AN: This is my first and only Jax and OC story. To my readers Just because I'm going to start writing this story doesn't change how I feel about Jax and Tara or Tara for that matter. Because they're my number 1 couple no matter what. But this idea came to me as I was watching season 7. Now you guys don't have to read this one. I just want to give it a try and hopefully you guys will too.

Ten days ago, Jax Teller's entire world was completely shattered when he found his wife covered in blood and dead on their kitchen floor, along with Roosevelt's body. Jax will never get the chance to hold Tara in his arms again or kiss her lips; he'll never have the opportunity to make love to her again. Just ten days ago, Jax and Tara were finally able to work on their issues. The charges against Tara had been completely dropped, and she was free to take their sons anywhere that wasn't Charming - away from the club and the violence. But instead of leaving it all behind, Lin and the Chinese decided to murder Tara, and for what reason? Jax doesn't know the reason, and at this point, he doesn't care about Lin's reasons for killing his wife. All Jax cares about right now is getting revenge for Tara's murder.

As they drove, Jax looked over at Gemma and reached over, placing his hand over hers. He could tell how hard this had been on her, being the one who saw one of Lin's guys running out of his house the night Tara was murdered. "I know I haven't said it, but I do appreciate everything you have done for me and the boys, Mom."

Gemma nods her head a little." Of course Jax, I will do anything for you and those boys and you know how much I loved Tara. I hired a new nanny to just help me out with the boys. She started only a few days ago, she seems nice. Abel seems like her. I think her name is Jennifer."

Jax just nods his head a little." How was the funeral?" He asked

" The service was nice respectful. It was just the club and family. The boys doesn't know what really happened, all Abel knows is that mommy went to heaven." Gemma said as she noticed Jax turned on the street towards scoops." I thought you were heading home, to see the boys."

I can't see them right now, Mom. Not yet. I need to be able to clear my head and focus on what I need to do right now. I can't have any distractions. Jax knows his boys need him, especially Abel. And of course, he wants to be there for them. But right now, Jax and the club have a score to settle with the Chinese.

Gemma nods her head in understanding." Yeah, okay baby."

Pulling up in front of Scoops Jax turned off the engine as he looks over at Gemma." You should head back to TM mom. If you decide to go somewhere, make sure you got someone from Tacoma going with you." He said as he leans over and kissed his mom on her cheek before he got out of the truck and went inside to meet with the club.

Once Gemma was behind the wheel as she got the engine started up again, Gemma sighs deeply as she closed her eyes for a moment as she hopes and prays that Jax and the club never find out the real truth about what happened to Tara's murder. Shaking the worry out of her head, Gemma got herself buckled in and pulled away from Scoops heading to check on a friend.

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Taking his seat at the head of the table as he waits for his brothers take their seats as well. Sitting up straight Jax started to speak." I didn't think I'd be in this chair again. Thank you for helping Gemma handle everything. Taking care of my family."

" Of course, brother." Bobby said with a nod.

Chibs looks at Jax." Anything you need, Jackie."

Jax nods his head as he spoke again." Okay, Our alliances. We locking them down?"

" Yeah, Irish are setting up with black. Connor's here to handle the transition, and we took care of, uh, internal family problem for Cacuzza. So Italians are in our debt." Bobby answered as he nods his head a little.

Happy stood up as he lifted up his shirt a little and pointed his new smiley face tattoo. " No, muss, no fuss. No Tony." He said with a smirk as he chuckled.

Jax nods his head." Nice, and the Grim Bastards?"

" That's where we were when Rat called. Uh, a few days ago, Darker Dan and couple of prospects got run down in, uh, Lockwoods Gardens. Dan bled out. The prospects are barely hanging in. Bastards found out its one of Finn's crew." Chibs answered with a deep sigh.

" Is he still East Dub?" Jax asked.

Tig nods his head." Oh, yeah. He gave up the owner of the car, though. Well we kinda of dragged it out of him." He said with a chuckle." It's an '82 Impala. It belongs to this hood rat, hooked up with an OG name DuLain."

" Grim Bastards are good, fences mended." Chibs clarified.

" How'd go with the AB?" Bobby asked.

" Took almost a week to get a sit down with Tully." Jax answered as he shrugs his shoulders a little.

Montez shook his head a little." That guy's a super freak man."

" A freak with a clout. He's number three in the Brotherhood now." West said as he agreed with Montez.

" Yeah, and once he gets to Stockton, he's gonna be calling the shots from Fresno to Portland." Bobby said as he nods his head a little.

Jax nods his head in agreement." Yeah, He didn't give much, but I think I cleaned it up. He may want a favor or two in the future, but for now I think we're okay with White. What about business? Where are we with that?"

" Garage is solid and Diosa's picking up." Bobby answered.

Tig nods his head." We got the okay to demo the clubhouse. We're fielding some bids on the rebuild now."

Good," Jax said as he nodded his head.

" Porn studio is almost ready brother. Lyla's tracking down all the CaraCara girls." Quinn said as he spoke up.

" And the name is cleared. Red Woody incorporated is now open for business." Bobby answered with a smirk as he very proud of himself.

Jax sighed deeply as he brushed his hand across the table. "I never really wanted this chair. I guess some part of me knew it would happen, but I always dreaded the weight of it. The responsibility. The truth is, I can barely make the right choices for myself. I've been trying to take this club in a direction I thought made sense. To move us away from all the outlaw shit. Obviously, that hasn't worked."

Jax paused for a moment and took another deep breath before speaking up again.

" I think some part of me was trying to buy back all the bad shit I've done. The people I've hurt. That's a false pardon. It's dangerous and it's selfish. JT did the same thing and those choices took away everything from my old man, his family and his patch. I already lost the woman I love, I'm not gonna lose my club. For me to move forward with all the things we have to do now, I need to know this table has no doubts. No mistrust. That every single one of you would kill or die for the man next to him, and if you don't feel that way... now's the time to speak up." Jax said looking at his brothers as he was serious about this.

Chibs looks at Jax as he leans forward." We're all in brother. We love you, we trust you. Just tell us what you need brother."

Jax nodded his head in agreement, knowing he could trust his club because he knew they wouldn't let him down. He also knew how much the club loved Tara and how much they cared about her. His brothers also knew how important this retaliation was for him and his family.

Gemma raised her fist up as she knocked on the door." Juice, it's Gemma let me in." She said as she could hear Juice from the other side of the door. For about a week now Gemma has been hiding Juice in Wendy's apartment, away from the club and while Wendy is in Rehab once again. Besides Gemma, Juice is the only one that knows what happened that night.

Juice opens the door and let's Gemma in as he walked back to the couch and sat back down as he shut the tv off." What's going on Gemma?"

Gemma walked into the apartment as she closed the door behind her." Jax just got out."

" Shit, what does that mean?"

" What do you think Juice? You gotta go soon."

Juice exhales deeply as he nods his head." Alright, I will figure it out. I just need a few more days though."

Gemma shook her head as she placed her hands on her hips." you had about a week, to figure it out sweetheart."

Juice sighs deeply." I just have to get my cash from my weed shop."

Gemma shook her head." No, you won't be able to. Jax has got Tacoma sitting on it twenty- four-seven.I'll put together some cash. Just enough to get you out of town. Go to Idaho, Montana, just somewhere there's isn't a charter. Things'll calm down here and I'll get your money from Clear Passage, I'll send it to you."

Juice nods his head." Yeah, okay."

Gemma looks around the apartment before she looks back at him." Do you need anything?"

Juice shook his head." No, how's Jax?" He asked as he looks over at Gemma.

Gemma sighs deeply as she sat down beside Juice." He's sad."

" What did you say to him? I mean... how did you just have a conversation about Tara?"

Gemma scoffs a little. "I'm not a psychopath, Juice. I know what happened with Tara and Eli was awful. What I did... I know how horrible that was. But it happened because we were both protecting the club." Gemma will regret what she did to her daughter-in-law for the rest of her life. But she was doing what she thought was best for the club and for Jax at the time.

Juice exhales deeply." Jax was turning himself in."

Well, I didn't know that! Not until it was too late." Gemma sighed deeply. "I made choices based on the truth I had. So did you. You did what any member would've done. But you know... if Jax finds out...Not only will he have lost a wife, but he'll lose his mother, and Abel and Thomas will grow up never knowing the love of a strong woman. I am the only thread holding this family together." She said as she looked at Juice.

" This ain't about protecting you and me. It's about protecting Jax and those boys. That's how I look him in the eye. That's how I talk to him about Tara. Because I know as selfish as it seems,keeping our truth away from him, is the right thing to do. Understand?"

Juice nods his head slightly." Yeah."

" Look, I don't know what you did or why Jax wants you dead, and it's probably better I don't know. But you helped me. You gave me a truth that works... so I'm gonna help you. Okay."

Juice gave Gemma a small smile." Okay."

" I gotta get home and check on the boys and see how Jennifer is doing with them. This is the first time I left her alone with the boys today." She said as she got up from the couch as she grabs her purse.

" Gemma, thanks for helping me out. I really do appreciate it."

Gemma nodded her head a little."I will check on you in a few days and I will have the cash," she said as she opened the door and walked out of the apartment, closing the door behind her.

Juice sighed heavily as he placed both hands on the top of his head, looking down. He knew that he was going to have to get out of Charming before Jax and the club found him. The problem was that he had nowhere to go.

Walking through the back door of her kitchen, Gemma found Jennifer the new nanny she hired feeding Thomas lunch." Hey." She said as she closed the door behind her and set her purse down on the kitchen counter as she walked over to Thomas as she leans down and kissed the top of his head.

Hey Gemma," Jennifer said with a friendly smile as she continued to feed Thomas. "I thought your son was coming home today." She said as she noticed Gemma had come home alone. Jennifer didn't know Jax; she had never met him. All she knew was that he was Abel and Thomas's father, and he was supposedly coming home today.

Gemma sighs deeply as she ran her hand against Thomas' head." He was supposed to, but he had business to handle with the club. He'll be home later tonight. Where's Abel?"

" He's in his room coloring. He's been asking about his mom... and I don't know what to tell him." Jennifer just learned recently that Jax's wife had suddenly died just only last week when she found a photo of Gemma and her together with the boys. Jennifer doesn't know exactly how Jax's wife died, since she didn't ask questions, as she felt it wasn't her place to ask.

" I will talk him." Gemma said as she gave Thomas another kiss on the head before she heads down the hall towards Abel's room which used to be Jax's.

Hey buddy," Gemma said softly as she walked over to Abel and sat down on the bed in front of him. "Jennifer told me you've been asking questions about your mommy. Are you doing okay sweetheart?"

Abel shrugged his shoulders a little as he continued to color in his coloring book. "I just want to know, where did mommy go after she died?"

Gemma picked up a crayon and began to color with him. "Remember, Abel," she said, "we talked about this. Your mommy went to heaven." She reminded him of the conversation they had at the funeral when he first asked about Tara.

"Were you with Mommy, when she went to heaven?" Abel asked as he looked up at Gemma.

Gemma shook her head." No, baby I wasn't with her."

" But how do you know that where mommy went? "

Gemma smiled softly at her grandson."Because your mommy was an angel, and all angels go to heaven."

" When is daddy coming home? "

" Soon baby." Gemma said as she kisses Abel's forehead gently. Gemma loves her boys more than anything in the world and there's nothing she wouldn't do for them. She do everything in her power to protect them.

After Jax and the club had a sit down with the Mayans and Lin, they walked away from the table as Chibs spoke up." Looks like everyone's friendly."

" Yeah, things are moving fast. We're throwing me a little party tonight at the studio. I want it packed, with porn stars. Diosa, friends, croweaters and Gemma." Jax said as he placed a cigeratte between his lips and stopped for a moment to light it.

Chibs nods his head. "Aye, we'll make it happen."

Jax nodded his head as he blew out some smoke from his mouth and nose. "Good," he said. "Track down Connor; I need him there too."

" Jax, that was T.O. on the phone. They found the Impala, An apartment on Cranston." Tig said as he placed his phone back in his pocket.

" That's Niners hood." Bobby said as he brought his eye brows together.

Tig nodded his head." Yeah it is," Tig said. "And T.O. didn't want to make a move until you cleared it with Tyler first."

Jax shook his head."Don't worry about the Niners," he said. "Tell T.O. we're on our way." Jax said as they all walked towards their bikes, getting ready to go help out T.O. and the Grim Bastards.

" Yeah." Tig said as he took his phone out his pocket and made the call.

"You don't want to head home?" Bobby asked as he threw his leg over his Dyna, looking over at Jax.

Jax shook his head as he strapped his helmet on." I will see my boys later, besides I think the Bastards could be useful tonight. I might T.O. owning me favor." He said as he reveved up his Dyna and rode out to meet up with T.O and the Bastards.

Tig asked, "You think he's doing okay?" as he stood next to Bobby and watched Jax leave.

Bobby shrugged his shoulders. "I honestly don't know, but the boys need him. Come on, Tiggy, let's go catch up and get this over with." Bobby said as he started up his Dyna, followed by Tig as they both rode out and caught up with the rest of the club.

Later that night, Jennifer walked into her one-bedroom apartment as she closed the door behind her and locked it. After she took her jacket off and hung it up on the hook hanging on the back of her door, she kicked her shoes off and walked toward her kitchen. Pulling a wine glass out of her cupboard and a bottle of wine from her fridge, Jennifer headed out into her living room and sat down on her couch as she poured herself a glass of wine.

Jennifer has only been in Charming for a week now, and so far the town isn't too bad. It's actually starting to grow on her, and Charming is definitely a lot better than the town she grew up in, that's for sure. Jennifer has been getting along with Gemma so far, and of course the boys like her, and Jennifer likes them. Jennifer took a deep breath as she took a sip of her wine; the thought of her own son crossed her mind. Abel, Gemma's grandson, reminds Jennifer so much of her son.

Jennifer suddenly heard her cell ringing as she picked it up and when she noticed it was her ex calling her. Jennifer scoffs as she answered his call.",What, the hell do you want? I thought I told you never to call me." She said in a hard tone as she poured herself another glass of wine.

"Come on, Jen! Why do you always have to be so dramatic?"

Oh, I'm sorry, Nate. How have you been? Still fucking my best friend?" Jennifer asked sarcastically, rolling her eyes.

Nathan chuckled as he shook his head." You're still feisty as ever, baby," he said. "Where are you?" He asked. "I went by your mom's a few days ago looking for you. But she said that you went out of town. And when I tried to ask her where you went, she just kept telling me she didn't know."

Jennifer shrugged her shoulders."I don't know what to tell you, Nathan," she said. "I never told my mom that I was leaving; I left before she even knew I was gone." Jennifer added, taking a sip of her wine as she silently prayed he would buy it and not ask any more questions.

" Well, are you ever planning on coming home?"

Jennifer shrugged her shoulders again. "Maybe, maybe not."

Come on, Jennifer, it's been over six months. You can't keep blaming yourself for what happened; I lost him too, you know.

Jennifer scoffed as she shook her head."Really? You weren't even there when he passed away in the hospital, I was. I was by his bedside when he took his last breath; I watched him flatline, and where the hell were you that night, huh? Oh yeah, that's right, you were fucking my best friend."

" Jennifer, Listen I..."

" Don't... do not try to explain what happened. Because we both know that it's true, and we both know no matter what you say is not gonna bring our son back either. I don't blame myself for what happened, but I do blame you." Jennifer said as she quickly hangs up before Nathan can say anything else.

Jennifer took a deep breath as she leaned back against the couch, closing her eyes and reminding herself to call her mom in the morning before heading over to Gemma's to check in and make sure she hadn't told anyone where Jennifer had gone.

AN: Again, to my readers you don't have to read this story and I will be okay with that. But I promise just because I'm writing a Jax and OC story. I won't change how I feel about our King and Queen. I just hope some of you will give this story a chance.