Hello people! One more chapter is here and it's quite an important one! I know, I've been saying that for some weeks now, but... that's how this arc goes. What can I do? š Anyway, for this one, I think it's pretty obvious from the title; therefore, please enjoy and don't forget... the adult warning is on!
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Chapter 42: The Tutor, A Demon's Decision
When Selina entered the library, stood in front of the vast space covered with bookcases holding unique volumes and sighed with hands on waist; she forgot to ask Sebastian which two bookcases he meant. With another sigh she started examining all of them for any speck of dust and when she found none, a light switched on in her mind. Their encounter in the library was only yesterday and she had found Sebastian meticulously cleaning the books. It was practically impossible for the demon butler to not manage finish cleaning a room in two days, even if he decided to dust the wall behind each bookcase.
"So this time he did lie to meā¦ the bastard!" She said and threw the dust clothes on the couch. She sighed for the third time.
Most probably this was another trick to make her work more, find faults and then reprimand her again. So they were back at that, huh? Well... perhaps Sebastian was sadistic and had developed a new fetish of tormenting her like that, but Selina was not stupid to allow him continue without a fight. Doing a rough estimation found that by the time she should finish cleaning, everyone would be already in bed for some time, leaving her and Sebastian totally alone in the entire manor. She was certain he would come to 'inspect' her and start whatever torture he had in mind.
Selina pulled books from one self and scattered them in a small table close by, crumpled the dust clothes to make them look used, picked a book and sat comfortably in one of the armchairs to read while waiting for the demon. He would immediately see nothing had changed from how he placed them the previous day and would complain for her slacking off; but then she too would give him a piece of her mind for being so demonic to her. She only hoped he would not resort to tortures of the sensual and erotic type because then she could lose again; the fact that the library was in one of the quieter and more secluded parts of the manor was unsettling for her.
Exactly as she guessed, half an hour after the servants had gone to bed, she sensed Sebastian approaching. Selina almost jumped out of the armchair and picking up one of the clothes started pretending cleaning the books and putting them in their place. Her back was towards the room's entrance, when the handle turned and the door opened and closed. Sebastian took a couple of steps in the room towards her, took a deep breath and to Selina's surprise, started talking very calmly with a cold voice.
"In the seventeen centuries of my life I have met all kinds of humans, men and women. Amusing creatures, I cannot deny that." He chuckled as he remembered things of the past. "Truly entertainingā¦ But in the end they always annoyed me, irritated meā¦ You are no exception, dear Selina."
Selina's stomach instantly tied into a knot. She aimed showing the demon she was not stupid and not to be trifled with, but once again fell straight into his trap. He drove her there in order to announce his decision, and she could already guess what it was, judging by his words and ice cold tone, the tone he used to strangers. The knot got tighter and reached her heart and throat. She dared not turn, due to her recurring fear of seeing his hate and disgust for her.
"Of course, you are supposed to be something more than a human, but you still annoy me, irritate meā¦ every time I see you worry about me and think you can help me quite effectively. Sure, your little magic and potions can be of some use to me, but I can help and heal myself quite well without them, or even without feeding on your aura. Although, it is quite interesting how it fills my stomach for a while, even if I have not fed for so long; that could actually be really useful. I could keep you around just for thatā¦ but that is not enough for me."
She could sense him getting closer, slowly, like the predator before attacking its prey, and her knees had started trembling. Logically, he would not be so reckless to kill her right then and there. Ciel had ordered him not toā¦ unless he persuaded the boy they had no need of her anymore.
"As you know...very well, I had sexual intercourses with humans in my life in order to get them where I wanted, take information or just for fun, but it never felt as good as it does with you. I have never been exhausted and pleasured to the extent I do with you every time we make love; I have never allowed a human possess my body so much and make it feel so real, and never felt such a strong desire to make a human mine so many times, again and again and always coming back for more. I guess I could keep you close for that, but stillā¦ it is not enough for me."
Now he was almost behind her and Selina was certain he could see her trembling as she was struggling to keep her tears from falling, her body sought for support from the bookcase. She prayed for this torture to end soon, she needed him to say it clearly; he never cared for her, she was always just a toy to him, no matter what his deceiving, seductive lips always said, and now he decided to get rid of her before she becomes bothersome. Their deal was off. Why did he not just say it?
"But that would be quite stupid, keeping a human as food source and pleasure plaything, since she has the power to kill me, utterly destroy me in a second-"
Her sudden movement cut him off as she turned to face him. She looked straight in his eyes truthfully, and the demon could also see deep sadness and unbearable pain as tears, impossible to be held anymore, started flowing freely; her attempts to dry them as she spoke were in vain.
"I would neverā¦ you know that!" Complaint evident in her voice. "Not only because of my orders, not anymore! I simply can't! Burning you... hurts... so much... Don't make me do it... ever again!" The dust cloth fell from her trembling hands and she tried to cover her eyes with her palms, surrendering to heavy crying and sobbing; finally, leaning heavily on the bookcase. "Just kill me and be done with it, please!"
"Oh, I do not think I can do that. Not only because I am ordered not toā¦ I simply cannot... not anymore." He said in a dangerously low voice, as he placed his hands on the furniture, at the sides of Selina's head and brought his body closer.
It is not certain if Selina heard everything the demon said as she was too consumed by her sadness, but with a new sob let her head lightly hit the books behind her. Her hands slid off her face ā there was no reason for him to not see her tears, because now she did not care if he thought her as one more weak human ā but her eyes remained shut; hearing the demon's amusement along with something else, certainly equally vile, in his voice was enough; she did not need to see them in his eyes too.
"Then just be clear about itā¦ just tell me we are over and let me goā¦ Either way, it was more like an unofficial contract between us. W-we-we can work together like in the beginning; please end this." She whispered quite exhausted.
Sebastian sighed troubled. "Againā¦ I simply cannot do that either; exactly as I cannot do all the other things... exactly as you cannot kill me. I would never wish for the passionate fire of your eyes to be extinguished in any way or having their beautiful, hateful darkness directed to me. Therefore, none of the afore mentioned are in my options." His apathetic face with the burning eyes got even closer.
Selina finally opened hers and looked at him confused. "Thenā¦ what do you want from me? I don't understandā¦" She felt so tired of this game and pain.
"That, my dear, is a very good question actually! Let me see... I could say I want... everything! I want your everything; I accept all of it!" He said quite casually.
Selina looked at him again; her voice could not come out but her tearful eyes were quite eloquent in asking "What?"
The demon could not help but smirk quite satisfied. "Allow me to elaborate and make myself clear. As I saidā¦ you do things that annoy me, but I enjoy them coming from you, so I want that to go on. We can drive each other crazy with jealousy and possessiveness, even though we both know we hold no sexual interest for anyone else, andā¦ I want that. You struggled to prove your fighting skills to me and your worth as my trusty partner to have my back in moments of crisisā¦ A partner worrying solely for me; I believe I want that too. We spend so much time together working, talking, fighting, making fun of each other without holding hurt feelings and I want all these and moreā¦ I want everything that is part of your fire and passion, because I obviously cannot get enough of everything you are, and the fact that you too cannot get enough of everything I am... makes me wanting you even more!"
Selina was standing still like a pillar of salt, staring at him with her huge blue eyes that got bigger with every word the demon saidā¦ She simply could not believe her ears! He genuinely smiled at her astounded expression and the fire from his eyes rushed to embrace her, sending away any pain and coldness from inside her. He brought one ungloved hand to caress her cheek and chin and trace her parted lips as his now warm voice made Selina's body quiver.
"From the start, logic was telling you human and demon could never be together, that is why you tried to reason with me and stop harassing you, instead of using your flames and persuade me once and for all. That is why you fought so hard to resist your attraction to me and never cried over it or attempted to seduce me using feminine tricksā¦ But you actually did seduce me by just being yourself!" She blushed instantly and he leaned even closer. "I cannot begin to describe how much I enjoyed you getting panicked and angry at yourself for blushing so purely and uncontrollably when tempted by me. I assure you, I have made countless women blush but yours is always my most favourite because it is meant only for me."
The demon was feeling hotter by the minute, as he could not stop drinking in her image; her gaze was moving between his flaming orbs and hot lips hovering over hers. He was feeling her shudder every time his hot breath landed on her face, the uncontrollable blushing had reached the roots of her hair and her breath was also becoming heavier. Sebastian was running out of control and patience.
"It thrills me how we both lose utter control in our moments of passion; how you tame or make me come undone from extreme pleasure with just one word and touch; how you fearlessly embrace my sharp teeth in our kisses; how undaunted you remain no matter how beastly I act... You accept me completely, and in turn I adore your murderous darkness or compassionate light wherever you choose to apply them respectively." He took a deep breath as he was really reaching his limit.
But that was not wise, as he took in the woman's scent enriched by confusion, tears, hope and so strong arousal that could drive him mad and give into his animalistic need of taking her right then and there. The thunderous beating of her heart and the hot blood roaring in her veins made things harder for him, to the point his body started trembling from desire; his lips were ghosting over hers and she stared at him through hooded eyes as she too was ready to entirely surrender to him. He lightly bit the finger of his glove, pulled it off his hand and let it drop on the floor forgotten as his hand joined the other in caressing Selina's throat slowly and sensually, making her sigh in anticipation.
"Even without realising it, I never had just sex with you out of practicality. I never agreed to such a deal, because I always made love to you." He chuckled lightly. "Listen to me... I cannot believe these words are coming out of my mouth, that I actually mean and feel all I say, but I do and you can tell I am honest. I choose you because all the things you bring with you are too precious to me and above all... If I try to imagine my days and nights, my centuries yet to come, without your presence buzzing around me, without my hands touching you and yours touching me, without being able to feel you in any way... my chest hurts, my brain is in danger of exploding and I get closer to insanity because I obviously..." He took one more breath. "...need you with me forever!"
Their lips were almost touching and Selina, despite her surprise and numbness, instinctively allowed the tip of her tongue taste his lips... and that was all the demon needed to finally lose all control. He let out a surprised moan and his mouth crashed on hers in a bruising deep kiss, not just of lust but one of need from both sides. Just like humans take deep breaths to get more air in their lungs when they feel suffocating, they kept kissing like they were each other's oxygen; one would think they would end up devouring each other!
The demon's fingers were buried in the witch's gold curls messing them up as he hugged her scalp, while she was clutching the back of his tailcoat trying to remain standing and resist her shaking knees barely supporting her; as if he could feel her situation, the demon brought his body flushed on hers, pinning her on the bookcase and making her moan so deliciously. After some moments, the kiss was broken since Selina needed some real oxygen; panting breaths were the only sounds in the room as the couple embraced so tightly and strongly, obviously not wanting to let go, ever. They remained like this for quite some time, with their eyes closed, enjoying the moment.
"I know I will never be a lover as tender and affectionate as you desire, as Paul might was; I might not even be able to say what every woman desires to hear but... I will try to listen to all these strange feelings you inspire in me and act accordingly. However, will you help me understand what they say to me? I need you to guide me." He said and sounded at a loss; very unusual for him.
Selina gently pushed Sebastian away and he released her. He remained motionless staring at her lowered face. When she lifted her head, his heart jumped in his chest, as he saw her smiling at him so brightly, while crystal clear tears kept falling from her sparkling blue eyes. Her face reminded him of a summer refreshing rain. When she spoke her voice was one of the most harmonious musics he had ever listened to.
"If I wanted an ordinary lover, tender and affectionate in the way Paul was, there are millions to choose, but I don't care. The word you say every woman wants to hear? I have heard countless times; Paul always said he loved me and wanted me, butā¦ he never said he needed me, you said it thrice already; with your words and kiss. Yes, you might be dark, violent and sadistic but never with me and I have learned to adore your darkness. In my eyes, you lack in nothing compared to Paul, you are superior. I accept you with all your darkness and faults because I-" She stopped, hesitating and blushing all over again.
"Say it!" Sebastian begged leaning closer. His red eyes sparkling with a smile.
"Becauseā¦"
"Say itā¦ please!" His voice the seductive whisper Selina could never resist and made her shudder every time.
"Because I need and love youā¦" She whispered back and if she wanted to say something more she could not, as the demon attacked her lips with another rain of fiery kisses, asking her to repeat what she said in between. He could not understand why, and at the moment he did not really care, but every time that word left her lips he was feeling more and more lightheaded.
"Do not ever dare to keep yourself away from me for so long againā¦ and I do not mean just your body, but everything about you... the distance is killing me." Sebastian said before kissing Selina's cheeks, eyes, nose, forehead, her entire face.
"I won't, not ever! It's killing me too!" She responded embracing him and happily accepting his kisses and emotional outburst; so rare for a demon, that Selina dared to think she was the first - and hopefully the only - creature he showed this side of him; a side even he did not know he could have.
Sebastian looked at her for a second and chuckled more composed now. "But you were determined to leave me for good, if that was my decisionā¦ Something tells me you would not even put up a fight; you would just accept it and let me go. Actually, you never even considered the chance of me accepting you and had prepared yourself for the worst case scenario. That is why you panicked because we made love yesterday. You felt I ruined whatever defences you had built around your heart... am I right?" A victorious smirk and an arched brow brought back the image of the smug demon Selina knew so well andā¦ loved so much.
Selina's eyes opened wide and her face had the expression of a child caught in the act of doing something naughty. "W-Wellā¦ I told you that love means to be able to let the person you love go, if that's what he wants, soā¦ I had to prepare myself."
Sebastian nodded. "Oh yes; your altruistic view of love! Wellā¦ I cannot be like that; I am a selfish and possessive man soā¦ I will never let you go, even if you get sick and tired of me. You will have to kill me to-" He was cut off by Selina's lips crashing on his, as she could not keep listening to stupid ideas.
All thoughts, worries, fears and doubts melted away just like time did for the couple, finally reunited for good, as they kept kissing and caressing each other passionately. Desire was getting stronger with each touch and kiss and soon their burning bodies were grinding together, despite the layers of clothes. Selina's sighs and moans and Sebastian's low groans filled the air as things were getting hotter and hotter.
"Come! Let us go to our room, I want and need you so much right now!" Sebastian whispered when he allowed Selina to breathe again. He took her hand in his black nailed one and got ready to walk.
"Wait, wait please!" Selina stopped him with a hand on his chest gently pulling him to her. "Do you remember your promise? Showing me your true form after telling you everything about me?" Sebastian nodded hesitantly. "Wellā¦ I would like to see it now; I would like to know as much as I can about you. Don't worry, nothing will change, I accept you completely either way, I love you!" She said when she saw him still hesitating, and kissed him so tenderly, that the demon thought for a moment he would melt right on the spotā¦ He still could not believe there was a human able to make him soā¦ pleasantly weak.
"It is not that I doubt you, my lovely witch, but your narration pointed that you have already seen my true form... and I really need to-" He suddenly chuckled amused, when he saw her big eyes taking a so innocent kitten look, that he could not resist but caress her cheek and then run his fingers through her loose golden curls.
"Well, yes, but back then I was not really in a mental state capable of remembering what exactly I saw... And I have to inform you that from the moment Vera stopped breathing until Miranda appeared, everything felt like a very strange dream, I was moving like I was in a dream! Besides, you promised." She grinned happily.
Sebastian responded with a genuine smile. "Close your eyes." He said gently as he slowly slipped behind her. "I do not know if I will be more powerful in your time, but there must be little change in this."
Selina did as told, sensing him standing behind her and thenā¦ changing. His aura, usually restrained in his human body, now flowed freely getting stronger, bigger and darker. Selina did not feel threatened or intimidated by it; on the contrary, allowed herself to sink in, when two strong arms with a leathery feeling wrapped themselves around her, and pulled her in a black but familiarly comforting embrace. His darkness covered her entire body, lovingly caressing it everywhere to the point of numbing her senses when it came to the world around her, but focusing them only to the sensations this purely demonic presence gave her; like a sweet drug injected in her veins.
Slowly, Selina turned inside his embrace and her hands sank in darkness finding his body; it did not feel very differently to her, it only had a leathery quality and she could not tell if it was a leather clothing ā as it appeared in Sebastian's sleeves and stiletto boots when he struck the deal with Ciel ā or if it was his very naked skin. Selina was not certain but did not really care. She opened her eyes and met his burning red ones looking even more vibrant on his face covered with black reptilian scales, two slits instead of nostrils gave the impression of a small snout and a pair of curved horns sprouting out of his forehead. He looked so different but so unchanged in Selina's eyes, since the things she loved most on him ā his eyes and wide smile, even when filled with sharp razor teeth ā had remained the same. Selina returned the smile.
"It was youā¦ it was always you! You were always there when I needed someoneā¦ to not let me fall, to aid me in my decisions and protect me, to comfort me whenever I felt abandoned and to give me courage! And now I can finally see you clearly!" New tears of happiness started streaming down her face as her fingers caressed his face.
"Yes, I will be by your side to aid and support you, even though I will not be able to protect you but I will certainly avenge you, because I swear to whatever you desire me to, I will kill that bastard who dared touch you with his hands in your childhood! I may be a demon capable of anything vile, but I cannot ignore how he hurt you in your most sensitive age." He was furious remembering that hideous man with the audacity to want to be called "Father" by his victims, and his clawed fingers pressed her shoulders with more strength than they should for a second; thankfully he did not hurt her.
"Thank you, thank you so much, my Sebastian! You have no idea how peaceful my sleep became after his death!" She smiled at him and stood on her toes to reach his lips since in his demonic form he was even taller.
Sebastian was surprised by the feeling of her lips on his. It was new to him to have soft lips touching his rough, cracked and dry ones, but nothing seemed to hinder Selina as she kept kissing and then slowly licked them asking entrance, while her hands slid higher embracing him more. He wanted to respond and welcome her and was about to open his lips, when reason took hold of him and quickly pushed her back breaking the kiss.
"No, I cannot let you get hurt by my teeth! If you try to kiss me deeper they will tear apart your tongue." He said with a hiss after seeing question and sadness in his mate's eyes.
"I'll be careful, you won't hurt me! I want all of you; let me kiss your true self!" She said anxiously.
Sebastian smiled. "I know my dear, you have nothing to prove. I do not mind or care which form you like best or kiss, it is one and the same to me; the feeling and taste of your lips on mine is marvellous either way. However, I cannot take the risk of hurting youā¦ you are too precious to me! Thereforeā¦ allow me." He said and took a couple of steps back, giving Selina the chance to see him entirely before reverting back to the butler's form.
What Selina saw was a pitch black cloud of vapours and smoke swirling like tentacles hovering around a male body not significantly different from Sebastian's human one, with clawed long hands and long lean, strong legs ending in leather stiletto boots that every woman would get jealous about. The thought that he looked like a very gracious man with a dragon-like head crossed her mind; not hideous at all in her eyes. The smoke closed in on him completely confining him in a black cloud, and when he stepped out of it the Sebastian she knew came out, drawing the cloud inside him; he saw Selina's eyes turning hotter, her cheeks following and he chuckled quite cockily as he wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her to him.
"I honestly do not care which form of mine you prefer, because I see in your eyes that your feelings are targeting what lies beyond appearance." The woman nodded as her breathing became shallower. "Actually, I prefer this form because I can freely do thisā¦" The demon said mischievously, as he claimed her lips in the deep kiss she was asking previously; now he was free to ravage her mouth to his heart content.
This time Selina could not resist the sensation and was fast enough to grab Sebastian's lapels before her knees buckle, but Sebastian was equally quick as he lifted her in the air with one arm behind her thighs. They stared at each other for a moment, mutually agreeing they needed to go to the room fast and so they did.
Selina had completely surrendered to Sebastian's ability to navigate through the manor, even if they kept kissing so thoroughly; she did not even pay attention to some thudding sounds as they went on or that slowly they lost their shoes, socks and every small article of clothing that could be removed while on the move. They reached the room and only when Sebastian placed her on the double canopied bed, he did allow her to breathe properly.
With his red eyes never leaving hers and the victorious smirk on his lips never disappearing, proceeded on removing his vest. The tie followed and Selina could not control the furious blush of her face expanding to her body, as she always found so alluring and erotic Sebastian's way of loosening his tie with his fingers. The demon chuckled but as a sadistic creature that he was, did not give a break to the poor woman. He slowly unbuttoned his shirt still watching Selina shuddering with every ripple and movement of his muscles.
When his fingers moved to the buttons of his trousers, a small excited sound escaped her throat and she quickly tried to hide her face in the folds of her skirt, but her eyes had no intention of moving away from the undressing man. It was obvious that the realisation of having all this, all of him, as only hers and for decades, perhaps even centuries, affected her like never before. She was utterly surprised with her so school girl reaction.
Sebastian's laughter was almost a pleased roar as he leaned closer, entangled his fingers in her hair lightly tugging at them to bring her closer. His gaze, that of a ravenous predator lusting to tear apart his victim; a victim willingly sacrificed to satiate the lust in the blood red eyes.
"You amaze meā¦ you have seen, touched, felt this very body many times already, but every time you get strongly affected and now you reacted like it was your first! You are uniqueā¦ and mine, all mine!" He growled as he removed all of her bottom clothes in a few swift movements.
He closed in for a kiss, but Selina shook her head to release her hair from his hold and pulled a little back; Sebastian saw that and straightened his body while looking at his mate with question. The mischievous twinkle in her eyes along with her smile was enough evidence she was up to something. Selina kneeled on the mattress and slowly, excruciating slowly, let her one palm glide on the demon's skin following every line and contour of his lean muscles, while the fingers of the other hand traced his deep hip line and unfastened his trousers, causing him to shudder at her touch, gasp and breathe heavily as her teasing tongue joined the game on his torso.
"It's because you always make this false body look and feel so realā¦ with every moveā¦ dressed or nakedā¦ and I can't resist." She said between kisses and nibbles as she ascended to his throat, his sensitive spot. "You too amaze me because you are unique and mineā¦ all mine!"
Her voice was low vibrating with passion, desire and threatā¦ Threat directed to any female that would dare to gaze at her demon wantonly. Selina was finally clearly staking a claim on Sebastian and he found he was more than happy to comply. As an answer he chuckled satisfied and pulled her in his arms for a hungry kiss.
They both could feel each other's hotness, as their lower bodies were naked, desperately wanting to meet, but the demon had other plans. Now that everything had been made clear between them, there was no reason for him to be quick and impatient, like every other time. He was burning with desire for his woman, but was determined to take his time and enjoy her body to the fullest. And so he did, slowly removing Selina's shirt and everything else while kissing, nibbling and tasting her soft hot skin; her short panting breath and small excited cries music in his ears as his hands and mouth travelled up and down on the quivering body.
Selina was almost certain Sebastian had every intention of driving her crazy with pleasure and did not care, she only wanted to continue feeling him exploring every nook and corner of her body. Right then and there she existed only for that, only for him. She had no idea how long that went on, but at some point she heard Sebastian groaning as he was trying to maintain his control.
Shaking she sat up and looked at him; everything about him showed that his plan had taken its toll on him and he was ready to burst by his desire for her, but still had not completed all he wanted. Selina smiled and sure of herself, slid closer with her spread legs wrapping around his waist as her hand gently guided him to her entrance. She placed a slow and long kiss on his throat knowing how he loved that and enjoying the desperate groan leaving his lips.
"We have all the time in the world to do whatever we want as many times we want. No reason to push yourself now, my loveā¦" She whispered in his ear and the last word was the trigger.
Before she knew it, his hands were under her thighs pulling her closer uniting their bodies completely, his fingers buried in the round flesh of her bottom as he kept pulling and lifting her to him; her hands flew to hug his waist so that she would not fall back.
"Say it again!" Sebastian asked as he began thrusting inside her and Selina complied as many times as he wanted, to the point she could not articulate even a syllable; the only thing she could do was keep breathing and crying out lost in the ocean of pleasure the demon was gifting her.
Sure, Sebastian agreed with Selina. They had centuries of time together to make love however and whenever they wanted, but the need and urgency he felt took over him, making him utterly lose control, as he kept claiming his mate's body again and again in every possible way. She also called for and accepted him again and again throughout the night until the break of dawn, both losing sense of time and space, willingly allowing themselves to drown in unquenchable lust and love for each other; the best drug both had ever tasted.
{~}
They were lying motionless for a quarter now, still trying to catch a breath, as the first rays of sun peeking through the not fully drawn curtains made the beads of sweat dripping from their bodies look like small diamonds blooming on their still hot skin. Selina's dreamy eyes were fluttering trying to remain open; an equally dreamy smile was on her lips as she made an effort to turn to the demon spooning her body.
Her eyes met the demon's face being in a similar state, looking at her behind long black lashes and framed by his messy black locks that the witch liked so much, especially since she could not forget how they always tickled her in all the right places just like his mouth was teasing and kissing her skin. His hand resting on her stomach reached for her face and his fingers caressed her cheek gently before tracing her still red from his kisses lips.
"Are you happy?" He asked with a smile.
Selina nodded. "Yes. And you?" She answered and her voice was hoarse after so many cries of ecstasy caused by the demon's masterful lovemaking.
Sebastian's hands slipped off her body. "Let me bring you some water; your throat must be in pain." He smirked with a smug twinkle in his mahogany eyes.
He got up and went to a table where a tray with glasses and a pitcher filled with water were waiting. He filled one glass and returned to the bed. Selina had sat up and her eyes could not stop following Sebastian's naked body; she sighed thinking that of course he knew and enjoyed that and it would boost his extreme confidence on his beauty to a greater level of narcissism, butā¦ she could not help it, she loved watching him move around, dressed or not!
She accepted the glass of water and just then realized how thirsty she was, her throat felt better instantly. Sebastian pulled up the bed's covers and joined Selina underneath them. He met the woman's eyes and his heart started beating loudly again.
"You didn't answerā¦ Are you happy too?" She insisted with a touch of fear in her eyes.
Sebastian smirked again. "I feel an intoxicating euphoria knowing that you want to be by my side for the centuries to come, and I am determined to not allow anyone take you away or harm you in any way. All I want is to keep kissing you, making love to you and spending time or working with you while we talk and laugh; soā¦ is that happiness?" He raised his brows in question.
Selina nodded as her face turned to a beautiful rosy colour and then to deep red when her demon lover started kissing her again proving the truth of his words. Soon she was back in his arms ā the empty glass had dropped on the carpet ā enjoying the moment of silence and peace belonging only to them, and listening to the rhythmic beating of his heart joining her own.
"Can I ask something now?" Sebastian said after they got comfortable on the bed's pillows, still in each other's arms.
"Anything." Selina's answer came immediately.
"I have no intention of mocking or undermining your intelligence and decision, but I have to ask..." She nodded with a smile. "You choose to stay with me for centuries and you say you had actually made that decision before we learn about being mates... Have you truly realised that I will not always be as graceful and gentle as the part I currently play asks of me? I mean, I will not always be the butler Sebastian, but the dark demon hungry for souls and thirsty for the blood of my victims with no feelings for humans, other than you, of course." He smiled dreamily at her for a second, before returning to the emotionless, apathetic tone he had while talking. "I am a creature of darkness, chaos, murdering innocents with no hesitation; my home is a dimension nothing like this one..."
Selina smiled and let her head drop on his shoulder after she placed a kiss on his pectoral. "I know all these and have truly realized. You might be all the things you say and we might disagree on them many times, but my eyes see beneath that surface and I see someone who is caring for me, with whom I can be my true self, no hiding, no pretending. Something I could not have with Paul and finally realized the night you saw me crying and wondering about him."
"I really do not want or care to listen about him; you choose me and that is enough for me." The male demon said seriously, obviously irritated by the mention to that pathetic excuse of a man, but the woman's eyes showed she wanted to share that with him.
"That night I dreamt of a life I could have with him and saw it would be a lie; a constant struggle to keep him blind about what I am, what our children would beā¦ I would live a double life, always in fear of being exposed. Then I dreamt about youā¦ How things were between us up to that point and I saw truth; I may not have said from the start what I am, but I also never felt the need to hide it forever. I always felt and feel so comfortable and free when I am with you, I don't have to hide. My mother used to say, both to me and my sister, how important is to find a perfect mate that would accept us entirely... I knew Paul was not that mate, but I thought-"
"He was the most convenient solution and what you needed after losing everything..." The demon could clearly read her mind.
Selina nodded. "He proved, of course, he was not able, not even for that... However, I don't hate him because I would not have met you, if he had stayed with me. Anyway, as I was saying, that night I once again confirmed how I felt about you and solidified my belief that I am willing to follow you everywhere and witness your cruelty on your victims... after I place some conditions... as your stabilizer!" A bright, teasing smile spread on her face.
"Hoh?!" Sebastian responded arching his eyebrows. "And what conditions might that be, if I may?"
"Hmm... I haven't thought about it in great depth yet and I don't want to chain or force you to change, but I know for certain that I don't want you to prey on children again; especially if their reason and situation is not so serious as our master's was or they are not so stable in mind and focused on target as our master is."
"So... in a way, you forbid me to feed from children... yet you leave a small chance that I can do so under certain conditions. I can eat the soul of a child if it experiences such cruelty as our master did. And I thought you loved children - young master included - even after losing your baby, enough to want to protect them from such situations and me!" He said with a falsely innocent and confused look.
"That's true; I want to protect them but I know I will not be able to do so for all the children in the world, and... I also know that whatever atrocity humans do, children are always the easiest targets and victims. There will be some more decades for society to acknowledge and properly protect children... and even then, there will be many cases were children are still maltreated, so... even though I don't like it, I know there will be more children in such a bad situation like master was, and if the guys upstairs continue to be as deaf as they were to him, children might turn to you for help and support." She shrugged and her eyes seemed sad by her admittance.
Sebastian kept looking at her and then kissed her tenderly. "I adore how you manage to rationalize everything... even the things you find horrible."
Selina agreed. "Right; only my feelings for you can't be rationalized, and that is why my second condition has to do with women!" Now her eyes sparkled threateningly.
"Oh, am I forbidden from preying on women too?" The demon asked innocently.
"No, do whatever you want with their souls and you can charm them, flirt with them and maximum give them a hand... a gloved one..." She said meaningfully. "But do anything more and-" Her eyes were burning blue under long, golden lashes and furrowed eyebrows, but did not finish as the demon pushed her on the mattress, trapping her underneath him and his mouth stole away her words.
"You are adorable, my jealous kitten!" Sebastian chuckled after breaking the kiss. "Just now, you really looked like a small feisty kitten claiming my attention."
Selina blushed a little embarrassed. "Okay... but don't start calling me like that in public... it's so out of your character and plus... nothing will save me from the imbeciles' teasing!" She smiled by curling her lips in a cat-like manner, after Sebastian reassured her he had no intention of letting others know what they do and say in private, since these moments were only theirs, and then hissed and playfully dug her nails in the flesh of his chest.
That was too much for the male demon; he let a low roaring chuckle, grabbed the hand that did that and started 'eating' the fingers while his kept caressing her hair, face and tracing the lips that now let moans and sighs to escape instead of hisses or words. The fingers of his other hand travelled and teased the supple, soft body, until he reached the hottest part he adored so much.
Selina caught the hand stroking her hair that was closer to her mouth and in turn, also began 'eating' the black nailed, strong fingers she loved. The best reward was the demon's gasp turning to lusty groans and then to moans, as his mouth released her fingers, that quickly found their way between their burning bodies and immediately started returning the favour of him pleasuring her so thoroughly.
"Oh my!" He said shakily. "There... That is-" His breath was caught in his throat, he lost the ability to speak and his red eyes fluttered shut, as he joined Selina's moans and gave in to absolute pleasure. "You really are the best, you know me so well... and you are mine, only mine, forever! My Selina!" He managed to say a few minutes later, while enjoying the calming bliss, following the burst of their passion, still tightly embraced, trying to catch their breaths.
Selina smiled as her heart almost jumped out of her chest, happy to hear his words. "And you are the best too, the best for me, always mine!" Her smile got wider feeling the heartless demon's heart reacting in the same way at her words. She lifted her head and lightly kissed his soft, warm lips.
"Oh, I forgot." Sebastian said suddenly after some time, released her and got up from bed, stretching his muscles already recovered despite all the night's strain.
Selina sat up, pulled the covers closer, as she got a little chilly now that Sebastian's warm body was not there, and watched him picking up his vest and searching the pockets. He found what he looked for and quickly returned to her side. Once he was comfortable under the covers, he presented Selina the sealing armband she had trusted him with only a couple of months ago.
"I have no need of that anymore. What do you want me to do with it?" He asked casually and was pleasantly surprised by the woman's hug and kiss attack.
"Burn it!" She said and even the demon, struggling to understand human feelings, could hear great relief in her voice, but also see it in her blue sparkling eyes.
There was no barrier left between them anymore, he trusted her entirely. With a smile saying "Yes, my lady!" and a movement of his hand the leather armband flew to the rooms dark fireplace. With a snap of his fingers a candle burning on a small table joined the armband that in a few moments was already being consumed by the single flame growing tall and strong according to the demon's maestro movements of his fingers. Selina, still hugging her man, whistled impressed and then enjoyed the view. She may had not to wear the cursed thing for a long time, but having a part of her suppressed like that... was a feeling she never wanted to experience again!
Sebastian, pleased with how happy she looked, left the fire burning lowly in the fireplace until nothing of the leather object would remain. Then, with a mischievous smile, he took her right hand and Selina felt something metallic slipping on her finger between his kisses. When his mouth retreated, she saw the wedding band they had used in the St. Ives case, back on her finger. She looked at it with eyes wide open, that opened more when she saw the other ring on Sebastian's finger. She looked at him not knowing what to think.
Sebastian could not help but laugh, really amused by her look, and kiss the finger with the said ring. "Do not worry; I am not making a marriage proposal..." His eyes sparkled quite mischievously. "...although it could be fun. I just thought that since I bought them for us, we could keep wearing them." He shrugged his shoulders like it was nothing important. "I also modified them and now the temperature will change when one of us is in real dangerā¦ As you can see I have no intention of controlling you... all the time."
"Youā¦ you kept itā¦ all this time? I gave it to master-" Selina said still flustered.
Sebastian nodded. "Yes, right after we came back and heard me talking with Miranda. I found it among master's papers on his desk, forgotten andā¦ I cannot deny I got somehow angry with you for discarding it so easily, and I had every intention of giving it back to you, whether you liked it or not, butā¦ it seems I waited for the right moment. I kept it in my pocket along with mine."
The demon was staring at the empty space in front of him, his brows furrowed obviously bewildered by his own words. Why a pair of small rings was so important, since he never cared for what they signified, and he knew his mate too despised them and now he knew the reason why? Selina's impish chuckle brought him back to here and now. The woman's face was red and her eyes sparkled once again.
"Oh my! A great demon with no feelings who gets disgusted by humans making love and doesn't care for silly human commitments, falls hard for a human witch, really likes to get dirty and sweaty making love to her and being quite insatiable, I must say andā¦ last but not least, transfuses importance to a symbol of these very same silly human commitmentsā¦ Wow, what a transformation!" She teased him leaning on his shoulder.
"Hmmā¦ and whose fault is that? Of course, that human witch is to blame, who although is a trained demon slayer and knows their true nature, fell for the demon equally hard and then weaved such an intricate and strong web around him, drugged him with her charm and beauty, and now the poor monster is addicted to herā¦ What can he possibly do other than enjoy his so pleasant and alluring prison?" Sebastian responded with an arched eyebrow and a devilish smirk, slowly covering her with his body, wrapping her legs and arms around him, confining himself in her embrace.
Selina tightened her hold on him and giggled happily, before they started kissing slowly enjoying every second of it; both felt they could melt into each other right then and there; they could stop existing but could not care less. When Sebastian felt his desire stirring once again, he rolled over and Selina in a flash found herself straddling him. Her surprised face turning to red as his hands guided her hips to rub on his hardness was priceless.
"Dominate me!" He groaned staring at her through half lid eyes burning so hot that Selina thought flames would burst out of her skin. "Take me like you did when drunk. I want that side of yours too!" He really meant it!
"Wha-?" She felt she would faint from embarrassment. "Hey! That was so not me! I'm not a dominatrix and I'm not into any sadomasochistic games while in bed, and as much as I love you and want you to be yourself, there will be no slapping or hitting or anything hurtful from neither of us... just to be clear!" She said as she started losing her focus due to the increasingly pleasing friction of their bodies.
"I know that and I would never try to damage or ruin your perfect skin and body in any way; I adore it too much for allowing something like that to happenā¦ but I cannot help getting excited when you express your passion, whatever form it takes... and I would not mind if you want to get sadistic in bed with me!" He said in a low voice and smiled, sharp fangs peeking from lips smiling teasingly and full of innuendos.
Selina got ready to answer but instead moaned, feeling him getting closer to her entrance and mesmerized kept watching his chest expanding by deep breaths as his back arched and a needy groan left his throat quite loudly.
"Over here! I hear them... says Bronte!" Snake was suddenly heard outside the door and running steps getting closer followed his words.
The couple looked at each other with wide eyes, but Sebastian's quick reflexes kicked in; in a flash he had removed Selina from on top of him ā a frustrated sigh from the demon followed the action ā and pushed her behind him, shielding her nakedness with his equally naked chest and pulling the sheets around them, right the moment the three imbeciles barged in and then paused goggling their eyes in front of this unbelievable sight.
Snake, Bard and Mey-Rin ā holding a small bundle in her arms of the clothing articles the couple had discarded the previous night on the way to the room ā were looking at the lovers with a worried look that turned to surprise and then to embarrassment, as they took in the state in which they found butler and tutor. Selina pulled the sheets higher to cover Sebastian's chest, as she heard a trembling gasp from Mey-Rin and the maid's face looked so red, that it would not be surprising to see blood running from her nose.
"To what do we owe that impertinent intrusion of yours in our private chamber?" Sebastian asked back in his cool even frightening tone, while looking at them threateningly.
For a few moments Bard and Snake, both blushing quite furiously, were either looking at each other or at the scene in front of them, clearly not knowing what to say; Mey-Rin's ability for speech was obviously out of order. The snake coiled around Snake's arms started hissing and then looked at the pale man.
"We did not see either of you when we got up - that was strange - and started searching around. Considering how you two were the last days we did not know what to thinkā¦ But I was not worried when we started finding the clothesā¦ says Bronte." Snake translated and then blushed even deeper. Bard nodded as he was supporting the almost fainted Mey-Rin.
"Yes, I am afraid we forgot ourselves and I do not have my watch on my person. We must be rather late, my dear." Sebastian said looking backwards at Selina who responded with a shrug.
"He-Hereā¦ the watch." Bard said and pulled it out of Mey-Rin's strong clutch; he then left it at the edge of the bed seeing the look Sebastian was giving him as the chef moved millimetres closer to the general area the naked Selina occupied.
Sebastian retrieved it and checked the time. "Oh goodness! It is indeed late. I have to prepare young master's breakfast; I have forty minutes until eight. Dear Selina, I know that you need to rest, but I must ask for your assistance. Together we will work faster and effectively."
"Sure, no problem." Selina answered half hidden behind his shoulder.
"Anything else we can help you with?" Sebastian asked coldly the trio still standing at the door, blushing and looking at the couple with idiotic looks on their faces.
They all shook their heads and after Snake managed to extract the rest of the clothes from Mey-Rin's arms and leave them on a nearby chair, Bard took her in his arms and they all retreated apologizing while closing the door.
Sebastian sighed annoyed. "I will kill them one day... for certain!"
Selina's giggle was heard. "Consider it done, because you probably made Bard shit himself with that look, not that Snake is any differentā¦ poor guys." She really enjoyed it.
"It goes without saying! I would never allow any other male touch, much less see naked, what is mine!" He declared seriously and then smirked with a sparkle in his eyes. "But look who is talkingā¦ I am sure you gave the maid a similar look." He tugged at the sheet still covering him.
Selina let it go and straightened her body. "It goes without saying! I would never allow any other female touch, much less see naked, what is mine!" She said mimicking the demon's serious look.
That amused him; he laughed and captured the woman in his embrace as he claimed her lips in a playful kiss.
"So it seems you will forget that Mey-Rin is your friend-" Sebastian whispered teasingly in the woman's ear trying to fire her up.
"No, she will always be my friend, I won't harm her; we will come to an understanding, I am sureā¦ But, as I said, that doesn't go for any other woman that you will seduce or will dare to look at you lustfully." The murderer appeared in her eyes and excited the demon.
"And what if our master asks me to treat women like I did Beast?" He kept teasing.
"I don't think he will... he is too innocent and easily embarrassed to ask something like that... It was clearly your choice, to use the poor woman, Beast, like that. But... since the conditions of your contract were decided before I enter the stage, and we really have no idea what young master might ask of you, as he grows into an adult... I will suffice in telling you to limit your games to the necessary minimum; unless you want to be associated with unfortunate events that may befall your victims and risk our master's plansā¦ However, in future contracts I will demand things and place my terms too." She smirked while staring at the demon quite provocatively behind golden lashes.
"Oh, I am so scared!" Sebastian responded tightening his arms and with smiling eyes.
"Hmmā¦ you should be; my wrath will not be directed only towards the women." She tugged his black fringes hugging his face.
"I cannot wait!" The demon groaned with red eyes and rushed to meet her lips and teeth in a savage kiss as they both bit each other's lips, before turning into a deep one filled with desire.
Unfortunately, they had to stop soon as duty called them. Therefore, after a while they untangled from each other, quickly washed themselves and got dressed in clean clothes that Sebastian had provided beforehand, obviously planning for their last night's discussion andā¦ confession to end up in this room.
Selina's legs were a little shaky and Sebastian was more than happy to assist her in getting cleaned and dressed. Selina was surprised to see the demon was in a really playful mood, despite the long night of lovemaking they just had; he seemed like he indeed could not get enough of and keep his hands off her. She could not deny she loved that side of his since it was directed solely to her. However, they both managed to control themselves - as the professionals they were - hurrying to get back to work with no further delay.
With only a quarter to eight in their disposal, they ran to the kitchen, where Mr. Tanaka, thankfully, had made preparations for master's breakfast and that helped them greatly. They worked fast in perfect synchrony, ignoring the elder butler's smirk and Sebastian was pulling the curtains in young master's bedroom at eight o'clock sharp like always.
Aaand, this is it people! Our dear couple solved everything between them! We have one more chapter to wrap up this arc and then we move on to the Boys' Band arc... umm... Blue Cult arc? I really don't remember how it is called, but you get what I mean, I'm sure!
So, for this chapter I want to give a huge THANK YOU to the awesome AMV creator ShadoWolf who makes really amazing SebastianxViewer videos (all of her videos are awesome), the songs chosen are more to my liking, more rock/metal, than what usually accompanies Sebastian videos and... overall the videos are so so beautiful! Specifically for this chapter, I had written Sebastian's confession around FIVE times and it never felt right and as much as possible close to his character. Then I watched the AMV [SebastianxViewer-Not Strong Enough] and the lyrics gave me the idea of a slightly different approach... Why not make Sebastian totally confused by his feelings, but unable to resist? For once, he admits he might not be as strong as he thought, but he makes this admittance only in front of Selina, his forever mate! Of course, later I made more changes, so this moment of weakness might not be very obvious here, but this AMV was the inspiration, for sure... I make it more clear later on, you'll see š!
Sebastian's demonic form: Since we don't have any clear image of his true form, I experimented. Through a discussion with a friend we came up with the idea of Sebastian looking somehow reptilian, and I thought "Hm... Why don't I make him similar to Dragonborns from Neverwinter?"... and voila! What do you think, people? Do you find it a successfull choice? How do you think Sebastian would look in demon form?
Note: Dragonborns is a fictional race of humans with dragon-like head and body covered in dragon scales... but they miss the horns. I saw them in the MMORPG Neverwinter, set in the world of Forgotten Realms, that I used to play some years ago. I haven't met Dragonborns in a Forgotten Realms book yet (big fan of Drizzt Do'Urden here, if anyone knows), but I find the concept very intriguing!
I think that's all from me. Till next time! Bye!