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Chapter Five
Fixing Dawsey: The Middle Option

"Then what are we going to do?"

That was the topic of conversation at the moment, as it was a conversation that the two of them truly need to have with each other; a serious conversation which directly relates to their future, and just how they're going to achieve one of their biggest dreams. Their dreams of having a child with each other. And not just any child, but a biological child who is both half-hers and half-Matt's child; something which is even more important to her, due to the fact that she wants to give her husband something which he desperately needs. A child to carry on the family name. After all, he is the latest Casey male in his family; which means that the family name lives and dies with him at the moment, unless they (at least) have a child (a daughter) to carry it on another generation; or (b) a son to carry it on for two more generations. And that's precisely something that Matt knows they can do, if they do it the right way; in a way which would satisfy all of the requires which they've set out for each other. All of the conditions that they have for each other and a baby.

Matt's conditions? Well, they're simple. He doesn't want Gabby to be pregnant, as he doesn't want to risk loosing his wife (and the woman he loves) again; while Gabby wants to have a child of her own, a child which is biological related to both her and her husband. And now that Matt knows that Gabby understands his fears, how he hates the idea of him being responsible for her death (should it happen while she's pregnant); then, he can only assume that Gabby may actually have an open mind when it comes to the suggestion which he's about to make when it comes to just how they can make all of their dreams come true. But first, it seems like Gabby needs to ask her husband the question that she asked him once more, as he's been silent since she asked him the question. "Matt, you still haven't answered my question baby. I asked you what we're going to do. How are we going to have a baby without me getting pregnant?" Smiling, Matt took a moment to prolong her angst. To let Gabby keep guessing what he wants to do to have a baby.

To expand their family, while keeping her safe and with him for the rest of his life. But, you might be asking yourself just how they can do that. How they can keep Gabby safe, by not getting her pregnant; while at the same time, have a child who is biologically related to the both of them (i.e., is their biological child, rather than a child which they adopted). And that option is surrogacy. And even though Matt already knows that option can get quite costly, there is nothing more important to him than keeping his wife safe. And if that means that he needs to pay a woman (who isn't his wife) to carry their child, then that's precisely what he's going to do. He will pay her money to keep his wife safe, while giving them the child which they've always dreamed of having. Or, they can volunteer to do so because of Gabby's story. I mean, someone may have a heart and want to do that; so, they are not going to say no to that. If someone (e.g., one of their friends) wants to do that for the both of them, then they will welcome that option with open arms.

But first, he and Gabby would need to talk about it; just like they need to talk about what he considers 'the middle option' in their quest to have a baby. The option which he's going to reveal to her right now. "Surrogacy." Looking up at her husband when he mentioned that surrogacy would be the middle option for them, Gabby smiled as that most certainly would be a great way for the two of them to meet in the middle: as she would be able to raise her and Matt's biological child with him, giving them a baby of their own for life; while Matt would be able to keep her safe, while giving them a biological child of their own. However, the baby would be carried by another woman. And while that isn't Gabby's dream (ideal) scenario, it may be the only way for them to have biological children; especially since it would be the way to keep her safe when it comes to them having a baby with each other. And Gabby just knew in her heart that was the only reason which Matt was bringing this up, so that he could do his job and keep her safe.

God, if only they could've spoken this way before she left to go to Puerto Rico; maybe then, they wouldn't be in this situation right now where they need to fix their marriage. Hell, maybe they would already be in the process of starting a family with the help of a surrogate. And that's precisely why Gabby is still being quiet, as she knew that she screwed up when she left; rather than speaking to her husband and listening to him: as they could've already started their journey to have a baby with each other months ago. Instead, she was so selfish and almost wrecked what they have with each other; the beautiful marriage that they have with each other, which (to this day) is still full of love and devotion. She should've known that her pushing to have a baby (with her being pregnant) was really hurting her husband, especially since it would've put everything they have at risk. She pushed him away, and they almost lost each other for good. But now, they have a chance to be together. A chance to make things right and be together for the rest of their lives.

After all, she loves Matt more than anything in the entire world; and there truly is nobody else who she'd rather be married to. He's the man of her dreams, and he is such a great man, who will put his dreams of having a family to the side if it means that he can keep her safe. God, how is she even worthy of the honor of being able to call this man her husband? All he does is try and protect her, keep her alive; yet, all she does is hurt him, while pushing him away and not talking through their troubles with each other. She's so glad that they're doing this, getting away on a mini honeymoon; however, she wouldn't be opposed to them going on a real honeymoon so that they can finally celebrate their love. Something which they should've done when they first got married but were instead sidetracked from doing due to the fact that they had to deal with the whole Andre situation. And god, she just hates what she's done to Matt; so much so, that she truly feels like she needs to apologize. "Before I address what you said Matt, can I apologize?"

Matt was confused as he heard Gabby ask him whether she can apologize, as he had no idea what for. "Baby, if we're going too fast; then I'm sorry, and we can slow things down." Shaking her head, Gabby smiled as she placed her hand on Matt's face before kissing him softly. After all, the last thing she wanted to do was slow down; especially when she knows that the faster they talk about all of this, the fast they can be in a better place in their marriage. "Hey, don't you dare think that we're going too fast baby, because we aren't. If anything, I think we're going the perfect speed since it just feels so natural; the way we're talking is perfect, and precisely what we need to do so that we can get to a better place." Matt agreed with his wife, unable to disagree due to the fact that he feels the same way. And he's just glad that Gabby feels the same way as him, which is why he leaned in and kissed the woman he loves. The woman he's crazy for and wants to be married to for the rest of his life; the woman of his dreams, the woman he wants to hold close.

And that's precisely what they're in the midst of doing at the moment, they're holding each other close as they cuddled up to each other in their bed; the bed which they enjoy more than anything, simply due to the fact that it gives them time to be with each other. It gives Gabby time to be with her husband, who is so selfless; which just makes her love him more than anything in the entire world, confirming her belief that he's the love of her life. She is so lucky that he's her husband, and she needs to realize that; who knew that almost loosing him to death (again) would be what it took for her to wake up and truly appreciate just how much this man means to her, how much her husband loves him. The man who booked her the most gorgeous, romantic hotel in the entire world; all so that they can work things out with each other, as they saved their marriage (which is precisely what they're doing right now). They're working things out, as they save their marriage and just make things better between each other. It's what they need to do today.

What they need to do today, and every chance they get; because Gabby never wants to be in a situation where she could loose this man ever again, which does include to death. God, she missed him so much in Puerto Rico, and she most certainly has missed the way he kisses her. God, the feeling of those soft lips on hers is pure paradise. "God, I've missed the way you kiss me so much." Matt agreed with his beautiful wife as she told him that she missed the feeling of his lips on hers so much, as he felt the same way. "No woman I've ever kissed compares to your lips on mine, Ms. Gabriela Casey." Smirking as Matt used her marital name, Gabby shook her head and kissed her again. "By the way, I noticed that you used my marital name when you booked the room for us. We're booked under Matthew and Gabriela Casey." Matt nodded as his (gorgeous) wife mentioned that he booked the room for them under her marital last name, which is the surname which he wants Gabby to use more often; to remind her each and every day that she's his wife.

After all, it's already her name. "Yes, because that is your last name. Gabby, your legal name is Gabriela Casey. And I would like to talk about that for a moment." Gabby agreed with her husband, smiling as he asked her (indirectly) if they can talk about the name 'Gabriela Casey'; which they most certainly can, while Matt ran his fingers up and down er back. "So, I was hoping to ask you to start using your marital last name. I mean, only if you want. However, I believe you should…as I think that it might help you. Help us." Gabby was confused as she heard Matt say that, as she didn't understand how or what he meant by that. "Ok. What do you mean by that?" Taking a breath, Matt sighed. "Gabby, just hear me out? I know this sounds bad, and I truly don't mean it in a bad way. It just came into my mind…and I want to mention it." Gabby agreed with her husband, more than ready and willing to hear him out; especially since she could see that he was apprehensive to even bring this topic up in the first place, while also seeing it was important to him.

And that's why she decided to stay quiet, while she listened to her husband. "Gabby, I know you having your last name is important to you." Biting his lip, Matt sighed and just stopped what he was saying. "You know what, this is stupid; I'm…" Placing her hands on Matt's face once more, Gabby proceeded to shut him up by kissing him; after all, she wants to hear what he has to say. "No, it's not Matt. We agreed that we would talk and hear each other out. So, that's precisely what we're going to do right now. We're going to talk and hear each other out, so please continue." Matt agreed with his wife as she said that, before deciding to roll over onto his back; while also bringing Gabby on his chest, as he wanted to cuddle up to her. "Sorry I keep changing how I want to lay down." Gabby shook her head, as she was more than okay with him doing it. "It's fine Matt, as long as I'm close to you. Right now, I just want to be held close to you as we cuddle in bed." Matt smiled as he heard Gabby say that, before feeling her wrap her arms around his torso here in bed.

Meanwhile, he placed his hand on her back and stroked it with her thumb as he pressed his lips to her forehead. "Plus, I want to be close to you like this right now; as it means that I'm not dreaming right now." Matt was confused, before realizing what she was talking about. "Because it shows you that I'm truly alive right now?" Biting her lip prior to taking a breath, Gabby agreed as that was precisely what she was saying. In fact, that was the exact reason why she wants to be this close to Matt right now. However, hearing it out loud just makes it sound so stupid. "God, now that we've said it out loud, it just sounds so stupid." Matt shook his head as he pressed his lips to Gabby's forehead once more, before whispering to her. "It's not stupid, it's okay baby. I know you're still scared about how I almost died in the fire." Gabby agreed with her husband, as she was. "Anyways, I like this feeling. The feeling of you on my chest." I absolutely love the feeling of my topless, braless wife on my chest." Gabby snickered. "Perv." Matt smiled as he looked down.

"A loving perv." Confused, Gabby turned her head and looked up at her husband. "How can a perv be loving?" Bending down, Matt smirked as he kissed Gabby softly whilst they continued to hold each other close. "Didn't know there was such a thing as a loving perv." Matt nodded. "Well, in my book there is. I mean, unless you'd rather I not hold you like this, and you can go put your bra back on?" Gabby shook her head, as that was the last thing she wanted to do; she wanted to keep her bra off, as they held each other as they are at the moment. "Nope, I like this feeling." Matt agreed with his wife, before pressing his lips to her forehead once more. "Now, the stupid thing you wanted to talk to me about?" Matt sighed as he moved his hand up and down Gabby's back, while stroking it with his thumb. "I guess, I want you to take my last name to remind yourself that you aren't a single woman anymore; that you're married and have a husband to help you through life. Who can help you instead of his best friend." Gabby gulped and bit her lip.

After all, she knows exactly what he was talking about. "That's something else that we need to talk about by the way, as that was something I did not appreciate. But, right now we're going to talk about how I want you to take my last name and use it on a daily basis."

Gabby's POV: When Matt told me that he thought it was time for me to take his last name and use it on a daily basis, I had to admit that I was a bit confused; yet, I also decided to hear him out as it was clearly quite important to him. Both for me to start using the last name Casey, and for us to talk about it; which is precisely why we're all cuddled up to each other, and why I just cuddled up to him some more (while pressing my breasts against his chest some more, as a way to tease him). While, at the same time, I also laid my head down on his chest as I cuddled up to him; and, in the process, I was able to get a better listen at his heart. The heart that was beating faster by the minute as we held each other like this. And damn, that was a nice sound. However, that's not the only sound that I want to hear; as I also want to hear my husband speak to me, due to the fact that I need answers. "Okay, baby…we've been married for 2 years as of Thursday…" I then took my breath. "Baby, I just want to also say that I'm sorry about that okay? How I said that's when I wanted us to be divorced by." Matt nodded as he pressed his lips to my forehead, while continuing to listen to me.

Listen to me apologize for what I did to him, as it was so insensitive. "I'm sorry that I didn't think, which I should've done." Matt agreed with me as I apologize. "I already forgive you, and you don't need to worry about a next time due to the fact that I have no intentions on letting you divorce me. And I promise to remind you when our anniversary is every year if you need me to, as you're going to be here." I agreed with Matt. "And I just hope that you stay safe so that we can keep celebrating it, as I promise to try and do that as well; even when I get pregnant, if I get pregnant." Matt sighed as he looked down into my eyes. "Can we put a pin in that, I'm not ready to talk about that again when I want to just take it easy." I nodded, agreeing with Matt; however, I just needed to ask him one last question about it first. "But, I just need to get an answer to something quick. Are we going to keep trying to get me pregnant, or are we going to go right to surrogacy? I just need to know for safety precautions." Matt sighed once more as I asked him that question. "Can we put a pin in that? I promise, we'll talk about it right after we finish this topic." I agreed with Matt, smiling as he held me.

While at the same time, I listened to both his heart and what he had to say to me. "So, I want to say that I'm not going to lie and say that it hasn't been on my mind though. I really want to keep talking about it." Matt agreed with Gabby. "But first, we need to get through this other topic. The last name topic, because I think it'll help you." I was still confused when I heard Matt say that. "Ok. That really isn't an answer, how in the world would it help me?" Matt sighed as he answered my question. "Gabby, this is all related to the Bria and Louie stuff. And I know that this is a big part of our fights, and I promise that we will address that. But please, can you just hear me out?" I agreed with Matt as he asked me whether I can hear him out, which I can. "Of course, I can baby. What's going on?" Matt took a breath when I asked him that question, before placing his hand on top of mine and stroking it with his thumb. "It's just…I feel like you still having your maiden name make you feel too…independent if you get what I'm trying to say." Nodding, I just pretended to understand as I just wanted to listen to Matt and give him a chance to explain to me what he wants to convey.

Something which he was going to do, while holding me really close to him; even closer than he was just a moment ago, as he just cross his legs around mine this afternoon. However, that action wasn't something that I could just ignore; as it was an action that he did recently as a way to get me to stay put, to make sure that I don't run away. Not that I want to go anywhere when I'm so comfortable on his chest, as that's precisely what I am; comfortable on the chest which I just ran my hand down, while also bending down and kissing it as a way to make my husband happy. My loving husband, who I love more than anything in the entire world; and whom I am now listening to. "Gabby when you do things…you sometimes don't think about me. You think about what's in your best interests. And then, I always have to come in and fix things for you. Gabby don't get me wrong…" Placing his hand on my back, Matt stroked it with his thumb once more as he kissed my forehead. "…it's a real turn on when you go all superhero and bad ass Gabby." I smiled. After all, I loved the sound of that. "But, it's also scary because it worries me. Especially since you do rash things at times, while not thinking."

I agreed with Matt, as that was the truth; while he took a breath and pressed his lips against my forehead once more. "And that night you went to find Bria with Severide; you went to skid row Gabby. Gabby, that scared the crap out of me; and you didn't even tell me. I had to hear it from my best friend. I mean, what if a drug guy or girl pricked you with a needle? You could've gotten really sick, and that could be all my best friend's fault. Sure, I would've helped you at the end because it was health related. And yes, I also helped you in the end as you were in so deep; that's why I helped, because there was no easy way out. Hell, you remember when we went to the morgue?" I just nodded. "Severide got up first because he thought he had to go, but I had to put my arm out to stop him. It made me feel jealous of my own best friend, which was so awkward. Gabby, I'm your husband and I hate feeling jealous. I just felt like it was wrong for you to choose him of all people, especially since I should be your support system; your shoulder to cry on." I agreed.

Meanwhile, Matt pressed his lips to my forehead once more ahead of the next topic he (clearly) needed to talk to me about. "Gabby, you not only asked my best friend to help you in that endeavor; but you also put my friendship with Severide at risk." Looking up at him, I was confused as to what he meant by that. "Ok. I'm not sure exactly what you mean by that Matt? How did I put your friendship with Severide at risk?" Matt sighed once more, while continuing to stroke my back with his thumb. "I don't know if I could forgive him if something were to happen to you after you guys went out there. Say you got really sick, I'm not sure if I could live with him not having told me ahead of time; or that I didn't go with you instead. After all, I'm your husband Gabby; I'm the one that made the vows to love you through sickness and in health, not Severide. I'm the one that has to take care of you and look out for your best interests. I've done that the entire time Gabby, especially when it comes to us having a baby. Can you just be honest with me Gabby?" I nodded, agreeing with Matt as I could (and will) be honest with him. "Do you really want to risk that? Risk what we have?" I sighed.

After which, I shook my head due to the fact that I was now starting to think a bit more clearly; I started to think a bit more clearly about just how scary this all was, both for myself and Matt. I mean, we're talking about my life. "It's scary." Matt agreed with me as I told him that the risk I was willing to take is a scary one, especially since it may mean that I don't get to meet our child; that Matt would have to raise our child on his own. "My thoughts exactly Gabby. And that's why we need to be a team and talk about these things, we are husband and wife after all; and we're going to be a team for the rest of our lives. Sure, should I have gone to Puerto Rico when you asked? Maybe I should have. But Gabby, I need to explain why I didn't." I nodded, agreeing with Matt as he (inadvertently) asked me if he could explain why he didn't go with me to Puerto Rico when I asked him a couple months ago. "It was because I was still hurt Gabby. I mean, you left me. You abandoned me and our marriage. That's how I felt, abandoned. Again." Taking a breath, Matt ran his fingers through my hair before pressing his lips to my forehead as he tried to figure out the words to explain himself.

To explain what he wants to tell me. "Gabby, I had to rebuilt all my friendships again because I lost not only my wife, but my best friend. The woman I could speak to everything about, and that was hard; especially since my relationship wasn't in the best place when you left, so I could barely speak to him. But we got better, and eventually I did. But it was just a hard time for me. I don't want to shame you but, did you ever think about how it would affect me Gabby?" I just stayed quiet when Matt asked me that question. "You running away like that, and not telling me where you were for a while? Gabby, you basically abandoned our marriage. And that two-hour goodbye, that was wrong. You should've at least stayed for a few days. The truth is that was just a nail in the coffin. That was why I was okay with sleeping with that other woman, because I was so hurt Gabby. I mean, your trip was basically just to get the rest of your things and to tell me that everything was over between us. I saw you for maybe 2-3 hours tops." I agreed with Matt, while also bending down and kissing his chest again. "You didn't even ask me to drive you to the airport, I had to offer to do that."

Tearing up a bit, Matt tried to compose himself as he was now really sharing how he felt during that time with Gabby. "Gabby, that hurt me more than you could ever imagine. Gabby, we were together for almost 5 years at the time you left. We were married for one year and ten months. We had a relationship as friends for over a decade. And you only give me an hour or two to say goodbye, to say goodbye to the woman I love? Now, that was just a stab in the heart; and it really hurt me. And not just hurt me Gabby, because I was also angry and I felt betrayed. I felt unloved, and I felt like our marriage didn't mean anything to you. You made me feel like I was trash." I was shocked when I heard Matt say that. "Matt, I…" But Matt just kept talking. "I felt like I was something that you could just throw to the side and walk away from easily. Well, you know what Gabby, you were able to do that because you didn't stay in our home. That really hurt, as I had to go to bed that night knowing that my marriage was over. That we were over!" Taking a breath, Matt calmed down a bit before continuing. "I was ready to take you back when I saw you, I was ready to take you in my arms and to bed."

I nodded, agreeing with Matt. "But when you told me it was a permanent position, and that you took it without talking to me about it; I just gave up as I knew that there was nothing I could say to change your mind. Our marriage was over, we were over. We were going our separate ways, and I was just going to have to live with it…even though that was the last thing I wanted to do." I agreed with Matt once more, while he ran his hand down my back and sighed. "That's why I continued to wear my wedding band, because I thought that it would make you come back to me on your own; because I believed in us so much, that you would realize for some stupid reason that you belonged in Chicago, and that we could fix us. But, I was stupid and naïve." Shaking her I slipped up Matt's chest before looking down into his eyes. "Hey, look at…" However, he just continued. "I was wrong, because you never came back. I had to grieve the end of our marriage, in the home we shared. It was so hard Gabby. But I kept all your things as I was still in denial." I just kept listening, as I knew that this is what Matt needed right now. "I kept it all because I knew that was the only way I could keep believing.."

Taking a breath, Matt looked at me and just continued to explain to me why he kept my things. "…keep believing that you would come back. And then, I finally wanted to sleep with someone; until my would finally come crashing down. It happened all over again, and I felt horrible; hell, there was a moment where I believe that I deserved to die in that fire." I was shocked when I heard Matt say that. "Baby, no." Matt nodded. "I mean, I was abandoned by my wife. I had no family, my wife left me, and I was sleeping around to numb the pain; hell, I was drinking more than I used to. I was a shell of myself, and the firehouse knew it. So, I thought…I already lost two women I love, why try again. I was ready to just end it all. I thought that I wasn't enough, that I wasn't enough for you Gabby. I felt like I wasted my time for a while. All the time I invested in our relationship, our marriage; it actually felt like a waste for a while because I was so hurt. It made me wonder if we ever should've done what we did, whether we really should've gotten married."

Taking a breath, Matt took a moment to calm down; after which, he continued. "I was questioning everything I did, and everything that we've ever said to each other; I felt like I was nothing to you, nothing more than something you used for a home and sex. I didn't feel appreciated, listened to, respected, or like I even had a say in MY OWN DAMN MARRIAGE! And honestly, I have been feeling that way for a while. I even started to think, she actually left me in May when she went to Puerto Rico." Taking another breath, Matt sighed; especially since he knew that this was hard for me to hear (or, I could only assume). "That was even more hurtful. You just left while I was gone. No goodbye, no this is where I'm going. Here's an emergency contact, here's this, there's that. This is how long I'll stay…and I get a text like a week later after being scared out of my mind." Matt then decided to roll over onto his side, as he clearly needed to look at me; something that I understood due to the fact that he was clearly getting worked up, for good reason after what I did.

After how I treated him. I just hope that he was okay with me getting close and hugging him, as that's precisely what I did; and it seemed that he was more than okay with it, as he placed his hand on my arm as we held each other. "Gabby, as much as we were mad at each other at the time; I think we both know that I deserved better than that. I'm your husband, and I should've been told where you were. At least a note, if not a call. Gabby, you were in Puerto Rico right after they had an earthquake; right after we learned that you had an aneurysm that could kill you. Hell, I was still trying to figure that out. There was so much I didn't know. Was it just a pregnancy that can kill you? Or is it something else? Can a falling rock kill you? Can being claustrophobic and hyperventilating kill you? Can heart kill you? I ended up doing midnight research to find all that out, scared out of my mind as to whether my wife would come home on a plane as a passenger…or in a casket." I gulped when I heard Matt say that, clearly able to hear the pure panic in his voice.

Matt's POV: God, I really need to calm down. She can probably hear the panic in my voice, something that she really doesn't need to hear; then again, she needs to know how I felt while she was gone. She needs to hear this, so that she can understand why I was mad at her. Why I said some of the horrible things on text, like when I blew up at her. "Gabby, you have no idea how many nights I stayed up worried sick that I would get that call. And I was worried about all of that Gabby, because I love you god dammit! I love you so much it hurt!" Gabby nodded, while also cuddling up to me and starting to cry; I just didn't know why. "Hey, why you crying?" Taking a breath, Gabby looked up at me. "I'm crying because of how much I hurt you." I nodded, agreeing with Gabby as I bent down and kissed her softly. "Gabby, I'm sorry. I hope you know that I hate yelling at you, and I hate hurting you. But this is the truth, and I believe we need to be completely honest with each other if we want to fix our marriage, fix us." Gabby agreed with me.

After which, I continued once more. "Gabby, I'm sorry I did research behind your back; but you do things like that when you're scared, and worried for your wife. But you know what, that reason…that was something that could've helped us. It could've let us have a baby. Yes, I know loosing Louie hurt you. Gabby, you think I wasn't hurt too? It killed me to have to give him back to Andre, even more than it killed you." Gabby just looked up at me when I said that, quite mad. "DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT! I cried for a week!" I agreed with Gabby, well aware that she cried herself to that. "Oh, it is the truth. And you're going to hear why." However, it seemed that Gabby wasn't going to have it; as she soon rolled over to get out of bed, yet I still said it. "Because not only was I grieving the loss of another child, I was also having to watch my wife; the woman I love more than anything in the entire world, hurt over loosing a child we both love. And Gabby, that was pure torture. That was hell on earth because I love both you and I loved Louie." Gabby then turned around.

She turned to face me again, so that she could listen. "So, Gabby; I'm sorry to say this, but I was hurting more. And that's just something you have to deal with…" Sitting up some more, I looked at my wife. "I was hurting both due to the fact that I had to watch you hurt each and every day, because we lost our son. How hard do you think that was for me? Do you think I liked having to hold you each and every night as you cried yourself to sleep, while also secretly crying behind your back? And since you were really hurt, feeling like I couldn't ask you to help me grieve the loss I was dealing with! Gabby, do you really think THAT was easy?!" Turning around to face me, Gabby looked at me; after which, she took a breath. "I'm going to the washroom." However, I tried to stop her. "Gabby…" But she just stopped me. "I need a breather Matt. Please, just stay there, and we'll keep talking afterwards; I promise. Things are just getting tense and…" Getting up out of bed, I decided that I needed to walk over to my wife right now; and I did just that.

I walked over to Gabby this morning, while taking a breath as I got close to the woman I love; whom I hugged the moment I was close to her, as I could just see that was what she needed right now. While at the same time, I pressed my lips to her forehead. "Of course, I'm sorry babe." Looking up at me, Gabby nodded as she agreed with me. "I know." I smiled as she told me that. "Can we talk more after you go to the washroom?" Gabby agreed with me, smiling as she leaned in and kissed me softly. "We will, I promise." I agreed with my gorgeous wife as she told me that, smirking as I bent down and kissed her one last time. After which, Gabby turned around and walked away to go to the washroom; while I bent down and squeezed her butt as a way to tease her, making her jump in the process. "Matt!" I smirked as Gabby yelled at me for squeezing her ass, but I had no regrets about doing that due to the fact that it was sexy; she was sexy and was now out of my sight…which allowed me to take a breath as I tried to relax.

After all, I just knew that this was not as hard it was going to get. This was the easy stuff (in my opinion), and things are just going to get harder and harder as time goes on. As the tension builds up in here, then things are going to get harder. So, maybe we need to just take it slower with each other and breathe more. But, at least we're talking…and that's all I can ask for. Well, maybe one more thing too. "Gabby, want to take a break after?" Turning to look at me after I asked her that question, Gabby nodded. "Maybe a quick one, where we can do something we haven't done yet?" I smirked and agreed with my girl, wanting that so bad. "Hell yes." Gabby smirked, agreeing with me as she walked away; meanwhile, I walked over to the kitchen to grab us some water ahead of us taking a breather…and making sweet love to each other.