I constantly brushing raindrops from little forehead. This rain which has been going on for 2 hours without stopping and scared away all the wild animals of this forest from the traps I set earlier. The cursed rain and thunderstorm just needed to ruin my hunting, for every bill of which I and kasan have been surviving for the last few months after tousan left us because our village continued to recede due to the last war and was not suitable for civilian life.
The filthy asshole didn't just abandon us, but at the same time he took away our last money, and also robbed our neighbors, which is why now we were continuously attacked and bullied a few people of our village.
In the first few weeks, it was unbearable to endure their incessant affront against my mother because, that in opinion of the unsatisfied crowd, it was for us that we robbed them and, in order to quickly divert suspicion from ourselves, purposely made my tousan guilty of all sins.
They considered him innocent only because he and his family had lived in this village all their adult lives and had been the defender of this place during continuous wars.
My immature child's brain could not understand all this subtleties of the dispute between adults and kasan, and only because of this I plead her to told me why these people continue to insult us by shouting that we are thieves and also requiring our immediate departure from the village.
After all kasan explanations, even a six-year-old me could not figure out the logic in villagers since knew that in the last year she and tousan were always arguing because I was called some kind of STRANGE and WEIRD child and should be expelled from village because my presence creates a misfortune that fall on of the villagers shoulders.
It was hard for me to come to handle with idea that almost the whole village hates me and kasan for far-fetched reasons.
All their arguments were based only on, that at six age I was strong enough to lift a weight exceeding my own, and was also able to run fast and jump high.
Even for the few former shinobi in my village, this was regarded as a failures sign.
To be honest, for the first few months I tried not to get out from house so as not to be caught glance from these people. I painfully perceived their words, which is why this woman often had to calm and assure me that they were wrong.
I myself was desperately trying to prove to them that I was an ordinary child and could not be WEIRD because I had no STRANGE signs except bright turquoise eyes that burned in the dark. To my sorrow and misfortune, no one was going to believe in this, and therefore I had to shed bitter tears for hours because I could not find friends among my peers. Everyone hated me simply because I existed, and after tousan left village, suspicions of theft were added to this. But there was only one strange thing, they said that I ate my twin brother.
ATE TWIN BROTHER BECAUSE HE JUST MISSING
I really dont understand what this crap
At this time, was very hard for me because instead of playing in the fresh air, I always sat at home and enviously watched the window as children had fun playing with each other and only kachan presence kept me from complete self-destruction and involuntary sadness.
From thinking about oppressive past, I was brought out by approaching footsteps sound from side where I had set my trap. A small boar with tusks and a shallow wound on its head going straight into the trap.
'Oh this is luck, I hope this wild animal will be less ferocious when it falls into the trap and I will be able to avoid a prolonged and unnecessary fight with a wounded beast.' - I rubbed chin with a slight smile and began to watch keenly as this beast was approaching to trap step by step, which would eventually kill it.
3 steps.
2 steps.
1 step.
After that, I heard a sharp crack and a wild boar squeal, which instantly scare away all the birds hiding from the nonstop rain on the branches.
"GOTCHA" - An unrestrained joy feeling filled my heart because this boar could feed me and kasan for the next months and we would not worry about food. I jumped out from behind the bushes with a festive mood and going towards this boar with a long stick on which a was my sharp kitchen knife. To the boar honour, being upside down and wounded, it continued to rage as if a predator had cornered him and if it stopped this fierce struggle, boar would never be able to run away from this forest.
I just have to wait for right moment when this violent beast loses all will to live and pierce it with my homemade spear, because even with my strength and physique, I will not dare to approach the beast that has been cornered.
That's why I sat down 10 meters from the trap and began to watch how this boar is furiously trying to get out of the deadly situation in which I put it.
"Please, buddy, calm down now, I have to praise you for your unrestrained and belligerent character and will to live, but I don't have much time and should to back home as soon as possible or kasan punish me, so I made the hard decision to kill you here. I'm feel sorry for what I'm going to do now because I fundamentally hate hurting all living beings and I suppose it's wrong, but today I just didn't have the opportunity to set other traps and avoid such actions" - with shaking hands, I made a quick movement forward with spear and whispered in an attempt to calm breathing, but my brilliant eyes probably betrayed me by filling with tears.
'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I really hate myself for this, but if I hadn't done it, I and kasan would have starved to death' - I thought, and with disgust and despair pulled this spear out of boar's head, which had stopped resisting a few seconds earlier
Throwing aside sharp spear, I did not even look at the lifeless beast which I killed and just fell to knees beside to him in an attempt to calm myself and stop the continuous flow of salty tears.
I needed to accept the reality of what was happening because I lived in a world where the war had just ended and all five great villages were still grieving for those they had lost.
To tell the truth, their heartache didn't bother me. Since that the Second Shinobi World War started by great villages destroyed kasan homeland, she had to leave Amegakure with an anxious burden on heart and move to the depths of the Land of Rain.
I just hated WAR essence of the fact that people hurt each other, thereby creating a vicious circle that created even more pain for others.
All this was incorrectly, it should not have been so that people lost their beloved ones and went to the battlefield to take revenge on other innocent people, thereby breaking a new circle of hatred.
And the saddest and most terrible thing was that it was impossible to stop this cycle of hatred.
Quietly I came to my presence and all this negative emotions slowly left me. Or did I make it calm down myself. The angle of my lips twitched slightly because of the warm feeling rise up in my heart that filled it because I would hear her praise.
"I guess she's been tired awaits for me. Most likely, she even started to worry a lot because I spent almost 7 hours in this dense forest. I should get home as soon as possible, I don't want to make her nervous and I sincerely don't want to fall under her hot hand." - muttered to myself with a shudder and climbed up a tree to untie the rope on which the heavy boar was hanging
Calm smile appeared in my face and I untied the knot and boar fell to the ground to make the end of my hunt.
Now all I had to do was take it home and cut boar into many portions.
With great effort, throwing of this small boar on shoulders, I barely got up from knees and going towards village anticipating joy and simultaneous surprise at how much food I could bring home and temporarily drown out the feeling of hunger incessant our village.
"From my calculations, this meat should be enough for exactly 90 days, which means that I will have the opportunity to try to invent new dishes and awaken chakra." - I deduced crossing the bridge under which women were washing things and with sharp eyes looked at me silently expressing their displeasure that I was passing by them.
Subconsciously preparing for new abuse, I just rolled my eyes, passing by them and to big surprise this time they just confined themselves to a couple of holes in my skull, which they burned with their glances.
This behavior was new to me because I was a magnet for any kind of baseless swearing. I basically did not answer any of them, assuming that my response would mean they were right and I was not going to give them pleasure in this way.
That was my nature and outlook on life. Don't hurt the others if you don't want to experience the same yourself. Although recently I have been very aware of the fact that I can certainly fight back against them, I have not left an irresistible feeling to give a few blows at these idiots.
And I also had no desire to upset kasan, who begged me not to respond to all that rudeness in my direction. She considered other people goofy because they judged a person by appearance, and not by behavior and inner world.
"Kaaaa-chaaan I'm home, sorry, I'm late, but this boar did not want to give up so quickly and for a very long time did not lose the will to live, continuing futile attempts to get out of the trap. Give me some time, I need to wash filthy face and rest for a few minutes." - I said exultantly, opening the door with a kick, stunning kachan with boar size on my shoulders.
Without wasting a time, she immediately flew up to me, helping to take off this boar from shoulders and hugging me tightly to her.
"Kou-chan, how many times have I asked you not to take such heavy things. You're still kid to overexert your fragile body. Such weight can have a painful effect on you. You can stop growing because of this" - she objected, whispering in my ear her dissatisfaction with my irresponsible behavior and I could not understand why she was so worried about me.
"But kasan, it not weight at all and I'm not a bit tired..." - I began to excuse myself and it was at this moment that my legs gave way and I had to grab kachan hands so that my face would not meet the wooden floor.
From her expression, which raised an eyebrow, everything happened as she expected.
"That's what I was talking about, sweetie you shouldn't have overstressed yourself, I know that you are abnormally strong for your 6 years, but you are still a child and such loads negatively affect to kid body. You get tired too quickly because of your childish stamina." - she calmly said with sweet voice and stroking my head
I only lowered head timidly and my cheeks blushed from the fact that she was right again in everything I did. It was as if she could see the limits of my body.
However, what should I expect from my most beloved person on earth.
It took my body a few minutes to regain strength, after which I immediately asked her to help me get up and went straight to the bathroom, before that did not forget to take boar to the garden so that during its cutting I would not stain the house with blood
"Kasan, you're doing it completely differently than I showed you. You're stirring this sauce too slowly and not often, that's why the lumps of flour do not have time to spill, after all, as soon as you add milk here, the sauce will cold down and not thicken plus with it along the way, it will lose all its taste because of this" - I demanded standing near to woman at the stove vigilantly watching she trying to repeat the sauce, which I think up with a few days ago, what includes butter, flour and milk.
She without blinking attentively looked at me, but listened to my advice, slowly stirring the flour lumps.
At the same time, I consistently peeled tomatoes and added it to the meat to create a small sweet taste.
I smiled broadly as stirred tomatoes together with meat and spices, I had no idea why I was so skilled in this thing. In kasan opinion in the future I was able to become a high-class chef and try to open own restaurant.
Looks like the recipes of different dishes themselves came into my head, from which I immediately wrote in notebook, and then a notebook, and another, and this notebook was followed by another.
In all passion there was only one big problem that did not contribute to the growth of my cooking skills.
There were too few products that I could use for cooking because of the poverty of our village, where every lbs was valued
And since we conserved on everything and gathering savings from kasan work and the sale of pieces of meat, for the necessary relocation to a favorable place to live.
When finished, knead the meat and tomatoes, only pasta and cream sauce remained to be added to it, which was handled by kachan, who kept muttering to herself something similar, that a small child is not able to know how to cook such dishes and combine so many different flavors in one dish.
"Perfect, what's next, sweetie?" - she added carelessly, sitting down at the table, drinking a glass of water and watching how I skillfully mix all three components of this dish and send it to the preheated oven.
"I guess now we just have to wait, this should be enough for us for a few days, I am sure that this dish will be tasty and edible even in cold, but to be honest, I could hardly restrain from trying each of the three components. My stomach is desperately demanding to fill it with appetizing meat and creamy sauce" - I exclaimed, swinging legs, sitting near to the stove and looking at kasan in usual manner with an unusually stupid smile.
'Should I ask her to help me unlock my chakra? It's was not that I wanna be a ninja, but our village is often attacked by bandits and nukenins and I don't want to be defenseless in front of them. But I also don't want to attract ninja patrols attention who might get me as a potential shinobi. One children in village recently awakened his chakra and a few days later was take away by a Iwa shinobi patrol. Abandon the village and her was not part of my plans. I'll never leave kasan alone'
"Its pointless, I don't feel anything at all, for all these 3 long and tiresome hours, I did not feel any vibration in stomach. Apparently I dont have chakra. Kachan you were a shinobi, weren't you? Have you met people before who didn't have a chakra? That books I have read, it is unclarity wrote that there have be a chakra in all living, since it is responsible for life in the world and help to the development of the body." - I asked her in an unexpectedly calm tone, who began to worry about it.
I didnt bothered with the fact that I didn't have a chakra. Because of this, I have never been able to become a ninja in my life, which would make it much more pleasant and calmer. Without wasting time on useless training, I could concentrate on the ordinary body workouts and stormy imagination, which would definitely help me in inventing new tasty dishes.
Woman looked me with doubt in her eyes and tried to find a lies in my words, but was defeated by not finding signs of disappointment in my words.
"You know, you dont look too upset after opening such circumstances, don't you like other children want to learn how to spew fire and water?" - slowly asked me kachan with caution and anxiety, sitting down near to me, gently stroking my head, ruffling short black hair, not caring at all that it are very naughty.
"No offence, I would really like to learn such things. It would be cool to throw fireballs or create huge tornadoes" - jumping up from seat, I excitedly gesticulate with hands from side to side, so trying to create with the gestures what I just said - "but at the same time, my ambitions would also be at a very serious and huge level. Mayhaps become a kage? Or arrange a revo-re-reval-hmm revolution trying to order the world to forget about wars forever. And since I don't have a chakra, then there is no need for me to worry about such insignificant and unreal things. With this, I can concentrate on something else" - I said without hesitation, approaching kasan and hugging her tightly, making it clear that this state of affairs suits me quite well and there is no need to worry about such trifles.
Actually, with my pacifist nature, not being a shinobi is the best choice for me.
Kasan just smiled at me with snow-white teeth and put chin on my head.
"You're still hated with all those who are associated with ninja, right? I told you that every time that a this profession is very important. They are the defenders of their villages"
"I'm not disgusted with ninjas, I just don't like your stories about wars. What if ordinary ninjas are sent to such wars without their approval? Can shinobi refuse such orders? I wouldn't wanna be the one who, in theory, could have been sent to fight simply because some old man with wrinkles on face wanted to expand the boundaries of his lands. How can they be considered as defenders when they invade a foreign country and destroy it in a few months" - I pulled away from kasan embrace and walked towards the window in disappointment watching the dark sky. Suddenly, anger overwhelmed me when I remembered the few conversations in village that dirty Kumo, Iwa and Konoha ninja fought fierce battles in the Land of Rain.
I really could not understand why people continue needless conflicts and live in a world where innocent need to sacrifice their lives for the sake of the desires of their superiors.
A few moments later, with a sigh, kachan finally tried to find the right words that would change my attitude.
"You have to understand, so, that as soon as people obtain headband of their village, they swear allegiance to their kage and follow every order." - she answered joylessly, crossing arms over her chest, smiling sadly, apparently remembering past when she was just a Amegakure genin.
Frustrated I put head to the glass and closed eyes. I clenched fists in dismay. Why do people need these wars. Wars never change. Wars never bring anything good to this world and only make people lose their loved ones. Even winners do not gain anything good from the war because, like the rest, they lose too many of their people. No matter how many villages are involved in such conflicts, even those who do not take part in it suffer.
Apparently my strange doings was noticed by her and sat down near to me.
"My dear Kou-chan, tell me what's on your mind? I have been trying unsuccessfully to reach you for several minutes now, but you continued to ignore me" - she asked with a note of concern with a frown on her face.
"Nothing, I just hope that as long as I live, there will be no wars, I have no desire to feel unprotected. You know as I don't feel comfortable in these situations." - I quickly improvised answer not wanting to make her worry even more.
My answer satisfied her because she became fully calm and relaxed.
"Kasan, I think I'll go to the lake, I guess I'm tired of eating only meat and I want to catch some fish. You don't have to wait for me, I assume I'll stay and explore that unfamiliar area, it's very likely I'll find something interesting there." - I exclaimed carelessly, grabbing backpack into which I had thoughtfully thrown the things I needed. I also deliberately put on pants and a hoodie with sleeves because of unwillingness to be eaten by insects attracted by rivers and lakes.
Unceremoniously and uncivilly stuffing a whole jam sandwich into mouth without chewing it, I reached the front door with the grace of a cat, opening it with a strong push, almost hitting those who intended to open it from that side.
Looking with expanded eyes at those whom I almost hit, timidly scratching the back head with red cheeks, I gave way to them.
"Where are you in such a rush, Kourai-kun, didn't your kasan tell you that your beloved neighbors are coming to visit you?" - asked woman with an outstretched hand, holding the door so that it would not hit her daughter.
"I'm sorry Hitomi-san, but I once again ignored all her words by delving into the creation of a new recipe. I don't even know what you were planning and that's why I arranged a hike for myself, which I'm going to right now with a great desire. Please don't be angry with me, we will be able to hold many more such holidays. Besides, I don't want to witness your female talks, goodluck Hitomi-san, Na-chan" - I said with extremely loud voice, throwing a rather bulky and heavy backpack on shoulders, quickly running out of the house without giving them opportunity to convince me.