Luna

Luan had driven me to his house. I had to tell him. Even if he got mad and he wanted to end things. He had to know. I take a deep breath before I open the car door and slam it behind me, trudging to his door. I knock three times. No answer. I knock again. Nothing. I lift the mat to find a spare key and open the door. Walking into his living room, where I see Christian on top of some girl, doing what I thought was ours. I stood there. Speechless.

"LUNA?! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU—"

I don't let him finish. I just ran out. Of course he didn't love me! How could he ever feel anything towards me other than lust?! I was just one of his hoes! That's all I'd ever be! I ran to the van and get in.

"Hey did you-"

"JUST DRIVE!" I scream, angry tears flooding my eyes. She does as told and drives home. At home, we go inside and I run to my room and slam the door. I screamed louder than I ever have in my pillow and punch my bed. My violent tears soak my sheets as I scream.

"Luna… what happened…" Luan asked, horrified.

"I mean absolutely NOTHING to that son of a bitch! I was nothing more than a FUCK TOY to him! He doesn't deserve to know SHIT! He's DEAD to me! I just can't believe I fell for it!" I scream.

"Oh hon…" she sympathizes and climbs up on my bed. I scurry to her arms and cry on her shoulders. She holds me tightly. Great. Not only am I pregnant and 18, but I'm pregnant and 18 and completely alone.

Lola

"7 times 5?" Ms. April asks.

"35" Anna answers.

"7 times 6"

"42" replies Peter on his turn.

"7 times 7," she asks me. All eyes turn to face me.

"Um… 50?" I hesitate. The class begins to roar in laughter, and I turn red, trying to hide behind my hands and scoot down in my seat.

"No LOLA! What is 7 times 7 class?"

"49!" They all shout in unison.

"Exactly. 49. Lola, we've been over this! Memorize your times' tables!"

"I was close…" I mummer, looking away from her gaze.

"Close? Close?! Lola, this is multiplication! Close doesn't cut it! It must be exact! They will not take this from you in 5th grade! This is review and you're STILL getting it wrong!"

"…I'm sorry Ms. April…" I tear up, embarrassed.

"No tears! You won't be manipulating me today! Let's continue. Justin, 7 times 8?"

"56!"

"7 times 9~" her words fade out as I'm lost in my thoughts. I am just a stupid blonde who only cares about pageants and beauty. I will never be anything more… Lori was right. I'm such an idiot…

When class is over, I Speed walk to the pick-up area, avoiding everyone. That didn't help though. I still got stopped by Justin and his friends.
"UH! uM! fIFTY?! What an idiot!" he laughs, passing and bumping into me. "Oh sorry! Didn't see you there! It was almost as if you were completely… invisible" He hissed with a snicker. Here come the tears again. "Wow! What a crybaby! No wonder no one likes you anymore! At least before you had SOME umph to you!" he laughed as they all walked away. What happened to me? Why am I such a… waste of space?

"HEY, LOLES!" Lana shouts, throwing herself at my back from behind me. I stumbled and nearly fell.

"Lana! What the hell?!"

"Hey, I'm sorry! Don't need to take life so seriously sis!" she jokes. I just humph and turn my back to her. "Oh Lola, why are you always so grumpy now? You're like a mini-Lori!" she teases. I freeze in my tracks and my eyes open wide. I can feel a single tear run down my cheek as I turn to face her.

"don't you EVER again compare me to that BITCH! I am NOTHING like her! You are just SOOO ignorant Lana! Can't even see what's happening and going on right in front of your face!" I yelled back, shoving her.

"Stop Cussing! Now you REALLY sound like her! And don't call me ignorant! It's not my fault you got so sensitive all of a sudden! God, sometimes it's so hard to believe you're my TWIN sister!" She huffed, pushing my back, and walking away completely.

"At least we agree on one thing, huh?!" I yell back at her. She continues to walk. UGH! Her blindness to things happening in her own house agitates me so much! How is she not seeing the problems and toxicity of it all?!

At home, I go straight to my bed and hide under the covers. I want to stay here forever. I never want to see these people or anyone ever again and I just wanna sleep forever!

"Lola…" She starts, poking at my side. I stay silent, not moving a muscle. "Lola, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you…" she mumbled.

"You're sorry for pushing me? that's it? Just the pushing part?" I growl, raising from my bed.

"I mean… yeah! Isn't that why you're upset right now?"

"Yes, Lana. I'm upset and in bed, because you shoved me. Not at all because of you comparing me to Lori, or the kids in school, or Lori herself. You figured it out!" I fumed. There's no way she's THIS dumb.

"Kids at school? What do you mean?"

"It's nothing. Never mind. Don't worry about it. You're forgiven for pushing me. Now please go away." I lower again under my sheets.

"Lola, I want you to be able to tell me things. You say I'm ignorant, but you withdraw and keep things from me! How am I supposed to know things if you don't tell me anything?"

"By looking around you! You call me sensitive but see nothing that is happening to me! It's whatever! Don't even worry about it! I can handle myself! It's been like that for a while anyways! I'm growing used to it. Now leave me be!" I snap. I soon hear her feet shuffle away from my bed and tears drip down slowly from my puffy eyes once again. I'm going to die alone in this house.

A/N: I'm back from the dead, and I intend on FINISHING this story! I am following the plan I had made all of those years ago when I first started writing this. I'm SO sorry I've had you waiting so long for these chapters! Its crazy to think I started writing this in 2017! Keep in mind that I am gonna be jumping in time a lot to get to the end. Again, everything that I will be writing is all according to the plan I had made years ago. I'm excited to be back!