Brayen Lacey 18, District 9

Victor of the 206th Hunger Games


I just stare out into the forest fiddling with the chain in my fingers, it's been a year since my Victor and it still hadn't settled in

Still doesn't feel real, doesn't feel right, it's taken a while to really become my self again not that I'm even close but what was spending days locked in my room talking to no one besides Xander has turned into trying to put my self into the community, trying to live a normal life again

Not that I understood normality, I was a run away, a street boy, everything I did wasn't normal, I didn't have a full house to my self, I didn't have a bed, I don't have endless supplies of food and water, I didn't have bags of money, I didn't have people stop me on the street thanking me

I had nothing besides my best friend and while I gained everything I lost the one thing that meant the most, they don't tell you the first few days aren't the hardest, they don't tell you that a week or two in that's when things get hard that's when darkness over takes you

I went through a stage that scared me I locked myself out, away from people just staying in a dark room, until I finally realised that isn't what Kaela wanted if Xander can keep fighting after finding out he had a long lost sister who was in the games then I can I have too she didn't die for me to he a crying mess

But having to go back it's opening wounds I'm not ready to face wounds I'm not sure if I'm ready for, I thought I would be strong but it's hit me harder then I brought and now I can understand why the district has done so much to keep xander safe being dead is better then being victor

At least my victory has some hell sparked the life back in Xander I thought he would hate me

I did kill his sister after all and even if I see that hatred in his eyes, he still isn't letting it get to him I guess I'm that comfort for him, that reminder and I guess his the for me, his her only blood that's alive and that's a bond

"You all good buddy" Alistair says softly he tends to follow me when I got into the forest every day while Xander uses Myren's training facility to trash as a relief I tend to go into the forest away from the city normally the forest was illegal to go into since it seperate the real real sake and dangerous area of district 9 or it connects to the other districts but being victor I have special privileges

Not that I would ever go into what people call the dark region, even as a outskirts gang we were told not to go into that area of the district, if I thought where I was form was rough they wouldn't be considered human that's the rumours anyways, the district is a lot bigger then people thought and there were also rumours the previous mayors use to sumo children who are seen as bigger plagues to this earth there even ones more then what Xander and o are seen as

"I'm just nervous, I don't really like the idea of mentoring" I say, because I know I didn't deserve my victory as much as others in my game, Kaela even the fuck head Saxon probably deserved it more

I was just lucky and how can I teach a kid how to be lucky because lucky doesn't happen every year, I'm just hoping there are no twists that it goes back to normal but clearly that won't happen the past few years have given the capitol what they wanted

"Your one of the most likeable kids I met you will be a great mentor" he says

"You had to deal with Xander it's not that hard to be nicer then him" I say

"True, very true, the first year is always hard but it gets easier not that I have been mentoring for long district 9 have been lucky lately" he says another things about luck

"It will make our tributes targets, district 1 and 4 will be getting restless for a Victor" I say, Kaela and I were targets in our games, the careers knew we were threats no doubt that would happen again once gone was the district that brought in bloodbath materials to a district that always has one sneaking through

"That's where your job is important don't worry you will have Xander he may be a lot of things but no one can doubt the effort he puts in his tribute" Alistair says he is right, I barely was able to speak to Kaela in the captiol because he was glued to her side, a part of me wants to distant myself from my tribute and save the pain another half wants to be that time and dedicating that was put into myself and my district partner

It really depends who we bring in, I have started to get more involved, started helping street kids, orphan girls teaching them how to fight, how female population is getting vulnerable but also since we heard there has been a lot of movement from the dark region I have tried to find out more usually they only come out during reaping but there is word they are now going out into the outskirts to do dealer, it's concerning thr district because this mayor doesn't want them throw away to rot there, apparently all of them are young men, but even peacekeepers don't survive going there, they get killed by mines or traps

I just grab Alistair hand as he helps me up "We had the same meeting before your reaping feels like yesterday" he mumbles

"Tell me about it" I say I still wake up thinking I'm in the arena that I'm getting chased by one of Koby's creepy ass dolls or I stumble across Kaela's body, I don't know how long it's going to be for everything to feel well normal

We just walk through the gates and back into the districts as I already see everyone start to prepare for the reaping festivals, having three victors in a few years has meant we went from being super poor to having more more, getting better facilities plus all of us victors do donate, the orphanage I use to live in has already been refurbished, the street kids have more access to school and money and even girls now are given more freedom, it's safer for them because all the street boys wanted was to be looked after it's why they targeted the rich but now the line is getting smaller, we walk into the training facility, similar to ten we built one to try and help prepare kids at risk of being chosen not that it's easy to guess who is

Besides street boys the ones who are at risk are unaccounted for

"You have been busy" I chuckle walking past Xander's section of the facility where he pretty much trashed everything then fixes it to trash if

"Fuck this time of year" he grumbles just kicking a dummy and walking over to us

"How are you feeling though" he says to me, he isn't hostile towards me at her with Alistair and Myren he likes to say how much he hates them but with me his gentle even though I'm the one he should hate the most

"A little nervous I guess" I say I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling it's the fact I have to go back and relive everything but this time someone's child's life is in my hand it terrifies the hell out of me

"I wish I could tell you it gets easier but if my situation is anything to compare to it gets more fucked by what ever" he says just shoving Alistair away who just nods to me as we just walk into Myren's office

"You two really aren't good with time aren't you" Myren says, his become like that annoying father figure but in a sense he wants what's best for us

"Fuck you I was doing yoga" Xander barks

"I have video camera footage Xander" Myren says

"That is my yoga, now please tell me the capitol are being muppets this year oh actually why not we cancel the games fuck I should be game maker hey I said something similar last year see kid this becomes like a never ending fucking cycle" Xander says

"Same twists as last year 18 tributes, 2 females the same chosen and randomly draw kids, how ever this year 11 have been hand chosen, and clearly someone from the capitol have been here since two Dark region children have been chosen and they are as hard to capture as you were Brayen" Myren says

Myren puts two files in front of us "Wait I know the girl, she was mines dealer, she was the only female I use to do dealings with" I say and never once did I get her name, she was pretty much in and out, never ever asked me where she got the mines from, we got into contact from this guy Fiz who runs the black market clearly he has contacts with the dark region hell he could be one

"Not just dealers, she wires them, tragic backstory kidnapped at the age of 6, we have heard a similar story haven't we Brayen, held hostage by a gang of young men instead this girl hasn't gotten freedom, a lot of her file is blank because she is like that a ghost, the fact the district was able to find her in the first place is impressive" Myren says I just flinch great now there is a girl that is a insane reminder of my district partner, same age, similar looks, similar backstory it, I almost handball her to Xander straight away but then there also this want to protect her, to find out more about her, she didn't seem like the broken prisoner when I met her, she was straight to the point, she was brave

"Wait they share the last name, look similar yet it says they are with the two different gangs of the dark region, fuck I knew the dark region was ran by two gangs but I didn't realise they did dealings and everything I thought they were just throw away from society" Xander says, even he couldn't get through into the region

"Long lost siblings look I don't know if they know about each other but this is a difficult situation, you has siblings in your games Xander it was the death of them" Myren says

"Both of them just disappeared, one was kidnapped, one ran away after murdering his parents, it's clear they don't know about each other, fuck this shit bro, you and Kaela were hard enough but this fuck we have no backstory now nothing, they could be strangers for all we know" Xander says

"Maybe that's better but fuck, I mean Declan looks like he will make it far, height and build, predicted 4th but there is something about the Aurelia too" I say

"You two decide who you will have if you can try and dig about them before they get chosen that would be great apparently a few tributes this year aren't as clear eyed as files normally say but I do warn you this year probably is the strongest when it comes to villains and maniac" Myren says leaving us the other files before leaving the room, Xander skims over them just punching the table

"You got to be fucking kidding me a fucking pryo fucking maniac and a fucking boy that kills people with a fucking saw so he can collect their fucking organs" Xander yells and I thought having a delusional boy who recreated a non existent sibling was bad

"District 2" I ask

"Always district two, fuck who do you want" Xander says

I just pause for a moment take someone who has the potential to win and won't need any emotional support or might not need any support at all or take someone who needs the emotional support, who needs someone to be a shoulder to cry on and hold their hand but could potentially be torn apart from the more stronger males this year there isn't much on their files but the five words to describe their personalities says if all

"Aurelia" I say

"Fuck I wanted her, paper scissors rock it" he says

"You asked me first" I say

"I thought you would have taken Mr perfect, paper scissors rock it or else" he says

I just roll my eyes "Fine best of three" I say as we start to do it and I smirk when I beat him on the second go

"Re do" he says

"Fuck off man she is mine" I say I don't know why I wanted her so bad since it's clear I'm going to be left heartbroken again


Maverick Collins 19, District 2

Victor of the 206th Hunger Games


I just stare at the canvas I painted somewhere colours and lines but the meaning of it I don't know, I spiralled last year I just woke up one morning and all the hurt and agony I have been holding it forced the monster to be unleashed, I thought surviving a year without killing that I was cured

But when I stated to see the crow again, started hearing voices he got unleashed, I guess the victors and the district trusted me too much, no more heavy medication, no more physic appointments sadly it's what I needed, now I'm back to square one pretty much being babied, having someone escort me to and from the centre, having to see a psychologist if it wasn't for Everett I would have been one of the countless district w victors sent to the capitol mental institution where they look after victors like me but ever since that one night I have been better again, the crows have stop, the want for blood even though it's there has stopped

I guess loosing Caelyn then loose a kid who I was weirdly attached too made it hard it's why I have distance myself from the special unit, Koby has friends one who I knew Koby cared for and one who didn't handle him not come back to well but with the capitol wanting to throw in a crazy or two and our district producing them every year besides Everett's they let them free, especially when they get older even though another of the special unit kids burnt down an entire school last week, I want to help them but knowing from personal experience sometimes being left alone, being free is the help you need

Not feeling trapped and like your crazy and after learning everything terrible I have done in my life I know I'm crazy, I want to be better, I want to make Caelyn proud but every day I wake up knowing the wrong person won my games, every day I wish those game didn't exist even if I died the first time I died knowing I wasn't the one to hurt the girl I love, knowing that now breaks my heart to much

Even last year the right person won, even if I hate him, I know he deserved it and this year, I don't 'now what to expect I have been told to take a step back from the academy and deep down it's been the best for me even if I have been pretty much under house arrest I feel safe here, I made it my own home even if Everett called it the psycho fairy land it is my physcho fairy land it's where I feel safe and where I know I can't hurt any one else the last time I got too comfortable I ended up killing a 7 year old girl I tried to kill myself after but being Victor I am too valuable

I'm for ever a slave for ever a prisoner, when I just want o be free but I know I have to make Caelyn proud I need to try and be a good person, I need to safe people but it's obvious we are the insane tribute feeder and maybe it's better that way throwing innocent girls it's a stab in the chest for Everett and I

I just stare at the black paint, black represents life a never ending cycle of darkness, it's calming as well the darkness, the sky, I wish could just for ever melt in it

"Terror toddler"

I just jump as Everett stands by my door "It's good to see your embracing your artistic talents again, I love the black walls lights the room up you know" Everett says to outsiders the way he treats me should cause me to slip but for some reason his presence almost calms me as annoying as he can be and as rude as he can be sometimes I do trust him

"Black is the only colour in this earth" I hum

"That it is now come mentor meeting, the games are tomorrow unfortunately" he says just patting my back as I stand

"Can't we swap I'm tired of mentoring" I say

"You and me both buddy but we are one of the special victors but hey good thing is if someone wins looks I will be retiring" he chuckles

"I doubt it" I say, they would make me retire which I want I'm not a good mentor, I scared kids unless they are like me but I don't want to give kids like me hope because victory for us it's worse then their lives before, the medication helps but there are some kids I know it won't help, some kids here they need peace like me, that's my cure not living

We just walk to the centre "Why are there so many peacekeepers around" I mumble

"Good ol bash set another fire and good ol crash saw some guy in half fuck like those kids were a little whack but even since we were told to stop medicating the special unit kids they got even worse" Everett says

We were told to ban medication a year ago even if the mediation isn't near as strong as the ones I have it has helped, now the kids in the special unit are almost running riot especially our to most dangerous ones koby was something but he wasn't a active serial killer, these two have be causing carnage since last year

"Koby's death didn't help, he was well liked within the community" I say

"The crazy community yes" Everett says I just roll my eyes as we walk into Ronan's office

"You look a little concerned but not too well concerned" Everett says

"It looks like we have pretty much been thrown in for entertainment factor rather then the chance to win yes Maverick one but he has two chances" Ronan says as he just puts the two files in front of

Rory and Harley

The pyromaniac and the budding surgeon

"Oh great crash and bash looks like we have a winner, fuck sake" Everett says

"They are better off dead but I guess so was I" I admit

"You aren't like them, these are their physic reports" Ronan says

"Fuck these are more then Kellen's, they wouldn't want to win especially with the weird creepy but sort cute friendship they have" Everett says, Kellen ans Harrison showed two insane tributes can from a unbreakable bond and those two are inseparable besides when they go on their little murder sprees

"Just the best you can be there for them, make sure Rory doesn't burn the captiol down they are kids too remember" Ronan says

"Who do you want they are as bad as each other" Everett stars

"I'm scared of fire" I started

"Harley it is for you then" he says I just want this year to be over already


Tribute list:

District 1-

Male: Cedric Lenlen, 16

Male: Levin Huxley, 18

District 2-

Male: Rory Elsher, 16

Male: Harley Landley, 16

District 3-

Male: Kenzo Ryen, 16

Male: Rex Flores, 16

District 4-

Male: Stellan Moore, 18

Male: Kylian Wilson, 17

District 5-

Male: Percy Carter, 17

Male: Zev Gomez 16

District 6-

Male: Kian Neo, 16

Male: Lorenzo Rogers, 17

District 7-

Male: Dashiel Stewart, 17

Male: Inigo Diaz, 18

District 9:

Male: Declan Callen, 18

Female: Aurelia Callen, 16

District 10:

Male: Winston Conners, 17

Female: Mabel Nelson, 14

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