HINATA
"I think we will go with horror this evening," says Kageyama. I remove my bottoms focusing on myself.
"I don't know if I am in the mood to hear people dying," I reply.
"It will be one of those dumb ones," he replies. "The one that makes us laugh." I slide on my shorts also going commando. Mid as well be comfortable. I fold my clothes setting them on top of my desk. I walk back over to Kageyama sitting on the side of my bed.
"I don't want to do drama," I reply. I am dealing with that enough considering I just broke up with Miya. "Can we watch some volleyball related stuff."
"Really?" asks Kageyama. I crawl further back into my bed moving the covers back.
"Well yeah," I reply. "I want to watch something that will lighten my mood." Kageyama turns to face me.
"Are you in a bad mood?" he asks. I don't want Kageyama to know what happened. For a second I thought he heard our breakup but I guess not.
"No," I reply. "I'm not in a bad mood but I would like to be in a funnier mood. When will we get the chance to have a sleepover again." Kageyama chuckles.
"Fair point," he replies standning. "Did you want lay on the futon or your bed?"
"We can lay here for now," I reply. "Besides we can see the screen better from up here. So who's team did you want to watch? Mine or yours?" Kageyama gets under my covers.
"Let's start with yours," he replies. "We can save the best for last."
"Oh whatever," I chuckle as Kageyama goes to YouTube pulling up my team. It is still surreal to me that we both are in the league. I was really hoping that Kageyama and I was going to be on the same team but I guess that wasn't in the cards for us. The one perk is I will finally get to faceoff against him. I can truly test my skills. I haven't done that since middle school since we were on the same team throughout high school and college.
"What you thinking about back there?" asks Kageyama.
"Huh?" I say turning towards him. He gives a small smile.
"I can tell you were thinking," he replies.
"Nothing much," I admit. "Just about how I will get to play against you for the first time since middle school." Kageyama nods.
"I'm excited but also scared," he says surprising me.
"You are?" I ask.
"Yeah," he sighs. "I always felt like you were meant to be my partner. It feels weird knowing we won't be playing beside each other anymore."
"We will once we make the olympic team!" I exclaim sitting up on my knees. I grab his hand holding it up so he can see. "Nothing will break our bond. Not even being on opposing teams!" Kageyama begins to smile. I release his hand settling back down. Kageyama and I watch someour team's overviews. The full games are never on YouTube for the sake of copyright. How annoying. Once we are done with that Kageyama selected some action. I have no idea. I ended up drifting off to sleep on his shoulder.
I awake to see it is completely dark in my old room. Kageyama is laying beside me asleep. He must have turned off the TV. I rub my eyes sitting up. Should I go on a bathroom break? Mid as well so I don't have to go later. I'm going to have to climb over Kageyama as my bed is in the corner of the room. I move the comforter off me quietly before straddling Kageyama swiftly moving to the floor. Man that was way too much activity for this time of night. I head into the hallway making my way to the bathroom. I don't even bother cutting the lights on. If I do I will be wide awake. Knowing my childhood home has it perks. I use the bathroom with my mind going over this evening.
Miya and I are no longer together. While this sucks I think did I really do the right thing. It feels like I did. The stress of being around Kageyama and not having to worry about Miya getting upset is nice. I think back to the way Kageyama stared at me this evening. He still loves me. Would returning his love be so terrible. I feel my cheeks heat up. That thought alone made my heart flutter, made me euphoric. He is someone I could spend the rest of my life with without thinking twice. I have to be sure. I can't hurt Kageyama again. I head out of the bathroom and back to my room. I sigh before climbing over Kageyama. I lay on my side getting comfortable as I stare at him. Kageyama mumbles before turning his head. He is still sleeping soundly. I stare at Kageyama watching him sleep for a moment. My eyes begin to water as I reach my hand out touching his long strand.
"I don't know why this was so hard for me" I whisper. "You mean so much to me. From that day in middle school you were always going to be in my life." I slide my hand into his. "I didn't think this would ever happen. I….." My voice trails off. "I love you Tobio. I love you so much." Kageyama fingers close around mine.
"Shoyo," he whimpers with sleep in his voice. He hasn't opened his eyes. "Do you mean it?"
"Yes," I reply with my voice shaking. I'm not going to run from my emotions anymore. "I love you Tobio…." The room is silent for a moment. I closed my eyes because it was the only way I could say how I truly feel about him. "It took me realizing how I want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side. If I had to choose who to be with this very second it would be you."
"Oh Shoyo," says Kageyama before kissing me. I can't deny the fact that I feel like I am melting into him. Kageyama lets go of my hand cradling my face before breaking the kiss. "You have no idea how much this means to me."
"I do," I whisper back placing my hand on top of his. Kageyama has never left my side. He went on with his life but his heart stayed with me. I don't love him because he loves me but because who he is. He has never changed. Not even after we had sex. The only thing that changed was his feelings for me. Kageyama kisses me again. This quickly turns into a make out session. Kageyama rolls me on my back with his hand going up my shirt. I moan into the kiss slowly spreading my legs allow him to feel my excitement. "Tobio…." He is so hard and ready to take me. I slide my hands into his hair making him groan. I pant continuing to roll my hips. Kageyama slides my shorts off revealing my bare legs. He rises my shirt beginning to kiss my chest, down my stomach. My hands stay in his hair not leaving. I glance down at him feeling my insides twist in pleasure. I'm panting because I know what those lips are about to taste me.
"Bless me," whines Kageyama before taking my arousal between his lips. I sigh before moaning. He hollows out his cheeks sucking my grudally. Kageyama is taking his time. He is leaving no area untouched. I can't deny this feels better than anything we have done before thus far. Maybe it is because it has been so long. So different from what I experienced with Miya. Kageyama is groaning lustfully as he takes me all the way into his mouth. I love how his voice sounds as if he is experiencing my pleasure for the first time ever.
"Hahhh….." I cry out. His head begins to bob swiftly. I arch my back allowing myself to feel my built up desires instantly. I don't know if Kageyama's skills have improved or if it is from not feeling his lips on my dick in months. I'm so glad we are alone as I sing his praises swaying my hips. Kageyama left arms slides under my leg with his hand grabbing the side of my hip. My eyes rolls into the back of my head enjoying the pleasure he is letting me feel. My hand massages his scalp hearing him moan sweetly. I grumble lowly feeling my arousal twitch inside his warmth.
My mind goes back to that night at the cabin. That familiar connection is building up within me. I slide my hand down grabbing Kageyama's hand lacing our fingers together. My hips continue to sway. I groan as my orgasm threathens to overtake me. Not yet, not yet…. I whimper as Kageyama tightens his mouth. He must know I am nearing the end of my rope. He certainly doesn't care. He wants me to climax in his mouth. He allows my tip to get air giving me hope that he is going to allow me to finish with him inside of me. I breathe heavily trying to catch my breath. This doesn't last long. He licks around my crown. Moaning I try to speak but Kageyama swallows me whole. He is deep throating me as if trying to save my life. My grip in his hand tightens. My eyes squeeze shut as I howl. My arousal is twitching inside his mouth, ready for release. I buck my hips my voice hitting high notes I didn't know was possible.
"Tobio…..I want to feel you…please…." I moan deeply following my statement. My body tenses in a way that makes me hiss trying not to release. It's been too long since I felt him. I don't know how much longer I can hang on. "P-please…..haaa….." I gasp before groaning loudly. Kageyama lifts his head.
"Eager aren't we," says Kageyama before kissing the inside of my thigh. I whine in response. My senses feel heightened. "Where is your lube?"
"Nightstand," I reply. I sit up removing my shirt as Kageyama grabs the lube. Kageyama sits the lube and condom on the bed. I glance at the items before looking at Kageyama as he pulls his shirt over his head. He drops his shorts his erection greeting me. I smirk climbing up on my knees and crawling to the edge of the bed. I hum before taking his dick into my mouth.
"Shoyo….ahhhh" moans Kageyama. It feels so good to be able to taste him again. I bob my head twisting as his pleasure feels as good for me too. I decide to go with no hands allowing my mouth to do all the work. As much as I want to watch him, see his face twisted up in pleasure. This is more important. My eyes are closed as I greedily suck on his dick. I don't want to lose this connection. I need it. I want it. I want it with Kageyama. This has to be what love feels like because I have never been this emotional when having sex before. Is this even sex or are we making love at this point. I drop my head trying to catch my breath. My dick is throbbing for release.
"God I love you so much," I whimper. I feel embarrassed because at this moment I realize how much I was rejecting my emotions regarding him. All because I wanted things to work out with Miya. I wanted to be with him for long. We were finally together and it was nothing I thought it would be. I feel like crying because I put Miya and Kageyama through so much. I know Kageyama heard me confess my love for him once more. He lifts my head before kissing me passionately.
"I love you too," he says against my lips before he kisses me with everything in him. I wrap my arms around his neck as he lightly uses his body to lay me down on the bed. I spread my legs feeling his warmth making me sigh into our kiss. I bend my back as Kageyama hand travels down the side of my body stopping at the side of my ass. He rolls his hips giving me a taste of what is to come. Kageyama hand leaves me to grab the lube. My hands slide into his hair not wanting us to even part for a minute. Kageyama moans leaning over as he rubs lube all over his dick. He hums beginning to lube up my entrance.
"Yes," I reply lowly. Kageyama whimpers lining up at my entrance. I move one hand from out of his hair. I slide under his arm touching his lower back. "Tobio…." I rub my nose against his as he sways his hips. Kageyama and I both moan. I pant trying to calm my body. I have never had raw sex before. This is amazing. I feel closer to Kageyama instantly. I tremble at feeling him for the first time in months. Kageyama moans dropping his head for a moment. I don't move knowing he is trying to gather himself. I close my eyes realizing I am indeed feeling everything. It feels incredible.
Kageyama finally looks back up at me. He rubs his nose against mine. He finally sways his hips making me gasp. The warmth, the feel of him. Kageyama kisses me continuing to rock his hips. I rock my own hips with us gaining rhythm together. It feels like we are in trance. Kageyama groans into my mouth. I begin to pant fighting to keep the rhythm we have going. My hand in his hair begins to grip those strands as my body trembles. I gasp as my body is heating up.
"T-Tobio…." I stammer. My hand tightens on his lower back. "Oh god….aaagghhh….." I didn't even have a chance to tell him I'm reaching my peak. My body tightens on and off as my cum is wetting us both. I howl as the pleasure continues to take me. Kageyama doesn't change his movement. His pace stays the same. I gasp trying to get air into my lungs as my hips buck slightly. "Haaa…..hahh…." I can feel his eyes on me. Kageyama moans.
"It's your love for me that has you cumming like that," he whispers before kissing me for a moment. My eyes roll back into my head as I feel him traveling deeper inside. I moan loudly as I think he is right. Love is a very strong emotion. I feel drained after that orgasm. I'm fighting my body to stay in this moment with Kageyama. His body is tensing and becoming damp as he makes my body rock. My head tilts back up with Kageyama immediately kissing my neck. He starts moaning loudly with his body quivering. I lift my head turning my nose into his cheek.
"You can cum…." I moan. Kageyama voice squeaks which I have never heard before. The jolt I feel inside me has my walls throbbing. "Fuck…..hhahhh….." Kageyama gasps with his hips continuing the pace he had since we began.
"Shoyo…." he whines touching my prostate. "Ahh…..haa…..aaagghhh…." Kageyama hips snap just a little trying to feel all he can.
"That's it, Tobio…." I cry. "That's it….ahhh….." Knowing he is touching my spot as he orgasms. I'm not climaxing but it certainly feels like I am. Kageyama and I moan loudly as I feel his release filling me up. Kageyama and I keep moving until we can't anymore. We read each others movements as we always do. I rest into the pillow as Kageyama lays his head on my shoulder.
"Hmm…got to be careful pulling out," he says out of breath.
"Oh yeah," I reply. "There is that." We both share a laugh.
"I'm going to roll onto my side," explains Kageyama. "I think that might help." My afterglow is sweeping in. Somehow what he is saying isn't making sense to me. Kageyama rolls on his side with us laughing.
"Oh my god," I chuckle. "Just keep going." Kageyama rolls onto his back. I careful shift sitting up right. I stare down at him as his eyes are close.
"God you are squeezing me," he replies.
"Trying to keep them juices in," I chuckle. Kageyama laughs before opening his eyes. We stare at each in tense silence. I slide my right hand into his lacing our fingers together.
"Hi," he says. I tilt my head.
"Hi," I reply. Kageyama smiles.
"You have no idea how happy I am right now," he states.
"Oh I do," I moan feeling him grow hard inside of me. "Tobio…." I can't even explain how it feels when someone goes from soft to hard inside of you. It feels so damn good. Moaning I sway my hips. How can I not when he is ready for round 2. Kageyama grabs my thighs.
"Shoyo….shitttt…" he cries out arching his back.
"Um hm…." I hum. Kageyama and I end up having sex. We weren't going to waste a good moment. I get cleaned up after that. We end up sleeping before making love once more in the morning. I am laying on Kageyama chest when I hear his phone vibrating. Kageyama groans reaching for it on the nightstand. He glances at the phone before sitting it back down. "You're not going to answer that."
"It's Keiji," he says slowly.
"Oh…." I reply.
"I'm not dating him," he replies.
"I know you aren't," I reply. I can tell Kageyama feels guilty. He may be firm but he doesn't like purposely hurting anyone.
"He wanted to see me last night," explains Kageyama. "You know, finishing school and everything."
"Yeah….Miya had something planned for me as well," I reply. I feel guilty myself because it is clear these guys care for us. Kageyama glances at me. "What?"
"It's nothing," he replies. "I just want to enjoy my time with you."
"It's not like I am going anywhere," I laugh. "Okay maybe practice."
"There is that," says Kageyama.
"Tobio, are planning to stay with Asahi?" I ask. "Um did you plan to move out of the house?" Kageyama has his arm wrapped around my waist. I feel so relaxed. I am in no rush to cook breakfast.
"I don't know," says Kageyama thoughtfully. "I can afford to live on my own now."
"Same," I reply. "But…..I was thinking maybe we could be roommates again. Just the two of us." Kageyama looks at me.
"Just roommates?" he asks. I begin to blush because I want more than that and he knows it. Feels wrong. I just got out of relationship. "It's okay for us to be together." I am stunned not knowing what to say. "I know you ended things with him." I sit up feeling uncomfortable with the conversation. "Please don't be ashamed. You deserve to be happy and live your life."
"It feels wrong," I say dropping my head. "No sooner than I broke up with him we were confessing our love for each other, having sex." I run my hand through my light curls.
"We made love Shoyo…." says Kageyama making my stomach flutter. "That wasn't sex….." I glance at him as he grabs my hand. "Let's be together. For real. I want us to get a place together." I nod my head blinking back tears. I feel guilty. I can't explain it. Kageyama and I cuddle for a while before showering. I washed my bed linens while we waited for the tow truck to come get Kageyama car. "Can you give me a ride to the house?"
"Of course," I reply. "We can get breakfast along the way or lunch if you like."
"That would be cool," he states. I allow Kageyama out of the house first. I close and lock the door hearing Akaashi come out of no where.
"I fucking knew it," he scuffs. I am stunned not knowing what to do or say.
"Keiji!" exclaims Kageyama. "What are you doing here?"
"You lied to me!" he exclaims. "You said something came up." I walk over to Kageyama side.
"I didn't lie," replies Kageyama. "My car wouldn't even start! The tow truck just came and got it." Akaashi's face is red. He shakes his head. It is best I give them some privacy.
"Tobio, I will be in the car," I reply.
"Tobio?" says Akaashi. "You're using his first name now?" Oh god….
"Yes," says Kageyama. "He can use my first name if he wants. I have known him for over 5 years." I unlock my car getting inside. I feel like I shouldn't even be here for this. "Keiji, you need to know Shoyo and I are going to be together." Jesus Kageyama!
"Wha…." says Akaashi. "W-what happened to moving on!?"
"I was moving on," he says firmly. "But Shoyo returns my love." Akaashi covers his mouth in shock.
"You were never going to move on from him were you?" he asks.
"I tried," replies Kageyama emotionally. "I was trying and I was but then he confessed to me. I want to be with him." Akaashi nods dropping his head. He is heart broken. I can see it on his face. He clears his throat.
"Um I guess you will be getting your stuff," he says.
"Not today but once I get everything taken care of with my car, yeah," says Kageyama. Akaashi sighs not meeting Kageyama's glare.
"Let me know when," he says lowly. "I want to be gone when you do."
"I understand," says Kageyama supportively. Akaashi turns away from him running to his car. He takes off quickly making me wonder did he even check the road before jumping out there. Kageyama walks over to my car getting into the passenger side. "Sorry, I know this wasn't the place but it was certainly time I broke things off with Keiji." I nod in agreement.
"I was telling myself that two weeks ago," I reply. I back out of the driveway and onto the road taking off towards Asahi and our rental home.
"You did?" asks Kageyama.
"Yeah because at my hair appointment Akaashi was very unhappy about our hug," I reply. "He was jealous and sounded hurt by us interacting." Kageyama sighs.
"He told me he could handle it," he replies. "At the same time I understand. I use to say the same thing about you but….we know what happened." God how did things get so messy. How the hell did Akaashi even know Kageyama was here? I have many questions but at this point in time it doesn't matter. There is silence for a moment.
"Tobio," I say softly. "Can you come with me to get my stuff from Miya's."
"Of course," he replies. "Noya is continuing to live in your room."
"That's fine," I reply glancing at him. "I can stay in your room." Kageyama grabs my free hand smiling. I can't help but smile back. I wonder why it took me so long to see him in this light. I decide not to think on it too hard and just enjoy life.