Luna

It's 6:30 am and I'm tip-toeing into my house, and let me tell you, keys are always the loudest when sneaking in. Once I'm finally in, I cautiously make my way upstairs and into my room. I close the door behind me, but as I turn around, instead of seeing a room dimly lit by the morning's sunrise, peacefully quiet, featuring the soft sounds of my sisters' paced breathing, I see Luan standing in the middle of the room, arms across her chest, waiting for me. I freeze upon seeing her.

"H-hey Luan! My favorite sister! What are you doing here?" I ask with a nervous smile, though I can tell I have a terrible poker face.

"This is my room." She blandly spats.

"Of course, it is! The room in which we share! The room we've shared since we were kids—"

"Luna, what are you doing? This is like, the 4th time this week that you've snuck home at this time. You used to tell me everything! What is going on?!" She asked with a look that appeared to be more disappointed than mad. I sigh and untense.

"Look, I'm sorry I haven't been upfront with you. It's just… some things are private…"

"Private? Okay, so you won't tell me? How about I guess, hmm? Let's see, a few days into talking to this new mysterious guy, what was his name? Tristian? Chris?"

"…Christian…"

"Christian. And now you come home disheveled after being gone for days at a time at the blissful hour of 5-6 in the morning? Hmmm, what could possibly be going on? I'm not stupid Luna, I can see what's going on, but I'm your sister and I worry for you! I can only hope you are being safe and fully understand the consequences which can follow your actions! You barely know him on top of that!" she expresses with a bit of pain in her voice. I look down, a bit ashamed. "I get the excitement, I really do, but look where that put Lynn and Lincoln. I just hope you're being smart about this." She sighed.

"I am, I swear! Nothing will happen! It's just a few one-night stands! Nothing unheard of!"

"Okayyyy if you say so, Luna."

The only problem seemed to be that I sorta kinda really liked him and I could feel myself falling for him, but I don't think he feels the same way. The way things are now works, but I want more.

Lynn

It's a warm day. The sun was shining with a slight breeze- the perfect weather for an April day! I decided it would be good to take Lacy out for a walk, so that one, Id get moving again, and two, so we could both get some fresh air! It feels like I've been stuck inside this damn house forever! It was noon and Lincoln was still at school, so it was just her and I for now. I made sure to feed her, then dress her in something fresh yet cute for the 80-degree weather. Getting her stroller, I make it out the door and decided to go around the neighborhood. I inhale a deep breath and endorse in the sunlight bouncing off of my skin. I used to maintain a tan as I was always outside, but now? I look like Lucy! It feels good to get out! I missed the sun and the outdoors more than I had realized. It made me want to run or swim or play something! God, how I'd love to play a baseball game or football game again! Maybe one day~

I'm on my bed with my laptop in front of me as I do my schoolwork. Lucy is sitting on the floor playing with Lacy as she lays on her bouncer.

"Is that your hand? Yeah? Wow so yummy! Num num num!" she cooed, to which Lacy babbled back. Her favorite hobby as of lately included staring and trying to mimic what was said to her. Her little noises make me giggle every time! It's hard to focus as I love to admire her and watch as they play!

Just as she starts to whine a bit and wiggle in discomfort, Lincoln walks in from work, as if right on cue!

"Perfect! You're here! I think someone left you a present in her diaper!" I bubbled as he walked into our room and leaned down to greet me with a kiss.

"Mmm! Lovely! Alright, come here my pretty girl! Oh, how stinky you are Lacy! Yes? Yes!" he beamed as he lifted her from the bouncer. She just stared and smiled at her dad.

After changing her, he showers her belly and face with kisses, making her squeal and kick her little feet. This makes me laugh as I try to join in on the fun!

"Oh, my goodness! So giggly for Daddy huh?!" I coo, her eyes immediately meeting mine. Her feet kick rapidly together, showing her excitement!

"She's ALWAYS giggly!" he laughed.

"God, she's so perfect! We made that." I softly smile, looking down at my daughter, who was grabbing her feet.

"Yeah, we did." He swooned back, also admiring her.

Luna

"Hey, um… I was wondering if we could go out today… maybe?" I suggested softly, touching his arm.

"Huh? Um…" he replied, still looking at his phone, typing away. We lay in his bed, the shade shut and lights out- clothes off. This had become something regular as of the past month. I'd go over to his place, we'd fuck, and I'd leave. Maybe, just maybe, I could convince Christian to do more with me, just this once.

"Soooo…"

"Oh. Sorry. Ummm… no. Not today." He finalized, scrolling through his phone.

"Why not though?" I whined.

"I have other plans today."

"Like…. What?"

"Like… stuff, okay?" He said imitating me.

"But maybe I can come along-"

"No! You had your time with me! Don't you think you should be heading home now?" He huffed, slamming his phone down.

"I just thought…"

"Luna, we aren't dating. You always do this. If you're gonna keep on persisting, we can call an end to this!"

"No! It's fine! I get it… I'm just gonna start going…"

"Yeah, okay." He finished, getting up from the bed and walking to the bathroom. I can feel tears welling up in my eyes. I hated when he spoke to me like this. I quickly grab my things, dress, and leave his apartment. I stood outside and sighed an exasperated sigh, catching my breath before I breakdown. I loved him. I wanted him to be mine! He didn't want me back though. And I didn't want to lose him completely. So I guess this was okay and fine for now…

April 25th, 2016

"Luan…"

"Yeah, what's up?" she perked her head out from her bottom bunk.

"What's the latest you've ever been…?" I ask timidly.

"Latest? Latest on what?" she asks confused.

"…Your period…" I barely utter.

"Luna."

"…Im just curious…"

"LUNA!"

"I'm just asking a—"

"Luna no FUCKING way you are asking me this! How late are you?!" she fumed. This only made me feel smaller than I already did. I just wanted the earth to swallow me whole right then and there.

"…Um…"

"How. Late?!"

"…A month…" I shook. She stares at me, steps out of her bunk, and stands to face me. She puts her hands together in front of her face and takes in a deep and long breath with her eyes closed.

"Luna. What Is the first thing I told you when you started this whole thing with Christian?" she calmly asked, eyes still closed.

"I know but I-"

"WHAT IS THE FIRST GODDAMN THING I FUCKING TOLD YOU?!" She yelled, eyes shooting open. Tears were now falling down my cheeks rapidly.

"To be careful…" I choke.

"TO BE SAFE AND CAREFUL!"

"Okay, but it could also just be stress! Im in the middle of my finals for school and all of the stress could be causing the delay!"

"Okay, and if it isn't? What happens then?"

"… I don't know…"

"Come on." She maintained.

"Come on where?" I swallowed hard.

"Come on, we are going to get you a pregnancy test! NOW!" she barked. I got out of bed in an instant with no further questions and followed her out of the house.

This is nothing. This is nothing. This is nothing. This is nothing. I kept repeating to myself. My head pounded and my heart ached. This can't be real!

At home, I hyperventilate in the bathroom, trying to find the courage to piss on the little stick in my hands. How did Lynn ever do this at 15?!

I wait. I think. I panic. I wait some more. I panic again. I check the test.

Lynn

I hear a small knock on my door. I check my phone to see it's just after 12:30 am. Lincoln and I exchange looks. He gets up to check the door to see Luna standing there with her head down and her hands fidgeting in front of her.

"Luna?"

"Hey, Linc… can I speak to Lynn…" she muttered.

"Are you okay Luna?" I ask, getting up from bed and walking to the door.

"No… not really. I need your help…"

"Okay… come in…" I say, giving her space to walk in. She looked incredibly pale and nervous- it scared me! She quickly stepped in and Lincoln closed the door behind her. "Just not too loud to not wake Lacy."

"Okay… um… how… how did you react when you found out you were pregnant?" She croaked.

"Um… well… I was scared."

"She came running into my room and sobbed on my shoulders, telling me, to which I had a panic attack to." Lincoln chimed in. I crossed my arms and glared at him.

"I don't remember all that!"

"Well, I do! It took hours to calm you down!"

"Okay well, like I said! I was terrified! But here I am now, with my beautiful daughter, and you!" I rolled my eyes. Luna stayed picking at her thumb.

"How did you decide what to do next though…" She murmured. This made Lincoln and I look at each other in concern.

"Luna… why are you asking this… are you…" I questioned in concern, inching towards her. At once, she fell to the ground and covered her mouth, crying in anguish. Lincoln and I ran to each one of her sides and hugged her tightly.

"I didn't think this would ever happen! This wasn't the plan! How could I have been so stupid?! And with HIM too!" she sobbed.

"Who?" Lincoln asked.

"Christian! This guy I've been hooking up with! He doesn't even like me and now I'm… I'm…" She couldn't say it. She kept getting choked up and bursting out again.

"I know this is so scary right now Luna! I know you feel so so guilty and angry at yourself, but we are here for you! I'm so sorry this happened this way! But don't feel pressured to make a decision right away!" I started, hugging her tightly.

"Yeah! It took a while before we fully decided to keep Lacy!" Lincoln added.

"You're the one who went through teen pregnancy though! Not me! I wasn't supposed to be like this! I wasn't gonna end up like you!" she wailed.

"I know, I know. This was unexpected. It's okay love! It's gonna be okay! Just breathe! We're gonna help you! We got you!" I hush. She stayed crying on the floor as we held her close. Oh boy… here we go again…