Lynn
Sitting in my room with the door closed, I watched Lucy as she wrote in her notebook. I was lying on my bed sideways, just looking at her breathe and watching her concentrate. The pattern of her hand and stomach movements was somewhat soothing to me. It got my mind off of things for a bit. I still had yet to talk to Lincoln. I hadn't talked to him or even interacted with him since this morning. I feel bad though. I'm just all over the place. I still love him, but today, I just started to come to the realization of things. That's what happens. Randomly, I'll start thinking of things that I never thought about before and it's driving me crazy! I really want to apologies for snapping at him, but I don't want to go through the process of doing so. The whole "saying sorry" thing is annoying to me. Well not annoying but I just wish that I could avoid it and just skip to the part where all is well and forgiven and there is no need for any mushy apologies. You know?
"Uh, Lynn? Are you good?" Lucy asked me, breaking me from my train of thought.
"Yeah, why?"
"You have been staring at me for the past 15 minutes…"
"Sorry. I was just … zoning out I guess. Thinking."
"oh. Its fine. Hey, by any chance, have you talked to Leni?" she asked me.
"No. Worried about if she'll come for the holidays?"
"Not worried. More like curious. I wonder what it'll be like without her. Well that's assuming that she stays in Rhode Island."
"Most likely considering it's a far trip and since she already has friends and all that stuff up there." I tell her.
"Hey, do me a favor and hang out with me this break. I don't want to be left with Lori. At all." She cringed.
"Trust me, I don't either, but I can't promise the whole break. With the baby coming any day now, I won't have time to do much anymore."
"Let me come with you to all your super important things! Please!"
"Okay, just know that they are really early and not fun. Why don't you hang out with your friends?"
"Ill try, but I don't know if I can."
"Well I don't mind taking you with me, but just know what I'll be doing, again, isn't fun."
"Ok, thank you!" she finalized.
I soon got up from my bed and made my way to Lincoln's room. I normally just walk straight in, but this time, I knocked. When he opened the door, he seemed confused to see me. Did I really shake him that much with what I said?
Lincoln
"Hey… can I come in?" Lynn asked me.
"Uh… yeah." I say , making room for her to pass. She sat on my bed and I closed the door. "What's up?" I asked, sitting beside her.
"I'm sorry… about earlier. I didn't mean to snap. I was thinking about somethings and I just … I don't know. It was hard to be around you at the moment. I didn't mean to ignore you the whole day."
I sigh at this. "Don't worry it. What were you thinking about?"
"Uh… I don't know if it's okay to talk about… with you."
"What do you mean? Is it something really bad? You know you can tell me anything!" I told her laughing it off. She laughed a bit but still looked some what serious.
"Yeah… kinda sorta." She told me. Was it really that bad? I'm really hoping that she's just over exaggerating. To ease the tension, I held her cheek and kissed her gently, receiving her kiss back.
"You can tell me." I say softy, still holding her face in my hands. She sighed and moved my hands away from her face—allowing me to grab her hands instead.
"I was just thinking about us… as in our… last name."
"Our last name?"
"Our blood relationship… it's… wrong…"
"Oh….? Lynn, not to be cold, but I thought we've been over this. Many, MANY times. When we first started dating?"
"I know, but things are starting to spiral up again! I've been thinking of things that I've never thought of before a-and I don't know why! I know I love you, God, I love you so much, but these thoughts are making me realize and look at things in a way I never have!... I'm sorry!"
"So just to be 100% clear here, it has NOTHING to do with the fact that David was there, right?" I asked, envy taking over every part of me.
"Hold up just a second… you think I wanna be with David now?!" She angrily asked back.
"I'm not the one who said it!"
"Well you sure as hell suggested it!" She crosses her arms.
"Look Lynn, all I know is everything was fine between us, you walk away, tell me NOT to come, then when I do go, I see you and David together and you're yelling at me to stay away?! What the hell even is that?! Then you go on telling him thank you for something that happened earlier?! But you know what? I didn't ask what happened earlier because I figured that if it mattered and if it was something important, you would have told me, like I would have done for you! Maybe I should have asked what happened! Maybe then I'd actually get some answers!" I expressed, furiously.
"Are you saying that David and I did something prior to you coming over Lincoln because if you are, you're really fucked up for that because not only am I carrying OUR kid, but you also know how I feel about him! You damn well know that I've been losing friends left and right and for ONCE in my life, I feel someone choose to be my friend, not for my athletic ability, but for my actual fucking personality. David is one of the only people I can be myself around and who I know has my back and you wanna confuse that for us fucking?!" She revolted.
"I never fucking said that!"
"Then what is it that you're saying?! Hm?! 'Cause that's all I'm hearing from ya!" She spat out.
"That's the thing about you that'll NEVER change no matter how much you age! You love to put words in people's mouths!" I fumed.
"Well you know what?! You love to give unclear answers! How 'bout that?! So what is it?! What is it that you thought happened?!"
"I don't know what happened! But you don't realize how much I worry about losing you!" I argued back, the slightest hint of concern in my voice.
"You WON'T lose me! Why would you think that?!" She asked, offended.
"Well you ignored me all day today because you started thinking of our blood relationship AFTER you hung out with David!" I began again.
"And I apologized! I didn't mean to! I realized I was wrong! And you wanna know why David was there since you can't seem to stop mentioning it?! He saved me, okay?!"
"What do you mean?" I questioned, calming down a bit.
"That bitch Alyssa came for me today and arm locked me so hard, I thought she might of tried to break it! David came and scared her off. You know I hate people saving me from shit like that, but I was… helpless. I needed his help. THAT'S why I thanked him. There, happy?!"
"Why didn't you tell me?" I questioned regretfully.
"Because I was uncomfortable with your presence! I didn't want to be around you! I told you this already! But I'm good now! Or should I not be? Are we gonna keep fighting like this or come to our senses?" She questioned, arms still crossed.
"No… there's nothing to fight about. I'm sorry I got… a bit jealous…" I sighed in defeat.
"No, I'm sorry I started acting weird all of the sudden." She softened.
"It's cool… it wasn't your fault."
"So… are we good?" Lynn asked.
"Yeah, we're good." I answered back. We then hugged, me holding her a little tighter than usual. I don't like fighting with her. I don't like talking to her that way. I love her and never want to hurt her. I truly do feel sorry. Now, does she? Knowing her, yeah. She wouldn't hug me if she wasn't. Her feistiness can be adored at times though. It made her… her. Our hug was a symbol to us that we truly were good. After every fight, we hug, and through knowing each other for the amount of years we have, we could tell when tension was still in the air. You could say it was like a super power. Either way, things actually were good between us.A/N: Hi! Chapter 21, literally posted an hour after chapter 20! Merry Chrysler! I was in the middle of rereading this though, just a few minutes ago and realized "Lincoln is actually a simp!" And knew I had to fix it right away haha. The old way this was written actually really sucked, so I tried to fix it and I think it sounds better this way tbh! Hope y'all like it! Also, were you expecting a "strong language" Asterisk? Haha... y'all should know me by now. Anyways...