Today my father's burial chamber was closed. The tribe used to keep the leader's grave open for a few days for farewells and offerings. I went with my brother and my own family among the last. My little daughter was sleeping nicely in her sling and the boys were calmly next to their grandfather, they were probably a little scared. Grandfather was different-looking and quiet. They haven't really understood things yet. My husband was next to me and occasionally wiped the corners of his eyes. I didn't cry, I had already cried so much in this short time. Skaara placed our mother's old amulet on our father's chest. I stroked his cheek again and then we all walked out of the chamber and I was holding hands with my husband.
I don't know what my life would be without Daniel. I don't know whether my father would have given me to another clan, or given to Ra if he had demanded it. I didn't get to choose my boyfriend when I was younger, that was made clear to me. I was the daughter of a tribal leader, good merchandise. Fortunately, there were no buyers.
How lucky I was with my husband, even though I was terrified at the beginning. We didn't understand each other and he looked very different from the men here. Special transparent pieces in front of the eyes. He called them glasses.
The situation at that time was scary in many kindness and good-heartedness shined through this man.
We were married, which he didn't even understand and I was terribly afraid to go to him. It was very strange that he rejected me, the women of the clan had said that on the wedding night a man can be very demanding.
It was wonderful when we started to understand each other when he invented our language. I was assured that he was benevolent. And it still makes me smile when he found out in the cave how we became a married couple.
I died fighting Ra, but he brought me back to life. What else can I do but love him.
We have children that I love and that he loves. Cares and pampers his children more than the men of my tribe usually do. He has adapted well here, although I'm sure he sometimes wished he could get to his home planet. At least he would need new glasses for his eyes.
Now that my father has died, there is uncertainty about the new leader. I personally don't want and I don't want my Daniel to be in charge. Surely he could be a good leader but my reason is selfish. If we get to be regular residents,we can be together more without obligations and our children will not automatically become high-ranking. Our daughter is allowed to live a normal life and is not, for example, reluctantly sent to another clan as a bride.
Skaara would be a good leader even though he is young. I hope the peace stays here. I feel terrible now, but otherwise life has been good and I hope it will continue like that.