Lynn
I walked back to the living room where the two women were talking. They stopped upon seeing me enter the room.
"Are you ok sweetie?" my mom asked me. I simply looked down trying to figure out how I was going to tell them what was on my mind.
"Ya. I'm fine. Um… I uh.I'm not exactly sure I-I-I wanna go through with this." I said keeping my eyes on the ground.
"What?! Lynn, what do you mean? Chelsea, please give us a minute." My mom said grabbing me by the arm and pulling me off to the entrance of
the house to get a moment of privacy. "Lynn, I thought you said you liked this place!"
"I-I do! It's just that, I don't know, thinking twice about this whole thing. Maybe I can raise my baby. I know I can do it!"
"Lynn this wasn't the deal." She told me in a hushed yell.
"I know, I know, but I started thinking, and I…I don't know! I just really think I should keep this baby! I know I should!"
"Lynn you don't know at all! Do you have any idea how hard it would be to raise a child on your own?! Especially being as young as you are?!"
"I know it will not be easy, but that doesn't mean that I can't at least try!"
"Well, there is no trying with this! Once you do it, you can't undo it!"
" I CAN'T JUST ABANDON MY CHILD! IF I GO THROUGH WITH THIS, IT WILL HAUNT ME THE REST OF MY LIFE! Mom, please." All of these words
came straight from my heart, and honestly, I didn't know I felt this way until I said it, but it was all true. After feeling that little movement in my
stomach, I knew I couldn't just give away this baby. I saw my mom sigh as she pinched the bridge of her nose. I simply looked down again holding
my hands behind my back.
"Lynn you are young, beautiful, and full of life. I don't want this to ruin your chance of getting with someone else or having a fun life like the rest of
your friends."
"What do you mean hold me back? Is that what you thought when you were having Lori?! No. This will not hold me back! If anything. This will bring
my life forward! And who said I wanted to get with someone else?!" I asked her. I was starting to get angry at her now. Why would she think such
things?!
"I was just being logical, and of course I didn't think these things with Lori! Look. Even if I said Ok, What would you father say? You know how hard
it was to get him to say yes to this arrangement, and now you don't even want to do it anymore."
"What if I can convince you guys that I can do this? Will you give me a chance then?" I asked with determination. My mother sighed at my
persistence.
"If you can prove that you are capable of doing this, and still be able to get school done, and pass with a good grade, along with your daily tasks,
Maybe, just maybe we will rethink our decision." She told me. I never felt such a relief in my life. I'm not exactly sure how I could prove this, but I
knew that I had to at that point.
3 Days Later
I was sitting at the table doing my homework for physics when mom came running into the living room.
"The baby is crying loudly in the crib! What do you do?!"
"Mom now's not the ti-"
"Well now is the time the baby is crying. Now, what do you do?"
"Well, I'd get up and grab the baby. I would then see why they are crying either its hunger, fear, or diaper." I told her. It has been 3 days since we
came back from Chelsea's house and mom and dad have been doing these types of tests on me 24/7. It was getting kinda annoying, but I couldn't
let it show if I wanted to keep the baby. I had already talked to Lincoln about keeping the baby, and we had a long and hard chat about if this was
the right decision. We both agreed it was, and from what I can tell by all these tests that mom and dad where doing on me, I was prepared too. Of
course being told situations and actually having a baby in the house where two different things, but I truly felt good about all this. Speaking of
which, I'm not exactly sure how mom convinced dad that this is what I want to do and to get on board, but I was happy that she did.
Lincoln
Lynn is now about 6 months pregnant, and she was showing. A lot. We had already told our siblings about her being pregnant but didn't tell them it
was mine just like we told mom and dad. Of course, Lucy already knew this, so she showed a fake shock to the news almost as to fool the rest of
our sisters. I know that they knew we were together, but we made sure they understood that the baby 'was not mine' so they didn't tell mom or dad
anything. I'm not going to lie, they didn't handle it in the best way, but it was better than the way mom and dad did. Anyway, things have changed
with Lynn. For instance, her back had been hurting a lot more, and now that the baby was moving a lot more, she'd often wake up in the middle of
the night saying that the baby was in her ribs. I tried my best to help her through it, but sometimes, I just didn't know how to. My solution to this
was just to hold her and cradle her until she'd fall asleep. That was honestly all I could do for her though, I wish I can do more. Getting off of that
topic, school has been pretty rough. With all the drama that has been going on, I found it extremely hard to focus on actual work. All I found myself
thinking about now was Lynn, the baby, how I'm going to be a father, how everything is going to work, and the list goes on and on. At least things
were easier now that Lynn and I faked a break up at school so people can stop teasing us. I'm also happy that she came up with the idea of wearing
a big oversized sweater to school to hide her stomach, which also stopped some teasing that could have occurred to her. I just don't want her
getting hurt, I mean, she is already going through a lot, I wouldn't want that to add up. Anyway, now I'm sitting in algebra, but of course, I can't
focus at all. This was one of the classes that I had with Clyde, but since we aren't really friends anymore, it didn't make a difference and I didn't
care. Except for this one time where I felt like he was looking at me with concern, but I Doubt it. I don't know anymore. I just want to get to lunch
and get this day over with so I can just get home. Luckily lunch was my next period. The time felt like it flew by because it was already next period.
I got up from my seat and sighed. I was extremely mentally drained and I didn't know how to handle it. I was just happy to get to lunch. As I
walked down the hallway, and to the lunch room, I felt a hand go on my shoulder. To my surprise, it was Clyde.
"Hey, Lincoln. Are you alright?" he asked me.
"Actually, no. I'm not. All I hear is people criticizing me for being with Lynn, and drama at home with everyone because Lynn is pregnant with my
baby now. And just to add the cherry on top, we are keeping the baby! Now I gotta figure out how we can make this work, and how we can provide
and live. Not just because we are having a baby, but because if we stay at home, we will go insane! But don't worry! I'm fine!" I said to him. Haha
just kidding. Ok, so this is what really happened. "Ya, I'm fine." Not as climatic though right.
"Alright, well you know if there is anything that is bothering you, you can always talk to me. We were once friends before; we can still be friends
now." He told me. I simply nodded, but that got me thinking. He stopped being friends with me because of something I did and he didn't really like
my choice and that was getting together with Lynn. If he wasn't going to be there for me through things that I need him to be there with me
because he simply doesn't agree with me, I don't want to be friends with him anymore. That's not what friendship is. Of course, I didn't tell him all
of that since I still wanted to be a nice and kind person. I wasn't the type of person to just lash out and speak my mind to people. I don't know, it's
weird. As I entered the cafeteria, I saw 'the Loud table' which is basically a table that all us Loud siblings sat at. Since our school was a charter
school starting at grade 6 to grade 12, almost all of us were there. I quickly went through the line, grabbed a chicken sandwich, and sat down next
to Lucy and Lynn. Even though we were 'broken up' according to school, we still sat next to each other, but no one suspected that we were still
together surprisingly. Simply that we were stuck together because we were siblings.
"Hey," I said
"Hey. How is school treating you so far?" Lynn asked me.
"Like crap, but hey what's new?" this caused her to sigh.
"Same here. I feel like 86% of my time here is in the bathroom, and I can't focus on shit anymore. Then whenever I do find myself focusing, it gets
interrupted by either a movement from the baby or needing to use the bathroom. *sigh*, I'm just so done Lincoln. I don't know anymore." When
she said this, it made me feel like a complete jerk for not putting her first and complaining so much.
"Aw, babe, I'm sorry! Damn, I wish we didn't have to come here every day! It's not even like we are learning anything anymore! All we do is sit in
our thoughts and honestly, I rather do that at home."
"Agreed!" she said with a silent laugh. We continued to eat our food, then left for our next classes. Only 3 more periods.
Lynn
I sat in the driver's seat of the car with determination, yet fear. Ever since I turned 16 four months ago, I have been trying to dedicate my time to
learning to drive. I wanted to be able to drive so badly, but every time I sat in that seat, I couldn't help but feel the fear of crashing or putting my
life, someone else's life, or even worse, my baby's life in danger. Today was the day that I was going to drive on the road for the first time. All this
time I have been practicing in parking lots and small empty streets. Now it was off to the real roads. My dad sat in the passenger's seat guiding me
and helping me. I started the car and reversed out of the driveway. I then changed the clutch back to drive and went forward. So far so good. I did
everything I needed to once I got on the road such as using a turn signal, using the break, and stopping at red lights. These things might sound like
something obvious and something not that big, but if you were under the pressure that I was under, it would have been very hard to remember
these simple little things and that's exactly how I was feeling. Luckily I was able to get through the road safely and the right way. I kept practicing
whenever I had time to spare. I'm about 1 month away from getting my license, so why not practice all I can?
It was now my favorite time of the day. Night. The one time of day where all my struggles slept, and I could have been with Lincoln. Before all you
dirty minded potatoes start talking, no it wasn't because we could have sex! Due to the pregnancy, my libido has been very low, and I wanted it to
stay that way. The reason I liked the night so much was because we talked about our hopes and dreams, our likes and dislike, our plans for the
future, and so on and so forth. It was the only time of the day where I felt I had control of my life. The only true time I had with him. Tonight, much
like every night, I was staying in his room due to all the pain I get in my back. I'm telling you, sometimes I felt like I couldn't even move! It's that
bad. Let's not forget about the baby being in my ribs thing. Ugh, that bothered me so much. But ya anyway, I laid on the inside of his bed as he
turned off the lights, and slide in with me. I then cuddled with him and put my head on his chest as he pulled me in close.
"Hey, Linc~"
"Ya?"
"What were your plans for the future?"
"Well… I guess to be happy and be with someone who really gets me and someone I genuinely want to be with. So that's still my plan, and it already
happened."
"Aw. Thanks but what I meant was what did you want to be? Where did you want to live? When did you want to move out? Things like that."
"Ummm… hmmm…. Well, I actually never looked into that. I never really thought of my career, but I do like to write, so if that gets me anywhere I
guess something to do with that. The place I would want to live would have to be… with you. Where ever you want whether its right here in Michigan
or all the way in Japan. And to move out, it would have to be as soon as possible!" he said with a chuckle at the end. "What about you?"
"I um….. Well for a career, I always thought that I'd wants to be an athlete. I'm not sure if that is going to stay the same due to… all of this but that
was my last goal. Like you, I've always wanted to be out the day I turn 18. Living here will honestly make you insane! But what I always knew is
that I wanted to live in New York"
"Really?! Oh wow, I never knew. Since when?"
"Um, I would say since I was 4 or 5 actually. I never told anyone though. I always loved the city life and the environment it gave off. I fell in love
with the idea of all the people there and all the noise that the city made. I love everything about it! I really do hope I can go one day!"
"Don't worry! I will make sure you do one day." He told me. I smiled and hugged him tightly.
"W-what about…." I said putting my hand on my stomach looking down at it. He looked down at my stomach then at my Face letting me know that
he understood. "We can start with the easiest. What will the name be?"
"That's the easiest?! Ok well, don't you think that we should at least know what the gender is first? We only have to wait 2 more weeks till we know."
"Well, it'll be good to know and at least get a general idea of what we want. Don't you think?"
"Yea I guess your right. Any names you had in mind?"
"Well hmmm…. Well for a girl I would say the names Ariel, Alissa, Caroline, and Lacy. Any of them that you like?"
"Lacy! I love Lacy!" This caused me to laugh a bit.
"Ok do you have any names for a girl?"
"Angela, Autumn, Cora, and Lacy"
"Lacy it is," I said with weirded expression. Those names where… well, no. This made him laugh.
"Ok and for a boy….?"
"Aiden, Levi, Jordan, and…..ummm… Nathaniel!"
"Ok I like Levi and Nathaniel but I'm leaning more towards Levi. I also like Dominic and Damon."
"How about Levi since we both like that one. I mean I also like Damon, but I really like Levi! Is that a name that you would want?"
"Ya I love it! Levi, it is! So if it is a girl, Lacy, and if it is a boy Levi. I like it!"
"So do I!"
A/N: What?! two chapters in one day?! yay! Suprise! Ok, so I don't really have anything to say since I pretty much said it all in the previous
chapter so I think that's it. Any grammar issues, spelling issues, or things just don't make sense, let me know. Also, let me know your suggestions
for future chapters, and let me know your thoughts in the reviews or just PM me. Also, I hope the spacing on this one is better since I know the
spacing on the last chapter was kind of weird. But um yea. Ok, Byeeeee!