Izuku had woken up to the sound of his alarm going off, not wanting to deal with the world he had shut off his alarm. But not wanting to piss off Aizawa, Izuku inevitably got out of bed.
Putting on his uniform Izuku looked in the mirror only to take in his appearance, his hair was wild and unkept, the red puffiness of his eyes a result of him crying all night. Deciding to not deal with the tie he just walked out of his dorm and down to the common room.
Iida had been awake and he'd immediately noticed Izuku coming down the stairs. "Midoriya! Where is your tie? If you lost yours I'd be happy to lend you a spare until you find yours," Iida said while already reaching into his back pocket for a spare tie.
"Iida…please," Izuku said his voice void of emotion, "I'm not exactly in the best of moods right now. So I'm not wearing my tie until I feel like myself again, I hope you understand."
"I see, if you ever want to talk. We are always here for you, we're friends right?" Iida asked while placing a kind hand onto Izuku's shoulder.
"Yeah, I know. I'm just mentally exhausted from yesterday. I don't think I'm ready to see Bakugou," Izuku explained while walking to the kitchen to grab some coffee when Uraraka came down.
"Hey Deku!" She exclaimed happily as she walked up to her best friend, "I wanted to check up on you after yesterday. But I noticed that you weren't in your dorm."
Izuku didn't say anything. He couldn't handle the cheerful energy coming from Uraraka, but he couldn't bring himself to say anything. He just couldn't, it reminded him to much of his mom.
~{OwO}~
Izuku had closed himself off from the others, he knew they were worried. He just didn't need their pity. Huh? He was starting to sound like Bakugou. Great. Just what he needed.
The day was passing by painful slowly, Izuku just wanted today to be over with! Finally lunch came and Izuku grabbed his stuff before bolting towards the bathroom. He didn't know why he came here, but then he felt the familiar handle of a razor.
Gently taking it out he held it in his hand, maybe a few wouldn't hurt. All Izuku wanted was to feel some emotion. He hadn't done this since middle school, holding the blade against his right arm he quickly made a cut.
It was beautiful in Izuku's eyes, the red of the blood reminding him of all the spider lilies he'd received during middle school. Quickly he added two more cuts to his right arm before he quickly cleaned and bandaged his arm.
All of his hoping was for not, the emotions he wanted to feel never came. Only came more painful memories of Aldera. The most painful memory being when Bakugou had suicide baited him. How could he not forget it? He remembers how close he was to ending it all, it was only one step away after all.
~{OwO}~
Izuku had changed in the bathroom stall, not wanting the others to see his cold eyes. Mineta had obviously pointed them out to the rest of the class. Izuku didn't care, when did he ever listen to the little grape pervert.
Several of the other came up to him expressing their concerns about him, but he simply just brushed it off with a quick "I'm fine," and they'd leave it at that. Well most of them at least. Of course Bakugou had to just stick his nose where it obviously didn't belong.
"Hey Iz-Midoriya," Bakugou said while gently walking up to Izuku. The gentleness of his voice didn't change anything, "I'm sorry about what happened with Auntie."
Wait! Did Bakugou know this before he did? His own goddamn mom was gone! And this bastard had the audacity to talk about it in FRONT of him no less.
"You knew?" Was the only response Izuku gave. His temper was getting extremely thin, "you fucking knew this before I did! I had to find out from Jūdan-san!"
"It's not my fault that you blocked the hag!" Bakugou argued back without missing a beat. Grabbing the front of Izuku's hero costume Bakugou had pulled him close. "The hag called me asking me to tell you! Which I tried to do! Only to get yelled at by you!"
"Because you came to me trying to apologize for what you did!" Izuku said as tears start falling down his cheeks, "I didn't want or need your apology. Not like I would've accepted it. If I'm being completely honest Bakugou, my mom died because of YOU! She was barely making enough money to just pay for rent! You continuation of destroying my uniforms was really hard on her! Her job was paying her less than minimum wage! Because her son was FUCKING QUIRKLESS! I never asked to be born quirkless. Sometimes I wish I wasn't born at all."
With that Izuku broke free of Bakugou and walked off to join the others, hiding his tears from the rest so he could continue to appear strong. He had too, it's what his mom would have wanted. To see her baby grow up to be a strong pro hero.
Even since Izuku was little, all he ever wanted was to be a hero. Especially like his papa, and like All Might. Everyday when Hasasi came home from his agency he would hang out with Izuku. Hasasi was known as the the dragon.
Then one day, papa just stopped coming home. Mommy had said that papa went away. Izuku had believed it, until he saw the news report. He was in the middle of his favorite All Might show when it cut away to a news channel.
The Dragon: dead.
"This just in," the news lady said as she looked down in sadness, "the fire breath hero: Dragon, was killed today in the line of duty. He was in the middle of a human trafficking raid when he was killed."
Izuku felt his world shatter. His papa was gone. But he knew that if he got his papa's quirk, then he could continue his legacy. All Izuku had to do was wait.
~{OwO}~
"It's not going to happen kid," the doctor said in an empathic tone, "time to give up on your dream."
His toy of his papa fell out of his hands as he felt his world flip upside down. Now he could never be like his papa, guess the universe has decided to give Izuku the worst life possible. But he wouldn't give up. His papa didn't, and neither will he.
"I'm not giving up on my dream!" Izuku had stated in full confidence at his declaration, knowing that his papa was watching over him gave Izuku a new wave of determination to be like his papa.
"Izuku, sweetie. You don't have a quirk, I think the doctor was right," Inko had said gently, trying to get her son to understand that it's impossible for a quirkless hero.
"No! If Papa didn't give than I won't either! He always told me that I could be a hero! He even said that there are hero's that fight quirkless," Izuku stated as he looked at his mother with stars in his eyes.
~{OwO}~
His best friend Kacchan, he got his quirk. It was called explosions. Izuku thought it was so cool, but then Kacchan had started using it on him. Is that heroes do? No! Izuku knew better, papa said that heroes are supposed to protect the innocent.
All Izuku could do was try an ignore the bullying. No matter what happened Izuku would keep his head up and push on with his dream. Even if the whole world was against him. It didn't matter. Izuku would be a hero, he would make his papa proud.
Then again, that was a thing Kacchan would bring up while bullying him, constant jabs at how Hasasi had died being a hero, or how he died to get away from his worthless son. Those ones hurt more than Izuku would like to admit.
~{OwO}~
How could Kacchan say that and still want to be a hero! No hero would ever tell someone to kill themselves. Deciding that it didn't matter anymore Izuku went home. Maybe Kacchan was right? Would his papa have been more proud of his son had a quirk? No! He couldn't think like that! He knew it was wrong. His papa said that he would be proud of Izuku no matter what happened. He was still going to be a hero.
OH MY GOD! Izuku had just met All Might! The All Might! He was freaking out! He had to ask if he could be a hero! All he could do was just do something dumb and hope for the best.
Even All Might said it, you need a quirk to become a hero. Izuku didn't know what he was expecting at that point. But right then and there. It felt like his papa was calling to him, begging him to stay strong, to keep fighting. But Izuku couldn't hear it, he leaned against the railing of the building and looked out into the city scape.
Maybe his death would be quick and painless. He was just climbing over the railing when he heard it. Was that? Yep that was definitely an explosion. What was Kacchan doing now?
~{OwO}~
Turns out Kacchan was busy being held captive by the same villain that had attacked him earlier. Great! Just fucking perfect. But Izuku noticed how none of the heroes didn't even move. Oh HELL no! Moving on his own, Izuku rushed into the scene to try and save Kacchan. His papa taught him that every hero's origin story is the same, their bodies move before they can think. Throwing his backpack at the villain's face he'd managed to distract it long enough for Kacchan to breathe.
"Deku what the fuck!" He'd yelled as he coughed up some sludge, "I don't need your he-"
"It's a heroes job to save and protect the innocent!" Izuku had screamed in Kacchan's face, "that's what Dragon did! And that's what I'll do! As his son! I'll save those who need it the most!"
~{OwO}~
Izuku sat on his bed in the dorms as he remembers his past, his goal was still the same, making his papa proud of him. But now, Izuku didn't even know if he could. With now BOTH of his parents gone, he had nobody. No one to go to when he needed advice, no one to let him cry on their shoulder.
But he did have someone now, he had All Might! But not just All Might, he also had Aizawa as well. So he quietly got up and started walking over to the teacher's dorms to talk with Aizawa. He knew that he couldn't let his grief control him anymore.