They said, "time heals everything, time tend to the lies and the truth, by making everything lost or forgotten if it was never mentioned,"
During this time of year, the library became filled with anxiously 5th year students, heads buried in books, hands scribbling down notes. Tears and faints over the slightest mistake they make, Why? It was O.W. L. S week and barely any of these students took time in their fourth year to actually prepare and instead procrastinated until the last minute.
Well, only a few groups, and particularly In one of the tables, six students specifically were—well doing their best.
Harry let out a groan before hitting his forehead on the table. "I can't," he said. "My brain...it doesn't have space anymore."
Ron let out a huffed laugh, "That's not a surprise,"
"Hey! as if your brain cells are better!" Harry exclaimed, lifting his head up and narrowing his eyes at the Gryffindor who was sitting across him.
"Mum will kill me if I fail, you didn't see what she did to the twins,"
"Shut up, your laziness drove you here," Hermione snapped between them.
"Why don't you help us then," Ron fought back.
"In your dreams! Let Quidditch help you,"
"'Mione, it's not the end if you do," Harry sighed.
"I'm sorry," Hermione let out a nervous laugh, "I'm just panicking right now. Tomorrow is the first exam,"
"Maybe if you guys piped down we'll be able to concentrate," Hermione said. "I literally only have one book down."
"I mean you were the one too distracted lurking around," Neville mumbled to Harry.
"Hey, I have my reason," Harry defended, "I just didn't think we'd have to study this much!"
"We have seven core classes and at least two electives," Dean started, "You really didn't think that would be a lot?"
Ron let out a distressed groan, "I regret getting three electives now," he said.
"Boys, please, we'll get kicked out at this rate," Hermione scolded the others she was sharing a table with. "You know what, how about we take a break, yeah?"
"What?" They all turned to her as if she grew up a second head.
"What, I'm not cruel!" She sounded offended.
They all stood up except for Harry, "Not coming?" Hermione raised a brow, Harry stood up about to gather his books when it hit him and sat back again, "Can't," he waved.
She paused thinking for a while, "Well, what do you struggle with?"
"Ancient Rune's a bit hard," he said then cheered up, "wanna help me!?"
"I will come later and help, but not borrowing my notes,"
"You could be a cruel nerdy sometimes 'Mione even Voldemort was a good student back in his days," he rolled his eyes.
Hermione's face reddened, "Did you just compared me with–"
"Mate, you still have a DADA, stop worrying!" Ron patted his shoulder, intervening in an upcoming fight between those two.
"Nah, go and eat, i'll drop by the kitchens later,"
Harry sighed after they left and leaned on the chair, letting his neck relax a bit before revising again.
"... If you don't get at least three O and E, if I see one T…" Daphne's sadistically pulled him by collar in hand and holding a knife in another "Don't. Even. bother. coming back,"
Harry shivered by the memory, feeling his throat all but dry, ' I'm fucked.' Harry screamed in his mind and laughed nervously.
He didn't even notice someone tapping his shoulder.
"Ginny! What are you doing here?" He looked around, "Sorry, but isn't dinner time?"
"I heard you are escaping, again soooo I grabbed you some," she pulled out of her bag, winking, some quick made sandwiches.
He was flabbergasted at first, he didn't even notice that the sky was dark now and that he was studying without his friends for some time now. Harry took them, grateful it seemed like he was hungry rather much more than he was supposed to, damn! Studying makes people starve.
"Don't let madam Pince catch you," she laughed at him, before holding his current copybook "So what are you reading? Potions huh,"
Harry nodded as he chewed his food, he noticed Tracy Davis passing by in a hurry with Zabini and stopped eating, the uneasie devouring him all of sudden, he glanced around at Ginny, who used her hand as comfortable support for her cheek staring at the window him in here, and thought of Daphne, what would she do if she was here?
She would've of course bury herself in the library, She loved this place and she loved reading next to the window too. His smile faded, they made the right decision but it felt unjust to Daphne's life.
Her friends moved on and worked to achieve their goals, and he was here with his friends doing the same, but she was the only one who wasn't in the picture. The circumstances were against them, he was no different.
Remus told him that they rushed, Dumbledore chose to stay silent, watching him like a hawk, inconvenienced by what he was up to. Realising that Harry hasn't shared not even half of his plans, Molly fumed like his mother would've if she was around, thinking that both teenagers were driven by their hormones and forgot to use protection.
In the end they accepted the fact of a baby on the way. How could they possibly understand them? The reasons they had, Harry doesn't know if he was even going to make it after war; of course he wants to survive no matter what!
But every time he closes his eyes, he keeps seeing Lilith standing next to Voldemort on Phobos's throne. His training was still at beginning, so far he hadn't faced any demon with powers of the deadly sins.
They don't know that Harry has to keep this world together, they don't know that he is learning to defeat two enemies and not one.
Even while he was here with his friends pretending to keep his spirit up from cracking down, Daphne was all alone caged in n°12 with Molly and Remus. It was unfair, she chose this to ease on him , staying quiet and trying to even do his part of Potter's heir duty instead but Harry could see through her.
She was trying to be useful to him as much as she could in her opinion, she didn't know that her existence was all that mattered to him, and that her real smile was enough for him, perhaps everything started recklessly and in haste for both of them, but they reached the point where they have to rely on each other to stay sane.
He doesn't need to be told or see to know that she smiles for him. And if she wanted him to pass these exams with excellent grades, he will do it.
"I don't regret what happened in Hogwarts if it means to deliver the child safely… we both know that these peaceful days are wearing thin, we must hurry…"
He will not let her tire herself, they are in this together.
Daphne sat in the garden at the back of the house, wrapped up in her scarf. The candles on the table beside her, flickering as the breeze caught them slightly. She looked up from her diary, at the stars above her. The sky was clear, and the stars were bright in the darkness overhead. She smiled to herself a little before drawing her attention back to the diary. The pups sleep at her feet, warming her feet and enjoying her humming and lullabies.
The garden greeted spring after more than a decade of being neglected. Kreacher cried watching the trees grow up and his mistress's favourite roses bloomed again.
Sirius Black's house has been renewed and became better than it was, sure Wallburga cried blood when she couldn't stop her from doing what she wanted, clearly even since Daphne has superior powers in the house, she was thankful being the original witch, helping her when times like this happens. Now her little mission in this house has come to an end, and her debt to house Black has been paid.
Still leaned back and stared up into the space;
She was struggling to get her head into work, which was unusual for her. She had been sitting out there for hours, getting away from the noise of the Order arguing in their meeting. Usually she sat and listened but today she didn't feel like attending it.
One small wrong move and she could lose everything.
"Your tears, O eyes…
extinguish your grief, O soul," she murmured to herself. Bringing herself to look at the diary between her hands.
The diaries are meant for teenage girls to write their crushes in, or for a certain dark wizard to hypothesise young girls to do his work, what in the name of Merlin was he thinking!?
She laughed. But there are those few times where you need to write what's happening, either because you want to remember it or because you may not be able to narrate in person the truth, and you also want them to know that you are thinking about them.
So you decided to write down anything and everything of importance in this diary. So when those who meant to read it, they will find it and they will know how much you love them and that you spent every day talking to them.
March, 1996
Dear baby,
How are you? Since I found out I was having you, it's been an interesting time in my life to say the least. I haven't lived the smoothest life as it is. Believe it or not I was a cunning-bad witch before you'll be meeting me…well something like that. You were a great surprise for me. You've turned my appetite upside down, how cruel of you and you know how mummy loves food! and you make me really really sleepy a lot. You also make me cry a lot which is something I hate doing! So thank you for that… And I won't lie, I was very doubtful about having you at first. Not because I didn't think I could do it, but because you are mine, you will inherit my blood, you are my legacy my dear baby, But even though I'm so happy I'm having you, I am also worried that you will have to bear a great responsibility.
I really am, also is daddy…
Dear baby,
You've brought a light into my dark world and you haven't even fully come into it yet. I don't know where we will be tomorrow, when your born, or years from now, but I already know I will do everything in my being to protect you and give you as much love and opportunity as possible… and I've never been much of a giver, but I want to give you the best of everything.
Because you're the most real thing I have. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!
April, 1996
Someone is reaching its second month! You are a fighter aren't you little one, Today you were so angry and used me to fight Uncle Remus.
Well if you have this temper in future, it won't solve any future crisis, you need to have patience to reach what you want, and don't listen to what your heart always says, Always thinking first, no twice before act.
Uncle Remus is a caring wolf isn't he? He is so nervous how to treat me and take care of me, take care of me huh, it's a big words, for people like us, uncle Remus is really something, he is smart and nice person, more Hufflepuff than a Gryffindor or Ravenclaw in my opinion, if he could ever know that I'm saying this about him, he loves you so much and always scold me for your safety.
As if I'm not the one who is giving birth to you, he says that I reminded him of Lily's pregnancy.
You know, your grandmother Lily Potter, so he already has previous experience in this field; Nana Molly is working so hard to feed you, you just don't stop.
Your father is also working hard, he is studying to become a businessman, and take over the family's businese and when your old enough you take it after him, of course he try to his his anxiety. Keeps forcing me to stay home and safe, not overworking or anything.
But mummy can't stop, so I'm telling you this but keep it a secret between us!
Mummy is also working on a secret project, she doesn't want daddy to be worried so she have Uncle Kou with her to do the buisness, you probably knew about this business by the time you are reading this, and I'm not sorry if I dragged you to this, you are my eldest child and you need to take over in this too.
I trust you are capable of controlling your own emotions when it comes to this job, it had to be done to keep our family safe and strong from the outsiders.
Oh, today you wanted to eat a red dragon meat, Nanna Molly almost fainted when I mentioned it to her (because it's very very expensive,) and eventually daddy went all the way to Romania to have it.
P.S: Daddy did no violence, uncle Charlie got it for him.
May, 1996
Today Mummy and Daddy became officially Lord and Lady Potter. Uncle Phobos made the council accept our lovely marriage. Isn't he a hero, the council went mad, they insulted us endlessly, but your Mama was a strong woman, she went and faced them, no one dare and tell mama what she should and shouldn't do, she is blood of royals and so are you! Never forget that.
Of course uncle Phobos had different opinion on that matter, we caused him a problem with the elders, but he could be manipulative and can handle himself well.
I think I felt you kicking this morning! Molly said it's still early but I can feel you tickling and moving, you'll be a great wizard.
Mummy and Daddy are waiting for you to join us so we could celebrate as a family.
Mon petit Bambino,
Am I still calling you like this when you're old? Probably yes.
Don't hate me, I love to make my beloved once all in red. It's my way to show my love, today is Friday and you know what it means right?
You have To make sure to always donate and do good deeds in the name of our loved one, like your grandparents, daddy's godfather and your parents.
Because if your loved ones are in heaven, they will receive these goods, perhaps not like this but it will help them being forgiven from all their sins and feel happy to be remembered in life. because you remembered them.
Family is above all, always…
May, 1996.
I am almost four months pregnant with you. and you're getting bigger making my tummy showing up, I have to buy new clothes soon, You have brought me a whirlwind of moodiness like usual.
Guess what! Mon Bambino! Today Daddy was offered an internship into the England national Quidditch team, isn't this good news!
Daddy is a good player, you're probably playing with him while you're reading this, silly me!
He already bought you a broom and you're not even here yet. He still thinks about it but I think it's a good idea to apply to it, don't you think so?
Which means free tickets and better seats, it's not like it's difficult for us but you probably know me, I always want the best for us.
Xx May, 1996,
Your idiotic father is trying to give me a heart attack! Hex him right now while you are reading this!
It's your mummy's order!
Good child, As I said, daddy is gonna kill me, who does even think to refuse an internship in a national Quidditch team, he could be the next genius in the sport and your stupid father wants to refuse!
We are trying to convince him not to do it, he will regret it later. This is a great opportunity.
Advice to you: if you ever had a great opportunity in life because of your hard work to something you actually love and are passionate about, go and do it!
Even if your dad and I may have our own opinions on the matter, never drop off your dreams.
June, 1996
I'm crying right now while writing this, do you see that tiny picture on the next page?
Do you see that white little cutie ball inside?
That's you!
Daddy took a sickness week from school, because he was injured in one of his heroic adventures, don't worry he is all fine, he just used this to stay home and take us to this muggle hospital, they do marvels! Muggles and their technologies.
I was frustrated at the beginning when they took us in. It is our first appointment to check on you, because of our circumstances we'd have to delay it for a while.
We took Nana Molly with us since she knew all about this miracle experience, and when the Muggle healer told us that tiny white ball in the picture is you, daddy let out the biggest cry I've ever witnessed him act.
Don't tell him that I told you, he would probably deny it.
At that moment I knew how much daddy is very eager to see you.
Molly did have her emotional rollercoaster, of course she kept crying the entire time, making the healer nervous, she was so into the screen, Molly is probably spoiling you, which I will hate.
And of course the gender reveal, Harry was so against it, he didn't want to know, probably he was suspecting that he was losing the bet.
Yes we bated on your sex gender, and I'm feeling that I am the winner here definitely.
But when I heard your heartbeats echoing through those speakers of that screen, it felt differently than when I actually sensed it.
It was way beyond any magical sound in this world, your heartbeats proved the miracle you are.
That you are here with us, and that you are talking to us through this. That you are telling us, 'Mommy, Daddy I'm here and I can't wait to meet you two,'
See you soon, my little bambino.
-Your mother…