Rosalie

I had lost track of what day and time it was by this point. I woke up when it was bright outside, and the sun was shining through the window. I first clocked Emmett sitting on the chair next to the bed which meant the school day was finished. I realized I wasn't restrained and reached out for him. He was reluctant to have me on his lap at first but I helped him move all the wires and tubes so I could. He was the only thing keeping me grounded, helping me feel safe.

"You okay?" He asked softly as I pressed my cheek into his chest. The coldness really helped.

I nodded. "I'm okay, I'm so confused with everything going on. I feel really stuffy and disorientated."

Emmett sat quietly for a few moments but rubbed soothing circles on the top of my hand. "Why don't we see about going for a walk?"

I liked the idea of going for a walk. I needed the fresh air, and it would also help me walk off some calories. I didn't even want to think about how much was going through the tube. I felt sick thinking about it. I felt so fat.

Emmett called for Alice who was just across the hall in her room. Emmett managed to disconnect me from the machines and wires and clamped my feeding tube. He then gave us some space so that I could get dressed.

Alice gave me a choice of a few outfits and it was nice to be able to get out of pajamas. My knees were deeply bruised from my fall, and they hurt when the clothing brushed over them. I hadn't looked in a mirror, but I knew that my cheek and my forehead were also bruised.

"Let me brush your hair?" Alice suggested. She spoke softly and I knew it was difficult for her to be so reserved. She always appeared quite bubbly and outgoing, but I think she was worried it would be too much for me.

I nodded and Alice got to work on my hair. I had had a quick shower with assistance from either Alice or Esme throughout my time here, but my hair was still quite matted and unruly. It felt nice to let Alice sort it out for me.

When we were done, Alice helped me downstairs where Emmett was waiting. It had taken a while for me to move down the steps as I was still quite unstable and shaky. My vision wasn't 100% and I was disorientated. Alice was really patient and kept a good grip on me in case I was to fall.

"Esme is going to come with us." Emmett started, encasing his arm around my waist. "She's got a wheelchair from the facility so we can use it if you feel you need it. We don't want you walking too far and putting too much stress on your body."

I didn't like the idea of having to use a wheelchair but hopefully I would be able to support myself long enough to walk.

We walked out of the back of the house and made our way around the perimeter. I was walking so slowly, and I felt bad that Esme and Emmett had to majorly slow down their pace to support me. Emmett kept his arm firmly around my waist and Esme was alongside me on the other side with the wheelchair. We got to a bench after walking for a few minutes and I sat down to catch my breath. I could feel my heart beating rapidly and my lungs were burning as they tried to get air.

Esme and Emmett sat on either side of me.

The facility that the family owned was in my vision now. I stared at it curiously – it was strange for them to have a treatment facility on their grounds.

Emmett followed my vision. "Esme and Carlisle came back and forth here for a long time to do the facility up ready for when we moved to Forks. A few of our old patients who don't live too far away come for outpatient treatment, but we currently don't have anyone who is inpatient. The facility used to be a lot bigger where we lived previously. I'm not sure it's something we are going to keep long term here. We are just keeping it as outpatient for now to run groups. It's too much to have a treatment facility on the same grounds that we live on, and with Carlisle's work full time at the hospital, it's not really needed."

"What will you do with it?" I asked. It would be a shame for the building to just be sitting there going to waste but I was liking the idea of it not being there so I wouldn't have to use it.

"I want to turn it into a little home away from home," Esme said, grasping my attention. "We have a large family, and it will be nice for people to use to have time to themselves and to get away. It gives everyone chance to be with their partners without everyone around. The facility isn't really needed here in Forks for now – the patients we have on file can actually carry out their treatment at the hospital."

I was confused by her statement about partners. I wasn't quite sure what she meant. "You mean you and Carlisle?"

Esme smiled, the amusement reaching her topaz eyes. "You see, Rosalie. Our family dynamics are slightly unusual. Our children are adopted, and they've developed romantic relationships with each other as they're not blood related…" She stopped to see if I was keeping up.

I was, but it did seem a little weird. "So…who's together?"

"Edward is dating Bella. Alice is with Jasper." Esme nodded as though she were clarifying this to herself.

"How do you all look related? Why do you all look the same?" I wasn't surprised by the news, but it was slightly confusing.

"The perks of modern adoption," Esme laughed. "You're able to match with children who have similar characteristics to yourself."

That made sense, but it seemed odd that they were all so similar. They all had the exact same unusual eye color and granite-like skin. You could've sworn that they were all biologically related, but then again Esme and Carlisle looked way too young to have five teenage children.

I didn't press the matter further. Trying to piece all the information together was too heavy for me in my disorientated state. I had never felt this weak in all my life and it felt like I would collapse at any given moment. I was starting to see that perhaps I was unwell to a point. I didn't feel like the feeding tube was necessary though because I was so fat and needed to be losing weight and not gaining. Mother wouldn't be happy when she saw me.

"Should we go back now?" Esme suggested - I think she could see that I was starting to struggle.

I nodded and stood up, trying not to get up too fast so that I didn't get dizzy. Esme was expecting me to get in the wheelchair, but I was adamant I wasn't going to need it. Having Emmett supporting me at the waist would be enough to keep me upright.

I managed to get all the way back into the living room of the house. Alice and Jasper were sat on the sofa watching TV, but she came to help when she saw me get to the stairs.

Alice walked up the stairs backwards, holding both my hands in hers as Emmett supported me from behind.

It felt like forever, but I made it the whole way and Alice helped me get settled back into Emmett's bedroom. When we got there, I didn't want to go to bed. The sight of it made me feel sick. I wanted to be with everyone else for a change, so it meant I needed to go back down the stairs. I asked Alice if I could go to bathroom. It was really annoying having to ask permission for things I used to be able to do myself.

Unfortunately, there wasn't any privacy now that I had pulled out my tube. Alice helped me sit on the toilet and then held both of my hands in hers. She did look away, so I had at least some privacy, but it still felt horrible.

When we were done, Emmett came back to help me walk back down the stairs. Thankfully I had burned some calories with all the walking, particularly the stairs, so that made me feel a little better.

Alice settled me onto the couch with a blanket and sat down next to me. My stomach was moving rapidly now as I was trying to force air into my lungs.

I didn't know why but it was so hard lately just to breathe. It was like my body was working against me to even do the simplest tasks.

"You okay?" Alice asked, placing a cold hand on my chest. I could feel the coolness through my thin t-shirt. I still couldn't pinpoint why the Cullen's always felt so cold.

I nodded but it was quite hard to breathe now. I was hoping it would settle now that I was sitting.

It felt like my temperature was rising as I tried to draw in breath. It was starting to panic me that I couldn't breathe properly, and I started to shake.

"Hey, you're okay." Alice placed her hand on my forehead, and I savored the coolness, but it was short-lived. She moved again to still my shaking hands. I hadn't realized it, but I had reached for the tube in my nose again. It felt like it was restricting my breathing even though I knew it wasn't.

Alice was gripping my hands tighter now. I was trying to focus but my vision was going black. I was so worried that I couldn't breathe.

Emmett appeared next to me on the couch and pulled me so that I was lying in his lap. My feet rested on Alice's knees, and she held tightly to my closed fists.

Edward came around the side of the couch and knelt on the floor in front of me. I didn't even realize he was home. He lifted my head up gently to secure an oxygen mask over my nose and mouth and I felt the flow of air instantly.

It knocked me for a second and I held my breath before the air forcibly went into my lungs. It felt easier to breathe but it was hurting. I still felt so panicked.

"The oxygen will work in a moment, Rosalie. Just work with it. You're okay, it's just your body trying to get use to the increased movement as you've been pretty immobile. Carlisle's at work so I'm just going to check everything is alright. Can I listen to your heart?"

I nodded and tried to listen to what Edward was telling me. I was feeling a lot calmer, but the breaths were still getting caught in my chest.

Edward moved my t-shirt slightly so he could slide the chest piece against my bare skin. I shivered involuntarily from the coldness of the metal. Edward apologized but spent some time listening to my chest.

It seemed like forever, but I started to settle. The oxygen was definitely helping.

My tense body started to relax, and I could feel Alice loosen her grip slightly on my hands.