DAY

June's death still hasn't sunk in. It's been exactly a month since it happened but I just can't wrap my head around it. I have so much going on in my life at the moment, its like I'm a scarecrow and I've got birds pecking at me all the time. People tell me I'm lucky to have my brother and Lucy, but I don't feel lucky. I've been told I'm going to die, my mother, brother, friend and girlfriend are gone and even though he's alive, Eden isn't who he used to be. When I look at him all I can think about is how much he has suffered. That doesn't help.

Today I'm wearing a red blazer, black pants, white polo shirt, black shoes and a formal republic hat. I don't understand the point of wearing all this. Anden told me I had to look presentable for this event and that June would have wanted me to look nice. Goddy trot trying to tell me what my girlfriend wants? She's dead. I don't think she will care.

Eden is by my side, decked out in the same clothes as me, just a miniature version. He insisted on coming since in his words 'June is all I talk about.' When did he grow up?

"Are you alright Daniel?" He asks while looking up to see me (even though he's as blind as a brick).

"Of course kid, why wouldn't I be?" I say, ruffling his hair.

"Well June meant a lot to you, I'm just checking. You remember how upset mom was about dad, I thought maybe it was the same kind of thing."

"Mom and dad were married, me and June weren't, It's different Eden. You'll understand when you're older."

Thank God he's blind so he can't see my face. Also thank God I can keep a calm voice while I'm crying this goddy much. Why does a girl I knew for a month have this effect on me?

The place where the funeral is being held is gorgeous. White covers the room, with hints of pink and green here and there. The coffin is in the centre of the room, sat with white roses covering it. There's a man standing beside it who I realise is Anden.