Heey! I hope you enjoy my first and probably last ever Elena pov/ Elena centric story! I WANT NO BONNIE/STEFAN/STEFONNIE HATE AT ALL! this story is because I want to expand my writing and try to write about my non bias character but I hope you know my normal Bonnie centric programing will be back soon..
xoxo- venomouslove
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Sitting on the bleachers alone
Wondering where it went wrong
The ringing of bells and the sound of the tone
I haven't heard it in years
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Elenes pov
I watch as they talk to each other outside the school, I'd assume they were waiting for me but everything I've been assuming lately has been so wrong. Last time I assumed they were only friends for my benefit but like I had stated before I was so wrong.
I walked up to them straightening my backpack strap and putting a smile on my face, the more I look at them the more I see the look on Stefans face. He looked relaxed and happy, more happy than he ever looked with me.
They ended their conversation when they saw me walk up and I saw Stefans smile dim but I acted like I didn't notice, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and greeted Bonnie. I looked at her but it was like she didn't even notice what I felt, but I mean how could she, I put up an act…
We walked inside the building heading to our individual lockers grabbing the supplies to go to class. Stefan has been distant lately and I don't know if I should be worried. In my relationship with Matt I always knew I was secure and would never have to worry.
It was the exact opposite with Stefan, he's been alive for a while and has more experience with relationships. I don't want to be that girl in the movies who just steps aside while her boyfriend slips out of her reach and into another's arms but it feels like that's happening right now.
As I sit In between Bonnie and Stefan I can feel his eyes follow me but sometimes I wonder if I'm just in the way of his precious Bonnie… I know it's wrong to be jealous of my best friend but I can't help the way I feel, even If I don't want to feel like this.
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Walking in the rain past your home
Feet soaking wet, four missed calls on your phone
Light in the window of where I belong, but
I see two shadows up there
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We were all sitting outside at a lunch table near a tree surrounded by fallen leaves, Caroline and I were talking about the project we got assigned to do together.
I look over and see Stefan walking towards us with a slight grin on his face, all he has to do is look me in the eye and I'm weak for this man.. sometimes it makes me think, does he feel the same- has he ever felt the same.
He sits on my side of the table waiting, I hear Caroline talking but it's barely audible as I look at Stefan, he's looking off in the distance and looking for someone I guess. He hasn't said a word to me. He just came up to the bench, sat down and smiled at me before looking around the campus, which is odd but everything he's been doing lately is odd so I guess it makes this normal..
I turn back to my conversation with Caroline ignoring the feeling of sadness I feel sitting in my gut and try to look at the positive side of things. After a couple minutes and no talking I hear Stefan greet someone and I look over to see him smiling at Bonnie.
They hug and I feel jealousy, not because of their hugging but because he looks so relaxed and more at peace hugging my best friend then he ever looks. Soon the hug ends and they both start discussing details about the project they were assigned to, he says they can go to his place since Damon will be out all day.
I catch the small smile they both share when he says that and she nods. I look over at Caroline as if we could telepathically communicate but she's busy writing down a list of supplies for the upcoming dance in 2 days she doesn't even notice.
I silently watch the pair and I notice that their hands are touching, barely but it's still there.. I don't even think they notice it to be honest. I think at this point I should get mad and confront them but it feels pointless because in the end I'm still with them and I just assume they're only friends.
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So this is how it feels
To fall in love with you
To always think of you
To always dream of you
Yes, it hurts so much
To fall in love with-
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It was after school and myself and Caroline decided to show up at the boarding house to just do our project. I forgot to tell Stefan but hoped it wouldn't interfere with what he and Bonnie had going on… okay that was a lie I hoped it did interfere but I would never tell a living soul.
We walked into the door and immediately heard the sounds of classical music flowing through the house. They walked to the living room checking to see if the 2 people in question were there but found it empty except for two backpacks and a couple notebooks.
Laughing and talking was heard echoing from the kitchen, both the girls looked up and headed towards the noise and saw the pair talking and laughing while Bonnie was making a snack. We both stood in the doorway watching the two talk about their day and make jokes.
I felt sad to realize they looked so good together…
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Sorry for leaving like that
You don't deserve to get caught
In my mess.
Loving you is just so difficult-
I don't know how I should tell you that
I've fallen for somebody else
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Soon after Bonnie turned around and noticed us standing in the doorway. We all sat down in the dining room as Bonnie and Stefan talked and laughed... I broke a little bit inside. I have never felt this pain, and to be honest it just got worse when he reached out and touched her hand affectionately.
Caroline snapped in my face catching my attention before asking if I was listening, I nodded my head yes even though I was. She continued about the project and this time I had listened.
It was getting later and later, Bonnie and Stefan had gotten done an hour ago and were now helping us finish the last bit. When we were all done Caroline asked if we wanted to watch a movie but Bonnie declined saying she had to go home since her dad was back in time.
When she hugged all of us goodbye Stefan offered to walk her out, they left as Caroline went to the kitchen to get some snacks... It had been a couple seconds before I looked out the window and saw the pair walking together and laughing. Once they reached Bonnie's car they hugged one last time, this one lasting longer than the one before.
I looked away when I heard Caroline walking back to the living room and asking if I was ready for the movie. I just nodded and sat down on the couch, not a minute later Stefan joined us sitting on an individual seat not saying anything.
I barely looked at the movie and just sat there watching him. I guess at some point he felt my stare and looked back smiling at me, I sent a small smile back and turned from him towards the movie with my smile dropping slowly.
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Happened so quickly, I lost myself
A shadow of you drifts along by my window.
Or did I imagine that?
This is how it feels.
To fall in love with you.
To always think of you.
To always dream of you.
Yes, it hurts so much
To fall in love with you
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It was two weeks later. The day of the dance, a day that I thought would be the best night of my life since I got with Stefan but it turned out to be more eye opening then exciting. I stood there by the punch bowl watching everyone enjoy their night.
I felt a hand tap my shoulder and looked over and Stefan was there holding his hand out to me before smiling, I took it returning the smile and letting him guide me to the dance flow as we began swaying to the slow music that played in the background.
I looked around the room spotting Bonnie and Jeremy dancing together, I let out a soft laugh at how flushed my brother looked as he and Bonnie swayed together. Though he was looking at her, she was looking at someone else. I followed her eyes and found them on Stefan who was looking at her with a soft loving smile they both shared.
I think at that moment I finally realized that our relationship was done and I laid my head on Stefans suited chest.… I was holding onto a rope even though I had already been pulled down, and now the people around me are just waiting for me to realize I lost.
When the music stopped I lifted my head and told him we need to talk, we locked eyes and I think he realized what I meant and just nodded his head as I led him out the dance and out the school
X
And that's how it happened… That's how we ended up sitting on the edge of his bed, my makeup ruined, his hair ruined and no longer a couple. He told me that he realized two weeks ago that he didn't love me anymore and I just sat there and listened as he told me how sorry he was and he didn't mean for this to happen, it just did.
I cried into his chest as he held me tight telling me that he will always be there for me as a friend but he just couldn't be more when he loved someone else. I asked if anything had happened when we were together and he said "No, we promised we would never cross that line and break any connection to you…"
I nodded and thanked god because if something had happened I think I would've gone insane.
It had been an hour of silence, just staring at the wall slouched on the bed. There was no need for yelling and fighting because in the end we both knew it was gonna happen, all candles burn out for a while and sometimes one burns out faster than the other…
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So if this is how it feels
Tell me if our love is real
There's some type of strange appeal
To the way it was so effortless, uh
I cannot help it
This is how it feels
To fall in love with you.
To always think of you.
To always dream of you.
Yes, it hurts so much to fall in love
With you
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