I have never felt so nauseous in my life. The room felt like kaleidoscope of images and I couldn't find myself standing up straight. How I made it back to my dorm room without falling is a mystery to me. In fact it was a miracle how I didn't wake up my roommate from stumbling into the bed in the middle of the night. Once I managed to get underneath the warmth and security of my blankets, it didn't stop my heart and thoughts from racing. This isn't real. This isn't real. But yet... It is isn't? I always knew Zero was going to end up transitioning to a vampire and I know he ends up being able to control his thirst of blood but... all that blood. It was so much blood.
I never feared vampires but being on the other end of being killed. I'm not sure I can handle that again. Why was I dragged to the scene, I'll never understand. Better yet, why was I dragged to freakin vampire knight is a better question! Why can't I just go home, nothing I do will change the outcome! At this point I can feel my throat tighten and tears dripping down my face. I started to remember my old life back home. My mother's warm smile and my older sister who would've been waiting for me. Now, I have no clue what happened to them. Was my life erased like how Akiras was erased here? Did my family forget me?
I spent years trying to find out how I can go back home but there was nothing. My identity back in my world is as none existent as Vampire knight was. As much as I wanted to cry loudly for my old life back home that is officially gone, I couldn't a make sound for fear of waking up my roommate. Underneath my mattress, I pulled out my journal. I had used the name Akira so often that for some reason I feared that I would forget my real name.
I am May
I am May
I am May
The next morning, I remember waking up before my roommate. My hand was sore and were beginning to form blisters from writing my name until I could finally sleep. I had grabbed my clothes and hurried to the headmaster's bathroom. I didn't want to risk Yuki planning to wake me up to find Zero or talk about the situation at all. Luckily I didn't run into any of the main characters and was able to get across to the headmaster's building.
The bathroom in the headmaster's guest room always felt soothing. I left the water running for what felt like hours. The mirrors fogged within seconds and all I could think of was just scrubbing off Yukis blood. My thoughts felt like they were going on repeat and I really wanted them to stop. But they didn't. In fact some memories that werent mine intertwined with the events last night. Instead of Zero attacking me, it was someone else...
A loud thump from outside the bathroom made my heart jump. Once I realized who it was I silently cursed to myself for being such a chicken shit.
"Akira are you feeling okay, you missed your morning classes" the headmaster knocked.
"Yeah. I caught a real bad stomach bug this morning and thought a warm bath would ease the pain" I lied. I know the headmaster didn't believe a single thing I just said because the tone of his voice was still very concerned. "I understand, if last night was a triggering so please if you need someone to talk to-"
"I'll be fine headmaster, please. My stomach was just upset this morning. I'll be back after lunch period is over" I interrupted. I wished all these people would just leave me alone. I just need a second to get a hold of myself and everything will be okay. It had to be okay.
Once I heard the headmaster's foot steps start to fade away, I finally relaxed. If I could say one good thing about this week, is probably the spa baths in the guest room. I usually had this rule when taking baths, never fall asleep. It might have been watching a scary movie but I couldn't remember which one it was. That's another thing about this world, why is it that I'm always forgetting about events in my previous life. I leaned my head back to the edge of the tub and I can feel my eyes closing slowly. I'm so damn tired of everything.
Everything was dark, except for the one flickering light bulb that illuminated the halls. It was swinging back and forth ever so slowly. At first there was a faint voice, and then it grew to a scream. GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT
Immediately panic was crossing through me and I turned to run but only to face concrete walls at every turn and when I thought I could run the other directions, I realized that I was in a cage.
A girl dressed in a white gown her long dark blonde hair covering her face, appeared in front of me. Her wrist were bleeding and now creating a puddle of blood beneath her pale feet.
"Why didn't you come back...Why didn't you come to save me" She whispered.
Like a shock wave, my body jolted up from the tub. My heart was pounding loudly causing my ears to drum. I quickly reached for the towel wrapping it around my body and stepped out of the insidious bath. My body was shivering despite how hot that bath was. Why the fuck was this happening to me!
"Akira! Are you okay" My body froze hearing the voice of Zero outside the door. I can see the door knob start to turn. Why the hell is he here! I felt myself flung to the door pushing it hard for it to close.
"I'm naked, ZERO!" I yelled back now irritated on why the hell he thought it was okay to even try to open the door.
"Then why did you scream?" He said now sounding irritated himself. I didn't remember myself screaming or shouting. How long was I dreaming for? How was Zero even out of his room? Did Yuki already persuaded him to stay? Where am I in this damn story line? I didn't realize the long pause I had before Zero started speaking softly against the door. "Akira. I'm sorry. I wanted to say goodbye before I left. I don't want to cause you any more harm than I already have".
I felt myself turning the knob and swinging the door open causing it to slam against the wall. Zero's body froze to a quick halt, his back was already towards me so he already planned on leaving before I had the chance to speak. The nightmare I had disappeared for a moment and all I felt was rage. "FIRST OF ALL, STOP PUTTING WORDS IN MY MOUTH! AND QUIT YOUR MOPING BECAUSE I'M NOT GONNA BE THE REASON WHY KANAME GET'S PISSED AT BECAUSE YUKI GET'S ALL DEPRESSED THAT YOU DECIDE TO RUNAWAY . THEN GOD FORBID SHE ALMOST GETS KILLED BY SOME VAMPIRE IN TOWN BECAUSE SHE WENT TO GO CHASE YOUR DEPRESSING ASS." I took long breath after one of the longest rants I have ever given "So let me get dressed and if you move one step out of this school, I will be the one to shoot your dumbass in the foot" I seethed clenching onto my towel with my hair dripping wet. I slammed the door back close causing it to echo throughout the rooms.
"Zero! Don't leave! Akira will-"
"WE'RE FINE YUKI, HE'S NOT LEAVING"
"Please Yuki don't say anything else " Zero's voice was extremely faint and almost sounded terrified.
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My throat was sore and aching from yelling at Zero during that awkward incident in the shower. At dinner Yuki attempted to explain the situation without opening wounds that were still fresh. Apparently Yuki had tried to stop him from leaving by ambushing him at his dorm. This didn't go as she had planned since apparently Zero felt extremely guilty from how I avoided classes. Zero didn't say or eaten very much during the conversation at dinner. Not that I could blame him anyway. But I unfortunately for him, if he tried to escape again and drag me in another scenario of the plot, I was 99.99% willing to shoot him in the leg.
"During my patrol in separating the Day and Night class" Yuki began causing me to feel pinch of guilt of leaving her by herself today. "Takuma, was trying to find you and give you this." She said pulling out a white envelope that had a red wax stamp.
"Why is that vampire sending you letter" Zero finally spoke after being silent for the remainder of me and Yuki's conversation. I held my expression from revealing how stupid he just sounded seeing as he is also a vampire.
"Knowing Takuma, it's probably a list of books he's recommending for everyone to read for the next book club meeting" I yawned tiredly slipping the envelope in the pocket of my light sweater.
"Akira, I think you should get some rest you look like you haven't slept at all" Yuki's voice trying not to grow too concern. Zero's eye's deepened with sadness causing Yuki to instantly regret even mentioning it.
"It's not about you Zero. I've been having trouble sleeping for a while now since-" I stopped trying to think when the dreams started occurring. "I don't know"
"You guys get some rest. I'll clean up" Zero answered not giving me or Yuki the opportunity to even suggest to help. I didn't bother to argue with him and neither did Yuki. I think we all need a break from everything that happened today. I wished I can say things will be smooth sailing from here on out but the plot will just keep on thickening.
a/n hellllo fellow vampire knight fans its been awhile, how y'all been! OKAY I know its been a year or years but I'm back! So if you don't remember the chapters or probably got bored and moved to bigger and better stories, I get it. But if you're still interested, here's a new chapter.
Also wattpad list this story as #2 Kaname Kuran and I'm deeply offended lol