Hello :P It is Wednesday and I am back with a new update. I am continuing this time with yet another Jordan related chapter. This one is about James and Jordan and their friendship. I wrote it back in September when Jordan/he and James' friendship wasn't as highly developed as it is today but the basic foundations of how they bonded are there so I think it's still relevant. I added some more details just now that Shannon and I came up with more recently, including a bit about his brothers :P I hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: I own the offspring and Jordan and Lynne with AAML-TAML :3
I sighed contentedly to myself as we climbed over the gate and into the field. I smiled more as when everyone's feet hit the ground, the yellowing and coarse grass made a satisfying crunch. We continued walking until we found a perfect spot and my eyes were looking up at the sky. It was nearing sunset. The sky wasn't as blue and clear as it had been earlier in the day but it wasn't quite fiery red yet. The sky was a serene blue flaked with salmon. It was truly picturesque.
My happiness grew even more so as the guys found a spot to sit and sat down, crossing their legs beneath them. I jumped down off one of their shoulders and sat down, happy to be near them. I smiled at James as he ran a hand through his hair and looked at the surroundings. I looked at Jordan and, like most times in which I found myself looking at him, I couldn't believe I was in his presence yet again.
The blonde male ran a hand through his own hair as he put his backpack on the ground next to me and let out a contented sigh. He squinted as he spoke, the early evening sky getting in his eye.
"It's really nice here. It's just how I imagined it would."
James nodded and smiled at him, continuing to look around as I shook my head in disbelief yet again. What Jordan said appeared fairly normal but what he meant by it was completely different. He was literally an angel from above. And by saying it's just how he imagined it was, he imagined it to be like it when he stopped looking down from up there and came to visit.
The lavender haired male remained quiet for quite some time before he finally stopped looking around and answered Jordan. When he looked at him, he showed off his own squint. The sun was getting in his eye also.
"Yeah, I like it here a lot." He paused and nodded his head a few times before continuing. "I like the fields and watching the sun change. There's a small lake over there which is perfect if you're like Misty and into that kind of thing. It's a win-win whenever I bring any of the others here."
Jordan smiled and nodded his head, his green eyes scanning there area to spot the lake that James was referring to. I saw when he had spotted it in the distance because his expression lit up. He turned to look back from the water to James, a loving look on his face.
"Yeah, I know my girl would definitely love it here. Lynne too for that matter."
James smiled upon hearing this and nodded his head again but chose to remain silent. I enjoyed that about their friendship. Sometimes they wouldn't shut up and would talk about everything and everything. Other times they would just remain for hours in comfortable silence. It was a rare thing, a friendship as true as theirs.
As the silence remained comfortable and peaceful, all three of us lay back on the grass and watched the sky change. As each minute passed, the blue of the sky disappeared and became mixed with more orange hues.
As the sky got that fiery quality of a sunset, Jordan rested his arms behind his head. He reached one arm back to pet me as he spoke to James.
"You wanna play a game? It's one that me and Lynne do all the time up there."
The lavender haired male sat up and squinted due to the orange in his eyes and also to show Jordan that he was being playful.
"Do I really wanna do a game with you that you do with Lynne? Are we gonna be playing strip poker?"
Jordan laughed out loud upon hearing this and whacked James playfully on the chest with the back of his hand. James smirked to himself and rested his own arms behind his head, happy to have made his friend laugh. After he stopped smirking, he shut his eyes and spoke seriously.
"What game is it?"
Jordan shut his own eyes and continued stroking my fur, his hand making his way down my back to massage it. He continued making a fuss of me as he replied to James.
"It's really easy. Just tell me what you want as quick as it comes to you. What you want to achieve. What you want really."
James sat back up upon hearing this and squinted once again. He moved one arm from behind the back of his head to push the hair out of his eyes. He furrowed his brow, thinking about what Jordan said. I kept my own eyes open and considered it myself. Jordan said the game was easy but it seemed to have a lot of depth to it.
I also liked that about those two. They could be goofy as hell together or they could get very deep. I enjoyed the different types of friendships the people around me had. They were all so different but all equally special.
When James didn't say anything and laid back down to think, shutting his eyes again, Jordan sat up and propped himself up on one elbow. He peered over at James, smirking slightly.
"Tell me what you want as fast as it comes to you."
James let out a noise to let him know he was thinking and tilted his head, getting ready to say. He kept his eyes shut as he spoke.
"I want… Misty to feel happier." He muttered simply, referring to the low mood she had been facing since everything she had been through recently with Ash's darkness returning and only just recovering from her deep fatigue.
I watched as Jordan's expression change and his bottom lip came out slightly, nodding his head. I smiled gently at the sensitive males. They cared with all their heart about their daughter and best friend.
Jordan remained quiet and thinking to himself as James considered his next answer.
"I want Rey to continue be the light that leads Ash to a fully happy place. I want Jessie to be able to stop worrying about me at night. I want Ben and Katie and Eddie and Melissa to enjoy every moment of their journey. I want Dylan to have an easy transition from nursery to school. I want all of my kids to be happy and take each day as it comes. I want everyone to feel loved and unfazed by the past. I want everyone to be excited for the future. I want you and Lynne to enjoy your time here."
I watched as Jordan curiously listened to James before his expression finally changed. He sat further up and peered over at James, frowning.
"What do you want for you?"
James opened his eyes upon hearing this and sat up himself, furrowing his brow back and looking at Jordan.
"Huh?" he uttered in confusion.
Jordan resisted smiling and shaking his head fondly, choosing instead to look at James in the eye to show what he was getting at was quite serious.
"What do you want for you? Just for you?"
The green orbed male let out a quiet 'ohh' sound as he lay back down on the grass and shut his eyes, pondering what the blonde male had asked him. After thinking for a moment, he opened one eye to squint at Jordan and answered him truthfully.
"I just want to be able to be there for everyone. I want to be a good person."
I couldn't help but smile upon hearing this, my fur going lightly fuzzy with love and admiration and my own thoughts.
Oh, James. Sweet and sensitive James. I think it's funny how one of the people that used to be one of the "bad guys" had as big a heart as they come. Now I was in the future, it was apparent to me that he had always had a big heart. He always did things for others and their happiness was always his happiness. He just wanted to be free and he just wanted to be happy. Of all the things that changed about him, that never did. I guess you can't really change who you truly are.
I came out of my thoughts to see that Jordan was continuing to look right at James but now his look had changed from a sincere one to his head being tilted on one side. He was still trying to get a message across to him. For once, James couldn't read the expression. He frowned back at Jordan before shutting his eyes, his arms going back behind his head.
"Yeah I know what you're going to say." He sighed quiet, pausing for a moment before giving his insight. "You're going to say that you can't live for other people and I've heard that loads before. I don't see anything wrong with it, it works for me. I've been too focused in myself before and that was deadly. I focus on other people because I know that they will be there for me. And if they aren't one day then oh well. At least I can sleep at night knowing I gave people my all and crossed oceans for them rather than merely stepping over puddles."
Jordan and I looked at one and other and shared the same look. If only people had given this man a chance earlier. He truly was far more than the R that used to reside on his chest.
James breathed out and continued talking, thinking he knew what Jordan's look meant.
"I found my identity and who I truly am because of these people. My life is my family and my friends. My work is good and my hobbies are an escape but they are my true everything. I used to think that money was everything but no. Treasure isn't always jewels. If it was, they'd all be my jewels."
Jordan smiled fondly at the other male as he delivered yet again another insight into his true self and the deep thoughts that go on in his head. He smirked slightly as he lay back down himself.
"Wow. You have a great way of looking at stuff but you're not very good at reading my expressions. But I guess I can hardly talk."
When Jordan looked teasingly at him, James furrowed his brow and looked confused. The blonde male soon laughed and corrected the situation.
"The look I was giving you was me telling you you've already achieved what you want. You are a good person, believe me."
James looked shocked and humbled upon hearing this, staying quiet as his deep brain went over the compliment Jordan had bestowed upon him. After thinking for a while, James smirked and rolled onto his front. He propped himself onto one elbow to look over at Jordan.
"I must say I just love how when you first came down briefly and met me, you absolutely hated me. I can't believe how that changed and you don't seem to mind me too much."
While Jordan pulled a guilty and somewhat embarrassed face, I laughed out loud and lovingly to myself. I loved how he and Jordan were pretty much best friends at this point but James still said it in such a casual and modest way.
James' prior statement was just a joke but Jordan too had a deep mind and it got his racing as well. He looked at James and sighed quietly, nodding his head slightly.
"I hate to admit it but when I first came down, I was unsure of myself and why I had got this amazing opportunity and acted in a way that wasn't me. I felt bad soon after and even more so when I realised I 'hated' you for doing exactly the same as me. The mistakes you made were in a time of your own feeling of uncertainty and being lost."
While James and I listened to him but James especially, Jordan continued.
"Hearing you now confirms what I believed back then and still believe now. You want to be a good person. And you are a good person. Your intentions are nothing but good. So are mine. I think we really understand each other, James. Very well, actually."
The lavender haired male smiled upon hearing this and nodded his head. He reached out to pat Jordan's shoulder lightly, smiling more at the fact he could share his thoughts with him, rather than the fact he'd just been greatly complimented.
"I think we're really similar and I certainly found we had something in common when we both cared about Misty as much as we do. And from then on we just found more and more things the same about us." James began, continuing smiling before saying what he really wanted to say. "I remember you told me sometimes you don't feel worthy of this opportunity to come down here and through that, feel judged even if you aren't being judged. I relate to that in some ways."
James paused and Jordan looked at him, picking the blades of grass beneath him as he listened.
"When I was a kid I was under a lot of pressure to be someone I wasn't. I was expected to be on a leash pretty much and do everything properly when I just wanted to be free and do things my way. I never really had any close friendships with any other males because I always felt judgement from them and that they would label me and not understand that I was a guy and could care less if I wore a dress. I got on better with females because they didn't seem to care I had long hair and I think they liked I was sensitive and they could talk to me. The other guys around us are great but they were teenagers at one point and sometimes said things that were a bit ignorant. But we all learn. And at least they did it to me and learnt and never did it again."
I smiled slightly myself as I listened; thinking about how far each and every one of us in our group has come. It was true. We all grew together.
"You're the first guy who hasn't passed judgement on me once for something as trivial as my long hair or sometimes having my nails painted. You seem to get it. You're the first guy I can actually be friends with and be myself with. You feel judged based on the things you've been through and I feel the same sometimes. Like you said, we really understand each other. I don't know what it's like to have a brother but if I did, I would think he would be something like you."
Jordan smiled at James upon hearing this and the way his eyes lit up showed how grateful he was for his words. James smiled back and the way his eyes smiled back showed how grateful he was for their friendship. As we all lay back down together, Jordan resumed stroking my fur and he joked to James, smirking at him.
"Well, I know what it's like having an older brother and I hope like hell I am nothing like that to you…" he breathed out quietly at the memory before smiling innocently again, picking up a piece of straw in his fingers. "But I appreciate what you're saying and I feel the same way. You are my true brother. You care deeply about my girls and they care about you. I think we also might connect because when you hang out with me it's like you're with Misty but a guy and when you're with her, you're with her for who she truly is. Best of both world's eh?"
James laughed upon hearing this and reached his arm from under his head when Jordan held his fist out and bumped his fingers against his.
"I couldn't agree more, Jordan, I couldn't agree more. But I do like you for you. You do remind me of Misty but I like you for you most of all. However you are depending on the day. I like talking to you. We're brothers, that's for sure."
I smiled to myself as, after all that deep talk, we finally all remained quiet and just watched the sky fade from as fierce as fire to as navy as night. I couldn't agree more that Jordan and James' friendship was certainly meant to be.
Like we all did, James adored Misty for who she was and Jordan for who he was.
It's strange how in life that people you start of as enemies with turn into some of your closest friends. I don't believe in hate at all. I believe in love and an emotion that's not worth having. Love is an emotion certainly worth having. Friendships are certainly worth having. Opening up to people and getting deep is certainly worth doing. Living is certainly worth doing, especially for those like Jordan; who have the bravery to do it even when you feel you don't belong here. And I believe living is only worth doing if you share your heart, your feelings, your wisdom and your story with everybody else. Money and popularity isn't success. Including people and accepting and embracing is. Once your life is over, money is no longer yours. But the life you've lived, the hearts you've touched and the souls you've changed will be a part of you. If you can say you've made an impact on at least one person and you've brightened a person's dark days, believe me, you are a success. And that is truly what matters in this world.
The End.
There you go! Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed :3 The fact this is set in a field and Jordan asks James what he wants as fast as it comes to him is inspired by Whats Eating Gilbert Grape. Jordan and James are both very giving and loving and sensitive guys so it's easy to see why they get along when they have very similar views. Like Jordan said, his brothers weren't that nice growing up so James is his brother now :3 Thanks again and I will be back next Wednesday with (probably) another Jordan or Lynne chapter so see you then!
AmyBieberKetchum signing out :3
