Chapter 9 Ayano Aishi: What the fuck did just happen?

How and Why did this happen? I got the teacher immediately and the nurse came too and they carried the girl to the infirmary.

I asked what had happened and they told me that the Girl just fainted from exhaustion. Her Twin sister had died a few months prior and now she had it rough.

I can understand that. The thought of father or mother being hurt unsettles me and if-Forbid it!-any of them died, I am sure with a terrifying certainty, that I would go mad.

The girl woke up and asked for my name, I told her and apologized to her again. She didn´t think I hurt her and wanted to get the planchet. I told her about the planchet and suddenly she winced. What did I do wrong this time? Ugh I need to somehow console her. Wait she lost her sister, but the sisters spirit is still there and I saw something in some anime! YES! The anime!

Okay, so I told her that she could rebuild a body for her sister. She suddenly looked so hopeful and I got the urge to hug her… um ..what?...and I thought I said the right thing? No I didn't! She fell unconscious again. Now I was really hectic.

I apologized to the nurse and said that I did not want to hurt Homu chan.

The nurse said that is wasn´t my fault and that Homu chan was just going through a lot and that she would recover. I felt calmer again.

However I couldn´t focus much at school anymore that day…

I had much on my mind. Ghost are real. That means there must be demons and curses too. An there is a curse I need to investigate. Namely the AISHI CURSE. It … concerns me.

However Homu chan really needs my help. I need to look after her. Seeing her fall unconscious was unsettling, somehow I now I feel the urge to protect her like my family. Strange, I only felt that way for my family before. Does that mean that I see Homu chan as family? Like a sister? Or am I seeing her as a future friend?

Then there is also the issue of emotions. I felt like what little feelings I had were churning like never before. It reminded me of the feeling of the dam of repressed emotions. I can´t let it open because then I would lose function and harm my reputation, my parents and the people at school would think of me as crazy and that would be bad.

I am really disappointed, I always thought I lacked emotions, but now I know I'm actually repressing many of them. I also I still don't really know how to release them. This is much worse than I previously thought. Eventually I need to do something about it, but only when I can safely rest a while.

I also felt Guilt? That is new. But if it is true, then it is a good sign. Father would be happy to know. However today's events were too confusing to explain to my father, I need to wait some time until I can say with certainty what is going on.

My parents probably noticed that I was deep in thought that evening, but fortunately they did not press on the matter. I went to sleep and dreamed of two blueish green haired girls that looked at me sadly. I gave them some metal scraps and chemicals and they took them and nodded at me with blank expressions.

The next day I immediately went to look for Homu chan at school. I found her and while her face was still blank, her eyes looked a lot more lively today. Good.