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Do you ever feel like no matter how hard you try you'll never be good enough in someone's eyes?

Yeah that's my life right now.

I'm not trying to brag right now but I did fix one of my lonegtime friends. Ugh, my grammer is so bad. I'm so embarrased about it. My doctors say that it's my mental illness getting in the way of my life. And I believe them to some extent.

But anyways, where was I? Oh yes. Today is my friend Wendy's wedding. You know, when I was eleven I actually pictured her getting married to me. Not idiot Skyler. What does she see in him? He used to push her and me around all the time. I guess he became a better person because tough Wendy managed to fall in love with him. Instead of being the groom. I am the guest. And I feel.. very sad and emoty right now. Am I not good enough for her? So much so that she had to go after the guy who used to bully us?

If so. She has every right to reject them. But if I'm wrong then what's going on in that brain of hers?

And the shocking thing is that we're all only seventeen.

I know right? This is such a turn of events. The best age to get married at is 34. I don't know, my parents got married at that age. So that is my humble opinion.

Agh. Life just doesn't make sense sometimes.

He stared at the newlyweds who looked.. kind of really angry with each other. They listened intently as the wedding speeches happened. And I didn't think I would be one of the people who would make a speech. It's a good think my medication keeps me from screwing other people anymore. I stare at my side and I find Wendy's sixteen year old sister Misty. If you didn't know, she's actually her half sister. And a mist person. You know, because water and air make mist?

Let me explain, Wendy and Misty's Mother was an air woman named Gia. She passed away unfortunately. So their Aunt took them in. She loves them with all her heart. But right now, Misty looks so sad. Which is unusual for her. Because she's always so happy and shiny.

"I loved Skyler with all my heart. I think he was more different around me." She sniffed.

I looked at her. We both lost someone. She likes Skyler. And I like Wendy. I just wish we were both able to tell them before any of this happened.

I hate being me.

"but.. I'm happy for Wendy." Her voice cracked.

I pulled her into a hug. We both deserve one.

It came my turn. And I didn't want it to be my turn. I wanted to be the last person to ever try and make a speech. Because the things I had to say wouldn't really make sense. And I would be lying.

Skyler is probably smug. He has the love of my life in his arms and nothing could make him happier. Which makes me so sad and upset. He probably revels In it.

I'm just really moping aren't I?

Uh.. oops.

I fumble with the microphone a little bit. I have no idea what I'm doing.

"Um, Wendy and I have always been great friends. I can't really say the same for Skyler."

Okay now that's some truth.

"But I do believe skyler chose any amazing woman. Because she makes everyone happy without anyone noticing it. And that is what's special about her."

As i spoke, I caught a glimpse of Wendy blushing. She seemed to drop the smile for a bit. What was that? And why do they seem so miserable.

"So cheers to them. Because both of them are very lucky to have each other."

Everyone clapped and I quickly left. A heavy sigh escaped me. I need a drink.

I need some Punch.

There isn't any drinks like that because the bride and groom are underage.

They're underage...

I stared and caught the scene. Misty was crying. She was crying hard and thank goodness that I managed to save her in time.

"You are not ruining this day." An old lady hissed at her.

Her aunt, an air woman named Gale sternly looked at her.

"Aw, let her go, ma." She said.

"I'm sorry." Misty cried softly.

I quickly came to her rescue, wanting to get her out of there.

"Um, Mist, how about we go to the bathroom?" I asked.

She nodded and we both left. Gosh Poseidon what kind of excuse is that? It's not like we're gonna do dirty stuff in there.

I allowed for her to go into the bathroom first. She grabbed a towel and dried her tears. I sofly rubbed her back.

"Everything's happening so fast. I'm not ready to say goodbye to him yet." Misty admitted.

"I can't say goodbye to Wendy yet either." I admitted aswell.

She stared at me. Curious and sad at the same time.

"What are your plans? Do you still want to become a farmer?" She asked.

I winced.

"I don't know. I think I do. But now that Wendy's gone... I mean we were gonna be next door neighbors!"

Misty cried a little harder.

"And Skyler doesn't want her to go. I'm not ready to let go of both of them. I need my big sister!" She cried.

"and I need my friend!" I shouted.

It was silent for a moment. Until I decided.

"I need to leave. I can't stand to stay here any longer." I sniffed.

I wasn't lying. I couldn't accept the fact that this wedding wasn't mine. I had wanted this ever since I was nine. Because unlike Skyler, I love Wendy! I can't live without her!

But now it's Skyler. And I still don't know the reason why.