I'm well aware that just author's note are not chapters but this will be here just so those of you who follow stories and come back to it every year or so because you call it "your comfort stories". I will eventually delete this and add the same note to my profile.
(hopefully some of you still use your middle school e-mails and will get this anyway).
it will be up for a week or so then I shall post on my profile page instead, so here we go:
PLEASE READ:
Ok, so as I jokingly said before "I'm back." - I'm not joking, I am back.
*Not entirely yet but here are some things to wait for in the near future but before I list it all I need to browse fast through the real life stuff first so bear with:
- one of the reasons I did go missing from art and fandoms in general wasn't just the ammount of books but also family situations, depression, relationships and in the last few years I lost grandma, grandpa and even my mother (hers specifically at a young age to a disease they don't have it diagnosed yet because it was so rare). Obvsly took a major hit to my mental health and the ability to write and just have energy kinda left me. I'm handling it I'm in therapy. This is all we need to talk about it. Don't worry about me, I'm not 100% ok but this is life and life happens so it's just an explanation.
NOW TO THE GOOD STUFF. (I'm not sure which story you're reading this from so have in mind the list cover a bunch of ships, stories, fandoms and other stuff I used to post regularly):
it's been over ten years since some of your fave fics have been updated and while both Clichesbullet on and thatu on DA will be there and won't be deleted HERE are the news and what to expect (focus on expect)
1. My endgame here is reading the books back and forth again, as well as other source material for new fandoms I'll be publishing for such as The Owl House, lots of manga and all that. There's a lot of catching up to do (just the riordan verse is crazy) before actually delivering ofcharacterization so it will take a while.
- Updating old fan mixes and uploading it to Spotify so it's more accessible and going back (when possible even adding new cover art).
- I will move on to AO3 with a somewhat new aesthetics and username (though probably just thatu) and edit a lot more to fit what I believe is better not because the world changed in general but because so did I. And website policies. I'm still checking on where to make regular updates about updates but I'll probably keep tumblr running and a side account for something like Bluesky or T W I T T E R (that's what it's called).
- Some of the racism and homophobia will still be there are these are the characters having flaws whose arcs weren't complete but lots of it will also be changed because I'm 34 now I also the world is changed and some stuff just wouldn't fly and I kinda hate how I phrased stuff especially since these arcs never concluded - but the old material is still there available on the old accounts whenever you miss it. This will lead to:
- Lot of the problems I have nowadays with the writing is basically phrasing that came from ignorance to stuff as simples as English being my second language. There are also cultural references and technology stuff that is outdated so: I'm still not sure technology will be adapted but some references will here and there and I can clearly deliver something better now that I've taught English for over half of my life and am taking a masters degree on translation studies.
- so, heard of the masters degree? Yeah, real life will get me too busy sometimes so please I hope you're excited but I know lots of you also have jobs, family, other hobbies nowadays and even though I will approach this with better time management and editing, I hope you understand my updates were hectic before, it can get messy. Do review do, do be excited. Keep me company so I can stay motivated and excited with you guys.
- I'm doing this to prove myself I can do and make good things. Trying to find a piece of me that defined me for so long and that got lost. I wanna discuss and squee and giggle with fandom peers. I'll try to keep as many socials updated so this is possible. And I count of your guys who want to share these experiences to be with me. I miss you guys (and want to know a lot of you all too).
- Speaking of socials: if you were a follower anywhere and have deleted your tumblr/DA/Twitter/whatever all social media is being killed anyway or if you just changed usernames please leave a reply with who we were and I dunno - what your pronouns are nowadays if they've changed. I've had an eventful few years. I remember most of you, but I may need a nudge.
- there will be some one shots posted focusing on stuff like grown up characters and new knowledge, We now have though the characterization will still follow the book ones as that's how I kinda got used to it, on that note:
- I'd like to believe that both my writing and art style have developed and so did my world views - stuff will look different but hopefully still bring you comfort. And laughter. And maybe TEARS??? I dunno, I haven't written in ages. Who AM I? We'll see.
- Like I said; new fandom and ships will pop up (did I use both the will and solace on this text? Hmmmm).
- Extra texts and author notes will be added when addressing problematic things or TWs. This is will often be the case with my one HP story as I do intend to finish but in no way support or buy jk terfling - but I did grow up with that fandom being my entire personality so I wanna finish my story.
- As I'm older so are the characters and this will result and me going through more more mature topics. Still not a Smurf writer but these will come up more often - safely though and never with like descriptive minors having s*x or anything. But it'd feel weird and even a lil OOC for some of these relationships who have been long together and are going to university and just be like "hand holding heart emoji squee cupcakes mustache").
Finally:
-- I'm back but I'll be getting back slowly and posting updates here. Tell ur friends who haven't been here in a while but used to be part of our group of weirdos. And I look forward to knowing the adults we all came out as (I'm gonna guess queer, angry and in debt for the most part as we are mostly millenials). - I missed being a fandom person and hopefully now I can find solace in you guys back again.
P.S.:
I've been teaching ESL to young kids and teens; queer, neurotypical and whatnot, I will try to warn about stuff and create safe spaces for queer kids and younger fans who are just coming across this stuff right now so keep me posted. Spread the world. This isn't about popularity as much as it is having an outlet to vent about hyperfixations and make new friends.
Like I said, I missed being a fandom person and the fandom experience (well not the fandom hate haha), but hey reply to this, leave a like, let me know you're there. Explain me something about a grammar mistake - I AM not a native speaker let alone a writer. So let people know: there's a brand new old me back in town. Soon.
I love you, I missed you. Or how we used to say back in the day
lol so random rawr xD it means I love u in dinosaur.
Thatu/Thais/ Clichesbullet
p.s.: no srsly this is only up here for a few days I know it's against guidelines also, if you're not believing me yet, have you realized that if you're into calamity clarisse that you're finally gonna know what Silena had on Clarisse in the post pandemic year of 2023/24? It is VERY underwhelming u guys. Don't get hopes up. None.
LOVE/RAWR xx