I woke up nauseous. Ugh good ole morning sickness. I've read about this in my biology class. I never thought in a million years I would be experiencing this as a 17 year old girl, but here I am. I sat up and ran straight to the bathroom dispensing all the food I had the night before. I sat on the cold floor staring down at the toilet bowl. My mind was swirling with what ifs and doubt. What am I gonna do?

I cleaned myself up and walked back to my room. I started getting ready for a long day at school. I had no choice but to pretend everything was normal. I went to my vanity and proceeded to do my makeup and hair, I might as well look the part of a cheerful, preppy suburban girl. I decided I should dress comfortably and casually, something that wouldn't attract too much attention to myself, the only problem was my boobs were much larger than before. I never had small boobs; they were average and perky, something I always prided myself in and it got me places. I didn't even realize how much bigger they looked, my average B cup now looked like that of a C cup. Maybe now that I knew I was pregnant I noticed these things more. My skin and hair were glowing almost goddess-like. Well at least I look good, I thought.

I opted for my light washed mom jeans that hugged my hips just right and decided on a tight long-sleeved crop top that made my stomach look impossibly flat and my chest look even larger. Well I have that going for me, I probably won't start showing for another couple more months. A win is a win.

I decided to not eat anything seeing as my nausea was overwhelming me. I took an apple and flew out the door and into my car.

*BRING *BRING *BRING *BRING

I shuffled quickly to my first period math class. I had that class with Milton. Oh how I love Milton. I feel like he's my best boyfriend and best girlfriend all at the same time. He ended up coming out as gay towards the end of our freshman year of high school, although he was nervous it was not much of a surprise to the rest of us and we gladly supported.

"Beulah!" I heard Milton exclaim

"Darling, I've missed you." I went up to him, giving him two kisses on each cheek.

"You look amazing! I didn't see you all weekend. How come you didn't go to Brad's party on saturday?" He eagerly looked at me as if expecting me to drop some new hot gossip.

"Milton you know I couldn't go after the last party after I thought I saw Jack talking to another girl and I almost lost it." I said, giving him a knowing look.

"Oh c'mon, I told you that was the alcohol making you see things. It happened to be nothing." He told me matter of factly.

"I know, but I just needed a break from the party scene for a bit."

"I get it, but let me tell you the guys got so drunk and a little someone couldn't stop talking about you." He nudged at me like he was expecting me to be happy.

"Oh enough teasing Milton. I know Jack wants to get back together. Hell I would love to get back together, but I just can't deal with that right now. I just have way too much going on." I told him looking down, as if afraid that if he looked at me too long, he'd know what I was hiding.

"Look, all I've been saying for the past month is to stop stressing and sulking, it's not healthy. You guys need to talk and make up. For the sake of the gang Kim…"

Our conversation was quickly interrupted by our teacher who started our lesson of the day. I couldn't concentrate to save myself if I wanted to. I knew deep down what Milton was saying was right. I did want to talk to Jack more than anything, but a part of me didn't want to admit that I was wrong. I should've stayed and fought for the relationship that we had, but I felt like he couldn't see his wrong doings. Him and his goddamn hero complex.

"God Jack! Why are you doing this!" I yelled at him

"You don't understand Kim. He was totally out of line for how he was looking at you!" He said getting closer to me.

"No, don't come any closer to me! We do this all the time. I don't need you to fight all the time, especially when it's for no reason. I am with you and I can take care of myself!" I was turning red in the face with frustration. I didn't feel like I was being heard. This was the third time this month he tried picking a fight with another guy over me. All because he stared at me too long.

I took a deep breathe

"Look I know you get upset when someone so much as breathes the wrong way around me, but I need you to be reasonable. You can't fight everyone all the time! Sometimes you just ignore it and MOVE ON."

He looked at me with a dangerous gleam in his eyes, almost like what I was saying was spurring him on.

"You're mine. Mine to protect, to take care of and to cherish. However I choose to do that is my business." He started walking towards me getting dangerously close to my face.

"Jack. Don't" I started taking some steps back til I felt the cold wall against my back.

"...let me make it up to you." He slowly started to caress my hair out of my face. I couldn't help but close my eyes and get lost in the undeniable tension that was between us. This was it, what he always does. I disagree with him and he knows I'm weak for him. He knows it.

"Jack." I whispered as his lips touched mine.

I was a goner.

The bell rang and I practically ran to my next class trying to avoid seeing anyone. As luck would have it though, I ran into someone hard.

I could feel myself falling to the floor and I shut my eyes tight bracing for the hard wood floor. It never came. I realized whoever I had ran into was lifting me off the ground preventing me from falling. I opened my eyes to find none other than.

"Jack" I said

He was staring into my eyes with intensity almost as if he were trying to read my thoughts. I stayed in his arms not realizing our close proximity. We remained almost awe-struck staring deeply into each other's eyes.

"You okay?" He said huskily. Uh-oh I knew that voice all too well. It was his bedroom voice.

Jack and I had all but avoided each other for close to a month. I would occasionally catch him looking at me with lingering stares of regret, but I was successful at avoiding him, until today. Of course of all days I would bump into him it had to be the day after I found out I am carrying his baby. Fucking hell.

"Ugh, yes I am thank you as always." I said trying to lighten the mood and avoid any serious conversation.

"You know I got you."

I couldn't help but look up into his eyes at his words. Unfortunately I got lost in his eyes. There's something about our bond that always felt right. Even here right now, with the uncertainty of my future and the secret that I held in my womb, I knew I was safe, secure and loved. With Jack. My Jack.

I cleared my throat finally out of my trance.

"I, ugh, should get going. It's nice to see you Jack." I started to pull away.

"You too Kim, we should hang out soon. I mean it." He looked at me meaningfully and with a little hurt. I never intended for our relationship/friendship to end up like this, but I was under too much pressure. Jack was nearly perfect. All the girls wanted him, he was charming and had a natural talent for leadership. All the makings for a perfect boyfriend and apparently father now. Except Jack had no idea about the impending doom that was looming over us. I knew I needed to tell him regardless of our relationship status.

Just as I was about to fully pull away, the cavalry arrived.

"Yo what up homies!" I heard a big shout from across the hallway. Oh no. Jerry and Grace were walking into the site of Jack and I pressed up against each other.

"Omg have you guys finally made up!"exclaimed Grace walking closer to us.

"WHOOOOO! Finally! Everyone knows you're miserable without each other." Jerry decided to chime in.

We quickly broke apart sheepishly looking around trying to deviate from an awkward situation.

"Ugh no! We just bumped into each other by accident right Kim." Jack turned to look at me to confirm, but I could see his eyes, he was hurt. I felt like crap. I felt like melting into the floor and disappearing forever. I missed him, but a huge part of me knew that I had to do it before more people got hurt.

"Yeah. Nothing new to see here you guys." I said nonchalantly. In reality I was dying inside.

"Anyways I really gotta get to class you guys, I've been late too many times and Ms. Applebaum won't be happy with me." I tried scurrying along, but of course I didn't get away so easily.

"Wait Kim!" I heard Grace scream after me. I stopped in my tracks and turned around.

"Yes?"

"We should all have a sleepover tonight at my parents cabin. For old times sake, we're graduating in three months. We might as well, all of us." Turning to look at Jerry and Jack.

I couldn't believe Grace was putting me on the spot like that. I quickly tried to think of any excuse I could come up with as to why I couldn't go, especially to her parents cabin. I had some very intimate nights with Jack there and I didn't particularly feel like reliving them. But of course, my luck didn't seem to exist at all that day.

"Yeah. Sure. It'll be fun." I faked a smile

"Great Jerry will take me and Jack can take you." She winked

I forced a smile and simply walked away.

I knew what Grace was doing. She was trying to get me and Jack to talk again even though I still haven't decided what to do with the baby. I knew what she was doing was the right thing, but I felt so overwhelmed by the whole thing.

I started preparing my overnight bag right as I got back from school. I made sure to pack toiletries, makeup and sexy lingerie (hey you never know.) I could feel the anxiety rising from the depths of my stomach. I had no idea if tonight would be the best or worst time to tell Jack about our baby.

*RING *RING

"Hey" I answered

"Don't be mad at me. I really just want you and Jack to get back to the talking phase again." Grace stated apologetically

"I know I'm not mad at you. This is good. He doesn't seem to hate me as much as he did before. That's a start right." I tried getting reassurance from my friend, my thoughts were running a mile a minute.

"Yes Kim, and all his friends have been saying that he wants to win you back. He misses you and realizes the errors of his ways! Now stop stressing for right now and focus on getting your man back." She stammered.

"Okay okay. He's coming to grab me soon. I gotta finish getting ready." I hung up and continued my packing with trembling hands. This could either be the best night ever or the worst.

"I'm outside." - Jack

*Sigh. Here we go.

"So… what have you been up to?" Breaking the awkward silence I looked to my left to see Jack looking perfect as ever.

"Umm…nothing much honestly. Just studying for finals and applying to college." I said quickly

"You?"

"Same. Nothing new. I am happy we're talking again. I missed you." He said meaningfully

"Yea..I just didn't think you ever wanted to talk to me again after the last time we were together." I looked away trying not to remember the harsh words that had been exchanged between us.

"...I know. I'm sorry for how I acted Kim truly. At the end of the day, you're still important to me, girlfriend or not."

I finally looked at him. I smiled. The first smile I've smiled since we stopped seeing each other.

"Thank you." I gulped out.

"I am sorry for breaking things off the way I did. I just feel like you weren't understanding where I was coming from and…"

"Kim, it's fine." Jack interrupted.

"I had a lot of anger at the time and I've had time to cool off and I would love to patch things up with you when you're ready." He continued

I stared at him with tears in my eyes. Fuck. I have been so emotional lately.

"Hey I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you." He grabbed hold of one of my hands resting them on my thigh.

"It's not you" I sniffled

"I was so afraid that you hated me this whole time Jack. I felt like I was missing this big part of me." I tried my best to control my shaky voice but failed.

"Fuck baby I'm sorry. I'm sorry I upset you. It's all my fault." He exclaimed.

"No, no it's not. I'm just happy that we're talking again." I gave him a wide smile.

We started walking towards the familiar cabin that we all knew and loved.

"Are you excited? Some invasive truth or dare? Skinny dipping in the lake?" Jack looked at me suggestively

"Wow, we just started talking again after what? A month? And you're already trying to get into my pants? Predictable Brewer." I said exaggeratedly

"Ha ha ha. Don't act like you aren't dying over the idea." He looked back at me with his eyes that told me he knew that I wanted him.

"Of course I'd love to. But who knows if you even still have game, Jackson." I stared at his smirking form up and down.

"You know I love a challenge." He proceeded to the front door swinging it wide open.

Mmm the smell of fresh pine. I was excited to be here and distract myself from the fact that a human being was growing inside of me.

"We're sleeping together tonight by the way." Jack said

"I know"

"WHOOO! Yo this place is still mad fresh." Jerry ran in animatedly

"C'mon Jerry help me with the bags!" I heard Grace exclaim from the door

I couldn't help but chuckle at the goofy couple.

"Let's go" Jack whispered to me on the side.

We started walking up to our usual room. It was spacious and cozy with a fireplace and a large window that led to a balcony overlooking the mountains.

"Beautiful" I mumbled

"I know," Jack said, looking at me.

A shiver ran down my spine.

"I'm gonna unpack for the night and change. I'll meet you downstairs." I told him

We were uncontrollably laughing as we sat around the fireplace in the backyard.

"Well I didn't know how to tell Jack that Rudy was behind him. So I had to bust my ass out of the window and jump 2 stories!" Jerry said excitedly.

"Hahahahaa bro you started screaming like a girl" Jack said trying to hold in his laughter.

Grace and I watched them interact from the sidelines giggling like two school girls.

"Okay okay enough fucking around. Look what I have!" Jerry pulled out a nice big bottle of tequila. "Who's up for some tequila shots ladies!"

"Jerry! You said no drinking tonight." Grace scolded him.

"Hey, I know! But this will probably be one of our last nights here, together." He said softly.

"Yea c'mon gals, only a couple won't hurt" Jack said being the proper wingman he is.

I gave Grace a worried expression. I couldn't drink in my state, but what excuse could I use? They all knew my wild side and how I would never say no to a good shot of liquor or hit of a bong.

"Umm…you guys go ahead I wasn't feeling too good earlier, best if I don't" I said nervously.

"Are you sure?!" Jerry exclaimed.

"Yes" I said

Jerry proceeded to pour the shots out Grace,Jerry and Jack sat in a circle going round for round for a bit. After about an hour I could tell it was starting to take effect for all of them.

"No you know what would be epic!" Jerry shouted out excitedly after having talked about how the moon landing was all fake and staged.

"A good old skinny dipping session" He hurled himself up already running towards the lake that was a couple feet away from the backyard.

"JERRY" Grace shouted running after him.

Jack and I both got up following the erratic and obviously drunk couple. They quickly began stripping bare naked in front of us and running into the lake.

"God Jerry is a hairy man" Jack said, putting his arms up to cover my eyes.

"Jack! Hahahahaa"

We walked all the way to the beginning where the water met the shore. Jack started stripping.

"You coming?" He ran right in.

I contemplated just turning around and leaving, but I was feeling nostalgic and wanted to experience this. Despite all my fears, I started stripping all my layers of clothing off until I was in nothing but my birthday suit. I ran all the way in not caring that the cold water felt like small cold shards of ice. I began swimming deep in the water when I felt someone from behind me.

"Boo…" Jack whispered in my ear. He grabbed me by my waist and held me against his chest.

I slowly turned to look at him.

"Hey" I whispered

"I can't let you get cold out here now can I?" He held me even tighter to him

"No" I smiled

I could feel his breath on my face. We hadn't been this close in weeks and I could feel something more down south beginning to get excited from the proximity.

I decided to have fun and I flashed him my perky boobs.

"Wow, they're even more beautiful than I remember" He proceeded to bring his hands up to pinch my nipples

I shuddered, feeling more sensitive than usual.

"Jack…"I moaned

"Yes baby…"He responded

"Don't stop" I whispered

"Never" He brought his naughty mouth down and began gently licking and sucking on my sensitive breasts

I started moving my hands down, reaching for his long dick. I fondled and teased him till he crashed his lips against mine in a bruising manner.

We made out for a good 15 minutes, we barely let up for air and I felt light headed by the time we broke away.

"Let's get out of here and go to our room.." He said, knowing what he was suggesting I hesitated.

"Jack, I…" I urged my brain to come up with one single coherent sentence, but I was speechless.

I could feel almost every part of his body against mine. I felt conflicted. My body so desperately wanted him, but I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it emotionally just to sleep with him again so soon. Plus can you even have sex with a baby inside of you? I don't know. I don't know anything. I don't know the first thing about a baby. I am trying to patch things up with my ex-boyfriend and he still doesn't know I'm carrying his child.

I suddenly felt crushed by the weight of the world. How could this be happening to me? Why us? Why must we involve a baby of all things in this already delicate situation. Will Jack still even want me once he finds out I'm pregnant?

"Jack, I think we should talk. Seriously talk." I looked up at him helplessly

He grabbed me by the shoulders gently

"What's wrong baby" He started stroking my cheek

"Nothing, I just need to talk to you about something." I said

We started swimming back to the shore and we got dressed quickly. We didn't spot Jerry or Grace so we assumed they were already back inside.

We ran all the way back to the cabin and entered from the back. Once Jack and I entered our room I shut the door.

This is it. He's going to know. I'm pregnant.