The name carved over my heart (Ed/Stede)
Random takes and scenes in space and time for fandoms I love as inspired by Fan Art and the Fandoms themselves.
Ed is at a loss when Stede left him hanging, all alone on that pier. Heartbroken. And so, deciding to make a reminder of it all, never again in love to fall, the name carved across his chest all that was left of the love he knew before.
Part of Fandom Shorts / Ed/Stede (OFMD) series
The name carved over my heart
A devastated soul I be, ever since that night on the pier. When you walked away, telling me you'd be back, just having to take care of something. A short time is all and you would be back by my side, the two of us never divided, never a part from the other again. Only together, the two of us, the misfits of sorts, beginning again. A new life for us both, somewhere else.
Alas, you disappeared, left me there, all by myself. On this very pier, sobbing like a child, over something as stupid, as love. Yeah, it was that, I am sure. The stupidest thing ever invented by mankind!
I spent a long time pondering, wandering what I did wrong. Did I come on too strong? The kiss we shared the soft spoken words…. To much to handle for someone of your… stature?
I mean, I've been there before. Not the loving bit, but the other things. Plenty of men having passed by in my beddings. Well, sometimes on the floor, the table… well, you get the gist. But was there something here I did miss? The words of love not really what they meant? Not for us two, between us two?
Eventually, I got away. Flying the scene like a crime having been there made. Back to the cradle so familiar, the ship, not mine but yours. Alas, I made it mine. Burning all reminders of you inside. Even those things I had grown to love, much like you my dear Stede, never to be mine.
Now I am Blackbeard once again, not that wuss everyone around knew as Ed. The Ed in me, Edward, died on that pier. When you left me all alone, running away from me, leaving behind only sadness and tears. I am the scourge of the Seven Seas. The illness from within. The most feared pirated ready to kill everyone standing in my way, and if even if they're not, hoping, praying never to cross paths with me and my kind. As only terror would rain upon them, death and mayhem of the worst degree, for you see, I am evil, always have been always will be. But there was someone whom I thought could see beyond that all. Loving me just the same. Alas, I was totally wrong.
There is one thing I did do, in honour or remember of what I had gone through. A reminder for myself never to make the same mistake ever again. The scarlet letter if you will, only this one painted in black ink. The same colour of my chilly little heart. Always and forever present reminding me of the pain I've suffered. The almost physically numbing pain, that of heartache. Caused by the one I thought would love me back, alas never most likely did. Also to remind me never to take that path for me to mislead to thinking I could have had a chance of something else. Something better, something with a future with someone else.
The name? That of Stede.