I have not abandoned this story I promise. I went on Holiday as I had let you all know then life came crashing down. I broke my dominant hand and while I was working on getting it to 100%, I lost my dad He was 53 and I always thought he was invincible. It was a shock as he was fine the day before no signs of anything, as most know heart attacks are sudden and he was working and being the dad, I know just 12 hours before I got the news. This was the first time I've lost anyone this close to me and my brother and I are next of kin and his family live out of state.
My brother and I are trying but the last months have been really hard it was a lot and we didn't know what we were doing and didn't want to do it either. We wanted it to be a horrible joke. it took us too long to get things settled.
So with that, I've been going through a tough time with getting my wrist better, figuring out everything with my father, and grieving with my brother while also dealing with a new job. the last year has been hard. I have some of this ready to post I did work on it last year but I want to write and finish.
My dad knew I wrote fanfic he thought it was cool and would tell people how creative I was. He was proud of everything I did. heck, he bought me my Twilight books and Harry Potter, he got me into my favorite books. My mom loves me but she was more work-oriented and never was a big dreamer she would get me a book if I asked but she didn't understand. I will miss my dad always and I hope to be as loving, caring, and strong as he was.
I will try to post some chapters by Sunday. I'm finally just getting to my emails and back to feeling up to write and up for writing a light and love story and not anything sad. I was trying to save you all from my heartbreak.
So this is for my dad I'll continue and, for him, My first post in so long will be today what should have been his 54th Birthday.
Happy Birthday, DAD I love you and miss you every day.
When I saw Jessica at school acting quiet and not her usual self I knew she had asked Mike and that idiot still had told her he'd think about it.
Today was meant to be the day Edward first spoke to me in the dream.
I smirked as I looked at Edward from my seat at the cafeteria and he looked at Mike three tables to the right with a frown.
"Something upsetting you?" I asked having a good idea what it is.
"No. So the dance that's coming up you weren't planning on going?"
I shrugged. "Why?"
"no reason I was just inquiring. I heard Angela wanted you to all go in a group," he said looking at me.
"Yes, that could be fun. I'm going with them dress shopping next week."
"Oh, and you're not planning to ask anyone..."
"Well, I did want to ask someone but well I don't think they'd go with me so." I was trying to keep my voice even though I knew I was messing with him as he would never think I was talking about him.
"Well, that would be his loss though I doubt if you asked any boy at this school, they would say no."
I looked at him with a raised brow then flicked my eyes to his table I caught the eye of Alice and then winked.
"Oh um yeah so what if I didn't want to ask any boy?"
I looked at him from under my lashes.
He at first blinked then his face went from shocked to uneasy.
"oh oh." His shoulders seemed to slouch and he had a hurt in his eyes I could just see.
I didn't understand what was wrong at first then remembered that he too was never sure of my feelings.
"I um I'm sure a girl would go with you as well."
I was frozen at first I'm sure I looked shocked he thought I meant...
I burst out laughing.
"Your face gods Edward you looked as if I killed your puppy. I'm not into girls. No just that not. I laughed and tried to take breaths in between " Not into girls but I won't lie Rosalie could have any girl thinking about it, you have to admit she's beautiful." I smiled at him.
"You're beautiful." He insisted.
"Thanks." I looked at him for a bit not sure what I was waiting for then sighed and looked to Alice again she frowned and rolled her eyes. "Well so to answer no again not going. I'm not sure going to this dance is a good idea."
I had thought about it and if for any reason James and Victora smell the Cullens and become curious it would be dangerous for them to see them with humans or just to come to them.
The field was looking like the best place. Edward had said they had been wondering about them. They had hunted the way they had toward the end purposely trying to lure them to confront them. James had been hoping for a fight.
I don't think they would leave without checking in on them.
It's the way he was. James would start a fight with any vampire or human to get a good fight or hunt out of them.
He was psychotic and bored with his existence so he needed to do something to excite him.
Edward had gotten a lot from his and Victoria's minds before their end.
"We should go before we are late for class," Edward said. I looked around and was almost the only one left in the cafeteria.
As We walked to biology I started to get flashes.
I remember Mike was nervous and then started by saying Jess had asked him to the dance.
I faked enthusiasm and he didn't get the hint even with me being upset he told her he would think about it.
He was just so blind. Then again it could just be the male population they honestly can't take a hint.
Tyler was stupid I don't wish to be mean but how could he think I would go to prom with him if I had been with Edward for almost 2 months before Prom?
I sat at my table and Edward of course was seated already.
I rolled my eyes he never liked to miss a chance to see my embarrassing moments.
"So." Mike started. "Jess Asked me to the Dance."
"Yeah, that's great" I smiled. "I'm glad," I said.
"You? You are?" He looked confused.
"Well yeah I think you two would look good together, You will have so much fun taking pictures for me okay."
"Wait what you're not going?"
"Oh no, I'm going to Seattle," I said.
"Can't you go another time?" Mike looked upset.
"No, I'm going to Seattle," I said it slower like he was a dense child.
"Oh," He sighed "I well I hadn't said yes to Jess."
"What why not? You said no?" I tried to sound upset and question him.
"I told her I would think about it well I thought maybe you would ask me."
"Mike that's rude you don't leave a girl waiting. That's a woman's job." I huffed. Here it goes you can do this Bella tells him straight out. "Sorry, Mike I see you as only a friend I just don't feel anything with you."
"Well maybe if we went out you could..."
I cut him off I was starting to get a headache "No, you just aren't my type." Okay, that was blunt it had to work.
I hope that wasn't too harsh.
"Have you found your type?" I know Edward saw like me that Mike's eyes flickered to him.
The teacher came in then to save me from answering.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
I saw Edward looking at me from the corner of my eyes.
He had a bit of a smirk on his face.
In Gym Mike didn't try to get on my team like usual and I wasn't too disappointed they had all learned not to pass me a ball or involve me in anything unless they wished to get hurt or wanted me sent to the nurse.
When class ended I headed to my truck I was prepared to see Eric and was surprised and relieved to see that he was standing by my truck.
I smiled.
Well, at least its one less admirer.
However, he wasn't a real problem after I turned him down for this dance.
I bit my lip.
I should hurry and leave I hope Tyler isn't interested but if I left now I could avoid finding out.
I hopped in the cab of the truck turning the truck on not waiting to heat up I put it in revears.
I growled in irritation as I was trapped behind Cullen.
"You cant be serious!" I said as I tried to get a look at him in his rear mirror. He honestly was doing this to me again! Of course, he doesn't know this happened before.
I groaned
Of course, their was a knock on my window.
I rolled it down just enough to talk.
"Tyler." I huffed.
I was not going to act nice.
"Hey Bella I'm glad I caught you."
"Yeah?" I said as I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Yes." He coughed and smiled "So will you ask me to the dance?"
"No," I did it I said flat-out no.
"No?" He looked to me."Well, I heard from Mike that you had plans but maybe we could hang out you know I could take you to dinner before anywhere you want and..."
"No thanks, I have plans I don't want to cancel."
"Okay well, I get it you have an obligation. So we still have Prom."
He was about to walk away.
"No No Tyler I said No as In, I'm not into you, so no to the dance no to dinner or a movie, and no to Prom."
I was irritated now and really mad I wanted to avoid this I should have known I couldn't.
"Good day, Tyler."
I said as I rolled up the window and then glared as I caught Edward's eyes in the mirror.
I groaned in annoyances of the day and just of everything.
"Stupid Volvo owner," I said and he had that cress between his eyes I knew he was confused and trying to read me.
His siblings got in the car finally and he drove off.
