I remember him.
I will always remember him.
His laugh. His smile. His curls. His pure heart. His body. His voice.
The way he sang, smiled, danced.
I remember everything about him and I always will.
The others say they get how I feel but they don't really do. Maybe Rachel but no one really does. It's just a saying and everyone knows that. Sure it's hard for them too but I can't breath. Someone took my breath away, my heart away, my world away.
I remember him sitting at my hospital bed, holding my hand and not letting go when I got bashed.
I remember holding his just as tight because I knew how much this influenced his mental health.
I remember when he told me how he got bashed back then.
But we knew we would be okay because both times the bad guys got locked up and it won't happen again.
But it did and this time it didn't end in a hospital bed with some broken ribs or something. No. This time it ended in death.
Blaine is gone and nothing can bring him back. Back to us. Back to me.
Only memories left. Memories that I and everyone will hold close forever and pass on to our loved ones. Blaines and Finns.
Only 8 months ago I lost Finn but I was there for Rachel and Blaine was there for me, helping me through the loss of my brother. And now he died too.
The love of my life. That's what Blaine was. Is. And always will be.
Life goes on and I will live for the both of us, not hiding and instead fighting, my friends and family having my back and helping me go through this difficult time but it'll never be the same. Not without him. So for now I will lay in bed and cry.
My bed. Our bed. Without Blaine it seems too big, too cold, too lonely. Lonely yes. I feel alone even tho I'm not and never will be. But I feel like that because I lost the one person who didn't left my side for the past four years for better or worse.
I will remember Blaine.
Now.
Tomorrow.
Always.
Forever.