I pace in front of PJ's door, complementing whether I should ask him if he wants to come to the first ultrasound. What if he says no. Go now! My hand hovers over the door handle, suddenly his door opens. I step back in surprise and pretend to look at the schedule.
"Mags, come in, I was just going to get coffee but that can wait. What's up?"
I sigh, knowing I've been defeated. I walk in, the sound of the door clicking shut behind me. I decide to get straight to the point.
"I, my, my first ultrasound is today, you know, where you see the baby, anyway, I was wondering if you'd like to, like to, come?"
His eyes twinkle in happiness and he picks me up and twirls me around.
"Yes, oh my god, yes!"
I giggle when he kisses me passionately.
"Let's go, I wanna see our baby!"
He's like a little boy on Christmas morning.
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We stare up at the black and white picture on the screen.
"Is that our baby?"
A few tears slip down my face when my voice breaks. Happy tears.
PJ's large palm wraps around my tiny one, he leans down and kisses my forehead softly.
"Yes. It looks very healthy. Would you like to know the gender?"
I look up at PJ.
"Yes, we do."
I say softly.
"It's a, girl."
I practically squeal in excitement. A little girl?
PJ's eyes well up with tears. This is the first time I've seen the detective cry. He hugs me tightly not taking his eyes off the screen.
"I hope she'll be as beautiful as you, Mags."
I look up at him as his tears fall.
"Come here."
I reach up to him, hugging him.