Six Months Earlier-Part 1

Tara was in the room packing her and Jax's bags. They finally had a chance to get out of Charming and away from all the shit that has been a danger to her first when Jax got out of Stockton after being in for 14 months. He was telling her that he was done with Samcro and he was gonna take her and their boys out of Charming. At first Tara had her doubts and well she still does. She knows deep down Jax loves the club and in a way she does too. Tara has embraced the guys and they have all treated her like a family. They were her family. But Tara and Jax deserve a normal life and so do their sons. Or at least that's what Tara had thought.

After Tara got Jax's bags packed she walked over the drawers and opened up the top drawer. The moment she got the drawers open and saw the letters staring back at her. Tara exhales deeply as she closed her eyes for a moment. Ever since Tara read the letters and found out the truth about John Teller and what really happened to him. She's been keeping her distance from Clay and Gemma. What's even worse she's been keeping the truth from Jax. Tara's thoughts was intrupted when she heard the sound of Jax's Dyna pulling up into the driveway. Tara sighs deeply as she quickly closed the drawer as she heard Jax walking through the front door. She then grabbed Abel's and Thomas's suitcases and started to pack them. When Jax came walking into the room.

Jax took off his hat and set it on top of the dresser as he walked over to Tara. Standing next to her watching her pack he couldn't help but grin."For using one hand. You manage to get them all packed."He said as he teased her for a moment.

Tara zipped up the last suitcase. Tara looks over at him as she scoffed." Yeah well with a crush hand I gotta work with I got."She said as she sat down on the edge of the bed. She started to look around the room. The room she had shared with Jax for the last few years. The room she is about to leave behind in couple of hours. When her eyes landed on the drawers she sighs softly as she quickly look over at Jax." Did you talk to the guys yet?"She asked him. Jax then shook his head.

"Never got the chance to. I been at St. Thomas since last night." He said as he looked back at her as he lean against the dresser.

Tara arched her brow as she shook her head."Why? What happened?" She asked him as she got up and walked over to him. "Did something happened to you? Gemma?"She asked with concern. Gemma isn't really Tara's favorite person right now. But Tara didn't want Gemma hurt either.

Jax then shook his head." I am fine. Gemma's fine. It's Clay." He said as he stared into Tara's green eyes. The eyes of warmth and softness. The eyes he could completely get lost in. The eyes of the woman standing in front of him. The woman he loves more then anything. The woman he's leaving the club. The life and Charming for. The woman he's about to start a,new life with. " He was shot last night. He ruptured an lung. He's in critical condition."

Tara was lost for words as she tried to wrap the fact Clay Morrow was shot around her head." Who... Who was it Jax?"She asked as she wanted to know the answer but wasn't sure if she should know.

"Opie."

Tara brought her brows closer together."Opie? Why...?" She asked as she shook her head she was trying to wrap her head around it,

Jax sighs deeply as he ran his hands over his face as the memory of watching Piney being cremated 24 hours ago playing in his head."He found out Clay was the one who killed Piney."

Tara eyes shot up as she back away from Jax and started to walk around the room for a moment as she was taking everything Jax just said all in. She stopped for a moment as she closed her eyes and exhaled then turned around and faced Jax again." Did Opie said why Clay killed him?"She asked.

"That's what we are trying to figure out. Opie went up to the cabin and found Piney. Unser must of followed him up there. He was the one who told Opie that Clay was the one who killed him. Clay made it look at it was an Cartel hit."He said

Jax arched up his brow while he watched Tara pacing back and forth across the room." Tara what is it? Do you know something?"He asked as he was starting to get worried.

Tara then suddenly stopped pacing. She slowly nods her head. She could feel the words she so desperately trying to avoid creeping up her throat. She could feel the pit of her stomach turning. She knew one day they were gonna have this conversation. She was just hoping it didn't have to be now." Yeah I do know something... and I think I know why Clay killed Piney." She said as she sighs deeply as she sat back down." This is gonna be so hard... She took another deep breath as she exhaled slowly." After the feds took you and the guys in and after dropping off Abel at your moms. I did some laundry that night. I saw your duffel bag still sitting by the day bed in Abel's room. Jax while I was cleaning it out. I found letters in your bag." She said looking back at looking back at him.

Jax raised his eyebrows as he shook his head." What you talking about?What letters?" He asked as he was trying to make sense in all of she was telling him didn't make any sense to him right now,With Piney dead and Clay laying in an hospital bed his head was in an fog right now.

Tara sighs as she rubbed the bridge of her nose. She wanted to kick herself for telling Jax now but there was no turning back at this point. She sighs softly before continuing.

"Letters John wrote to Maureen Ashby. She must have put them in your bag before you left Belfast. "She said as she nods over at the dresser. They are in the top Drawer."

Jax pushed off from the dresser and turn to open the drawer. He slowly pulled out stack of letters. He then turn to face Tara as he shook his head once again."Why would Maureen give these to me?"He asked.

Tara then slowly got up and walked over to Jax."She wanted you to know the truth about your father. Truth about what really happened."She said as she placed her hand over the letters."You need to read them Jax. You need to learn the truth."She said when she slowly leans up and kisses him softly."I will be in the looked back at him for a moment and left the room so he can read them on his own. Walking into the kitchen Tara walked over to the coffee pot and poured herself a cup. Taking a sip of her coffee she sat down at the kitchen table as she exhales deeply,She knew telling Jax the truth and showing him the letters was the right thing to do.

Jax opened up the first letter once he sat down on the bed and lean back against the headboard after he lit his cigarette and took a long drag from it. He started to read the first letter. For years since his father died Jax was told he was killed by an Semi Truck after he laid his bike down out on the 580. Everyone including his own mother told him his father's death was caused by suicide. They said John took his own life. But now reading these letters tells him differently. These letters tells Jax that his father was killed by the hands of Clay Morrow. Jax's jaw harden as he finished the last letter. Every life loss. Donna. His father and now Piney. All because of Clay. Jax folded the letters and placed them in the drawer of the night stand as he got up and walked out into the room. He then threw his hands into his pockets as he looked over at Tara as she walked out of the kitchen." Why didn't you tell me about the letters?" He asked seriously.

Tara set her cup down as she sighs softly."I wanted to. But you just gotten out of prison after 14 months. You just asked me to marry you and then you were talking about how you were done with Samcro and you wanted us to leave Charming so we can finally be a real family. The letters didn't seem important."She said as she shook her head."I am so sorry baby."She said looking at him.

"How did Piney know about them?" He asked.

"Few months after I read them. I went to see Piney and told him that John wrote some letters to Maureen Ashby. About how he feared Clay. Jax your father knew he was gonna die and it was gonna be at the hands of Clay." Jax nods his head for a,moment." Did Piney read them?" He asked again. "no."She said shaking her head. I only told him about them. Gemma found out about the letters. She found a note in Abel's coloring book and she asked me about them. She must have told Clay about it. Clay thought Piney read them and that's why Clay killed him. " Jesus Christ." Jax scoffed.

Jax then realized something as he looked at her seriously." Is the reason for what happened to you has something to do with the letters?"

Tara looked down at her hand as she slowly as she nods her head."I think so."She said softly.

Jax sighs as he shook his head just as he clench his Jaws."I am gonna kill him." He said through gritted teeth.

"I know."She said as she walked over to him and hands over the small bag." There's a thinner in there. Put it in his IV when he is sleep. He will go quickly and it will look like he choked on his own blood." After looking at he slowly nods his head." Keep packing and I will be back tonight." He said as leans over and kisses her forehead deeply." Be careful."She said as she watched him walk out of the door.


Riding towards Gemma's. Jax's mind kept racing giving him an major headache. The information about what happened to his father and the fact John Teller was murdered by the hands of the man who basically raised Jax has twisted him up. Before he does something about it Jax has to confirm few things and the only person who can tell him was his mother. Pulling up into the driveway getting off his bike. Jax set his helmet on his handle bar as he put on Fear The Reaper hat and walked up towards the back door of her kitchen.

"Ma." Jax called out as he walked into the kitchen and closed the back door behind him. Gemma walked into the kitchen as soon as she saw her son." Hey baby."She said as she walked over to him and kisses his cheek." Everything okay? Where's Tara?"She asked. "Everything is fine mom. Tara is at home packing." He said as he walked passed her and sat down at the kitchen table. Gemma followed him and sat down beside him." Jackson what's going on?" She asked.

"I read some letters that my father wrote to Maureen Ashby." Did you know about them?" He asked as he glanced at her. "Did Tara give them to you?"She asked.

Jax shook his head." It doesn't matter. Did you know?" He asked again.

"Yeah I knew about the letters but I never read them. What the letters say?"She asked as she was starting to get worried.

Jax just sat there in silence as he took out a cigarette from the pocket of his kutte, Once he lit it up and put the lighter in his jean pocket he took a long drag as he just sat there staring at the wall. He could barely hear Gemma as his mind kept going back to the day of his father's death. He jumped as he felt Her slap his arm to get his attention,"Huh?"he asked.

"What did the letters say Jackson?"

"in the letters JT talked about how he wanted the club out of guns and that he knew his days was numbered. He also knew how close you and Clay were getting after Thomas died mom,"He sighs softly as he took another drag before he asked the question he wanted to avoid but now it was too late there was no stopping him."Did you know Clay is the reason why my father died?"He asked.

Gemma's body tensed up as soon Jax asked her that question, The one question she didn't want to answer and the secret she thought she kept buried all these years. Jax pushed back the chair that scrapped the kitchen floor as he quickly stood up.

"Jesus Christ."He exhales deeply."So you knew my father died by the hands of the man who has been raising me? The man who you share your bed with?"He asked." When dad died you told me he took his own life and that his death was his way out cause of what happen with Thomas,"This whole time you made me believe it was suicide."

Gemma looked up at him as she shook her head."I couldn't tell you the truth Jax. Your father's death crushed you. You had already lost your little brother and when you lost your father I had to do what I had to do to keep you safe, So yeah I told you that his death was caused by suicide, After Thomas died your father was hardly around, He spent most of his time in Belfest with that Irish Gash, having a new family with her and by that time me and Clay grew closer, Clay was there for me when John couldn't be anymore, Yes I knew John wanted the club out of guns but Clay didn't want that to happen so he sabotaged the Pan hand and that's how your father got killed by that Semi Truck,"

She got up as she walked up to him as she placed her hands on his wrist as she looked into his blue eyes that had so much hurt in them right now,"Clay killed your father stole that seat from under us, Jax your the only one who can truly take over the gavel and the club, Baby its your destiny. Its your path and its were a Teller's belong,"She said as she nods her head,"You know I am right."

Jax sighs as he closed his eyes for a moment he was about to say something when he felt his cell vibrating against his leg, He quickly answered it.

"Yeah?"

"Jackie Boy Romeo needs to talk to you brother." Chibs said as soon Jax answered.

"When?"He asked as he kept glaring at Gemma with so much hurt also so much hatred right now. The mother he thought he knew has been lying to him his whole life.

"Now he said its important," Chib said as he lean against his bike,

Jax exhales deeply as he closed his eyes,He got a lot to handle right now and Romeo was definitely the last person he wanted to deal with right now,"Shit,,, Alright I am on my way,"He said as he hung up." I gotta go," Was all he said as he walked out of the door of his mothers home, Firing up the Dyna once he got his helmet on and when he could feel the vibrate of the engine under him Jax tore out of the driveway and went to see what Romeo wanted,


"Come on lets talk in here,"Romeo said as soon as Jax got off of his bike 30 mins later.

Following Romeo and Luis into the shed he raised his eye brow for a moment as he watched the doors being closed,"What the hell is this man?"He asked them as he shook his head.

"We heard about what happened with Clay last night. How is he?"Romeo asked,"

"He is in critical condition."Jax said coldly. He really didn't want to be here right now and he was losing his patience."What is this all about?" He asked calmly the best way he could.

Romeo and Luis then nods their head. They both took out their badges and showed them to Jax, Jax scoffed as he raised his brow again,"CIA?"He asked as he snorted and shook his head." "

"Jesus."He said as he walked back and forth and then stopped for a moment,"Did you know Clay wanted my old lady dead?"Were you the ones he hired?"he asked as his jaws started to harden.

"He thought she knew too much and viewed her as a threat. We didn't mean to hurt her,"Luis said,

"You did hurt her."He said with gritted teeth and vedom in his voice. "She got her hand crushed because of what your men did to her."Jax could feel his body tense up. He exales deeply just as he chew inside his cheeks. Trying his hardest not to kill the men who almost killed Tara right now.

Romeo then brought his brows together then why did Clay wanted to go after her?

"Its a family problem."He said breathing deeply while he clenched his fist together.

"Well listen we need the drugs and the guns flowing."Jax scoffs once more as he shook his head.

"Come on man once Clay steps down who ever is gonna take over might not want that."

Romeo was the one who now shook his head,"That's not gonna happen cause your gonna be taken the gavel. This is the only way to keep things the way they are."

"if you walk away now we will crush your club."Luis said in a low and stern voice,"Nobody can't know about this conversation not even your old lady cause we will give the Rico the green light."He warned as he stared back at Jax hard.

"Jesus Christ." Jax said as he glared at them and walked out of the back to Chibs Jax's mind was more fucked up then before. He's gonna have to figure how to explain to Tara he has no choice but to take the Gavel. The Gavel he never wanted in the first place.

"Everything okay brother?"Chibs asked as he watched Jax walking back to his bike.

"I don't know. Can you get everyone to the clubhouse tonight for church at 7?"He asked as he got his helmet on.

"Aye. Where you going?"He asked as he couldn't help but wonder what's going on in Jax's head right now."

I gotta go to I need to talk to Clay about something,"He said as he fired up his bike as he sped away. Chibs looked back at the shed as he brought his brows together. What the hell were you guys talking about in there? Chibs thought to himself.

-Let me know what you guys think of the new story- Also since I still have two other stories to finish this is gonna be slow update. Fixed it up a little hopefully this one is little better second time around,If not then I will keep fixing it. Happy Reading