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Dear Li Syaoran:
First of all, I'm letting you know I'm not going to call you Li. You haven't let anyone at school to call you by your first name, despite you being best friends with Kamui Shirou, or even because you are part of the group. I don't care if Tomoyo or Akiho are also not allowed, I have decided I will call you by your first name.
Actually, you can't complain. Firstly, I've google it and your name actually means something beautiful. You shouldn't have told me you're half-Chinese: that's how I found out you're (literally) a little wolf. And seconds, because after you stole my first kiss, you deserve this.
You know? I think it was all part of your plan. I think you knew, if you kissed me, I would end up falling for you. And that's only because you can't bear the idea of someone not liking you. But I must tell you, that although your plan worked for a while, now I'm immune to your charm, and I can even make a list of all the things I don't like about you.
- You barf without saying sorry. You do it because you think everybody sees it as something funny and charming, but I can assure you there are people whom we don't see it that way. Which should put you down to earth, since I know how much you value other people's opinions about you.
- You always eat the last dumpling. You always say it's your favorite food, but even if it's that so, it's something very rude to do.
- You're just too good at everything. Math, sports, languages… You make the rest of us to look like idiots! If you're doing it on purpose, you should stop; it can affect your health.
- You kissed me just because you could. I have no idea why you did it, because I knew you liked Tomoyo, you knew you liked Tomoyo, and Tomoyo knew you liked Tomoyo. Also, Tomoyo (I'm still not used to call her Daidouji), was my best friend. Best friends are not supposed to betray each other like that. And you had made me betray her, just for a meaningless kiss. I think that's what bothers me the most: you kissed me not because you had feelings for me, but because you could. You ruined my first kiss, the one that was supposed to be the most special of them all.
- But the worst of you, is that it was that kiss what made me start liking you. Despite my best friend also liking you. Maybe that's why you did it. You wanted to brag about having several girls liking of you, despite we all knew you would pick Daidouji in the end. But you needed it, you need me to be part of your fan club, and despite I was part of it for a while, I can now tell you I'm not part of it, no more. I'm free from the spell you casted on me!
Thanks to that, now I can tell you all the things I liked about you, without feeling these annoying butterflies in my stomach:
- I liked your hair. A chestnut like mine, but also one of a kind. I have no idea how you manage to be perfectly messy. Even when you're done playing basketball or football, and you're all sweaty, your hair still manages to look so good.
- You have the exact right height. You're not short, but you're neither the tallest of the class. Your height is the right one to be a little bit taller than most of girls in class, and your body proportions are so good that you look amazing standing next of any of us. The way you stand makes you look as the perfect boyfriend of any of us.
- I also liked the way you always help others. Like, you're so good at math and English, that you always need to help someone. The best of it is that you help whoever actually needs help. You're like a selfless guardian.
- I think your best quality is to make others feel special. I guess that's how it felt to be your friend, or that's the way Tomoyo feels every day, when you walk her to class, share your lunches, or walk back home. Because I know you always walk her back. I know it, despite Daidouji and I not being friends anymore. I'm really grateful about that: knowing that I cannot longer help her, or take care of her, but you'll do it for me. Please, make her feel special.
On the other hand, I think it was actually a good thing for Daidouji and I to stop being friends. When you guys started dating, it was really hard for me to listen her talk about you, all the time. Tomoyo couldn't stop sharing stuff she discovered about you. Liking you during seventh grade was extra hard because of that, but once Daidouji and I grew apart, until we no longer were friends, made it also easy to let go of you: I didn't had anyone right next beside me telling me all the time how cool and awesome you were, and I think that helped me see how you truly are.
So know that we're halfway eighth grade, I can proudly say I'm immune to all your charms. Which is actually a blessing since I'm pretty sure, if you kissed me again, this time instead of butterflies, you'd give me an STD.
Sakura Kinomoto Amamiya.