All property belongs to SM, I own nothing except my filthy mind.

The first time it happened it was an accident.

The second, was confusing.

The third, was frustrating.

The fourth; well, that was amazing.

The first time

Everyone had left to go hunting this week. I know they must go, but do they all have to go at the same time? Normally they'd be back within a few hours, but this time they'd gone farther than normal, so it takes longer for them to get back home. And it is really quiet up here!

I am seriously bored. Usually, I'd be happy enough for some time on my own. Living in a house with 6 other people could get hectic, but as they'd been gone for 3 days already, I was in real need of a something to do. Unfortunately, as I was on my own, wine and books will have to do for now. They weren't due back for another day at least, so I've got the entire night here. I'm not going home, Charlie's gone fishing so it's just as quiet there. Although I rarely go home these days anyway. Charlie and Sue live down in La Push most of the time and I'd rather be here on my own than at Charlie's.

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Everything changed after my 18th birthday party, but it was for the better, despite what we originally thought. Once we got over the initial shock of the papercut and the ensuing chaos, Edward made the decision that I would be safer without them around. Carlisle had patched me up and after Edward had taken me home, he told everyone that I'd asked them all to leave. They'd spent the entire night arguing about it, to which I was oblivious until I arrived the next morning and they were still at each other's throats, figuratively speaking. Well mostly. I walked in the front door and heard very loud voices from the kitchen. Why they always chose to use the kitchen for family meetings and discussions was beyond me, I was the only reason that room got used.

They hadn't even noticed I'd walked in the house. Seeing that I wasn't going to be able to yell to get their attention, I took a seat at the table, pulled out a book and waited. It really only took like 5 minutes for someone to notice me sitting there just calmly reading a book whilst they were in the middle of this heated discussion, but for a room full of vampires with enhanced senses, 5 minutes is a long time. When I could feel a set of eyes on me, I looked up and saw Rose standing a few feet away from me, arms folded in front of her, with a smirk on her face watching me. It was a chain reaction after that with each one slowly realising that I was even there.

"Bella!" Edward said in surprise "Wh… When did you get here?"

Closing my book, I looked up at them all "I think it was around the time someone mentioned sending me to Florida." I sent a pointed look in Edward's direction. He at least had the decency to look a tiny bit abashed at that.

"Love, I'm just trying to think of you" I barked out a laugh at that "No you aren't Edward. You keep telling me you are with everything that you make me do or stop me from doing. But it's for you"

Emmett, Alice, Esme and even Carlisle had all been protesting them leaving, which I wasn't really surprised about, but the biggest surprise was Rose and Jasper agreeing with them. I didn't really know either of them, Jasper I understood staying away from me because of the whole bloodlust thing. When the topic of the previous night came up, the volume increased again I had to slam my book on the table to get them to listen. Their heads turned in shock, Rose again smiling at me as they quietened.

"Jasper, tell me what you're feeling right now please" He looked at me for a second before responding.

"Well, there's a fair amount of frustration from everyone, irritation from Edward, a lot of love all around and amusement from Rose"

I nodded "Ok, and what about any thirst?"

He seemed to catch on quickly, as did Rose and Emmett "Yeah, of course"

"Where is it strongest?" Carlisle's head tilted in understanding as I asked this.

"From Edward" Jasper turned his head towards Edward, and by the look on Edwards's face I assume Jasper was saying something in his mind as he answered my question.

"Exactly. Now even I don't need to be a vampire to appreciate that feeling so many emotions from 7 vamps living in one house is a lot at the best of times, but when you include the fact that I'm human, and a clumsy one, it would be inevitable that I would cut myself eventually" I looked at Edward for the next part "especially when I'm the singer for one of those vampires. Edward, can you even imagine what that felt like for Jasper? And I'm sorry but you made it worse by throwing me." He went to speak but I continued "I know, you thought you were doing the best thing, and if you'd done that with a non-human no problem, but I'm not. I break when I get thrown into a tower of glass. Please stop blaming Jasper for how he reacted. One it was entirely natural for any of you to react that way, but don't forget he's an empath – it's multiplied for him."

"Thank you!" Rose exclaimed "We've been trying to get him to understand this all night"

Edward took a moment, and you could see the moment that he realised we were right. We spent the next few hours talking about what would happen next. It took some convincing, but he eventually recognised how much they'd all become an integral part of my life, as I had in theirs, and none of us wanted us to be separated. As his only 'weakness' was my blood, he opted to head to Alaska for the meantime with a plan to return when I was turned. Initially I argued against it as I felt like I was sending him away from his family, but as they all reminded me a few human years was nothing to them and it's not like we wouldn't be in contact with him.

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It had been over 2 years since he'd left, and in that time, I'd gotten to know Jasper much better. Thankfully he didn't have any issues being around me without Edward lurking in the background. Edward had put so little faith in Jasper and his ability to be around people, not comprehending that Edward himself was the issues – especially once I came into the picture. His determination to resist sucking me dry had Jasper constantly on edge which therefore meant that Edward kept Jasper and me apart. Rose had become a fast friend. Rose was the first to tell me she didn't want to leave Forks. She admitted she had no issues with me, it was Edward and his attitude. It was surprising how much more I learnt about the family once he left, I knew the only ones mated were Esme and Carlisle. I'd understood once they explained that it was easier for everyone if humans thought they were coupled up the in the traditional sense, so they'd alternated with who was single in the 'public eye' over the years. And as for the reveal of Alice & Rose bring together, I wasn't as surprised as I expected when I was officially told. I was however confused as to why they felt I could be fully aware of them being vampires and their lives around that, but they didn't divulge that little bit of info. No one had a good answer for that one. I just assumed it was Edward not wanting to 'expose me' to lesbianism… Victorian prude that he was. Rose was able to ground Alice when she got carried away. Which I loved her for! I do love Alice, but she's just a bit much at times. The great thing about having Rose as an ally now was her backing me up when I said no to Alice. Which happened more these days, much to Alice's chagrin.

Anyway, they've all gone hunting so I'm left to my own devices. Since we're on summer break, I'm pretty much living here. Esme was kind enough to allocate me the spare room as my own, so I had my own space when needed.

So, whilst I'm here by myself, I decided to read which is not unusual, but whilst they're 'away', I get to read something more… exciting than anything Edward would have approved of. This is why I have a Kindle. I love a physical book, I have plenty of them, but everyone can see what kind of book is being read. This allows me some semblance privacy, which in a house full of vampires is rather rare.

I'd just finished a series about a motorcycle club that had just enough action, heat and romance in it, and the same author had released another series which I'd been eager to start on.

I'd just finished the first book when I realised it was late. I should probably sleep, but after that book, it wasn't happening anytime soon. I headed upstairs anyway and reached for a box underneath the bed.

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Rose gave me this box just before I turned 19. She'd had it specially built for me when she'd caught Alice going through my things once trying to get rid of the things (like clothes and accessories) that she thought I shouldn't have. We knew it wasn't malicious, but I already didn't have any actual privacy when it came to using the bathroom and my sleep talking, but at least they gave me some semblance of privacy. Well except Emmett when I'd been talking in my sleep. But to have my things looked through and 'edited' got me really angry. Seeing as I couldn't physically hurt her without hurting myself, and my words had no effect on her, I took my frustrations out on other things she likes. She'd gone hunting with Emmett and Rose so whilst they were gone, I made my way into her room and grabbed a pair of her shoes. Now I wasn't so cruel to grab any of her favourites but ones I knew she preferred. I walked back down the stairs and to the garage, passing Jasper in the hallway

"Umm, Bella, what're you doing with Alice's shoes?" he asked looking at me with a questioning glance.

"I'm admiring them Jasper what does it look like" I threw at him sarcastically as I stomped past him into the kitchen. He followed me as we passed Carlisle and Esme in the lounge, who had also turned to follow as they heard my comments.

I moved outside to the patio and threw the shoes on the outdoor counter and opened the box. Setting them on the side I lit the grill and grabbed some tongs. Gripping the stilettos, I held one over the flame. Now I am fully aware that this sounds entirely psychotic, however you try thinking of a way to get through to a future seeing vampires who you can't punch when she's overstepped, won't listen to any of your protests, complaints, plans, ideas, or reprimands. This was the only way to get through to her and I know these shoes are replaceable. This is purely to make her understand how annoyed I was.

I heard gasps from behind me as Esme started to move forward, I assume to stop me. I turned to look at the three of them stood behind me "Don't Esme, she needs to understand a few things."

"No dear, I just wanted to close the windows. The smell." She moved past me to the windows whilst Carlisle closed the back door. Jasper stood to my right and as I turned to him, I noticed the smirk on his face.

"What?" I asked as I turned back to the shoe and inspected it.

"You, I like this version of Bella." His smile broadened as he tilted his head in the direction of the top end of the yard as he stepped behind me. Alice, Rose, and Emmett were making their way towards us. From the way they were moving I didn't think they'd figured out what was going on just yet, but I knew it wouldn't be long before they realised.

"Have they noticed anything yet?" I asked Jasper quietly. He shook his head as he looked at them

"Not yet. And I can't sense any distress from Alice yet either."

'Hmm, she really can't see everything I decide can she' I thought. I continued what I was doing and waited patiently for someone to notice.

Jasper suddenly chuckled next to me. I looked up at him "Emmett can smell it" he laughed.

Before I even had chance to look up Rose and Emmett were next to me, and Alice had stopped a few feet away.

"What the hell is that Bells?" Emmett's face was scrunched up as he peered over my shoulder.

"Ewww, why're you cooking a shoe?!" He took few steps back with his comment.

Rose still hadn't said anything but stood there with a look I couldn't quite figure out, part smirk, part shock, part pride? I tore my eyes away from them however and focused on Alice. She still hadn't moved from the spot a few feet away and was opened mouthed staring at the shoe in my hands. Without looking away from her, I moved the shoe to the counter and put the tongs down. Folding my arms, I waited for Alice to meet my eyes.

"Alice" I called after a few minutes when she hadn't. Her eyes flitted to mine. "Yes, you're going to be pissed that this happened. However, I'm hoping you learn something from this."

She balked at my statement "Learn something? What the fuck does that mean?" She cried "What the hell has gotten into you Bella?"

She moved quickly standing in front of me, and I felt Jasper pull me back into his chest as she got close. I have to admit she looked furious, and I felt a flash of fear run through me. It disappeared as fast as it appeared, I sent Jasper gratitude in response. Logically I knew she wouldn't actually hurt me, but hello – human near angry vampire – fear is a natural response.

I straightened my back and stood tall as I responded "Alice, you keep overstepping on so many things. You choose my clothing, how I do my hair, what I should do with my time, you've tried to choose my career, and just yesterday you were fond going through my things to throw out what you didn't like. Just how much of my stuff have you thrown out? Do you even know what it feels like to have everything in your life dictated? You keep trying to control everything, but you never stop to consider how someone feels, well fuck you Alice, I'm sick of being told how to behave, I'm not a damn child!" My voice got louder with each word until I was shouting at her.

I'd moved away from Jasper and the others and was stood right in front of her as I finished. I could feel the tears pooling in my eyes and I angrily swiped them away. Taking a deep breath, I tried again "You have to stop Alice, you're being exactly like Edward was and you know how I felt about that." Even I could hear the waiver in my voice. "I love you and you're my sister, but do you have any idea how betrayed I felt when you'd been going through my things? I'm already in a house full of super-beings that know every single move my body makes, I don't need to be monitored or controlled in what I like to wear or do" I hadn't lost eye contact with her since I started, and I noticed that her expressions had softened as she truly listened to my words.

"Bella…" She started, but I shook my head slightly "Please let me finish." I asked. She nodded.

"If I had been in this situation with any human, my reaction would be to hit them. The problem is if I try that with you then I end up the one hurt. And I've tried to tell you, no actually I have told you, that I need you to stop but you don't listen. As crazy as this plan is, and yes, it's certifiable, it's the only way I could essentially make you listen to me properly."

As I got to the end of my tirade, I suddenly had a small set of arms wrap around me hugging me tightly.

"I'm sorry Bella, truly. You are the best sister I could have asked for, and from now on I'll do better. I promise." She pulled back to look me in the eyes with her final words and it was as if a weight had been physically lifted from me as the tension left my body. I didn't have chance to slump into a chair as two sets of arms caught mine. Rose went to Alice as Esme and Carlisle held me to them.

Alice took another look at her shoes, one burnt and one in perfect condition "Well that's a reason to go shopping if there ever was one." She claimed in her usual Alice manner.

"Not that one is ever needed" Rose remarked back at her with a smile.

I couldn't help but burst out laughing at her still being able to find a way to go shopping.

"You're coming with Swan, don't think you get out of it" She informed me, but before I could respond she finished "But I won't be buying you anything unless you agree, I swear."

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Anyway, back to now and the box. It wasn't made from anything vampire proof, but I guess the premise of the box itself was enough to stop anyone snooping in it. She'd explained there was some sort of hermetic seal on it so they couldn't tell what was on the inside by smell, and it only opened with my fingerprint, but even that had to have warmth behind it, blood pumping through my veins. (Did I mention how much I love that woman?)

Yes, they could have smashed it, but after the aforementioned outburst with Alice, they all made more of an effort to give me more privacy at times. Particularly leaving me alone in the house to be able to enjoy a few things in peace.

At first, there were the usual basic things I kept in there, little personal items I wanted to keep for myself but as time went on, I started keeping other stuff in there that I wanted to keep to myself. Some of my racier books, bits of lingerie that Alice had picked up that I truly liked, and some other… items of a much more personal nature.

Ok, so Alice and Rose knew I had them as they were with me when we purchased them, but I didn't need anyone else knowing exactly what I had.

As much as I hadn't had actual physical sexual contact with anyone, I knew what an orgasm was. They may have been solo, but I knew enough about myself to be satisfied. This is what's hidden underneath my bed these days. A couple of toys and some racier pieces of underwear that Rose helped me pick out. Granted I had no one to wear these for, but I just really liked them at the time.

I was worked up after the book and wanted to relive the need for 'something', I lay back and recalled parts of the book that fit my mood. Imagining they were being done to me. I had no face to the hands, but imagined strong arms and hands running over me, teasing my skin, running over my thighs, parting them as fingers trailed up my torso over my stomach, dragging my t-shirt as they reached my breasts, massaging them and teasing my nipples.

Bringing one hand back down to my underwear, my fingers teasing as my other hand reached for the bullet. 'God I was wetter than I thought'

Switching it on, I quickly found the spot at my clit that had me suddenly shivering and panting heavily. Groaning, my left hand found its way to my breast, pinching my nipples, setting off my first orgasm. Blindly reaching to my side I grabbed the dildo and still feeling the effects of my orgasm, slid it inside me, a loud moan leaving my lips with a sigh. I altered my position slightly and began sliding it in and out of me, gently moving the bullet to allow my hands to reach where I needed. Altering the speed of the bullet had my back arching, changing the angle of the dildo. I could feel so much more, the pressure just right, hitting my g-spot.

Maintaining the pressure of the dildo, I increased the speed of the bullet once more, and seconds later felt everything wash over me. Moaning loudly, I let go of the dildo, reaching for my nipple again, crying out as the finality of my orgasm hit me. Spasms wracked my lower body, my legs feeling weak and jelly like. Laying there, feeling sated, all I could hear was my laboured breathing slowly returning to normal.

Suddenly there was a distant noise of a window opening. Panic instantly hit me, and I wrapped the sheet from my bed around me. I turned my head to the window, and I just caught the sight of the trees moving in one corner of the back yard.

Someone had just left the house.

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Fuck.