Day 7
Aurelia Callen 16, District 9 Female
I spent the entire night just running aimlessly through the maze. No supplies, no weapons, no nothing, but I just had to get away from my brother, not that I should even call him that.
Declan has become someone that even if I expected him to be cold and cruel being an outlaw, I didn't expect this, what he is doing isn't cold or cruel, it's unjust, it's sadistic.
I know we have to kill people in these games but what he did to Mabel wasn't killing I don't want to imagine what he did to Winston, I left he beat him broke some teeth and split my lip to bite through the rope but I knew that was my only chance to escape.
I finally stopped running when my legs gave out, I couldn't run anymore luckily Brayen came to my aid with supplies, medicine another weapon, and a small cube at first I didn't know what it was but the letter gave me the hint.
'You may care for him but your only shot of surviving longer is staying away, by the way, your psychotic boyfriend is hunting you with a tracker so try and hide-B'
Luckily I had my map still in my pocket but after seeing that note I bolted, and I was completely afraid, if Harley and Rory are hunting me I am as good as dead. I'm so bloody stupid I should have just stayed with Declan at least he would have protected me.
Would have he though?
He left me to fight Winston, it's obvious he only kept me as a hostage because he needed me, not that he wanted to protect me, he needed me to keep him sane yet the way he treated me it was like I was back in the dark regions, that I was back to being Ryley's property. He used to have me always tied up, he used to always scream at me, talk down at me and hit me, the only time I was untied was when I had to build a mine or I was in his bed, it wasn't until Dalton got leadership that I was treated a little more human.
But that's how Declan treated me, he screamed at me, and he hurt and abused me like I meant nothing to him. He said it was because he tried to protect me. After all, he cared for me but if he cared he would have let me run. I know being alone is stupid and dangerous but being with him was even more dangerous.
I'm pretty much as good as dead right now, if they have a tracker Harley will make me his at any time now I could try to fight them but fuck me fighting someone sane is hard enough but two psychotic freaks who are like brothers, I'm as good as dead.
I'm so stupid I shouldn't have left Declan now I dug myself a grave.
No, clearly I did the right thing, I hate myself for just leaving my brother when he needed me the most but I couldn't help him. No one can he is too far gone even more than Xander was, at least Xander has a concept of reality, Declan doesn't.
I just run through the maze, maybe they aren't hunting me if they were, wouldn't they have captured me by now but if Harley really wanted me, he could have taken me the first chance he had.
He is waiting for something and I think I know what it and now he has what he wants.
For Declan and I to split, I pretty much played into his hands, I just have to find somewhere and do the best I can to hide but I'm not used to this yes I can survive but I got all of that from books. I never had to be in this situation I let myself be a hostage for years and I never ran maybe but maybe as as I don't want to live I'm scared to die.
Fear is a weird emotion but I know the only way for me to have at least a chance is to hide and hope everyone else picks each other off.
I'm the only girl left.
I'm the youngest left.
The odds are really not in my favour. Besides the two freaks, there is District One, they were hunting us and I'm almost concerned about why they stopped we were sitting ducks for a day and they didn't come, are they hunting me too, are they hunting Declan?
Have they split?
Do they know we split?
So many questions I wish I had answers for.
Maybe if I were to bump into the ones whether it's Levin or Cedric. I should just surrender myself they will both kill me quickly and I know the others alive wouldn't give me that, not that I deserve a quick death, I am just as bad as everyone else, I deserve this, I deserve to die.
I don't deserve to win, I never did.
And then Kylian that boy has had a grudge against me from the start and I never understood why but I escaped two times. He is going to want to finish his job and give them the show they want.
I make it to another town this one old and rustic almost like a medieval town as I just look around paranoia spreading. I just grip my sword anyone that comes I run and if I have to fight them I will fight them there is no one alive that wouldn't try to attack me.
But what if it's Declan
I want to go back to him because I still want to fix things but no I have to be independent, even if that's something I'm not used too, I'm not used to being alone, I'm not used to making my own choices.
I just see a large stone museum, and as I run towards it I need to hide and wait a for few days, I don't care if they want me to become a contender, A killer but I won't.
I was always a pretender, I was never the hero.
I won't lose who I am to win. I'm afraid of death but after seeing what happened to Declan I can't go through that.
There is no saving my older brother and all I want to do is save him but this is the Hunger Games I can't worry about him I need to worry about myself.
I just find a little corner under a stone statue to hide in just putting my backpack down.
Maybe Brayen got it wrong and I'm not being hunted but I can't take the risk, I don't want to run straight into their hands I want to be ready, I need to be prepared, I need to come up with some escape plan.
I need to be prepared to die or be a killer, it's the only way to get away if it is Rory and Harley.
At least killing one of them I shouldn't feel as much guilt I didn't even for a second consider killing Mabel and I guess luckily for me everyone besides Cedric and my brother if I were to kill them at least I know that they were monsters or in Levin's case a killer it wouldn't be as bad would it.
I have been surrounded by death for years, and I have witnessed it more than once I'm not a stranger to it but this is a whole new ballpark
I just jump when I hear the door open my heart pounding against my chest and when I hear two pairs of footsteps my heart drops.
What do I do?
"Do you know where she is?" Rory says
"She is here on this level she is hiding she shouldn't hide from me I love her I won't hurt her" Harley says
I hood in a scoff, for fuck sake I only had one true conversation with the insane creep and I was shaking in my shoes. I didn't show any bit of interest if anything I have a minor crush on Cedric not Harley but now he wants me and I'm scared of what exactly the whackhead wants.
If it's my body I might as well slit my own throat because I can't be invaded again, but it's the fact it's the both of them that's what scares me, I have no idea what they want or what they will do.
They know I'm here, I can't just hide I need to find a way out, or I fight.
Yeah right, they might be my age but they are both physically strong boys and one of the freaks has a weapon that can set me on fire within five feet and my so-called lover uses a goddamn saw, I'm dead.
I just scream in shock as a hand grabs my arm
"Found you" Harley whispers. I just react by swinging a knife at his face as he just ducks and I just push him out of the way sprinting towards the stairs.
"Don't run I'm not going to hurt you" Harley yells he sounds so genuine that I almost stop but I won't test him, fuck of course I won't this boy thinks he is some angel of death and that he is sending people to a better place, stealing kids from their families is not helping them it's destroying lives, it's destroying souls. He is not a good person, not even close.
Rory just stays to the side letting Harley chase after me as he just grabs me by the hair pulling me into him.
"You are mine, let me take you" he whispers in my ear
"Just stay away from me" I yell just head head-butting him
"Maybe she isn't the one Harley" Rory says from the side.
"No, she is the one, she is, she just needs to let go of her soul" Harley yells. I just almost wrestle with him trying to get out of his grip, I just try to grab my sword but I just scream in pain as something slices my leg open I see his saw drenched in my blood.
"Junior likes you too" he whispers in my ear. I just sob not out of pain but almost out of fear, I have never been this afraid in my life. I should have stayed with my brother for once in my life I had the guts to try and run, try and change and it got me in even bigger trouble, I would rather be tied up with him than be in Harley's grasp.
"What are you going to do with me," I say maybe if I talk to him I can distract him get him away from me then deal with Rory or just run the fuck away, even now the darker hair boy stands in the corner jealousy written all over his face like he hates the fact someone else has his best friend attention if anything he is the reason Harley waited so long.
"A lot of things" Harley whispers just stroking my cheek as I flinch at the touch.
"Okay, I will come with you" I say his eyes perk up and he just puts his weapon down loosening his grip on me. I use that as a chance to knee him in the stomach throwing my entire weight towards him as the shock of my force sends him toppling down the stairs.
Rory's scream alerts me and I almost expect a cannon, he is completely unconscious by the stairs blood gushing from his head, not moving.
Did I just-?
Did I just kill him?
I don't even have time to think about it as Rory just charges me utter anger and hate I'm his face and I'm utterly terrified I have been through a lot in my life, been through things that make me want to cry when I think about it but right now when I have an isane delusional pyromaniac charging at me I haven't been so scared. I just keep running up the stairs now I really have to get away.
But I didn't hear a cannon.
And when I look at my watch I still have a 0 next to my name, I don't know if that's a good or bad thing.
Harley is still alive for now though maybe the wound will kill him, I just weave through the statues of stones. I just cry out when a knife enters my thigh the action bringing my chin first to the concrete, I feel something crack.
"YOU KILLED HIM" Rory yells with such anger it genuinely scares the living daylights out of me, he just jumps on my back clawing at my face as I'm about to shove him off scrambling up.
"He is not dead" I whisper
My watch says he isn't "I heard a cannon you stupid bitch, you- you killed my best friend, you killed the only person who matters to me in this world" he says.
For the first time I hear true emotion in this boy, I don't see a fire-wielding maniac I see a kid who lost someone who meant the world to him all because of me.
But the watch says he isn't dead?
And I didn't hear a cannon it's not hard to hear it if anything it's harder to miss it.
I'm so confused right now.
I barely see him lunging for me with a knife as I duck under his arm.
The only option for me right now is to get away whether Harley is dead or not either option isn't good for me.
"Just face me, face the consequences" he yells, but I can't I am a coward so I start running again I don't realise Rory is a knife thrower so I whimper again when another knife lodges into my thigh as before I can take it out when I'm on the ground he presses his boot on it pushing if further in my leg.
I scream in pain as he roughly grabs a fist fall of my hair pulling my head up and leaning to my ear.
"Feel that, I'm going to make you feel every bit of pain I feel right now" he hisses, I just whimper as he just pulls the knife out.
"I'm sorry" I whisper trying to crawl away, I know I have no right to be sorry if I did kill Harley I took away something way more important then life to him.
"Shut up sorry isn't going to bring him back from dead. We had an end game and you destroyed it, YOU DESTROYED EVERYTHING" he yells kicking me directly in the spine. I almost scream for my brother but I don't deserve his help. I don't deserve anyone's help this is my fault, he just flips me over so I'm on my back as I just to bring out my sword but he easier pries it from my hands like it was nothing.
"I don't think you have any knives left you left them all in Harley's back" he stutters just standing over me and pressing a boot on my hand.
"For damn sake, he wasn't my boyfriend I owed him nothing, he deserves to die, you both deserve to die" I yell.
I don't know where my courage has come from all of a sudden courage I never thought I had but this isn't the best guy to be scream out because he drops on top of me in a second just gripping my neck painfully as I just scream when I feel a knife twist into my hip, tears pooling in my eyes.
"There you go little one not so strong now aren't you" he says.
Fuck even if he doesn't look as heavy as he is. I struggle to push him off I can move my right hand but I don't have any weapons, I'm done and this was one of the last people I wanted to die too.
He just starts trying to pry my mouth open as I just clench it as hard as I can but his grip on my chin is starting to almost unbinge it my entire body is in pain. I don't feel like I can feel anymore, it isn't until he sinks his teeth into my neck that I panic opening my mouth fully, he moves his mouth straight away but I feel him force his hand in my mouth grabbing at my tongue with so much force it's like he's trying to rip it out with his bare hands.
"Once you can't scream Aurelia we have all the time in the world, you are going to wish you killed me instead of Harley" he whispers
I just whimper as he starts pulling my tongue with so much force I'm worried he will rip it I just bite at his hand trying to do everything to set myself free, and that's when I see something on his belt.
His blowtorch, he seems so distracted trying to rip my tongue out that he might not even see, this could get us both killed but it's better than the fate I'm going to have if I don't do anything, when I almost feel like my tongue is slowly starting to split I grab the weapon from his belt turning it on straight at his face, his screams are deafening as guilt instantly feels me, he just screams trying to get the flames off his face, the flames that are almost melting it I don't have time to feel anything as I lunge for my sword?
"I'm so sorry" I say he is so distracted screaming trying to save himself that he doesn't even see me lunging towards him as my sword pierces him directly in the heart.
BOOM
I Just grab my sword whimpering as I don't even want to see the body I run to the next room just slumping against the wall, I can't believe I just killed Rory and the scary thing is I feel guilty for it. I feel guilt for killing a monster if shows how much of a piece of shit I really am
I just see the parachute fall by my feet as I quickly grab it opening it to see two new knives, a new pair of clothes, medicine, and a small supply pack I can put in my pockets
'You need to get the fuck out of there right now, Harley is stirring he isn't dead, you need to run as far as way as possible, you did well but you can't be alone, he will be hell-bent on finding you, the capitol turned his tracker off, but that won't stop him-B'
It isn't until I notice the dark grey compass with M2, who is M2
I know who?
But would he allie with me this late it doesn't matter, allie with me, kill me I know I have to get away
Harley Tandley 16, District 2 Male
My eyes open my entire head feels groggy.
What the hell happened?
I just jump up wiping the blood from my eyes and stumbling a little bit.
Am I in hell, it is dark and cold in here and I feel panic spread to me.
No, I wouldn't be in hell, I'm too good for hell if I'm dead I would be in heaven, lying down on a white fluffy cloud signing with the angels. I was just knocked out, fuck I can't see where I'm going right now as I quickly fiddle with my pocket taking the medicine out as everything starts to clear up.
"RORY" I yell where is Rory, it all comes to me now I had Aurelia, I had my forever girl in the palm of my hand, at first I thought we flew to heaven with each other but we didn't, did she hurt me, no she would never hurt me, did Rory steal her from me?
No, he wouldn't do that to me, he knew how much I loved her, so what happened?
I'm so confused right now, so lost, maybe I was dreaming and I didn't find Aurelia, maybe she is still hiding. I do that sometimes I hallucinate it's a little scary, it's normal though everyone goes a bit crazy sometimes it's not like I'm mentally ill I know I'm not, I just pull out my tracker throwing it to the wall when it's completely blank.
"TURN ON" I yell but instead it just crashes to pieces.
"RORY" I yell, I still don't hear anything, where is he, I just steady my breathing for a second, I remember lady Olga from the church at two before it got burnt used to always tell me to breathe and relax and that panicking alerts all the dark demons around me makes me a easy target for their evil. I used to like lady Olga she used to pray with me in the mornings until the fire burnt her but she followed me here now she is turned to stone, being turned to stone is a fear of mine at least she spoke to me I was a favourite of hers.
I am everyone's favourite, it's okay he is probably just looking after Aurelia for me. I send her to a safe place then Rory and I can complete our end game and I will meet her again and we can get married and have a happy and safe life outside Panen.
I can be a worldwide surgeon the best surgeon in the world and she can be the best engineer I know she is that smart I know everything about her.
She was born December 10th 2007 at exactly 9:07pm on the east side of District 9, her father was a weaponry and mining engineer working for the capitol in District 9. Her mother was a teacher at a nearby school and she had an evil brother two years older than her, her parents were catholic and they used to go to church every Sunday, her life was happy until she got kidnapped by the outsiders a gang of young men and was forced to become a mine smith and decoy for them, I know everything she went through, I know her fears and personality, I know how to help her.
Then we will have two children a boy and a girl and we will raise them to be good people like we are, on the side Rory and I will still send people to peace because Rory will always be my number one but something doesn't feel right.
Sometimes almost think we were long lost twins, we may not look alike but we can communicate with looks, we can read each other's thoughts, and we know when the other is upset and needs comfort.
But right now it's like I can't feel anything, it's like a part of me is empty, a part of me is dead and I never felt this after I meant Rory.
Something isn't right.
I just pick up my pace screaming as I trip over something I just scream when I see a body. I just close my eyes for a second, no it's just my imagination it can't be a body, I know zombies chase me sometimes the bad people I killed go to hell but sometimes they become zombies or ghosts but when I open my eyes again something in me snaps, something in me dies.
"RORY," I yell
No, it can't be Rory, it can't be, even if his entire face is burnt to the point I can't recognise him, I know my best friend. I just jump up I can't even look at the body, no it can't be Rory, it can't be.
He can't be dead, we have to die together.
"Rory" I whimper but when I grab his hand trying not to look at his face, I look at his watch and I feel like my whole world has shattered, I don't even know how to feel.
'Placed 7th- Killed By Aurelia Callen
Cause of death: Stab to heart'
I just scream in complete and utter rage, I feel like my entire world has been crushed, that one part of me has died. We were meant to die together it was always meant to be us against the world, he wasn't meant to die first.
I thought he couldn't die first.
I can't live without him, so I do the one thing a sane person like me would do. I grab my knife ready to plunge it into my heart but before I can.
"NOOO LET ME GO TO PEACE" I yell when the weapon just disappears. I just grab another knife but the same thing knife after knife I try to use to kill myself just disappears as I whimper then I just throw myself at the wall slamming my head against the wall.
They will not defeat me but the next time I try to throw myself at the wall I start to get dizzy as a parachute hits my head.
"Go away" I whimper just falling on the ground but then I look at Rory's body, something sparks inside me. We made a pact if one of us died we would still complete our end game, I will do it for both of us.
But Aurelia…
My true love, my forever girl stole my brother from me, and that love for her turns to hate. I can't live with that, she needs to suffer but at the same time I love her I just whimper I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think, I'm so confused it's not funny.
I just wipe the tears from my eyes grabbing the canister opening it to see medicine, a packet of anti-psychotics and a new pack of throwing knives since all of my disappeared.
Junior, I forgot about Junior I just pull him out still covered in blood, hugging him "I got you at least" I whisper
'He wouldn't want you to kill your self, please stop trying-M'
"You don't know want he wants, no one does besides me, no what he wants" I whimper I couldn't even say bye I couldn't even say thank you but Maverick is right I can't just kill myself so I swallow my pride, my heartbreak and I take the medicine but shove the pills in my pocket. I'm not psychotic yes I had a mental breakdown but I lost Rory, I deserve to be upset and Aurelia deserves to suffer but I don't know how much longer I can live without him.
"So long friend we will be reunited in peace" I whisper just saluting to Rory than I just run I don't know where I am going or what I plan to do but I don't care. I should just find someone and get them to kill me I deserve peace more than everyone else here, I don't deserve to suffer alone like this.
I just walk out my eyes sting, and my heart hurts like someone stuck a knife twisting in, drilled it then skinned it and the saddest thing is someone did.
She did but I don't even have the fight to want vengeance right now I have no fight at all, if the capital won't let me kill myself then someone else can. So I just walk around aimlessly in the maze someone will bump into me I know they will I don't even remember who is left I almost don't give a fuck I just want Rory.
If Aurelia hadn't kill Rory, I would of had something to live for but she killed my brother she clearly doesn't love me if she loved me she wouldn't have done that.
I feel so heartbroken and so lost, I was never good with emotions every time I lost it like when Koby died I just couldn't control myself, I look at Junior I could try to saw my limbs off but then they would steal Junior from me.
I can't lose Junior, I lost Rory, I lost Aurelia I can't lose Junior, maybe this is karma, maybe I'm not a good person maybe everything I did wasn't the right thing, no it was the right thing to do. I was a humanitarian I sent people to be saved, I never wanted to do that to Rory because I thought we would be together forever.
I was wrong, I should have saved him years ago but he was a devil's child, I was an angel of death, we were blood brothers from the beginning and we were blood brothers by the time he died.
I just keep walking until I hear footsteps I'm ready, so when I know the person is going to turn the same corner into me I lunge, I pray a sword will silence me but instead they just grab me flinging me to the ground.
"What the hell" Levin mumbles
I just lunge at him again weaponless hoping he will bring out his sword but he just ducks under my arm.
What is he doing?
I'm the biggest threat alive, I am the doctor of death and he can easily bring out his sword and cut my head off but he doesn't.
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING, JUST KILL ME" I screech
"Where is Rory," he says
"Rory" I sob, grabbing onto his arm he just looks at me he has his hand on his sword but he hasn't made a move to grab it, a move to stab me.
"So he was the cannon, that's why I was told to find you" he whispers
"Rory" I sob again, falling on the ground.
He just stares at me confusion on his face I just lunge at him again almost like I want to hug him but I'm hoping by grabbing him. he will panic and stab me, if someone did this to me I would saw them alive.
"Levin just kill me I have nothing to live for" I whimper
He just shrugs me off, grabbing my shoulders.
"Your best friend died, you can't let his sacrifice be for nothing," he says gently.
"Aurelia she killed him, she killed him, how can she love me if she killed my brother" I yell
Wait didn't he have an Allie, wasn't he allied with my ex-girlfriend's stalker, it doesn't matter, oh wait didn't we split them up with fire, fuck I don't even remember half the things I do.
"And you want to let her get away with it, you wanted to send her to a better place right but you can make her suffer and make her love you maybe she killed Rory because he was trying to kill her, she killed him because she didn't want to die without being with you," he says. I just stare at him maybe he is right I need to avenge Rory I need to make her suffer, then make her love me.
I can't die
I just walk back at Levin bringing out my saw and lunging at him.
"Wait don't you think there was a reason I didn't kill you" he yells. I just lunge at him again but this time he blocks it with his sword.
"Harley calm okay, I can help you," he says
"You didn't help me die when I wanted it" I yell I'm not the best fighter so he easily blocks me again but he isn't trying to kill me. I don't really know what I want, I want to cut someone apart and bathe in their body parts.
"I saved you though I gave you a purpose, complete your end game kid" he says
"End game" I whisper
"But how can you help me" I say
"I can help you find Aurelia, you are vulnerable right now Harley, you need someone to keep you with reality, to watch your back, to make sure you don't do anything stupid. I can do that, everyone is split now and Kylian is an evil piece of shit," he says
"Declan is a reaper too but I split you from Cedric, why would you want to help me," I say this has to be a trap but to be honest I don't really care if I die right now but he is right Aurelia has to suffer, she killed Rory and even if I want to be with her in the afterworld I'm going to make her pay for what she did, a sinner needs to pay for their sins.
And my little angel has committed a very bad sinl
"Deep down you did us a favour but I need backup, I tried to track Kylian he is too hard to track and if Declan has lost it, that's another person who will have nothing to lose, I have too much to lose to risk dying, if it means putting my trust in a maniac so be it" he says I just look at him I kill him now and one of the bigger threats are dead.
"It sounds like you need me more than I need you" I say
"I have a compass with Aurelia's location when the time is right we find her or you can just go on a murderous spree and get yourself killed, so be it" he says. I tilt my head he is right, I do need him because right now I'm on the edge so having someone with me, to talk to, makes me calmer sadly I can't slice him to pieces and talk to him while he is in pain because he might kill me but I want to find Aurelia.
I want to make her suffer but help her at the same time, she wouldn't have killed Rory on purpose maybe he did try to kill her, if he did that feels like a betrayal.
"There is one tribute we haven't discussed killing, young Cedric," I say
"I'm not killing him," he says
"You make sure I don't have another mental breakdown and don't bite the rest of my tongue off, help me find Aurelia and I will help you kill the other tributes and kill Cedric for you," I say
"Will you kill him quickly?" he asks
"It depends on Junior's mood and if the banshee screeches for torment" I say
"Who the fuck is junior," he says. I just chuckle if I had a coin for every time I have been asked that one question, I would be a billionaire.
I just bring out my saw, stroking him "This is my baby," I say
"Nice to meet you junior, so do we have a deal," he says
"Deal but you do know you are one crazy son of a bitch for doing this," I shrug.
"I know but crazy wins you the Hunger Games doesn't it" he says
"Oh yes it does my friend" I smirk
But will it win him these games, I'm not sure yet I haven't decided whether I'm going to murder the boy or help him be Victor.
Cedric Lenlen 17, District 1 Male
Fuck I'm shitting my pants right now, not literally thank god but ever since the wackadoo head freaks thought it will be a good idea to set fire every where I have been on edge but it's obvious why they did it.
They wanted to split Levin and I up, deep down it has to be done but I'm a scared little girl in a 17-year-old boy's body. I'm freaking out man, I don't know where I'm really going and I don't really know what the fuck I'm doing, not the best idea in the hunger games to walk aimlessly like a complete and utter moron.
But that should be my middle name, to be honest, I didn't really consider what I would do once Levin and I split because I thought our splitting would be me dying but now I'm final 6, when that cannon went earlier today I screeched in shock then was like woah
I made the final 6 what the actual fuck, yeah I must be dreaming right now I do go to La La Land a lot. I thought there were like 12 left but then in one of my sponsor gifts Markus sent me to calm me down because I was having a panic attack which hasn't happened in years he said 6 left.
What the hell was I doing between the 12th and 6th tribute dying fuck, was I even awake who knows to be honest but admittedly I am a little let's say in fairyland most of the time, sometimes I have no idea what is really going on.
I know Levin is still alive well I hope he is, I don't actually know who the previous cannon was, probably actually I don't even fucking know who to even guess. I don't even know how I made it this far after leaving Levin I just hid in some house until I heard banging and freaked out now I have been walking around the maze with no real direction on what to do.
I have a map but being in here in case I find a tribute is a good idea, I could run or I could try and kill them, but fuck me I can't kill four of the tributes and I don't want to kill the other two.
Life would be so easier if I was dead but I'm so close, so so close to home, I can see District One even if it never felt like home. I can't just give up now no one has belief in me, everyone thought I was a joke, a fool, they bullied and ridiculed me and now I could Victor, yeah right but I might as well dream. I always have dreamed about life about a better life but I was too scared to run away, to scared to try and change it.
But the question Levin asked what would I do if I became Victor?
The scary thing is I really don't know, I was an outcast in District One, I was a loner I spent time training and being made fun of. Then I spent the rest of the day walking around upset and trying not to cry like a sooky la La eventually I just stopped taking it to heart. I stopped caring, I don't know what life would be like being Victor.
I don't know if I really want it I don't want to die even fuck this is confusing I don't really know what to think.
I made it this far to just I don't know make it this far but do I really deserve to be the victor, probably not. I have no blood on my hands I have done nothing besides run, I may have given everyone a laugh but this isn't a comedy show it's the Hunger Games.
I would be pissed off if some moron who kept falling over, bumping his head and kept getting his jumper stuck in the door won the hunger games and I lost a child, I need to do something, I need to kill, but kill who?
I just Yelp when the anthem music plays as I literally and I mean literally collapse to the ground in shock. Am I seeing things I must be seeing things.
I have to be seeing things.
Rory
The fire-wielding maniac who seemed so unbeatable.
Rory
I can't help but almost cry out in happiness that was a bit rude sorry man rest in peace dude but it ain't my fault you were whack.
Wait that means Harley is still alive if they were to die I expected them to die together like a voodoo bond thing they have.
I don't know some of the things I heard those two speak about were like whack, witches, banshees, devils normally you hear those things in books, not coming out of two 16-year-old boys' mouths.
I'm still stunned as I just knock out of it. Sitting here like I'm doing yoga probably isn't a good idea especially now that Doctor Maniac lost his buddy, boy is probably going crazy right now and they seemed too close to murder each other. That means there is only one pair still together, the nines if I hear two footprints I'm running yet at the same time Levin and I were going to kill them.
Levin, I miss him, I really do but Markus said to not look for him and that I will focus better without him but I hate being alone, I know I was a loner at home but here I'm so jumpy all the time plus after the whole sleeping with a dead old lady thing I'm still scared to even relax plus I swear something brushed my foot when I was going to the toilet in a bush yesterday which made me fall over and rip my pants, which were well embarrassing.
Never peed in a bush again but legit a few times I have had to do that in one because I have a very small bladder and I tend to wander and get lost at home because I just keep strolling and get lost in my own little world.
How I haven't gotten killed yet amazes me but it was because of Levin, I wanted to find him, I wanted to say thank you I know I did already but what if that's the last time we see each other, what if the next time we do have to see each other, we have to fight.
I can't fight him yet would I be willing to sacrifice myself for him?
Maybe, he needs victory, I don't but I don't really want to die at the same time.
I just pause for a second when I hear footsteps.
Someone is here do I fight or flight but when he sounds like they are getting close I begin to panic, fuck I have no chance with anyone besides Aurelia and it isn't her because it's a single tribute which means, Levin who as much as I want it to be him so we can go back to hanging but I know this isn't district one if we meet again, will it just be so easy to Allie I don't know.
The other two loners are Harley and Kylian, I haven't bumped into Kylian but I was warned about him and he has made it this far yet again so have I and Aurelia but we were protected, so I just take off running this person is clearly following me, it has to be Harley or Kylian.
But then I really listen, remembering what Levin said that male and female footsteps are different, the footsteps aren't heavy, not as heavy as a male's, almost like a female footprint.
There is only one female left.
Is Aurelia chasing me, does she want me dead?
She must not have a kill either, she must know the best chance to win is to kill me, we are both the weakest left, and we are evenly matched I have had training and she is a street kid, if I were to somehow by some miracle win I want to know what killing feels like. At the moment I'm scared to really fight because I'm afraid to kill I can't go in with that mindset.
But Aurelia?
She is innocent, she isn't a killer even Levin has blood on his hands and fuck she is cute, she literally said one word to me and I fell in love but her words felt genuine she didn't have to talk to me.
I'm just a hopeless romantic at least I will die knowing I made a true friend Kenzo was a friend but it's embarrassing to say a 91-year-old is my friend.
Kill her or keep running?
I wonder if she knows she is chasing me or if she just heard a tribute and panicked. I had a compass of where she was but Levin has it, I promised everyone I would kill her. I want to show them I'm not some coward I'm doing her a favour, if anyone else gets his hands on her besides Levin it will be slow and painful, her brother won't kill her.
Hang on?
I completely forgot about that son of a bitch.
If she is alone, I only hear one set of footsteps so I just lean against the wall and when I know she is running past I just throw myself at her. I have no idea what I'm going to do but at a close distance I was always told to get my target underneath me I have tackled guys before in a fight I'm actually pretty good at it but a girl.
Fuck I already feel my cheeks getting warmer.
I'm actually tackling a girl right now fuck, she seems stunned as we both go sprawling to the ground as I keep my arms around her, she just winces as we fall heavily on the ground and I feel slight guilt. I am like a foot taller than her I am not like big fuck I barely have muscle, fuck I barely have chest hair. I am like an undergrown man I wouldn't even call myself a man.
I am quick to pin her down for once my career training doing well and even if she seemed stunned, she isn't screaming or clawing at me fuck I have never been this close to a female before. I can feel her warmth, her chest against mine oh man I'm about to collapse right now. The second I saw her I thought I fell in love but damn if I die at least I die knowing I got this close to one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen.
Now what the fuck do I do?
Knock out of it Cedric you are here to kill her, not to let your dirty little 17-year-old mine picture things.
"Where is your brother," I say just pinning her hands with my knees for once in my life I need to try and stay with the moment. I need to stay focused she may kill me even if she isn't fighting, even if she is blushing.
Fuck I just need to kill her now before I change my mind and get killed I just bring out a knife and now I see the fear in her eye as I just press my knees further on her waist. My hand is shaking as I press the knife on her throat the first time I was doing this I was shitting myself but this time I'm even more scared.
"I don't know, I had to get away from him, I'm guessing you and Levin split my mentor wanted me to find you," she says
"What, so you can kill me," I say
"I don't know" she whispers
Me neither but I have her right where I need her, the scary thing is she isn't even struggling is she planning to attack me or does she know I won't kill her, does she want me to kill her?
She looks even more broken the the last time I saw her. I just want to protect her and I don't know what guys do with girls but I want her to be happy, but this is the Hunger Games.
No one can be happy whether you win or die everyone ends up being a loser.
"Why aren't you struggling, I can and will kill you yes I have a crush on you but it doesn't matter" I say
"My mentor wants me to align with you but I know won't, as much I wish I allied with you from the start, it's too late I want to live but at the same time what's the point I have nothing left, my brother has lost all sanity, he is a void and I can't see him again because it breaks my heart too much to see who I made him become. Kylian has had a grudge against me since day one and with Harley I killed Rory I can't imagine what he will do to me. I have no chance of winning and if I die I don't want to be tortured, so just kill me Cedric please, you clearly won't want to Allie it was stupid of me to think you would" she whispers
I just stare at her our faces inches apart as my knife is pressed against her throat and even if my hands are shaking uncontrollably this isn't right, I can't just kill her but I'm a career I decide her fate right now.
"I keep you alive we stick together until the final 2 then if you still don't want to win I will kill you quick, if you want to fight we fight. I'm not killing you like this Aurelia it isn't right and to be honest I'm scared stiff of being alone," I say
She just stares at me as I push the knife deeper "Tick tock" I say fuck I might really look like a career right now but I'm also scared as shit right now just being this close to her is making me, I don't know I'm so awkward it ain't funny but what if this is a trap, what if she knew I would attack and was waiting for it.
Wait did she just say she killed Rory
"How the fuck did you end up killing Rory," I say. I just grab her wrist looking at her watch she isn't lying, okay maybe I should Allie with her this girl killed Rory, what the fuck oh no but that means saw Creeper will be after her but that freak needs to be killed sooner rather than later. I don't for one second trust the whole I don't want to win story could be a ploy to make me drop my guard.
"I burnt his face then stabbed his heart, he thought I killed Harley but I didn't he was too distracted trying to rip my tongue out that he left a hand free" she says
I wonder what her tongue looks like I wonder what her lips feel like
Get it together Cedric this is the Hunger Games man.
"If you betray me I swear I will skin you alive"
I say
"You are cute when you try to be all scary it doesn't work for you," she says
"Oh you think I'm cute," I say
"Can you please just make your decision I don't like being out in the open and your knee is really hurting my ribs right now" she says
I can't believe she wants to Allie with me I'm a massive dork but I can feel her shake underneath me, she needs me and I need her.
I just put my knife down, getting up and giving her a hand as she grabs it, oh my god she is holding my hand she catches me as I stumble over my feet now that I'm not on top of her with a knife to her throat I'm like a terrified little girl.
"You okay," she says
"Yeah fuck I just ah fuck um yeah now what," I say. With Levin he was so easy to talk to, not that Aurelia is stuck up or anything, but like the idiot I am I freak out.
"Rest," she says
"Good idea we can just try and hide until the final two hope the others pick each other off" I say
She just nods, fuck now I'm doubting her but why would she do this just to stab me in the back no this is my dream come true if I die at least I got to spend some time with Aurelia I even held her hand even if it was for a few seconds.
Deaths:
7th: Rory Elsher, District 2 Male- Killed By Aurelia Callen, District 9 Female
