sabina21: yeah poor Luna…she'll get over it though…give it time. Lol
kera69love: very true, however in her case, like most parental types that accidentally happen upon said sight, it's one thing to know but it's another to SEE and KNOW what's going on in your kids lives. Luna may not be Usagi's bio-mom but she is a parental figure that loves her as such.
2 reviews, nice, lets see where this next one takes us, please let me know what you think!
Stressing over university
Drabble 451
Usagi POV
I was holding in my tongue as much as I could. This was the fifth time I had been physically rejected by Mamoru. I know he was busy with his exams for university but still…it felt like I was in this relationship on my own for a few weeks now. He gets one B on a term paper a few months back and it stuck with him all this time. He's been in his…and I mean HIS room now since my presence is 'distracting him', for weeks.
Every chance he gets when he's not in school or at work he's been in there cramming for his next set of tests. The man still gets an above average passing grade, something that I had to strive for in math and a few other subjects, and yet he gets one B and it's like he's barely above the curriculum. He's still easily maintaining his GPA for his grants and is doing a good job at keeping it above par.
Yet getting that B really agitated him. I get you have to have a particular GPA when it comes to med school but come on, getting one B isn't going to hurt you. The last time he even touched me more than a greeting kiss or a goodbye kiss to go to work or university was over three weeks ago when he rolled me over in bed for sex at 5am. It was good, hard and fast, yet ultimately, I was still left craving more.
I've already burnt out my most recent vibrator and had to buy a new one. I even made sure it was delivered on a day that he would be home so that he could see what I was getting but he merely picked up the package and put it on the counter for me to see. Favoring studying to asking why I bought something at the 'dirty store' which is the reaction I was hoping to getting. Hell I was hoping that my subtly walking around with barely any clothes on would help him to take a 'study break' but nope.
That only helped in getting him to say 'you wanna put some clothes on, its getting chilly outside' to which I tried to joke and tell him 'why would I do that when your my heating pad?' which just earned me an eye roll and a look of slight annoyance. I tried during another week after I got off work myself and greeted him after a hot steamy shower with my towel on. My hair was wet and in small curls framed around me.
I did a double check in the mirror making sure I had a sultry appearance to me. I've been told that I have a good 'wet look' to me so I dropped the towel while he was going to the bedroom which was right next to the bathroom that I was in. I was even talking to him a bit as I dropped it aiming for his attention, but it barely phased him. Either he really didn't catch it or he legit ignored me.
I've been purposely only wearing a shirt and panties on so that I could entice him in bed but I gave up on that after a week when he started to bring his books to bed and had the light on to do late night studying to make sure the last thing on his mind before sleep was his equations and other works. I only even got more frustrated by this as when I tried to touch him in the early am, which was the usual time we would first have sex in the day and he was actually pulling my hand away as if to say 'not now'.
I pulled my hand away and after the third time felt not only rejected but idiotic that I was putting myself out there and getting barely any response in return. I had studies to and I never rejected his advancements to me. We still watched movies together on occasion BUT if I picked a movie that we had both seen he wanted something new to 'focus on' and enjoy. I only picked a previously seen movie to 'enjoy each other' and have it on as background noise as we did the month before.
I officially got fed up when I bought new lingerie for him to see end of last week. I was done with my studies and even with my own workload, this was how MUCH he was taking in for study time. It was every second that wasn't being consumed by food, sleep, or work cause even after a couple of movies he went to go study. So new lingerie bought, new lingerie put on, a silky number that exposed it all without actually exposing anything.
I touched the fabric and it was already arousing me with how sheer it was as I smiled and held off on any further touches till he saw it. A dark blue piece that matched the color of his eyes which is why I bought it. Very hard to find shade of blue. I greeted him with it when he got back home one evening about a week ago and he took one glance at me, posing in the door way, arching myself with my hair down around me.
Having practiced posing in front of the mirror I knew this one looked good and even made sure to be up on my tip toes, freshly painted nails and freshly showered to and what did he do…took one look and said it was a nice piece before going back down to his studies. The sheer level of deflation was HARD as I pretty much gave up at that point. I understand that his studies were important and they are BUT you still have to take necessary breaks to NOT burn yourself out and I told him this to.
Yet it seemed like it went in one ear and out the other. It got so bad that I went out for yoga with Minako one day and told her what was going on during the yoga session we were in. I threw a LOT of my energy into yoga that day. That whole week actually and while it helped I missed Mamoru's touch, I missed his skin on mine…I missed us making out together. I missed him being inside of me.
Hell I missed him curling up with me at night and not a book or a pillow. I miss him pulling me in closer to him so he could feel my body along his and slip it in in the early morning hours. So after this last week even yoga was feeling more like a means to an end rather than anything of use or help. I just decided that if this is what he was going to do to let him be. For that last week as hard as it was I ignored any attempts from him which wasn't hard seeing as how he didn't make ANY attempts with me.
I only felt more discouraged and wished that he could understand my feelings instead of just saying 'bear with my Usagi, I have to get through these classes, their a bit brutal'. I have been bearing with him for a month now, a month of no sex, a month of only getting kisses from him and not even holding my hand when we go out for groceries or anything. If anything he even started to use one of those apps for grocery delivery so he wouldn't have to go out. More time to study is why.
So when the week of his exams came up I stupidly thought that he would change a bit. That he would be trying to jump my bone in bed. The exams were over with and while he scored near perfect A's for the end of the classes, even going so far as to do the extra credit to 'make up for the B' he didn't change. Now he was saying he was mentally exhausted from it all and needed a break from it…so now I was 'taking a break from his neglect'.
Mamoru POV
Man was that such a brutal class load of work. My professor telling me in the beginning that he expected more out of a mind such as mine when I got that B really got to me. He was right I let things slip and I figured out it was right around the time when I got more sexually active with Usagi. I love my girl to death, I do. Usagi is my light, yet our ravenous appetite for sex is next level and I wound up abandoning my straight A+ streak for A's and a B.
I never thought I'd be saying I needed to spend less time with her as love her more than words can express but my professor laying into me over that B and reminding me of the A+'s that I was getting with seemingly ease…it stung. I strove for years for my academia and I couldn't let lack of time management interfere so I needed to let my sex life which was HIGHLY active, take a backseat for a minute and focus on my studies and let me tell you that was HARD in ever sense of the word.
Usagi was using every trick in the book to get me into bed and holy hell was that hard to ignore, I mean the amount of times I saw her buck naked, the lingerie I ignored was pure torture for me to do. All I wanted to do was bang her till the sun rose up and keep her legs wide open so I could enjoy her sweet nectar. Yet the professors words haunted me even at night time. When Usagi would try to touch me it took all of my will power to remove her hand instead of encouraging her to jerk me off.
Instead of encouraging her to pump me till I got to horny to stop and pounded her into oblivion I pushed her away letting her know I needed to focus and she did as asked. However now that the semester was over with I was mentally exhausted. I not only scored the top score in the class but even rose up the professors curriculum score with my score which I admit made me pretty damn happy to know.
So when I tried to get in with Usagi the following week she was pulling away from me. I had a hard time understanding her reasoning for being upset with me as I thought she understood. So I was especially shocked when Minako showed up at my university with a small food bag as she sat down with me, "My guess is your struggling to figure out why Usagi is upset with you." I nodded my head yes as she took a fry out of the bag.
"She's upset cause you was ignoring her ass pretty damned easily the last FIVE weeks now." She stated pointedly. I cringed internally yet I protested, "It wasn't five…" I mentally head counted the last week when I was tired as hell. "Damn…was it five weeks." I cringed fore sure now as I felt bad. "Yup, five weeks of hardly any intimate time with her own man. Five weeks of being rejected and told no by the man she got used to have daily sex from." I wanted to be upset that Usagi told Minako so much but right now I just felt bad.
"That girl truly thinks that your now no longer interested in her. Cause seriously who needs every waking hour they have to study when they receive one little B?" before I can defend myself my professor walks up, "Chiba – san good to see you." I greet him back, "Hopefully your staying strong with the study program, we can't afford a mind like yours to begin to slip again." now I'm feeling torn.
"So YOU'RE the reason why he was ignoring his girl for the last month." Minako brazenly tells him, "IF by that you mean I'm the one who pulled Mr. Chiba – san here from accepting anything less than perfection when the study of medicine deserves nothing less than our absolute all then yes I am." He sure did sound sure of himself and of his reasoning and he wasn't incorrect on the matter at all.
That's when Minako fires back with, "And yet it's also quoted by people of science and known theorists that by focusing ONLY on science or the field and NOT giving one's self a break with normal human interaction they themselves drive away what makes them happy to function in life and therefore the destruction of what gives them purpose as one cannot live off of professional accomplishments alone. Especially without someone to share them with." My mouth dropped open at her words as she mouthed 'I talked to Ami'.
I nod as the profession told her, "I sincerely hope that Mr. Chiba – san doesn't fall off the path for such a trivia thing as whatever blonde set of legs are in front of him." I know he meant Minako in this case but I could feel my blood boiling at his insinuation and also realizing that Minako was right…or Ami depending on how you see that. "Professor I need to leave, my friend here has a point." I get up beginning to take off from the campus.
Yet I can't help but remark, "Oh and don't talk about my Usako like that. Her legs aren't open for discussion." That's when Minako pipes in with, "Yup their only open for him." She gestures to me, "Damn straight." I remark as I head off. Minako winking at me as the professor looks a little bewildered by the abrupt exit as I leave sight. I race to get home and realize I'll need ot be determined to make Usagi see that I do want her.
I let a professor get in my head and now she thinks I don't want her. It takes little to no effort to get home as Usagi is doing some computer work. Seeing me she sighs and gets up, "Don't worry I'll give you the room." And prepares to leave out. I jump over, taking her laptop and putting it down safely as she does need it for school, "Mamoru what the he – oh…" I interrupt her with a deep 'I miss you like crazy' kiss.
She gives me a strange yet pleased look before asking, "Am I dreaming again?" feeling guilty now for putting that in her head I kiss her so hard and wrap her up in my arms that she's left with no doubt on how real this is. As if coming to her senses now I can see she torn between wanting to have answers and wanting to have sex with me now, "Question it later, hit me later of you want I don't care…but let us have this now." I assure her.
"Sex now question later." Is all she says as the mounting tense between us explodes as we start to have sex. The kissing is passionate as hell and our clothes are practically being torn off by the other as we stumble our way to the bedroom but give up as we land on the floor. The wood floor that is cool to the touch right now as I strip away every article of clothing on me and her. Our moans making us more hungry from the other as I soon it's fully skin on skin contact and we begin to nibble on one another.
I suddenly feel like if I'm not in her soon, like immediately soon I'm going to explode. I don't need that…not without being inside of her. We somehow wind up at the door of the bedroom and just as I'm about to haul her up to go to the bed, she wraps her legs around my waist and pulls me in. I grunt out of sheer helplessness of passion and lust. My member now buried deep within her as she grips me tightly.
I have to hold my breath for a moment as I try to NOT cum so easily within her. I hate that it's been so long and I only have myself to blame for that but…BUT this makes it so worthwhile that when I see her chest thrust forward, when I feel her muscles clenching me till I feel like I can't even breath straight, when I see her nipples perk up and beg for my attention it becomes so easy to get lost in the love and pleasure that is my Usako.
"Oh kami…Usa…" I wrap my arms up under her shoulders and pull her down onto my throbbing organ with need and want as she cries out from the sensations that take over her to, "Mamo…" is all she's able to get out as I keep the pace consistent. Not wanting to spoil things so to speak ahead of time. I want to enjoy this before I let myself get ahead of the game…so to speak that is.
She encourages me, bucking her hips up at me with vigor as I press my cock into her, insistently, needing to feel more of her surrounding me. I want her so damn badly that I can't stop myself from enjoying her as she is with me right now. It appears she can't either as she seems to be chanting, "Don't stop!" the need in her is as strong as my own. "I don't plan on it." I tell her as I increase my pace just bit more.
She reaches up and presses herself back down on me with her hand against the closed door. Not complaining about the wood floor, she just wants me inside of her and now. I'm not going to leave her anytime soon and I curse the day I have to leave her at all. I hate that I let my university subsume me as I let it, or rather that I let my professor get in my head the way that I did, that was on me.
The least I can do is make Usagi know just how much I've been missing her these last few…five weeks now. To long since we last had sex. To long…now here I am, balls deep in her and watching her take in my length as I continue to pound into her. So when she looks at me, a glance of need, longing and if I'm not mistaken desperation as if she's afraid of loosing me crosses her face.
That last emotion makes me realize how little I've been paying attention to her. I harden my glance and show her how much I miss and love her myself. I see her expression changes as she arches her back even further, pressing her clit into the base of my member and riding me a bit harder than I'm riding her. I begin to grind my member into her, wanting to feel her even deeper than before.
I realize what I need to do. Flipping her leg over I hold both legs to the side and press myself into her even harder than before. Loosing myself within her I pound till I feel I'm hitting it raw as hell, till she screams at me for more. Till I see the look on her face change from 'oh Mamo' to 'oh MY - ' and I slam home into her. I power drive her till she hits her head on the door and I keep going till I feel her muscles cave in and pulsate around me.
This triggers my own orgasm as I press continually and insistently into her. I feel her muscles reflexively tighten as she goes through the motions of her orgasm. I can't stop my cock from pulsating as I empty my seed into her. Her own juices coating me as I press the last of myself into her and settle my form onto hers as I enjoy the feeling of her body beneath my own. I feel her arms and legs stay wrapped as they can around me.
Despite our odd position now she continues to do what she can to keep the contact between us even as I pump that last of myself into her. My cock beginning to recede in size as I calm my breathing down. I see her smile hit me. "Not that I'm complaining…not even a little bit but what brought that on?" she asks me as I start to laugh a little bit at the day I've been having or rather the last five weeks I've been having, "I'll tell you later…later…once I've wrung out every last ounce of energy you have in you."
