A.N. Hey all, I hope you're having a very blessed day. Thank you for your continued support and by reading and replying! I'm back with another chapter of this story. Our couple has been going through it, it's rough but keep the faith. This chapter is long one, so I hope you enjoy!
"I've been trying to move on but I just can't."
Chapter 40: Nothing last forever, even trying not to think about you
The winds of change were near, she could feel it in her bones. It wasn't just the weather, it was the way her body felt due to old age but not looking no more than sixty tops. Dressed comfortably, Gloria walks onto the porch, a deck of cards in one hand and her morning tea in the other. Placing the deck of cards on the table she holds onto an amethyst necklace. Show me the way. She mumbles before she starts to place crystals on the table with each crystal placed down she hers more words and a clearer view of what's two come. She hears whispers about two lovers who are broken. For the longest time she just sits her eyes closed now, as she lets the spirits talk to her, and boy are they talking. It appears the self appointed king and his queen are on the outs.
Draining her cup of tea, she looks into the cup the tea leaves giving her peak into the future. She almost laughs out loud when she sees it so clearly now, the future, everyone better buckle up because it was going to be quite the journey.
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Klaus
He hadn't slept much since Bonnie had left him. When he did sleep he was plagued with vivid dreams of her. The first dream, they dreamed together, everything afterwards was his mind playing tricks on him. When he awoke for the last time he reached on the other side of the bed, hoping to have her soft body wrapped in his sheets. He was alone though, and all he found was her scent lingering in his personal domain.
Looking around he realized that she was everywhere around him. Her necklace lay on his dresser, an opal flickering it's beautiful colors all around. She had a drawer with clothes in it, her favorite perfume lay on the dresser on her side of the bed. A worn book she had read way too many times lay in the chair by the window because despite having the latest tablet, Bonnie still preferred to read paperback or hardcover books. His eyes had landed lastly on a delicate robe he had enjoyed on many occasions opening to reveal his favorite present...which was her.
Wiping his face he realizes he was all alone in a empty house and only had himself to blame. He had always told himself he needed anyone but being here now, without Hope, Marcel, Rebekah...hell even Elijah had made the home cold. Without Bonnie here as his companion he felt truly alone because everyone had someone and here he was with no-one .
He allowed himself to sulk for a mere five more minutes before heading for the shower, a nice hot shower was what he needed it would start his day, and light a fire under him, one that he needed if he was going to win back Bonnie.
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Pulling into the driveway he's not surprised to find his one time only, not even a one night, turned mother of his child, Haley Marshall standing in front of the quaint house with her arms crossed. He refuses to call her by her new last name because that would give Jackson far too much credit. Anyway, Haley had heard him far away and now she's standing outside her home arms crossed eyes with a heavy glare and legs spread apart for battle.
"Klaus," She calls already annoyed with him and he hadn't even said a word. He can tell she's gearing for a fight which is smart on her part, however, he has no intention on bickering with her at this moment. "If you think I'm gonna let you come here and try to hustle me out of time with Hope on my last day for a couple days you've lost your damned mind." The she wolf says.
He can't help but be ticked by her reaction but he manages to keep a straight face. "Haley, calm down." He says watching as she deflates, and lets out a sigh of relief. "I'm not here to snatch Hope from you." He says pausing. "I know today is her ballet lessons."
She gives him a nod and then walks back to the door which is left wide open and motions for him to follow. "Normally, that would be the case, but her dance teacher caught the flu." She says closing the door behind him. When she turns to look his way her eyes look different, not the same way he's used to seeing her. He must look a mess because Haley looks far too concerned for his own liking. "You're welcome to go up and see her, if you like." She says making her way toward the living room.
He follows behind silently, for the first time in possibly ever, looking about the house and realizing how the inside of the house has changed. In fact, every picture show cased on the wall, not only shows the change of Haley but Hope as well. For Haley, she isn't the same wolf he banged as something to do as a result of being rejected by Caroline. He realizes, that is not only just the mother of his child, but she's also a wife that seems to love her husband quite much. He still thinks Jackson has no skill set, but it's obvious that Haley loves him...that she's found her person and that's all that really matters in the end.
"What brings you over?"
He lets out a sigh and sits on the couch, well slouches on the couch. "I need your help?" He says like a desperate man, on the verge of losing everything he ever wanted.
Haley turns to him as surprised as he was, that the actual words came out of his mouth. It wasn't everyday that he asked for help, in fact he hated asking for help but, Haley was the only person that would give it to him straight. Yes he had Rebekah, Marcel and Gloria all people who would tell him the truth no matter what, but each of those people had a soft spot for him, while he and Haley had learned to deal with each other.
"Is this about Bonnie?" Haley burst not being able to help herself. She had gotten a very frantic phone call from Cami where the bartender who had been crying had confessed to what everyone had already known. Cami was in love with Klaus. What had been a surprise was that Klaus had turned Cami down in the end, confessing his own feelings for Bonnie. The last she heard was that Klaus and Bonnie were on a break. It sounded final when the words came from Cami, however everyone with eyes knew that Klaus was not going to let this go. Not without a fight. "Cami told me about your breakup." She says with a soft shrug.
He's floored. First by the mere fact that Haley and Cami are friends. He never saw that one coming. And then by the mere fact that his so called friend was telling his business to his baby mama. The scowl and growl that comes along is only natural.
Aggregation seep out as he speaks each word coming out more aggressive. "Cami needs to keep her mouth shut when it comes to Bonnie and I." He snips.
"What about the fact that you shared a kiss?" Haley implores wide eyed.
"I'm not talking about that either." He growls. That damn kiss would haunt him longer than any of his reign of terror. Pity, he did enjoy being everyone worst nightmare. He still was nightmare worthy, just a bit softer around the edges...he blamed that on fatherhood.
Haley throws her hands up in the air. "Fine what did you come here for then?"
He sits up now hands folded in front of him, head tilted down. When he finally gets the resolve to speak again he looks up at her as Haley is waiting on baited breath. "What's wrong with me?"
The mother of his child, sits still, very still, she doesn't say a word just blinks and sits up straight. Finally after a long while she runs her hands through her hair. "You want to know what's wrong with you?"
"Yes." He nods.
"Aside from the obvious?" She asks point blank.
"Haley." He breathes his patience wearing thin. He needed to fix this fracture in his relationship with Bonnie. If he didn't fix it, if he didn't fix him so they could fix them, then he'd have to watch her with another man. In the shadows he'd have to watch as she fell in love with another man. As she bore children for another man and took on that mans name. He couldn't lose her, he couldn't lose his chance at happiness.
"Why now?" She asks easily. "You've been fine being who you are for this long why do you want to change now?" she asks realization dawning on her.
"I need to fix this.. me and how I deal with things for me, my children and for Bonnie." He says quietly.
She bore hazel eyes his way, surprised by his answer. But more so, she was surprise that he was putting action behind his words. Klaus was very old and very set in his ways. But it was obvious he was ready to make that change for the right person. "Fine!" She says tossing her hair to the side. "But you may not like what I have to say."
He only crosses his legs. "I think I'll do just fine, after all I do need to pay my sister a visit and she's one of the most vicious people I've ever encountered."
Haley tilts her head as if agreeing. "Ok, you said you're ready." She says giving him a chance to back out, which he does not. "Alright! You don't have patience, you don't know how to articulate your feelings instead it's just, anger, anger, anger. You are set in your ways which means your unmovable and you won't compromise but you expect everyone to compromise with you." She says pointing to a different finger at the beginning of each sentence. "Most of all, you have a tendency to strike first and sometimes you hurt people at the maximum level. But if anyone ever strikes back at you, not even a fraction worth of pain or anguish and you're in your feelings."
"Wow." He says getting up to walk over to the nearby window and look out. "If I'm so bad and so set in my ways, why does anyone bother?"
She smirks. "I put up with you for Hope."
He snorts.
"But everyone else, they love you, all of you, even the side they can't stand, they still love you." Pause. "For what it's worth, I do see the good in you, I see it every moment you're with Hope. I know you love, because you love your daughter and your son, you love your brother and your sister, and," She pauses causing him to look her way. "I know you love Bonnie." She says pausing.
He tightens his lips.
"I've seen you with her, everyone has, your in love with her and that's why you drove all the way over here, to fix whatever is broken." She says cautiously.
"Am I that obvious?" He asks suddenly.
She snorts now. "Very. It's not easy being in love, trying to be open and not guarded all the time. I was a scrappy kid, a scrappy teen and I'm still scrappy now. I was use to depending on myself for everything, because I couldn't trust anyone till Jack came into my life. He loves me and I love him." Pause. "But we wouldn't have made it this far, if I continued on the path I was on before." She admits causing him to come sit in a nearby chair as he listens to her words.
"I am who I am Haley." He says with a weary sigh. "Nothing and nobody can change that."
She tilts her head to the side. "That's true, but you can pivot just a little on some of the asshole tendencies."
He smirks. "And here I thought you turned down those bitch tendencies."
Haley grins back. "It's still here, I just use it less often. Maybe you should try to do the same."
He stands now. "Thank you for the chat, I'm going to surprise Hope, hang out upstairs for a while and then I'll see myself out."
Midway up the stairs he hears Haley again.
"What did she say to make you realize you needed to pivot from your old behavior?"
Standing on the stairs he gets a flashback of the very moment he realized he could really lose her."
Dream flashback
That night Bonnie had left him, he had told himself he would give her the space she needed. It was killing him to be a part from her but he was giving her what she needed and freaking the fuck out while doing it. That night when he closed his eyes, he had no idea that they would end up in the same place, but even in there dreams, they were still in sync.
He finds her at the empty drive in, the very place he took her on their first date.
"What are you doing here?" She asks surprised to turn around and find him here.
"I wasn't dream stalking you." He says suddenly. "But I guess we were thinking about the same thing and dreamed the same dream as a result."
He watches her with her back turned to him, hair flowing in the wind. She wearing this white dress that flows around her so well. Her curves, curves he traced with his tongue are noticeable even under all the fabric. She's beautiful, with long wild hair flowing just her dress in the wind.
She stands with her arms crossed, never looking back at him. "You brought me here, on our first official date." She says stance unwavering. She won't look at him, and that's what kills him the most. "I told you then, if we entertained each other, I wanted no part in any games and you agreed." She says turning around to face him. "But the first moment things don't go your way, you play with my heart like it's a fucking chew toy." She says with eyes that are sad and watery.
He puts his head down and nods his head. "I saw you with him, with Damon." Pause. "When you thought he was dying you looked like your whole world was ending. And when he called you near, you left me to go to him, you sat on that dirty floor with his head in your lap and you listened so intently to this man...gave him all of your attention and when you thought he was slipping away– it was almost like you were slipping away with him." He admits looking up. "I've never seen such devotion in my entire life and you are devoted to him!"
"He's my friend." She says matter of fact. "My friend, and I would've done the same thing, reacted the same way with any of my friends." She says dryly.
"But he's not just any friend is he?" He asks not giving her time to speak. "And then I get these pictures of the two of you..embracing!" He says loudly. "Look at this one, you've got your eyes closed, and look here– you're sitting across from each other looking cozy."
She takes his phone and scroll through the images. Once finished she hands him back his phone, pushing the object into his chest. "At least I've got clothes on in those pictures. Cami is another story."
He flexes his fingers and counts to ten because nobody talked to him the way Bonnie was talking to him and got away with it, her attitude was off the charts but, she had a good reason to be mad. He had been livid over a few pictures so he can only imagine how angry she is after finding Cami in his shirt. Looking back now, he realizes that maybe just maybe Elijah got into his head more than he had cared to admit. His brother, had been insistent that Bonnie was only using him till Damon was ready for her. And maybe in the back of his mind he believed that to be true, I mean why else would he flip out over a few pictures, more so, why would he watch her slowly break in front of him and still go along with his plan, to hurt her before she hurt him?
"Bloody forget about Cami, this is about us!" He roars. "I panicked and reacted badly, it's a trait of mine, I've never been able to curb."
Her eyes go wide as saucers at his words before she squints looking his way. "Klaus! You're over a thousand years old you do realize that I'm human and I do not have the time nor patience to wait for you to get it together." She says throwing her hands up in the air and walking off. "I have a life that I want to live, and I want to live it happily!" She sighs. "I won't let anyone take away my happiness, not Enzo, that bitch, Cami, Stefan, Elena, Damon or you." She says with finality.
He can only tighten his lips at her words. He didn't want to ruin her happiness, he wanted to be a part of the happiness, he wanted to be a part of her life. In fact, if it were up to him, she'd be part of his life just as well, because they fit together no matter the differences between them, at the end of the day, they fit together better than he fit with anyone else.
"I haven't done this, meaning a real relationship in a long time, so at least offer me the grace you offer Damon and the Gilbert siblings." He says lowly.
That seemed to tick her off because she turned around sharply. "First of all, if I wanted to date someone who did stupid stuff and expected everyone to forgive him within a blink of an eye, I wouldn't be standing here with you because I would've ended things early on and got with Damon when he asked me to chose him."
He's in her face now. "What did you just say?"
She tilts her head up green eyes showing only a hint of pleasure in them. "Damon, he told me he loved me, that he was in love with me, that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me, his bestfriend because he was in love with me and not Elena, not anymore."
His eyes shift on it's own accord. "Did he kiss you?"
"Oh, now a kiss matters, but with Cami–" She stops her sentence completely. "After that bitch turned Damon human, I guess he had some kind of come to the light moment because he admitted to being in love with me, he admitted that was why he had left before and then he broke up with Elena."
He lets her go and turns his back. "Then why did you come back?"
"Because I wanted you! Because I chose you and I broke my best friends heart because I was following mine." She screams. "And my heart wanted you." She says quietly.
He turns around then and melts himself onto her, molding them together. She lets him hold her, and he holds tight because this– her...he didn't want to let it go. He never wanted to let it go.
"Love, I want you too, you're all I want...all I've wanted for a while now." He says against her skin. "I know I'm not perfect I've got a lot of issues, anger issues, trust issues, mum and dad issues– I've been set in my ways so long." He admits. "But with you, I don't feel as fucked up, you make me feel like someone worthy of your time."
She lifts her head up to look him in the eyes. "You purposely went out of your way to hurt me over some pictures that could've been easily explained. We had breakfast, talked, argued but realized that we're friends at that won't ever change." She says stepping back. "But you believed the worst in me, when I believed the best in you."
He feels the moment they share when he just held her is gone because she's still looking at him with wounded eyes. "I'm not an easy man to love, to get along with– I'm stubborn, I can be mean and unforgiving. I want what I want all the time, hence the reason I've got my siblings coffin in my basement just in case." He says cracking a smile that she did not return. "I expect the worst out of people because I've been let down," Pause. "But the one thing I regret is letting you down and hurting you, because you mean...you mean so much to me." He says choking up.
She tearing up now, her eyes filled with tears and he wants to console her but he knows he's the one that hurt her. "I chose you, you just didn't chose me." She says again.
"I chose you, I wanted you, I want you." He says desperately. "I just thought you didn't want me, that I could never be him." He finally admits rawly. "I want us though, the way we were before I screwed it all up." He says not being able to keep his distance. His hand is on her face as he looks down at her. "Tell me, I still have a chance, that I can fix this?"
She won't look at him now as she shakes her head back and forth.
"Bonnie, look at me, look at me love?" He pleads causing her to finally toss him a bone and look his way. "Listen to me Bonnie...listen to me love." He says knelling down to get eye level with her. "I was wrong." He breathes out. "I was wrong and I'm sorry...I'm sorry for destroying your trust and letting my insecurities get the best of me." He says touching her face. "But most of all, I'm sorry for hurting you, because you didn't deserve it."
She lets out a whimper. "You bastard, you ruined everything." She says pushing at his chest. "I was happy and you just had to ruin it."
He lets out a sad chuckle. "I was happy too, I was really happy with you." He says sniffing as he wipes her tears away with his thumb. His own tears threaten fall, with only one tear sliding down his cheek.
"I can't forgive you, not right now." She sniffs. "I don't know when it'll happen." She says digging her feet in the grass.
He laces his fingers with hers. "But there's hope?" He suggest while looking at their fingers interlocked.
She's quiet as she too looks at their fingers laced together. He feels a sudden feeling of hope washing over him, though Bonnie never does answer him. Instead of getting to hear her words he wakes up with a gasp. The glimmer of hope still all over him.
End of dream flashback
"Lets just say," He says hitching his mouth up into a smirk. "It was enough for me to come here asking you for you help.
"Good luck then, your going to need it."
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Bonnie
It had been several days since the fallout of everything and things had yet to return to normal. Caroline had opted to stay here a little bit longer, hoping to help me nurse a bruised heart. While Stefan had officially moved in with us. Though I was still very much angry with Klaus, I had not let the words of a break up, fall from my lips in the presence of Damon. In fact as far as he knew Klaus was keeping his distance because Caroline was here and the two of us were spending some much needed quality time together. That of course, didn't mean he hadn't been keeping a keen eye on me.
In fact it was almost unnerving the way Damon had kept an eye on me. He noticed things lots of things, like the fact that I hadn't had an appetite. That of course, could be blamed on the whole Enzo situation because everyone was so desperate for me to feel something about that incident. I still felt nothing and ever would. Damon also noticed that I had abandoned my phone all together, though my watch was still on, I still hadn't been paying nearly as much attention. I knew I couldn't slip up though, so I kept it cool bottling up everything inside till I was alone in the shower and screamed at the top of my lungs, my magic confining me in bubble that nobody could break through.
Although I loved Damon, as a friend, I knew that if he had any inkling that Klaus and I were broken up, he would take that as a green light to fast track what he thought was happening between us. I was not interested in side dick, or anything else at this point in time. And most of all, I didn't want my heartbreak to springboard something I was not interested in or even ready for. My heart was still raw, from Klaus and at this point in time I didn't know when it would heal.
Sitting in the kitchen I watch as my coffee pours through a what feels like a snail pace. Caroline is still sleeping and the last I saw of Stefan, he was reading the newspaper on his tablet. As for me, I was just trying not to fall asleep. The dreams, they had been way to vivid for my own
liking. Since our official break, Klaus and I had shared one dream, but that was one enough for me. I didn't want to see him right now, and if that meant I needed buff up my mental barriers even while sleep then so be it.
"Morning." I hear causing me to jump just a little. In walks Damon shirtless towel hung way to low on his hips. Damon sits both his hands on my as if to settle me.
"Morning." I say flicking my eyes up to his dancing eyes. "I see you forgot your clothes."
He pretends to be bashful. "Honey, you noticed! And here I thought my sex appeal was nearly lost on you." He grins before turning round to fix a cup of coffee. Sending it my way he winks when I look up at him. "You ok, you're not as chatty as normally."
I take a sip of my coffee relishing as the beverage is fixed just the way I liked it. "I'm better now." I say while Damon sits down on the stool next to me. He takes my toast I had been nibbling on, that has chocolate spread on it.
"Thanks for letting Stefan stay here, I know he's not your favorite person." Damon says suddenly.
I tilt my head to the side. Saying Stefan was not my favorite person was putting it lightly. But, I realized that Damon needed his brother after his breakup with Elena, even if he didn't realize it. "He's your brother." I say leaving it at that.
Damon leans close to me. "But you hate him."
"But I don't hate you." I say picking up my coffee filled cup.
"Not anymore." Damon says whilst tossing the last of my toast in his mouth.
I look his way affection probably shining in my eyes. We had been through it all, we'd come from the depths of it all and look at us now? Maybe that was the hope I needed for me and Klaus? If Damon and I could pull through then, I could believe the best for Klaus and I. Even if I didn't feel it in my heart at this moment.
"Ok, thank you for breakfast, I gotta go." Damon say hopping off of the stool.
"Where are you going and please tell me you're taking your brother?" I ask sending him a look.
He only grins. "I'm going fishing with Vincent. And no I'm not taking my brother, he and Vincent don't like each other very much."
I let out a sigh. "Is this about Lucy and the stalker eyes Stefan was sending her way?"
"Yep." Damon says popping the p at the end of yep. "Wait a minute stalker eyes, he was trying to send her heart eyes." He says scratching his head. "Anyhoo, I tried to warn him but Stefan wants what he wants."
"You do realize she's going to tear him apart."
Damon only nods.
"And you are aware that I'm going to relish in every second of it?" I sing song. I may have opted to do nothing where it was concerned with Stefan but my nails stayed sharp and I knew for a fact that Lucy would rake that man over the coals. I guess you could say since Enzo my appetite for vengeance was awakening.
He only grins a wolfish grin. "If you keep talking to me dirty I might have to remove this towel."
I roll my eyes. "Goodbye Damon."
I thought our conversation was over but Damon lingers for a few more seconds eyes analyzing me. "You good?" He asked suddenly causing me to look up from the crossword puzzle I had started on my tablet.
The pause that follows was purely by the fact that I was trying to fake till I made it, but felt like I was just lying to myself and everyone around. Swallowing hard I spoke. "I'm, ok." I say finally.
Damon bites his lip. "You know, you can talk to me about anything, no matter what."
"I know." I say with an affirmative nod. "I'm good, and you better get ready because Vincent waits for nobody." I say waving him off.
It's only when he leaves the house entirely do I really feel like I can breathe.
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Once I'm alone the playful energy I felt earlier dissipates like a fog that has lifted suddenly. In my head everything is Klaus. I'm going over every little thing that had been said and done between Klaus and I. I'm trying to figure out where everything went wrong. The first red flag, was Cami, that whore had been waiting to take my place from the very beginning. Elijah was the next red flag, he had issues with me for no reason. I guess if I could rationalize his insane acts, I would say that Elijah was afraid he would lose his brother and maybe that scared him enough for him to not only take action but it may have inspired him to play on his brothers fears by getting into his head. For a man as old as Klaus was, he was still that insecure boy who had believed that nobody would ever love him. Now he was man that believed nobody would ever love him and had severe trust issues.
If only, things had stayed the same as it had before we left. Everything was so perfect, we were perfect.
Flashback
After we had gone over the plan enough times to make everyone want to scream, Klaus pulls me aside. "You know what I think?" Klaus asks, his hands reaching out to tug my jean belt loops and bring me close to him.
"What?" I ask sinking my hand in curly hair as Klaus approaches me, as if he hadn't brought me close to him already.
He doesn't say anything only moves close to place a kiss below my earlobe. "You need distraction love." Klaus whispers causing my body to scream.
Although I was tempted, very tempted I could not continue to let Klaus distract me with his sexual prowess and our sexual appetite. "Klaus." I call as he nuzzles his nose against my neck, all the while placing kisses along the way.
"Yes." He murmurs against my skin.
"As much fun as that sounds, I'm gonna have to pass." I say causing him to pull back to look in me in the eyes. "I don't think I can handle another round." I say while wrapping my arms around him.
All joking seems to leave him as he looks suddenly alarmed. "Did I hurt you?" He asks concern swimming in deep pools of blue. "I know my appetite can be a bit–"
"Hey," I call out meeting his eyes. "You didn't hurt me." I say as my hand fingers stroke his stubbly chin.
He nods his head before placing our foreheads against each other. "I'd never hurt you on purpose." He swears. "I need you to know that."
My fingers cup his face. "I do know that." I admit burying my face into his chest. "This thing we have, it's the most honest thing I've ever had."
When I look up at him, he only dimples my way. "Good." He says scooping down to nip at my lips. "Now, come with me."
"I swear, my panties better stay on, and in tact, no funny business mister." I say causing him to nip at my finger.
"Get your head out of the gutter." He says with a wolfish grin on his lips. "Now, I've gotta surprise for you and it's not my dick so, be a good girl so you can get the surprise."
I'm poised to say something when he leans down and presses his lips against mine in a sizzling kiss. When he pulls back, his dimples deepened.
"You trust me?" He asks, his voice husky.
"I do." I say eagerly because it's true. With Klaus, I had been able to be my authentic self. I didn't have to be strong for the sake of being strong, I didn't have to pretend with him because he could see past it. With Klaus, I could just be me and he was ok with that.
"Good." He says coming behind me. "Now do me a favor and close those pretty eyes." He says hands now on my waist. "I promise you'll love it."
Without hesitating I close my eyes and let Klaus lead the way. It wasn't for the first time that I realized that, if he asked me to I would probably follow him wherever he wanted to go, if only for a little while.
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"Can I open my eyes now?" I say after a little while. Call me impatient, if you wanted to, but I had no chill for things like this.
"No." Klaus says huskily against my ear. "And don't even think about peeking."
I can only pout. "You're no fun."
"I'm lots of fun." He chuckles. "Now we're almost where we need to be, keep it together."
I feel the crunch of the grass against my shoes as Klaus still leads the way, his hands on my hips steering me, as he walks behind me. We probably look like a mess to the rest of the family but I don't care. In this moment, this very brief moment I feel calm, and peacful, something Enzo was desperately trying to take away from me.
"What about now." I ask once more. "Surly we've reached our destination."
He only chuckles and it's warm like hot coco on a cold day. His warmth reaches straight to my heart warming it, thawing out the ice that had accumulated over the years with disappointment and hurt.
"You're almost as bad as Hope." Klaus breathes against my ear. "She bouncing on the walls especially around Christmas time, birthdays and every occasion where presents are concerned."
I can only smirk to myself. He had no idea, Hope and I were one in the same.
"I'd love to see you at Christmas time." Klaus continues on. "I heard it's your favorite holiday." he says pausing. "Maybe when the time comes, you, me, and Hope could pick out a tree together." He muses. "Not one of those artificial trees either, like a real tree for the holiday."
I'm at a loss for words at his words. I could barely think past the new few days and here Klaus was planning for the holidays with me.
It occurs to me that we've reached our spot when Klaus only holds me his arms wrapped around my middle, his stubbly face rubbing against my smooth one. In that moment when we just stand his warmth was again engulfs me, making me feel safe.
"Open your eyes love." Klaus whispers against my ear.
I'm instantly torn between wanting to stay in this moment with him, and actually seeing my surprise. I don't get a chance to make the decision because soon the decision is made for me. The sound of the most excitable surprise of all time, echo's as a little person crashes into me with arms stretched out into a hug!
Hope was the surprise and what a perfect surprise she was for everybody!
Eyes open, I catch sight of the cutest thing ever, as father and daughter do a secret handshake that just makes your heart soar.
"Oh my gosh." I say as the wind picks up causing my hair to fly all over the place. I push my hair behind my ears as I get eye level with Hope. "Oh my gosh, is this really Hope Mikaelson because this girl is getting so tall."
Smile a lit on her face Hope grins showing all her pearly white teeth. "It's me Bonnie!" Hope exclaims jumping up and down excitedly.
I stand to my full height. "I don't know." I say tapping my foot. "Hope Mikaelson gives the best hugs and I think I need another great big hug to tell the difference."
Sure enough Hope gives me a great big hug which I return. In fact her hugs rival her fathers and Klaus gave great hugs, meaningful hugs She was light, you could feel it all around her. She took away all the darkness and made everything better.
"Only after me." Klaus says matter of fact. He watches our interaction with a dimpled grin and dancing eyes. Eyes that are so beautiful and so happy. The color blue had never been anything more than blue, but looking at him with those denim blue eyes and the affection in them it made my heart go thump.
Hope a I share a look before we sandwich Klaus between the two of us, as we hug one side of him each. Hope hugs at her fathers legs while I hug his other side. The sound of his laughter his rich, followed by the giggles of Hope and I'm just basking in this moment. When he breaks free and picks Hope up to spin her around I can only chuckle. It's only when he sets Hope down and looks at me as she teeters around dizzy and he sends a wink my way, do I realize one thing, one very important thing I had been trying to run away from. And that thing was that I had fallen in love with Klaus and I had been in love with him for some time now.
If I closed my eyes, I could even imagine the two of us going the distance.
I swear Klaus can hear my thoughts because he sends me a wink before going back to Hope. Speaking of Hope, she skips happily over to the blanket that is already lain out on the grass. Her princess backpack appears to be full of goodies as she rummages through it taking out different things and setting up what could be a tea party.
"When did you have time to plan all of this." I ask as Klaus and I stand hip to hip.
He reaches for my hand and kisses it before little our fingers entwine. "Well, I opted to do it in between your infamous melt downs."
I snort and hip check him.
"But really," Klaus pausing as he watches Hope pull out what appears to be three sandwich bags with sandwiches in them, followed by snack size chips, grapes both green and red, and of course almond milk to wash it down with. "But really, it was Hope." He says with a chuckle. "I explained that I will be away on business and that I may miss our father/ daughter tea party and my daughter was not having any of it."
Now it's my turn to chuckle. "So it's not just the eyes and the dimples."
"Don't forget charm." Klaus says quick to remind me.
Eye roll.
"Anyway, Hope convinced her mother to let her come over for a late lunch." He marvels. "And the rest wrote itself." pause. "I'll have to take her back home before we depart."
I nod. "Well, look at her negotiating at four."
He shakes his head, though I can see how proud of Hope he is. "All she has to do is flash those dimples an doe eyes and bam she gets what she wants every single time."
"Lunch time" Hope calls though we're not far away from her at all.
No sooner than she calls, Klaus and I are gathered on the outskirts of the blanket, while Hope escorts us, by grabbing our hand and taking us to our spots on the oversized blanket.
"What did you bring for lunch?" I ask once seated. Picking up my sandwich, I'm ready to dig in when suddenly my food has floated from my hands and falls down right in front of me in it's original spot.
Wide eyed, Klaus and I share a look. Hope was doing magic, though she didn't realize and really she probably couldn't understand it just yet. Right now, she just thought of things and they happened but with a bit of guidance when she got much older she'd be able to help it grow and develop.
"We have to say grace Bonnie." Hope says in her small but no nonsense voice. She then holds out one hand for me, and the other hand for a smirking Klaus in which we gladly take.
And so Hope began.
It was so interesting to hear a prayer from a four year olds perspective. It made me realize that all the complicated stuff was complicated because we adults, made it that way.
Hope continued on with her prayer by saying. "And bless Papa, and Mama. Bless Marcel, Jackson, Aunt Bekah, Uncle Elijah, and my ballet teacher, my friends in my class, nanny Sasha and Bonnie."
To say I'm surprised is an understatement, in fact I was so startled but mostly touched that I opened my eyes only to see Klaus doing the same. This prayer had been a testament on how big a Hopes heart really is. Hope made room in heart for me so easily. While here I was or at least I was before struggling to open up to the concept of letting Klaus in just a little bit. Instead I wound up falling in love with him, and everything that came with him.
"Amen."
Once Hope is finished she and Klaus share a moment where daughter and father don't have to say a single word because it's self explanatory. Klaus would go to the ends of the earth to make Hope happy, to make her smile. Their was no limit to his love where his children was concerned. And as for Hope she loved her father more than he even knew existed but I was positive he could feel it, because I could feel it.
"That was such a big girl prayer Hope." Klaus says while opening up his lunch. He inspects it for all of two seconds before munching into it.
Hope only does the same and starts eating her peanut butter and jelly sandwich which is cut into squares. "Mama says angels are watching over us to keep us safe."
I join in, but first open up my almond milk. "She's right, you can't see them but you can feel it," I say causing Hope to look my way enthralled. "And if you're really quiet you can hear them sing."
"They have magic like we do." Hope says excitedly.
In response, I hold out my pinky and Hope does the same or fingers linking together. Across the way I can feel eyes on me, and out of the corner of my eye I spot two dimples dimpling out way. No further words are spoke until a grumbling tummy causing Hope to giggle like crazy. I can only look down at my stomach mortified. I hadn't eaten much. The stress of Enzo had taken away my appetite.
While Hope is still laughing Klaus decides to speak. "Hungry much?"
"Just a little bit." I say looking from him to Hope. "This lunch will make it all better though." I say turning to Hope. "What's for lunch?"
"My favorite!" Hope exclaims. "Peanut butter and jam." Hope says as Klaus gets to work on opening up her crackers, and almond milk. He places everything out for her nicely while snagging an apple slice for himself.
"Thank you papa!" Hope says before digging into her sandwich.
For a while we sit in silence enjoying our lunch, and it feels nice. Being here with Klaus and Hope feels good...it feels like I made the right decision by taking a chance on Klaus because he was so much more than the man I met all those years ago. He was the man that held me, when I cried, and wiped away my tears. Klaus was the man that made me feel safe and even when he made me so mad, I couldn't imagine not speaking to him. And Hope was the light everyone needed.
"So Hope, " I call gaining her attention. "Papa tells me, you're in dance class."
"Uh huh." Hope says munching on carrot sticks.
Klaus beams at Hope before turning intense blues my way. "Hope is a social butterfly and the best dancer in her class."
My lips twitch at his words. Klaus was everything a doting father should be. Yes he was rough around the edges, very rough around the edges but he was the biggest fan of his children. But in all honesty when Hope became a teenager he was going to lose his shit.
"I see." I say trying to bite down on my amusement of a future I knew for certain to be true.
"And Haley said she recently had a play date with one of her classmates." Klaus continues on.
Hope looks up at that. "Ava is my friend." She declares before going back into her cookies as she looks for the biggest cookie. "Her mommy has a baby in her tummy."
"That exciting." I say chewing a bit of my food.
Hope looks excited at the prospect. "Her baby is a boy." Hope continues. "I ask mama for a baby sister." Hopes says as Klaus snorts.
Once he's able to pull it together Klaus speaks again. "And what did your mama say about you getting a baby sister?" He asks leaning into the gossip. Usually Klaus had his hears open to all kinds of things but this seemed to slip right past him.
When Klaus grins, Hope only grins back her dimples just as deep as her fathers. "Mama said, if I want a baby sister I have to ask you and Bonnie for my baby sister!"
I couldn't help but choke on my food. Having children was not on my radar, like at all. In fact I wasn't even sure if I could or would be mother material. Abby had been a mess, my father was on a little bit better and I could never live up to the mothering of Sheila Bennett.
Klaus chuckles though I can tell he's nervous. It'll be interesting to see him get out of this one.
He clears his throat before speaking, which causes my lips to twitch as I raise my eyebrows up at him.
"A baby you say?" Klaus says still finding his footing.
"Yes! A baby sister Papa." Hope says leaning into her father. "I want a baby sister Papa. Can I have a baby sister, please Papa?"
Although he's still stiff, Klaus wraps his arm around Hope bringing her closer. "You know, I can get you anything, perhaps a pony, it's a baby horse." He suggests.
Though his words normally would've soothed Hope she gets that look in her eyes that's all Klaus and eating all the popcorn.
Hope snuggles closer to her papa, as the restless side of Klaus all but melts away till he's nothing but a soft marshmallow. "But what about a baby sister?" Hope asks with wide eyes. "Mama says babies are really special and when you really love someone you get a baby."
Klaus shifts uncomfortable and cranes his neck to the left then the right. "What about your mom and Jackson, they can give you a baby sister?" He says hopeful.
Hope grabs her fathers hands playing with his fingers. She far more advanced then her age by leaps and bounds. "Mama says she only has enough love for me and Jackson. But you have enough love for me, Marcel, my baby sister and Bonnie."
I let out a startled sound. "Um, Hope." I say gaining the attention of smartest Mikaelson I had ever encountered. "Babies are a gift, your mama was right." I say with a deep pause. "Love helps a baby grow." I say getting her attention. "But, there is no baby in my tummy.
"But, if you love papa and papa loves you the baby can grow." Hope suggest with all the optimism in the world.
I didn't quite know how to respond to Hope. After all, she and I were just getting to know each other. As for Klaus and I, the thought of us being parents to a child together was questionable, we were still trying to figure us out.
"You know, " I say pulling out my phone. "I'm thinking about getting a puppy." I say flashing a photo of a dog I had been looking at, online. "Maybe, you could help me pick her out and name her." I suggest causing Hope to fly over to my arms.
"Really?" Hope asks all baby talk vanishing from her thoughts.
"Really!" I say with an easy smile. "We can even take her for a walk together sometime."
"And papa can come too?"
I look over to Klaus who wipes beads of sweat off his forehead. "If he's up to it."
Once I've finished my words Hope gives me a meaningful hug that is pure. Her father on the other hand looks on with surprise written all over his face. I send him a wink while he rolls his eyes skyward in return.
"Hope, now that- that is settled, how about you and Sasha run up to the main house and go say hello to your brother and aunt Bekah." he says dimpling once Hope brightens up. I see it too. It's the mere mention of Marcel that has the girl with stars in her eyes.
"Marcel is here?" Hope says standing up?"
Klaus nods. "Yes. And I bet he's waiting for one of your famous hugs."
Hope grins now too, looking just like her father. "Ok." she says getting ready to skip away, her nanny Sasha not far behind watching her every move.
Klaus though scoops up his daughter before she can dart away. "I will be out of town on business, but I want you to know that I will always come back home for you. And do you know why?"
Hope stops her giggle for a second to answer Klaus. "Because you love me."
"Yes, I do love you and because I love you, I'll always come back no matter what." he says placing a kiss to her cheek before setting her free.
Once Hope and Sasha have made it back to the house Klaus turns to look my way. He's scratching his head while I pick up the remains of our lunch. "That was intense." I say suddenly.
"It was unexpected. I had no idea Hope wanted a baby sister let alone wanted us, to give her one." He says looking nervous.
I stood next to him. "You and me with a baby." I say biting my lip.
Klaus puts his arm around me. "Me and you with a baby." He chuckles. "Our daughter would be beautiful though, the perfect combination of you and me."
I can almost see it as Klaus is talking, a little girl or boy with Klaus denim blue eyes, and dimples, deep dimples and my complexion. In another life, maybe that could happen. But right now in this life, I couldn't see it happening. But in another life, I could look forward to it.
"Yeah." I say breaking out of my revere. I turn to him a smile on my face as I give him a hug. "Maybe in another life, all of that could be possible." I say placing a kiss to his cheek before walking back to the main house.
"Or maybe in this life, when it's right." I hear Klaus say though, as if he's talking into my ear. I turn around to see him where I left him, he's looking down at his phone though, and I must've been hearing things.
End of flashback
Overcome with emotion I bite down on my lip to stifle my cries. "Damn you Klaus, damn you for making me feel this way, and then ripping it away from me."
KM-KM
Klaus
When he arrives at the familiar home that Marcel and Rebekah shares, he gets a sense of warmth engulfing him. He had known of all the trails and tribulations the two of them had gone through, the biggest threat to their relationship had always been him. He had kept them apart for his own selfish reasons. He hadn't wanted to lose Marcel to Rebekah and then didn't want to lose Rebekah to Marcel. He had always been a greedy s.o.b. and the thought of losing either one of them had caused him to get in the way of the love they had for each other.
He chuckles to himself, all of his hard work had been for nothing though. Even he couldn't stop what was already written in the stars. Marcel and Rebekah had fallen in love a very long time ago, and although many moons had passed and many lovers had come and gone, they bond they shared had never wavered. He could only hope that he and Bonnie could find themselves in a love so true like the ones of the Gerald- Mikaelson household.
"How long are you going to sit out in your car?" Rebekah says as she stands on the porch, an apron around her waist looking every bit of a 1950's housewife. Good lord she was cooking.
Turning the engine off. He quickly shuts the door behind him before climbing up the steps. "I was waiting to be invited in." he says holding back a beaming smile when Marcel joins and puts his arm around Rebekah.
"Of you're invited in!" Marcel beams welcoming him. "You're family." Marcel says walking inside while holding onto Rebekah hand.
He watches the two of them once inside, how Rebekah folds her body into Marcel, how they link fingers and still smile every single time eyes meet. Their in love, and happy and if he's honest he's happy for them. He's a little envious, okay a lot envious but still happy that they found their way back to each other and have another chance at this thing called love.
"What are you cooking?" He asks suddenly his nose reveling in the smell of something sweet.
Rebekah beams. "Sweet potato souffle!" She says excited. "I saw the recipe online and wanted to try it." She continues on. "I know it's not the traditional candy yams that Marcel loves, but I wanted to try something different spice it up a bit."
"And I'll eat anything you put in front of me honey." Marcel gushes.
"Oh sweetie." Rebekah coos cupping the cheeks of Marcel as they share a quick kiss. He can only frown at the sight.
"Enough, the amount of sweetness oozing off the two of you is giving me a stomach ache." He proclaims, as Rebekah sends him a look.
Eye roll. "Fine, what brings you over?" His sister asks. "I thought you'd be with Hope and Bonnie?"
Crestfallen eyes meet hers from across the way. "Bonnie." He says her name like a plea. "She left me." He says putting his head down.
"What?" Rebekah says sitting forward. "Why would she leave you, did she do this for that halfwit Damon?" Rebekah says enraged. "I warned her about breaking your heart and she did it anyway!" Rebekah roars. "She and I need to have a friendly talk." His sister says standing up, only for Marcel to tug her back down in her seat.
"Bonnie." He says her name like a plea. "She left me." He says putting his head down.
"What?" Rebekah says sitting forward. "Why would she leave you, did she do this for that halfwit Damon?" Rebekah says enraged. "I warned her about breaking your heart and she did it anyway!" Rebekah roars. "She and I need to have a friendly talk." His sister says standing up, only for Marcel to tug her back down in her seat.
When he looks up they can see it, they it was him, it was always going to be him. "It was me." He admits, not wanting to go into any further detail. "It was my fault and I don't know to fix it." Pause. "I'm trying to fix me so I can fix us but what if it's not enough, what if at the end of the day I lose her anyway?"
Rebekah is the first to speak. "Klaus–" She sighs. "Marcel and I are a testament to the fact that you can find your way back. Things may not be the same but they can be better."
Marcel sits up. "You love right, this isn't a fling that's fleeting you really love her?"
He licks his lips. "I love her, I love her more than I've loved any other woman ever."
Marcel nods. "Then you hold onto that through the good times and the bad." Pause. "Listen Bonnie is a Bennett, and we all know about Bennett women– actions speak louder than words, but in this case you're going to need just as much action with your words because she's going to make you fight for her."
Rebekah agrees. "You're going to have to suit up big brother, take everything back to basics and remind her why out of all the men to get involved with, she chose you."
-Camille O'Connor- Camille O'Connor-
Cami had come out bright and early this morning hoping to erase some of the melancholy that had settled over her. It was difficult being in love with someone who was determined to be in love with someone else and that was the situation she was dealing with currently.
Flashback
She couldn't sleep not after everything had happened. She wanted to make things right between her and Klaus because whether he wanted to actually acknowledge it or not, she was in love with him.
Barging into the house she finds Klaus nursing a bottle close to him, a lazy smile on his face as jazz plays in the background on the record player.
"This is what you've been up to?" She asks standing with her hands on her hips. "I've been calling you like crazy."
Klaus empty his drink. "I thought you'd realize that right now you're the last person I want to talk to." he admits. "You shouldn't be here." He says suddenly.
She gets close to him biting her lip. "Why, because of Bonnie?" She asks blinking up at him. "She's not here and it doesn't look like she's coming back."
He growls as his eyes change to the color of his wolf. "Shut your mouth!" He says venom dripping from his mouth. "You don't know anything about me and Bonnie!"
Stiffly she speaks. "I know she doesn't love you the way I do."
He throws his bottle at the fireplace making her jump. "Stop– just stop saying you're in love with me."
"Why," She pleads taking small steps his way. "It's the truth."
"Because." He roars. "I don't love you Camille, I love Bonnie." Pause. "It's always going to be Bonnie, even if she stops loving me, I'll never stop loving her."
She breaks down then, and starts to cry.
After a few minutes of her crying he finally offers her a tissue. "Please don't cry. I know you'll find your person, like I finally found mine." he says his words soothing her. "You just have to go find him."
She walks then and when outside looks back at the manor. She had already found her person, she just needed him to realize that it was always her from the beginning."
End of flashback
She was brought out of her thoughts by someone talking to her, looking up she see's a woman with red lipstick, her skin shimmers almost making you mesmerized as copper color dances across the brown skin. "Excuse me, what did you say?" She asks.
"I asked, is this seat taken?" The woman says.
She motions for the woman to sit. "Sadly no." she says as the woman sits beside her.
They sit in silence for a few moments as a couple walks hand in hand through the park, it makes her nauseous just seeing how happy everyone else is because her life is falling apart because of one witch bitch that got her hooks into the one man, she thought would be hers.
"Look at them, they think their on cloud nine, but when the harsh reality comes crashing down on them that love is a bitch, they'll hate each others guts." The woman says causing Cami to look her way.
"That was harsh." She blinks surprised.
"Did I lie?"
"No." Cami chuckles. "Bad breakup?" Cami asks suddenly.
The woman shrugs her shoulders. "It was a bad breakup, still a bad breakup. I hate him." Pause. "But I also can't love anyone but him." She declares. "What about you?" The woman asks. "You look a bit lovelorn yourself."
She tilts her head back. "He loves her and not me." Pause. "And I don't know what to do about that."
The woman grins now, a wicked grin that should make her nervous but it feels like their sharing something in common. "I vote for revenge, that's what I'm planning with my ex."
"Revenge." Cami echos.
"Yep, revenge is even better than sex." The woman says as if they are conspiring against the same person. "Take them both down, for all the hurt and pain they brought you."
She poised to ask the woman another question but suddenly she gets to her feet. "Well, I better get going, I'm a busy woman after all."
As she walks away Cami can't help but call after her. "Wait, I haven't seen you around are you new here?" She asks surprising herself. She had nobody to talk to about this thing with Klaus, Haley had opted to stay out of it, Marcel and Vincent would never go against Klaus and Bonnie and Josh was team Bonnie all the way.
The woman grins. "Sort of, I've been gone for a while but now I'm back home, chip on my shoulder and ready to reclaim my life and much more."
She nods. "I'm Cami." she says holding her hand out.
"My friends call me Celeste."
"Nice to meet you Celeste."
"Likewise Cami, I'm sure we'll bump into each other again." Celeste says looking at her watch.
"Now, I must be going, till we meet again."
She watches as the woman starts her jog once more she never thought about revenge, but now that she thought about it, Bonnie had it coming. After all, she was the reason Klaus didn't love her.
BB-BB-BB
Bonnie
I'm not quite sure how long I've stood crying in my kitchen over Klaus and the wrecking ball he brought into our lives. I do know that it's the last time I will ever cry over him again.
"Bonnie, Bonnie, are you okay?" I hear as Stefan puts his hand on my shoulder.
On reflex I recall from his touch. We weren't friends and at this point in time, we would never be friends again. "I'm fine." I say, all the while trying to tone down the venom in my voice. I take the time to wipe my face before turning in his direction.
"Are you sure?" Stefan asks opting to sit at the breakfast table, at least giving me some room, because honestly we were too close from the very beginning. "Because you were just crying?" Stefan asks. "I can only imagine what your dealing with after Enzo."
I grit my teeth. "I said I'm fine!" I say placing my hands on the counter. My defenses way up.
Stefan seems to get the hint because he sits back at the breakfast table. Though he's got a watchful eye on me as if I might break at any moment. As if I'd ever fall apart in front of him. "You know, Bonnie, if you need to talk–"
"I don't and if I did," I say leveling him with a look. "You'd be the last to know." I smile.
Stefan nods tapping his fingers on the table. "I know that I'm prying but," Pause. "You don't seem like yourself and if I'm honest since I've been here you haven't seemed like yourself."
The glare I send is so quick. "And you would know all about me because we're so close." I deadpan.
Stefan furrows thick eyebrows. "We use to be friends, I use to know you."
"Well, that was then and this is now" I say with a tilt of the head. "The friend you use to know, is the same girl you tried to do away with. You don't know me, you don't need to know me and I don't need to know you." I remind him.
Stefan looks down into his coffee cup. "I guess I deserved that." He says not meeting my gaze.
I chuckle his way. "You deserve a hell of a lot more." I say venom spewing out. "But you are in the rare position, where my disgust for you can take a backseat because your brother needs you."
"He needs both of us." Stefan says finally looking up at me. "Listen Bonnie, I know the fault of our fractured friendship is on me, I took you for granted and treated you horribly.
I nod my head as my arm rest on the counter. "Is that all you did?" I ask bored by this conversation with Stefan already.
"Maybe we should use this time to talk about it, get everything out in the open." He suggest hopeful.
I hold my hand up. "Stefan I'm only going to say this once, you don't want none of this." I say shaking my head. "Not today." I say my watch going off. I look down to see it's Rebekah calling me, I send it to voice mail without much thought.
I smile his way. "You asked for it." I say glaring his way. "And by it I'm talking about the mere fact that you flipped a coin to decided who would end me!" growl. "After everything I had done with you, to aide you- you decided it was ok to flip a coin to see if I would live or die." I grit. "My life was not for you to take nor for you to bargain with it is mine!" I seethe.
Stefan only looks on uncomfortable and shit.
"You were supposed to be my friend." I say my tone turning light. "I trusted you, you saved me but in the end I was nothing more than a tool and when you were done using me, you ready to get rid of me because I served my purpose."
Hands folded his speaks. "I made a mistake, and I am sorry– but it never would've came to that outcome had it not been for Elijah he put is in a bad situation."
"Oh my god!" I say slamming my hand down. "Take fucking ownership Stefan I spit." Looking his way with a glare so hard he should shatter to pieces. "Your brother took ownership in his part, but you- you use the famous words for like every vampire ever and blame bitch ass Elijah."
He swallows hard. "I take ownership in what I was prepared to do, the lengths I would go to keep Elena safe. But Elijah is at fault just like the rest of us."
I look at him like he's crazy. The blame game, doesn't work on me. You were my friend, point blank." I remind him. "You're well over a hundred years old, nearly pushing two hundred years old. You made your choice to prioritize your girlfriend which is fine but your mistake was thinking it was ok to do it at the expense of my life, my life!" I say point at myself. "My life was not for you to take!"
Hee turns my way, his greenish eyes pleading. "In the end, I knew I couldn't do it– because you were my friend but I was prepared to if I had to." Pause. "It never ever would crossed my mind if Elijah hadn't put us in a bad situation from the beginning Bonnie, I swear to you."
I cant help but rub my hand over my forehead, his apology or whatever this was, was a little too late. "Fuck that, fuck Elijah and fuck you Stefan!" I finally burst roaring the words loud enough for Caroline and Tyler to hear.
I knew that this was going to sound harsh but I wanted to establish some boundaries between Stefan and I. We weren't friends, we never would be friends and the only reason why I was tolerating him was because of Damon. "Stefan, I want you to here me when I say this." I say causing the younger Salvatore to put his coffee cup down and give me his full attention. "The only reason you're even here is because of Damon." I remind him. "Because the reality of this situation." I say motioning between the two of us. "Is I don't roll with you, I don't trust you, I don't fuck with you, and I don't like you." I admit whole heartedly.
Stefan cracks his neck and swallows hard before standing. "I– I'm–"
I send him a look. He should already know, not to come to close to me. "I'm not done. You're a phony and everyone knows it– you think you're much better than Silas, but I say you're one in the same, he just has bigger balls." I say as my eyes drift southward.
The stillness that settles between us is something that I welcome. I hadn't felt this great in days. In fact after I've said all I needed to say I fell much better about being in the same room with Stefan. At least now he knows the truth. I had been holding in my feelings for so long, years I had kept all that to myself and now that one less thing holding me down.
Stefan lets out a long sigh. "Wow, you've been holding that in for a long time." he surmised. "I deserved it though." Stefan says uneasy. "It was a bit harsh but I can take it."
I turn my head to look at him, my eyes noticing every detail about him. "That and so much more." I dead pan. "Elijah got his." I say out of the blue. "You see, he thought it was ok to screw with me, push my buttons and I trapped him in his own head, letting him relive all the things that haunt him." I grin. "With you I'd go much deeper." I smirk. "And I would enjoy it." I whisper.
On impulse he shivers. "Now, I see what Damon see's in you."
"I will be your worst nightmare." I say causing Stefan to wave a white napkin.
"I mean you no harm, I've done enough–" Pause. "But honestly that last threat was almost as chilling as Klaus."
I only flash my him a smile. "Good, now that all of that is established, I hope you realize I'm much more worst than Klaus, so do me a favor and just be here for your brother and leave me the hell alone because I'm not interested in your bullshit." I say leaving the room all together.
Spoilers: Bonnie and Klaus share an intense moment