Chapter 31 Joho Teikyosha: Apologizing and reconciling with my father

Arrgh..what did just happen? I woke up in the Hospital and my head hurt a lot. It was bandaged.

I had made this mazing plan with Ayano- chan, and then I would use the man who sired me as a bait, and everything went according to plan-

What did happen then? I can't remember!

But it must have gone well, because I am still alive…right?

Oh there she is. Ayano chan.

"Hello Joho-chan, you got a concussion, went unconscious and then you went asleep. It was not too severe though and you should be fine next Monday. But be careful though."

"What happened?

Then the man who- no Father was standing near my bed, he is my father after all. Now I remember it clearly. Ryoba wanted to kill him, and I suddenly felt regret. Still feel regret for using him as bait. I could have accidentally gotten him killed!

So I rushed in to protect him. How foolish of me! If it wasn't for Ayano chan, I would have been killed.

My Father, it still feels weird to refer to him like this, he told me all about that had happened.

After I was knocked out, Ayano chan talked and argued with her mother and then my Father peppersprayed her and now Ryoba Aishi will be rotting in the insane asylum.

I felt awful for using my father as a bait. I needed to tell him the truth. Even if he will hate me, I must do it.

"Father, there is something I need to tell you about."

He looked at me.

"I´m sorry for using you as a bait. I could have gotten you killed if it wasn't for Ayano-chan! I wanted to have my revenge on you and Ryoba Aishi ! I was wrong! I´m so sorry!"

He hugged me. What!

"I don´t care, you still helped us detain her. I did not care about this, I was going to either arrest her or die trying. I don't blame you for disliking me. I must have been a really shitty father to you…"

"Understatement of the century…Father...You really hurt me! I was all alone!"

"I´m sorry, my daughter. I did not have the strength left to care for you or even myself. However there was no excuse for my actions. I should have done better. I know you will probably not believe me, but I promise you that I will care for you from now on. You won't have to be on your own. I love you."

I cried. Usually I never cried. (When I was little I cried in despair, but that is too painful to think about right now…) But now the repressed feelings came to the surface and I felt safe to let them out for the first time in a long time. This time the crying felt good. Hugging dad felt so good too.

I felt much more optimistic than ever before. Ayano chan was not as wrong as I thought, you can actually change things, if you do it right. Maybe my thoughts were too harsh.

I asked my father for food and he brought it me. Amazing.

Then Father told me that he wanted to know more about me and I told him that I like money and photography, no need to show my more unsavoury side to him yet. I am similar to him in many ways actually, pretty interesting.

Maybe we can enjoy our photography hobby together in the future, that would be great.