by means of a suture. Your recovery can take up to 3 weeks or more...it is said to be super painful as they cut and stitch without anesthesia and later in recovery it hurts to urinate and can get infected as well as scar.
In Maki's memories I imagined Naoya with her natural hair, bone black and here she would be around 23 years old.
Have you read 198 chapter? Hahaha it must be a coincidence that the extension of Naoya's Domain was a Womb? Hahaha I swear, when I read the chapter and had finished writing this I was wtf... that's a sign haha
Even so, MakiGod my woman❤️
I hope you liked it, this will be a new project that may be short, although I anticipate it, it will be very slow to update.
we keep reading❤️
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